| ...and miles to go, before i sleep |
[Dec. 9th, 2004|03:49 am] |
current things i hate:
being unable to sleep because of coughing
current things i like:
joe's amusement |
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| a good wednesday afternoon... |
[Sep. 15th, 2004|06:05 pm] |
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| | Ani Difranco- Arrivals Gate | ] |
From the mouths of two of the most beautifully odd people in ithaca:
goleneski: a Plan like this has never been attempted on so large a scale. the results could be either revolutionary or disasterous, a collision of graphing calculators with assorted baking products, and also various fluids, in the later stages
Altoidgrl: is it the plan still to dress really sluttly and count cards during online gambling?
goleneski: this one is even better
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And with that, it is now time to go celebrate the beauty that is Wines, a Hotel Administration class in which we sit in a crowded auditorium and (whilst underage, mind you) see who can get the biggest buzz from samples of twenty-seven dollar bottles of california's finest (well today at least).
This calls for some Andre. Bubbly anyone? THREE BOTTLES FOR TEN BUCKS AT THE D-B-C!! HOLLA!!!! |
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| hmm.. i got nothing. |
[Sep. 14th, 2004|12:17 pm] |
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| | Frou Frou- Let go | ] |
Im in the call center at work...
today the weather is nice.
i saved a baby squirrel this morning by helping it out of a trash can.
then,
i downed a large iced coffee with double sugar, and proceeded to fall right asleep in my landscape architecture class the second he turned out the lights for slides.
some random guy beside me poked me to wake me up.
that was kinda weird.
....... so the question arises; "what is it going to take to keep me awake in WINES this week?"
suggestions?
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this weekend im heading to pittsburgh for a few days... pretty stoked about that. i havent been back there in a while (since easter, i think) because i worked the whole summer then went right into shit here.
im pretty sure eva and beau are going to come along for the adventure.. and we just may stop at IKEA. FUCKING SHIT, I LOVE IKEA.
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| well fucking shit. |
[Sep. 10th, 2004|10:49 am] |
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| | The Cars- You might think im crazy | ] |
I love how the html form on this website gives you two guidlines when your writing an entry. The first is "subject" and then the next is "event". It makes me feel like what i'm writing is never really worthy. Like, par example, is me sitting here in the Statler Library bored to tears and trying to find some way to pass time between classes really worthy of being called an "event"?
regardless, your mom is easy.
but anyway,
yeah i havent written in this for a while. I guess the end of last semester just got a little crazy, and then with not having a computer all summer (no internet access in massachusets. anywhere. those damn puritans dont believe in it) and now back here where i managed to destroy my hard drive, leaving a gaping void in the tech savvy part of my brain) i only have time to use computers for the neccessary things. you know, the three e's:
-email
-ebay
-ebaum's world
So here i am, back at the big promenade de burberry some like to call the "Cornell Hotel School". I was hoping this place is like a fine cheese... you know... gets better as you let it age... but, alas, i am crushed. its more like.. hm... genital herpes. some days its calm and you can live with it... and it can be treated with a nice prescription cream. but others, it just breaks out in all kinds of nasty and makes you want to die a thousand deaths.
i have good friends here though.
scratch that.
i have GRRRRREAAAT (yes yes, tony the tiger-esque) friends here.
alright , more to come later. maybe. i dont know. your moms still easy. |
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| Day Hall at 9:00 am - something I know all too well |
[Apr. 8th, 2004|09:35 am] |
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| | phish- bouncing round the room | ] |
Good morning sunshine... the earth says hello.... you twinkle above us.... we twinkle below.
er.. something.
i feel like there is enough postive things floating around my life right now, and its fairly easy for me to stay optimistic.
except the annoying people that walk up to the desk at day hall. i hate prospective students and their families. especially all the ones from long island. they're ruthless.
Brazil was amazing. Completely different than what I had expected, but not really in a bad way... in a very good way. Its like I was completely submerged in a culture where beauty isnt even noticed.. its just assumed. I stuck out like a sore thumb, but.. hey.. you'll have that.
At some point I'll write an entire entry about Brazil. Or maybe not. Who knows.
I'm not really good at updating this. I'm not really sure if I care. Initially i figured i'd update it all the time , because i'm always on a computer, but now i'm just not so sure.
Good things to look forward to:
-Going home this weekend. Easter!
-Maggie's visit
-Wine tour with NBT
-Slope Day (roster: kanye west, matt nathanson, dialated people, OAR. YEAH!)
