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just when i think things couldn't get worse for me.. they do. [Apr. 11th, 2006|04:46 pm] [ mood | sore ] .. i feel like everything i count on is just dissapearing, quickly. it's been some of the roughest months.. i am just glad i have some great friends that i can really count on.. i've tried to be strong about everything, but everytime i calm down it's something else.. i can't seem to find any peace and quiet.. a few months ago my dad lost his job. my dad is the best person i know, i count on him so much, and he has never let me down. and when things are bad for him i can't handle it. he keeps getting let down with job plans falling through. he had his hopes on a SC or FL job.. but all of them have been filled. i had finally gotten my head around moving there for the summers, but it doesn't seem like that will happen.. either way we have to move.. i hate to see my dad stressed out, he looks like he aged 10 years in 10 months.. then i lost a really good friendship.. not that had been good for the last few months, but i guess i just wasn't prepared to lose the whole thing. i thought ok we can't be roomates, i didn't think o we can't be friends.. but i guess the lack of caring caught up.. it might sound stupid to some.. but my cat was one of the most important things in my life. i am so attatched to him.. and now hes gone. i counted on him too.. and i am heartbroken. i don't even like to think about it, because im so fucking bitter about it. it was only a week after my fish (who has been with me since the first day of college) was murdered.. and now tubbys gone. it doesn't even seem possible to me. he was so unique and special, he was so sweet. and he was my own first cat, and i wasn't ready for him to go, especially like that, young and in pain.. and i wasn't even there for him because i was here. i couldn't even be there to be with him. now pheobe's going the same way, cancer.. in the throught. what are the chances? both these cat's are YOUNG and were JUST healthy.. they told us o its a tooth infection.. and now she's going to be put to sleep too. we never have cats who have gone this young, ever. they all live to be like scary old ages.. finnys like almost as old as me and looks like death and he's outliving everyone. its weird how these things work out. i feel like everything i am proud of is being taken away, and i have nothing left. and no energy left to fight it. don't comment me with pitty, i didn't post this for that. i just needed to get it out. i can't talk about it with anyone in full like that. and it's all i can think about. link post comment

so confused [Oct. 31st, 2005|09:58 pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | alanis morrisette ofcourse ] tommorow's preceptor day and i have no idea what to do with myself. i could go tommorow and tell him the truth, i NEED to change my major if i am ever going to be happy, but instead i know i will walk in and just sign up for the classes he expects me to sign up for and leave the office regretting it. i am just giving up my dream, because it's probably now or never and i am just not ready for now. the last few days have been fun, but going home this weekend was a major mistake. i went home and everything seemed normal and fine. sunday i got up, extremly hung over and just hung around the house. my mom was home and she was being nice so we were talking and she just decides to let out everything i didn't want to know about whats really happening in the family. i just got so overwhelmed, but i didn't want to show it. i hate it when no one lets me know when things happen, its not like im on a differnt planet or something, im just in pomona god damn it, but i guess theres something to say about being ignorant. so then after all the major stuff and while im still freaking out in my mind she casually lets it drop this this kitten we used to have, such a fucking nice kitten at that and tubby's brother, that we gave to their friends (we had 8 kittens at the time and had to find them homes) died a few years ago. he got into some poisionus stuff or something and died, and i just lost it on her. i started crying hysterically. and she thought it was about the kitten. it was just about everything i guess, but that just set me off. the worst part is i have no one to talk about all this shit to. i just have to stop thinking about it. i feel like its just something no one in the family can directly talk about so i can't/don't want to call up my sister and just talk about it out of nowhere.i feel so fucking for my dad, he's like the one person i really look up to, i love him so much and i hate when anything happens to him, i just think he's one of the smartest people i know. his opinions i value more than my own i don't know how to describe it. but its been on the back of my mind for the last 2 days.. i came back to stockton after i calmed myself down and just tried to forget about it.. so what do i do? throw myself a pity party on livejournal.. god i suck at life. link post comment

