Im never going to get a new design job. Because I can't spell and can barely type. This journal is an attest to that. For now I will have to be content with making the equivalent of 4 dollars an hour or doing something that isn't design.
So school is still schooly and I'm ready to be done with it. I hate how im always tired, and have terrible insomnia, and live so freaking far away from my painting studio. Uggh. Feels like I never have enough time to really get anything done. Otherwise I think life is pretty peachy for the time being.
Also, tomorrow I'm going up to Phoenix with the rugby team to play ASU. Should be a good game. Lets hope they don't plan on playing dirty as Ive observed their other sports team have done so in the past. WILDCATS RULE.
OH yeah so I started an art blog since that seems to be the way to go and el jay is so antiquated. Oh wells. If you wanna see it it'll be over here
Um, here are some sketches. I'm so obviously influenced and addicted the movies its quite sad. and then theres the other amazing artists who's work i see online and then I try to emulate that in order to figure out how and why what they do works. Does that make any sense? No ok well here are some drawings anyway.
After nealvonflue's fun romp in the meme-cuzzi I decded to spread this on. So if anyone still reads this feel free to participate.
Anyway, comment and I will:
1) Tell you why I friended you. (If I can remember.) 2) Associate you with a song/film. 3) Tell a random fact about you. (Which may or may not be true.) 4) Tell a first memory about you. (or the first one i come up with) 5) Associate you with a character/pairing. (This one is suspect to me, but i'll try...) 6) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you. 7) Tell you my favorite user pic of yours. 8) In retort, you must spread this disease in your LJ. (Not really. It can die here, if you don't have the strength...)
it seems now the only time I post is with lame sad boring stuff. I know I hate it too but I dont have a scanner right now, and thats part of the reason that I am sad. I cant share my art stuff, but even if I could, I'm not sure if I would because I feel like everything I'm making is crap. Especially in my paintings. I want to be more realistic, and less muddy, but I dont know how. I've pretty much begged my friend/former grad student teacher to come by my studio to take a look at my stuff and tell me what I'm doing wrong but hes busy or thinks I'm annoying at this point. I dont know what to do. Artistically I feel like I'm in a big funk, everything I'm producing is unfinished shit. Just like a big ol loser...
However rugby seems to be going ok at least. I've lost a little bit of weight and gained some muscle, although not enough. Paul is suppose to teach me how to tackle on friday. I hope he can teach me, honestly I'm a little doubtful but if I can learn to take him down, I could take anyone down (He's 6'2 and a couple hundred odd pounds for those playing at home)
So I look composed on the outside, but on the inside I see three versions of myself. One runing around screaming, the other standing in the middle poking her eyes out and a the third laying down passed out on the floor. hmm.
PS theres also this great "letter" I found that was written to all the would be people who want to hire artists, graphic designers, illustrators etc. And I really think its worth a read...
"Every day, there are more and more Craigs List posts seeking “artists” for everything from auto graphics to comic books to corporate logo designs. More people are finding themselves in need of some form of illustrative service.
But what they’re NOT doing, unfortunately, is realizing how rare someone with these particular talents can be.
To those who are “seeking artists”, let me ask you; How many people do you know, personally, with the talent and skill to perform the services you need? A dozen? Five? One? …none?
More than likely, you don’t know any. Otherwise, you wouldn’t be posting on craigslist to find them.
Rugby = awesome. Even if i did hurt my nose a bit. Second worse fear aside from hurting my right hand and above hurting a foot. But I'm alright. We beat ucla 41 - 0 and my goofy mug made it on the evening news in a story thay did about the team.
Also, I never noticed until now that Billy Zane makes his first on screen appearnce in "Back to the Future" as "Biff gang member number 2" and hes pretty cute in the part. Not to be confused with "Biff gang member number 3" which is duder who sports the 3-D shades. Which I've been planing on bringing back in style.
Art entry coming soon. Ive finally had a chance to scan stuff at school, but have been to busy to upload it. Anyway, This bothered me enough to make a post
You all should vote for number 2. Or even 1. And I think our armed forces and the work of the Navajo code talkers is great but doesn't really serve well as a STATE quarter.