-Happy Hour
-SUMMER, and MY SUMMER JOB! |
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| damn, im really lost without my cell phone |
[Mar. 6th, 2004|11:59 am] |
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| |  sick | ] |
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| | rusted root- martyr | ] |
its funny how sometimes you can run faster and faster in your head and never take a step.
today my body decided that it would like to rebel. i suppose this is to be expected, because i suppose i havent been respecting it as much as it may need. damn, its frustrating... being sick is a very weird experience when you look at it from a certain light- its one time that you have no control over everything you are. your entire being is affected by something you can't change, at least temporarily, and alll you have to do is wait it out by treating your body how it wanted to be treated in the first place. you see kids, this is why i find drugs fascinating. Now there is an instance in which you have control over a traceable change in your being. granted, you are still being "taken over" by something else... however its completely initiated by you. its kinda as if you can place responsibility on your brain for the act, and have sympathy on your body.
alright....
for now i'll just sit here clutching my warm ginger and lemon herbal teas and try and placebo myself all better.
i wish i had some carrots. mmm, carrots. |
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| Analogies. (at least i think thats what these would be called) |
[Mar. 3rd, 2004|12:32 am] |
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| |  energetic | ] |
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| | The Big Wu- Precious Hands | ] |
on a different note, i've developed some new analogies for my life. I know, I know you could probably care less. But i'm proud of them!
Negative ones.. BOOOOO:
1) you know when you are sleeping, and somehow (most likely because you are warm) you kick off all your blankets and pillows and wake up cold and REALLY confused?
That confusion is my life.
2) You know how when you are walking through a set of double doors that is beside another set of double doors, and because of that you don't know what side to push to make the door open, but , inevitably, because of your luck, you push the wrong side, and consequently face that awkward glance from someone on the other side of the door?
That awkward glance is how i feel people are always looking at me like
POSITIVE ONES... WEEE!!
1) You know how when its raining outside and you are walking with an umbrella on a sidewalk.. and you walk by someone else with an umbrella on that sidewalk.. and clearly you would bump umbrellas, but at that last second the other person pushes theirs up, getting themselves wet for a second just so you dont have to?
That simple act of benevolence is what i feel my life can be to the world
2) You know how sometimes when you are playing with a puppy or kitten, they dont seem like they are paying much attention to you and its kinda frustrating, and then all of a sudden they tire out and walk over to you and fall asleep on your lap.. leaving you with a feeling of joy and acceptance?
That feeling of loving acceptance is what i feel i can be to others in my life
(so to all of you who think i am to busy to pay attention to you.. just know.. i'm always here if you ever need a lap to crash on ;-)... and no, that wasnt sexual. haha.) |
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| h'ok.. so... |
[Mar. 3rd, 2004|12:09 am] |
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| | bouncy | ] |
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| | Ben Harper- Diamonds on the Inside | ] |
Yeah, I haven't written in this little hot spot in a while. You'd think after all the trouble I went to make it... that i'd actually follow through even the slightest bit and at least go 2 months.... but.. no. I'm a gemini... i'm fickle. We know this, we work with it.
At any rate... I have in fact been writing elsewhere, sticking with my new years resolution. Its nice because my journal is filling up well and it gives me a bizarre sense of confidence... It sucks for you though because you can't monitor my thoughts. But lets face it... If you are actually reading this right now you either are REALLY bored... or find something about me terribly interesting... so interesting in fact that you followed a little link you found somewhere to my personal little spot in cyberspace.. and started READING! either way, lets agree that you are pathetic. don't fret, dear friend, i am as well... lets be losers together.
With that, fellow loser, I'm happy to give a small update as to how things have been for Doug in the month of February and on to March.
Things are looking good... still moving slow, but.. whatever... February is the month from hell. Valentines day was all BUT depressing, thanks to some really good friends, guiness, tequila, and jello shots. Oh, and the great girls who threw the party, too. ;-)
OOOH, also.. i've recently developed a new plan for after college. You're more than welcome to hear all about it... just ask. I won't bore anyone with its details though. I'm pretty stoked. Lets see how long I can stick to it. :-)
GOOD THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO:
- Guster coming to Cornell!
- Big Sis' Bday! (okay, so its not exactly me who's looking forward to it.. but shes gonna be 21 on the 16th so i sure as hell know SHE is)
- St Patty's Day.. woot!
- BRAZIL!!
- Happy Hour
- Classes ending
- Slope Day
- Summer!!
Alright, theres the postive outlook i know and love. LETS DO THIS. |
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| lets get recent |
[Feb. 11th, 2004|10:07 pm] |
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| | lucas- lucas with the lid off | ] |
alright,
so i feel like i should update or something since i havent written in here for a while.
well fuck that, im lazy- so if anyone is actually reading this , im sorry (not really) but theres just gonna be a gap
sometimes, there are gaps. i suppose thats something im dealing with right now anyway. more to come soon
time for coffee |
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| and im back... who knows how long i'll stay for |
[Feb. 11th, 2004|09:58 pm] |
::grumblegrumble:: *gnaw on Robitussin bottle*
What pisses you off?
