i begged you not to release this monster.



but it's too late.

now here you go again
you say you want your freedom
well who am i to keep you down
it's only right that you should
play the way you feel it
but listen carefully to the sound
of your loneliness
like a heartbeat..drives you mad
in the stillness of remembering
what you had
and what you lost

thunder only happens when its raining
players only love you when theyre playing
women, they will come and they will go
when the rain washes you clean...
you'll know.

you build me up...











just to break me down.



[p.s. happy late birthday Tia <3]

theres a little black spot on the sun today
it's the same old thing as yesterday
there's a black hat caught in a high tree top
there's a flag pole rag and the wind won't stop
i have stood here before inside the pouring rain
with the world turning circles running round my brain
i guess i'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
but it's my destiny to be the king of pain.

Current Music: King of Pain - The Police

fallen.

Just got back from a week long vacation at the beach.. Tia! I saw you tried to call me, but i've had absolutely no reception the entire time, ugh. Now i'm getting ready to head out the door to a Def Leppard concert.. The last time I was this excited I was on the road to Anthrocon :) Def Leppard's music has been such an uplifting force for me and has inspired me with my art (my recent art has had a HUGE Lep influence, subjectwise) and i've started taking guitar lessons..finally.. with a guy from a band called Gongzilla (he's on youtube!) so yeah. Life is trying to look up for me right now..

Anddd - Hollzi, I haven't gotten your letter yet! I'll give it until Monday and i'll start harassing the post office.. also, Tia and Savvy, have you gotten your badges either? I sent them out a million years ago.. :(

Current Music: Billy's Got a Gun - Def Leppard

meet tempest, my buddy that hangs out on my guitar amp.

Thank you all for the advice! It was all unanimous, so that means I need to get a grip on my life (and some balls) and do what I know I need to do.

But most of all, thank you for being my friends and being there for me when i'm frazzled or feeling low or just being there for me to talk to. You guys mean more to me than you'll ever know. <3 <3

Current Music: Stagefright - Def Leppard