Because today while I was at school killing time between my meeting and rugby practice, I managed to strike up a conversation with a guy that had Tourettes. No he wasn't screaming obscenities but he had a noticeable facial tick and difficulties speaking. But this is not why I'm going to hell. The reason for that is after talking to him I found out aside from being a professional student hes also a licensed tattoo artist courtesy of Germany and doesn't work at a shop, but does stuff from his house. All i was thinking a) this guy already looked like a shady wigger complete with puffy 49ers jacket and crustace facial hair but b) how does someone with tics like that draw a straight line let alone permanently mark flesh. Ok so I'm not going to hell but I did feel a little bad, he was nice enough, even if completely clueless (he showed up for a class that was canceled)
Speaking of that canceled class, it was in the room that I was occupying so that I could use the wi fi and sketch in while I killed time until practice. Now see the room has two doors but obviously only one is really used to come in and out of. For some reason the stupid teacher left the canceled class sign on the unused door. so im sitting there, and one by one these kids come in, look at me like im the idiot and wait for class to start. I already told the first 4 or 5 kids (including turrettes guy) that their class was canceled. Finally I got tired of doing that, went out moved the sign next to the open door frame and just went back in, sat and continued on my business wondering if the next person to come in would have seen the sign gone in and tell the rest of his moron buddies the news. No in fact at least two or three came in still not noticing this. Finally someone i know who was in the class came in and I said out loud "Oh are you in this class? Because theres a sign out there that says its canceled" Then they had the audacity to get annoyed with me. One girl even retorted "Well was there a big sign somewhere that says this?" And I corrected her "yeah but apparently you all missed it, so I moved it, and you still missed it" and they effectively left feeling sheepish or relieved because they more important people to annoy.
So my social behavior experiment of proving how inept, oblivious, self involved and moronic 90% of art students are was a complete success!
Remember when people use to use aim? I don't know why I still do. I have over 100 "friends" and really I only talk to 3 people regularly. Wait, I still keep it so I can virtually poke and bug Paul when were each in our own homes and hes playing some computer and Im looking at art sites or something stupid online. Still when hes not on, its almost depressing to see I've had it on all this time and no one is on or no one seems interested in talking. Oh well.
Oh and the reason I haven't posted art in a long as time is because my scanner died, and I haven't been to school to use a scanner there, even then its a pain in the ass because theres always some ass clown music major in the library that sits on the one computer with a scanner and is browsing through myspace and just killing time where theres clearly a sign that reads "scanner priority" and I have to be the one to tap them and point out there are other free computers they can fuck around on that aren't attach to scanners. Ive started doing sketch paintings with acrylics though. Thats kinda strange after painting with oil for so long. I would be doing that right now if I could decided on who I want to draw/paint right now.
Oh yeah and Paul totally pegged my type. I go hot for nerds who are boyishly good looking. Guys wearing glasses get my motor running. This explains why I like odd, even somewhat "obscure" celebrities as opposed to your Brad Pitts and your George Clooneys. Blech.
Other than that, im kind of happy to finish my last few classes before Im finally awarded my degree (see I did the whole graduation thing in December, because I should have finished by then, and I wanted to make sure my grandparents could go but none of them could for one reason or another anyway. sigh) So yeah I still have a couple classes to finish, and my design internship with the U of A, and the studio space I was awarded for being a less than shitty painter. Fun times.
well, it would seem to be about that time of year where I make my annual post bitching about christmas. This year I don't really hate it, I'm just feeling bored and lonely. Paul went to visit his family in Florida and will be gone until the third of next month. My friends have all gone home to visit their own families but none of my extended cousins who I love and are my age are coming to visit. My older relatives are ok and all but it can get pretty boring being stuck here. I'm not in a rush for the new year to begin but I'll be a little happier when things are seemingly back to normal...
Of Montreal - Wrath Pinned to the Mist and Other Games
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This is quite possible the funniest picture I've seen in a couple days
Otherwise I'm gonna miss out on another rugby game because I have to spend the rest of the week and weekend working on my two big paintings and I'm sick of them. I thought the one would be kinda funny at fist but now it just looks dumb and the guy's eyes look all wonky... UGH Its times like these when I feel I've failed at life. Oh yeah "graduation" soon =P
- Although I still have to complete 8 "non-art electives"* I will be graduating/walking in December as planed. Its unfortunate that because of all the bureaucratic bs the University has put me through, that any sort of buzz or excitement about any ceremony was killed long ago. It doesn't help that all my friends that I had my classes with graduated in the spring time like I was suppose to, but that’s what happens when you want to be both a graphic designer AND illustrator.
*I found out I can take these last units at the community college and they can be almost any of the digital arts classes because the U of A sucks and doesn’t accept those as the art classes that they require. So what would normally be a downer for people who went to Pima and transferred their credits to study art at the U, turns out to be my loophole out of what would normally be a boring BS semester. So YAY MORE ART!!!
- Also, I didn't get the job with the CIA. It could have been for any multitude of reasons (and they cant tell me) But I think I know why. However they stated that I wasn't denied a security clearance so it wasn't because of that, and I can apply again in a year. So I'll try that while in the mean time finish school and look for a job here.
- My health insurance kicks in today (YAY) So I can play in our friendly rugby match on Saturday! Fuck I just remembered I forgot to get cash to pay for my shorts and socks tomorrow. Damnit...