Created by ptocheia
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| gargh |
[Jan. 24th, 2004|07:18 pm] |
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| | Matt Nathanson- then i'll be smiling | ] |
still waiting for my computer....
but you know what show is entirely underrated? antiques roadshow. god i love those appraisals. |
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| hello ithaca! |
[Jan. 21st, 2004|06:09 pm] |
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| | complacent | ] |
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| | The Darkness- I believe in a thing called love | ] |
alright, so, here's da world...
er.. uhm....
I slept in my bed last night. for 12 hours. I missed that bed so bad.
i saw friends. and roomate. and more friends. i realized how much i missed people over break. i realized how nice it is to live with my overly-nice roomate. i realized that realizations dont always have to be negative.
went to wegman's... got some good food. im gonna eat this semester, i swear.
Outlook = progressive. moving.
i want to dance today, would i feel it at all?
i want to cry today, can i let it all fall?
i need to script the words of my fears
i need to make the sounds audible to my ears
i want to incubate in the warmth of satisfaction
i want to push off the docks and never mind the reaction |
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| opportunity |
[Jan. 20th, 2004|02:33 am] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
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| | The Darkness- I believe in a thing called love | ] |
to things un-captured, this is a final plea
like a wave to a boat headed out to sea
feeling struck with a pang of timidity
apprehensive, only hoping to part ways in peace
leveled out nicely so as to not complain
accomplished, rising the urge to realize my gain
looking past what i can count and what i can plainly see
embracing the open market air that is opportunity
boldy walking forward smiling optimistically
shaping what i know i want to what can really be
turning what i couldnt grasp into my reality |
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| smiles |
[Jan. 17th, 2004|10:38 pm] |
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| | calm | ] |
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| | Talib Kweli- Beneath | ] |
a funny thing happened at work today. a middle aged woman, tall, dark hair, comes strolling through the door around noon. in anticipation of being seated, she looked at me (as i was adorned in the lovely enp diner getup) to see if i could offer her my services. i realized i was too busy at the time, and reluctantly made the decision to walk past her briskly. instead i offered a big warm smile. i went about my business, and she went on to be seated in another servers section and eat her meal. a little while later, as i sat cleaning a table, she walked by heading toward the register as if she were about to cash out. i felt her looking at me, and all of a sudden she made some small comment about how i was bussing the table. not really an intelligent comment, or funny, it was just that kind of comment you make when you dont know what to say but want to talk to someone. i replied, but again more or less just offered a smile. about five minutes later after she had paid, i was coming out of the pantry and entered her direct line of sight as she sat in front of the door waiting for her family to leave. as soon as she saw me, she grew a huge smile on her face as if she were saying thank you.
sometimes, even if a smile is all you can offer.... its all someone ever needs. |
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| something you need to know |
[Jan. 17th, 2004|01:16 am] |
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| |  silly | ] |
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| | Cartoon Network Jingles | ] |
Top 5 Reasons the Internet sucks.
5) Pop up Ads
4) Pop up Ads
3) Pop up Ads
4) The declining ability to find good porn on Kazaa
1) Pop up Ads
I hate how I can't block my email from all the porn n junk cause I'd have to block everyone that I don't know. I dont necessarily know everyone that I dont know or that needs to know me, and that sucks.
- Courtney
Amen Courtney, Amen.
And just kidding about that porn.... really. Hahaha |
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| artistic |
[Jan. 17th, 2004|12:46 am] |
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| | enthralled | ] |
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| | Matt Nathanson- Laid | ] |
I'm sitting here at Kelly's house with alex courtney and kelly... watching American Wedding and relaxing after a shitty night at work...
I'm enjoying the movie.... the ending is pretty damn cute. Hell, the movie was really hilarious though...
I'm also watching Kelly start a beautiful painting on her living room floor. She really is amazing- she just has a vision, starts, and pumps out these BEAUTIFUL pieces of work so quickly.
To all of you that are reading this: KELLY'S WORKS ARE DAMN GOOD, AND YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO BUY THEM! More information to come.