been meaning to do this [Sep. 18th, 2005|08:55 pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | neil diamond duh ] Well the new deal nowadays seems to be post 10 songs and tag 5 friends to do the same. Songs 1. Cracklin' rose- neil diamond. well any neil song deserves our attention 2. sympathy for the devil- rolling stones. amazingly interesting 3. feels like somebodys watching me- rockwell. one of the best to sing 4. you oughta know- alanis morissette. uncle joey should fucking know. shes got rage i <3 it 5. all star- smash mouth. shut the fuck up. smash mouth owns my world 6. road rage- jimmy fallon. its so me its gross 7. mad world- tears for fears. just sad and angsty enough 8. bridge over troubled waters- simon, garfunkle or clay aiken can belt this one out. 9. i'll be there for you- rembrandts. cuz u just gotta love ur friends. 10. the final countdown- europe. do i need to explain? listen to it. friends to keep the tradition alive- laura, stacy, jesse, wes, trisha link 1 comment|post comment

[Aug. 9th, 2005|10:09 pm] [ mood | drained ] Q: what color is most reflective of you? A: brown Q: how did you get the idea for your journal name? A: living in the pines and smoking crack Q: what time were you born? A: morningish Q: what are you playing right now? A: alanis morrisette Q: has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry? A: lets just say i did not handle the death of john ritter well Q: what color underwear are you wearing? A: blue Q: do you want a baby? A: hell no Q: what does your mom do for a living? A: i lost track.. who cares, its my friggin mom. Q: what does your dad do for a living? A: um.. manager of like the east coast something or other Q: what is your pet's name? A: tubby and sugarface Q: what color are your bedsheets? A: gray.. or is it grey... Q: what are the last three digits of your phone number? A: for the life of me i don't rememeber my cell number... Q: what was the last concert you attended? A: kelly clarkson by force, clay aiken by choice, holla Q: who was with you? A: cristen Q: what was the last movie you saw? A: wedding crashers Q: whom do you dislike most at this moment? A: myself Q: what food are you craving right now? A: frenched fries Q: did you dream last night? A: working and gossiping Q: what was the last tv show you watched? A: gilmore girls Q: what is your favorite piece of jewelry? A: the watch i lost last month Q: what is to the left of you? A: my tamagotchi Q: what was the last thing you ate? A: cookie Q: write a song lyric that's in your head? A: "i touch the fire and it freezes me" Q: what song is that from? A: buffy the fucking musical Q: who last IM'ed you? A: ray Q: do you have a crush? A: plenty Q: what shampoo do you use? A: herbal essances Q: when was the last time you cut your hair? A: june Q: are you on any meds? A: i self medicate myself.. don't worry about it Q: do you have a mental disease? A: i self diagnose myself.. don't worry about it Q: what shirt are you wearing? A: conan o'brien shirt Q: what time is it? A: 10ish Q: what is your favorite frozen treat? A: vanilla ice cream Q: what's your favorite shopping store? A: gap Q: are you thirsty? A: i just had some water Q: can you imagine yourself ever getting married? A. eh.. isn't that what you're supposed to do? ---> Name: casey ---> Birthdate: 3-4 ---> Birthplace: red bank? ---> Current Location: brick ---> Eye Color: brown ---> Hair Color: brown ---> Righty or Lefty: righty ---> Zodiac Sign: the one i can't spell ---> Innie or Outtie: innie // series two - describe ---> Your heritage: 100% american ---> The shoes you wore today: nike sneakers 4 work ---> Your hair: down ---> Your eyes: brown ---> Your weakness?: cats ---> Your fears: what happens after death ---> Your perfect pizza: onions n big crust ---> One thing you'd like to achieve: lots of money // series three - what is ---> Your most overused phrase on aol.... lol ---> Your thoughts first waking up: wheres my remote ---> The first feature you notice in the opposite (or same) sex: personality ---> Your usual bedtime: anytime I get tired and decide to go to sleep ---> Your greatest accomplishment: college ---> Your best memory: who knows // series five - do you ---> Smoke: fuck yes ---> Cuss: never ---> Sing well: fuck yes.. ask anyone who has driven with me.. o i drive well too ---> Take a shower everyday: yupp ---> Want to go to college: yah ---> Like high school: yah ---> Want to get married: eh ---> Type with your fingers on the right keys: no ---> Believe in yourself: no ---> Get motion sickness: sometimes ---> Think you're a health freak: far from