- I had a dream some mean little girl stole my phone and tried to replace it with her crappy one with my sim card in it. Then I planed to exact revenge by stealing my phone back and breaking hers. That morning I ended up busting the plastic over my lcd screen because it was in my back pocket and I sat down weird I guess. What are the odds?
- tonight me and Paul went and had sushi. I burpped a sushi burp and grossed Paul out.
Uhhh that’s about it as far as big news goes. Still working on paintings and kind of designing?? I don’t know how to describe that part. That’s a whole 'nother ball of wax for another day.
And this is my new favorite video ever because I love Simon Pegg and David Walliams from Little Britian is hi-larious
So my friend Brook has been wanting to be Princess Toadstool from the hit game series "Super Mario Twins" I mean "Brothers". Anyhoo, she couldnt find any cool guy who wanted to be mario with her, so me being the cool dude with the 'tude anted up since i already owned all the odd necessary parts to be Mario, so it was destined to be. And hey! We won 3rd place in a costume contest where our pize was a huge bottle of wine. We were just more happy to win. And the other highligh was being able to catch half the set of The Beat playing outside at Hotel Congrees. I thought the show was the night before, and was bummed out because I didnt have enough money to and already made plans with Brook. But I got to see and hear them play fairly well for free and get a pictue of Dave Wakeling. Yay! Last night was a lot of fun
Well aparently the university doesnt want me to grauate anytime soon, and is forcing me to take these bullshit required classes to take my money and put me futher into depth. In the meanwhile, if im gonna have to take these stupid classes with stupid assignments, I'm gonna do them my way
and Paintings
Hunter S. Thompson Teaching Patrick Warburton How to Kill
Ok so life keeps hading me curve balls left and right. Still trying to fight the bureaucratic school shit, My cars power steering died and about 300 bones is going to fix that and yeah.
And although it looks like I wont be spending halloween dressed as a Venture character ( I know I know, but I really dont have the money (or the body) right now) I will however be sporting 2 very bitchin costumes and be part a of these "couple costumes" so stayed tuned
So I've neglected this for a bit. Life was pretty tame, then things really picked up and I became super busy. Enough to the point where I didn’t really have the time/energy to devote to a el jay entry but whatever since so much is going on I’ll make it brief because I am tired and my eyes hurt and I plan on relaxing soon so I can fall asleep early.
ANYWAY.
August: Eh. Went to DC which was cool and horrible at the same time. Still waiting to see if I get the job. Also made cool little Venture Bros. Styled portraits of friends and loved ones, joined UA women’s rugby team
Sept: Good to fucking horrific. Completed decent painting but have to complete more stupid painting chock full of stupid imposed concepts that even if I did like I cant really do in my own style. My teacher loves modern art and I hate it. Fucking hacks that have no respect for technique for the most part in my opinion. Then I fucked up my ankles running somehow and couldn’t really walk for a couple of days let alone practice or even exercise. I seem mostly better now but it still feels a little funny when I run. Tomorrow I'm gonna try running so hopefully that’s ok. It was still going "okay" because I got to go to Pennsylvania this past weekend with Paul and got to hang out with his parents and go to the big Celtic festival. Pictures of him in a kilt coming soon. Oh and then I met Bruce Campbell, one of my idols and even gave him a little sketch I did of him from Army of Darkness when he’s working at S-Mart but he seemed kinda canned or curt and didn’t seem to notice/care about my little sketch. So to be honest it was cool, but a bit of a let down. So yeah, now that I'm back I’m way behind on the paintings I will hate for my class and I found out today that
I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO FUCKING GRADUATE IN DECEMEBER AS PLANED BECAUSE THE ACADEMIC ADVISORS AND UNIVERSTIY OF ARIZONA ARE SHIT AND JUST WANT TO STEAL MY MONEY, MY TIME AND MY SANITY.
I'm still working on sorting this out, but apparently I'm missing 17 credits of non-art electives. So I may have to take a full semester OF FUCKING BULLSHIT WASTE YOUR TIME CLASSES EVEN THOUGH I AM READY AND PREPARED TO BE A GRADUATED GRAPHIC DESIGNER IN THE REAL WORLD. THIS LITTLE SET BACK COULD ALSO FUCK UP MY PLANS FOR GETTING SAID JOB IN DC.
and then I got sick today after eating dinner and spent much time in the bathroom while my stomach was doing summersaults. And missed watching most of the movie “Dead and Breakfast” with Paul. But it was neat to see that Zach Selwyn from Attack of the Show is from Tucson and is in a country band that wrote some neat little songs about Tucson.
And now I leave to resist stabbing my eyes out and going on disability.
Notes to self: On Ventuer Brother DVD commentary, both Doc Hammer and Jackson Publick compare a real life version of Dr. Girlfriend to Gina Gershon. With the recent celebrity comparative look a like comments I've gotten, may reconsider Molotov costume for Dr. Girlfriend.
Also acts as a plan B if sits up don't work in time.
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