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i feel like time only goes as slow as you let it sometime. im not talking about capturing the moment- more like really commanding all movement of your own time, every second that ticks. its a rite of passage, a total hold of your destiny.
comments? jelly doughnuts? |
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| for a minute there i lost myself... |
[Jan. 16th, 2004|02:43 am] |
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| | awake | ] |
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| | The Pilfers- Climbing | ] |
i had a good conversation with neal last night at eat n' park. no, not my eat n' park, but the harmarville one. the same one i was at the night before with my old but awesome buddy diana and neal and company having ANOTHER confusing, diluted, but yet still satisfying conversation. come to think of it.. i was at the eat n' park in cranberry tonight...
hold on , i'm gonna slap myself for being such a loser...
okay, im back.
roads sucked, and yet determined to get where we were going neal accidentally slid into some asshole that was in the middle of the road. well, if you kow big nelly you know his temper, and, boy.... that was funny. thus, the reason for coffee, nicotine, and letting it all out in random conversation at eat n' park.
it was during this conversation that i really came to terms with seasonality, and how it affects my overall state of being. i dont have S.A.D., january just fuckin sucks dood. so does february. and parts of march! (tackle, point? 3:9) so far 2004 has had nothing to offer me... but shall i toss it aside as an evil even year? NEIN! i'll grimace, lick my wounds, and plunge into its gaping hole of opportunity. and then maybe ice myself down and grab a taco.
the point is here kiddos, my outlook is optimistic. i head back to school on tuesday, and dammit.. things will be good. ohhh hell, they'll be good.
i have a few new ideas for some painting too.... i cant wait to get some new fresh canvases and go at it.
^^^ damn, what an analogy, and yet so fitting! ^^^ |
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| just some fun... |
[Jan. 14th, 2004|05:46 pm] |
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| | The Moldy Peaches- Rainbows | ] |
meg sent me this today.... its definatley a chuckle.
Smirnoff's is now advertising their product as having "no carbs." You know
what else has no carbs? Heroine. That's right, absolutely no carbs. Unfortunately it's very high in heroine. Kind of a mixed blessing there.
-The Daily Show
and going along with that....
this is my kinda christmas cake:
Smirinoff's christmas cake recipe...
Ingredients:
1 cup of water
1 tsp baking soda
1 cup of sugar
1 tsp salt
1 cup of brown sugar
lemon juice
4 large eggs
lots of nuts
1 bottle Vodka
2 cups of dried fruit
Sample the vodka to check quality. Take a large bowl,check the vodka again. To be sure it is the highest quality, pour one level cup and drink.
Repeat.
Turn on the electric mixer. Beat one cup of butter in a large fluffy bowl.
Add one teaspoon of sugar. Beat again. At this point it's best to make sure the vodka is shtill OK.
Try another cup .... just in case. Turn off the mixerer.
Break 2 leggs and add to the bowl and chuck in the cup of dried fruit.
Pick fruit off floor.
Mix on the turner.
If the fried druit gets stuck in the beaterers pry it loose with a sdrewscriver.
Sample the vodka to check for tonsisticity.
Next, sift two cups of salt. Or something. Who giveshz a shit.
Check the vodka.
Now shift the lemon juice and strain your nuts.
Add one table.
Add a spoon of sugar, or somefink. Whatever you can find.
Greash the oven and piss in the fridge.
Turn the cake tin 360 degrees and try not to fall over.
Don't forget to beat off the turner.
Finally, throw the bowl through the window, finish the vodka
Fall into bed.
CHERRY MISTMAS |
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| it could all be so simple. |
[Jan. 12th, 2004|12:30 am] |
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| | amused | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | floetry- floetic | ] |
im in the middle of watching a movie with my mom.... "the italian job". its very my momish.... i like it too though.
anyway...
maggies taking a break from cornizzy. boo-urns. im gonna miss her so much... she has no idea. what the fuck am i gonna do with the time that was previously spent as "maggie time"???? ahh!
i talked to her today though... shes good. well, i think. i hope.
i talked to john today. i love that kid... im really excited to get back to cornell and start the I PHELTA THI rush with him- i really couldnt have asked for a better roomate.
i heart kim!! shout outs to my filipino biznitch!! you better come to rush events baby!
alright.. im kinda drunk... ill admit it... a.d.d. setting in..... |
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| closer to fine |
[Jan. 10th, 2004|09:19 pm] |
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| | quixotic | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Air- Everybody Hertz | ] |
well darkness has a hunger that's insatiable
and lightness has a call that's hard to hear
i wrap my fear around me like a blanket
i sailed my ship of safety till i sank it
i went to the doctor, i went to the mountains
i looked to the children, i drank from the fountains
there's more than one answer to these questions
pointing me in a crooked line
and the less i seek my source for some definitive
the closer i am to fine
-the indigo girls
I really really like that song. I swear, the indigo girls have it all figured out. really, they do!!
well, three cheers for steroids- thats all i gotta say.
im feeling better.... still mono-lated... but whatever.
like the way my butt go ba-rum-bum-bum-bum? |
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