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(swim in the direction of my voice) American Beauty [17 Mar 2010|12:44pm] "I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold onto it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure... But don't worry... you will someday."

(swim in the direction of my voice) i wonder of your whereabouts and hope like hell youre happy where you are [11 Oct 2008|02:54pm] i like it when bands come back to me. like one day suddenly the LOVE part of my brain has room for this specific sonic field again. it's like a long lost friend :) and it can't be forced. it's just that my heart is a flower and it bloomed again in the season of you.

(swim in the direction of my voice) looking for serendipity [10 Oct 2008|01:21am] it's way too easy to convince myself to run all around the entire city of new brunswick in one day, haha. ohhh man. things are never as over as i think they are.

(swim in the direction of my voice) i can't resist [02 Oct 2008|12:09am] i need to stop: giving myself stomachaches practically on purpose drinking so much diet coke, there's no way it's good for me wearing this one pair of jeans over again. in conclusion, i just need something new.

(swim in the direction of my voice) semester of relief [30 Sep 2008|10:11pm] so so many tiny lame things are a part of my life or happen to me every day.. how is it that i keep on smiling? i guess i have been getting good at living in the moment. hopefully less in a young adult, undeveloped frontal lobe way - more in a buddhist, look at and live in the bigger picture way. but y'know, i guess i complain more. and i have always been that person that will NEVER let you know something's bothering me. it releases the tension. yeah i'm still a more bottled up person a lot of the time, but i'm less so right now and it probably lets me be happier. yay christmas cheer. and i never thought about it this way, but i hate hate hate keeping secrets. not so much the secrets of others, but my own. and creating little conflicts between your unconscious and conscious mind and/or between your id and superego = not good. geez i love college. givin me silly things to make metaphors and similies out of!

(swim in the direction of my voice) like a psychic making accurate predictions [17 Sep 2008|10:11am] my instincts are creepy good!

(swim in the direction of my voice) just say yes. [15 Sep 2008|12:30am] geeks are fun. art kids are great. but i think about how much unquestionably happier i am when i hang out with musicians and people who like to hang out with musicians, and i wonder what on earth i'm going to do with my life if i end up in a job i don't love. being able to tolerate things is really not enough, if there's ANYTHING i've learned from the past year.

(swim in the direction of my voice) i desperately need to do laundry [13 Sep 2008|01:13am] i like knowing the words to songs i didn't know i knew the words to and i love involuntarily flirting with the cute band boys, it's so unintentional haha. http://www.myspace.com/thekingleft http://www.myspace.com/babyletmerun http://www.myspace.com/thegaslightanthem i was still uncharacteristically brash/manic/on a high today though. like do i really need to get any more quirks? how about no. but, i guess it's easy when you're around people who constantly let you get away with anything. ahaha college ;) i'm so not accustomed to that and it must be getting to my head or something, cause seriously. i'm weirder than usual, in this totally annoying way. like, i think its funny that pink is the VIP color. i went to two different shows that the 'VIP' wristband was hot pink so now i have two hot pink entry wristbands on my right arm. but then i say something like that out loud. and it sounds toootallly conceited. oh well!

(swim in the direction of my voice) special rules apply [08 Sep 2008|08:49pm] i'm in my own little world sometimes. but it's a happy one. (usually)

(swim in the direction of my voice) at least i'm getting paid overtime for this [30 Aug 2008|10:36pm] longest day evarrrrr. like being dunked in a huge vat of freshmen EVERYWHERE. [i have a job with RU Student Life Marketing Dept as a photographer and they wanted us to photograph ev-er-ee-thing. that the frosh were doing. ahhhh] kinda fun, kinda made me reminisce, but mostly i'm sweaty and dirty and overwhelmed with lost children. not that tired actually, so maybe i'll take a stroll thru the shower to wash off Essence of Frosh then look through the million (600?) photos i took today. woo! it's the little things though, like telling yourself you're going to go out of your way "to meet new people this year", forgetting said resolution, and then meeting new people anyways! ah that surreal conversation with Lisa... anyways. i am so dirty and i need a shower and then to listen to new Valencia cause I'm the only bum in the world that hasn't. i need to check my mail also cause the cd's probbablly in there. ...and i am buying bubble tea tomorrow. [i'm such a college student] "i'm paying you to play with toys! so just play with them!" -something like that, Mike A.

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