it ---> Get along with your parents: my dad ---> Like thunderstorms: yah ---> Play an instrument: um a flute and a recorder // series six - in the past month, did/have you ---> Drank alcohol: yes ---> Smoke(d): yes ---> Done a drug: nope ---> Go on a date: nope ---> Go to the mall?: no time :( tommorow tho ---> Been on stage: no ---> Been dumped: No ---> Gone skating: no ---> Made homemade cookies: nope ---> Gone skinny dipping: no ---> Dyed your hair: no ---> Stolen anything: yah // series seven - have you ever? ---> Played a game that required removal of clothing?: yah ---> If so, was it mixed company: yah ---> Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yah ---> Been caught "doing something": no ---> Gotten beaten up: no ---> Shoplifted: yah ---> Did you get caught: yah ---> Changed who you were to fit in: yup thats me, "jello" // series eight - the future ---> Age you hope to be married: 30s ---> Numbers and Names of Children: 2.. carter and chandler ---> Describe your Dream Wedding: las vegas celebrity impersonater ---> What age do you want to die: 40s ---> What do you want to be when you grow up: animal trainer.. but ill settle for accountant ---> What country would you most like to visit: eh. canada? that seems safe ---> Current Clothes: conan shirt and shorts ---> Current Mood: exhausted ---> Current Taste: water.. ---> Current Hair: down ---> Current Annoyance: this stupid thing that i can't stop cuz ive done too much ---> Current Smell: coconut lime ---> Current thing you ought to be doing: sleeping ---> Current Desktop Picture: conan on a horse with martha stewart ---> Current Favorite Groups: um.. weezer, jason mraz, alanis ---> Current Book: how to be good ---> Current DVD In Player: john ritter comedy sketch ---> Current Worry: have no1 to help me move in sept 4th ---> Current Crush: never tell My Father thinks I am: smart My Mother thinks I am: a wise ass My sister thinks I am: dork My brother thinks I am: dork My grandma thinks I am: the best My Grandpa thinks I am: no idea.. My best friend thinks I am: dork Yes or NO.... +you keep a journal = this thing +you like to cook = yah +you have a secret you have not shared with anyone = ofcourse +you fold your underwear = no.. do ppl do that? +you talk in your sleep = noooo i listen though.. haha and dream the convos out.. then wake up confused +you set your watch a few minutes ahead = all of them +you bite your fingernails = way too much +you believe in love= no last... x. movie you rented = zoolander? x. movie you bought = john ritter sketches x. song you listened to = geek in the pink x. song that was stuck in your head = some buffy song x. song you've downloaded = salsbury hill x. CD you bought = alanis acoustic x. CD you listened to = jason mraz x. person you've called = my brother x. person that's called you = ami x. TV show you've watched = gilmore girls do... x. you wish you could live somewhere else = all the time x. you think about suicide = yes x. you believe in online dating = no x. you want more piercings = no x. you want more tattoos = need to start at 1 x. you drink = yes x. you do drugs = occasionaly x. you smoke = yes x. you like cleaning = i need to do do hw x. you like roller coasters = yeah x. you write in cursive or print = print x. you carry a donor card = no have you... x. ever cried over a boy/girl = yes x. ever lied to some.. yes x. ever been in a fist fight = nope.. only my fist was involved x. ever been arrested = no Number... x. of times I have been in love? 0 x. of times I have had my heart broken? 0 x. of hearts I have broken? i dunno i hope none x. of boys I have kissed? no idea x. of people I've slept with? 0 x. of people I consider my enemies? quite a few x. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with? a couple x. of CDs' that I own? 100+ x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? dunno x. of things in my past that I regret? a lot link 1 comment|post comment

[Jul. 17th, 2005|11:18 pm] [ mood | mellow ] "A man who wants to die feels angry and full of life and desperate and bored and exhausted all the same time; he wants to fight everyone, and he wants to curl up in a ball and hide in a cupboard somewhere. He wants to say sorry to everyone, and he wants everyone to know just how badly they've all let him down." ..yah... thats from the book i am reading.. it really meant something to me when i read it, i feel like i wrote it, like it came from me. this summer has just been a really boring blur. the time i do get to spend with my friends, not much, has been fun.. but i feel destracted even when im with them. like i can't clear my mind fully. i haven't had time for things for me. i hope stocktons different this year. if i had any balls at all id just leave. i just want to start somewhere else. people must do it all the time right? just get on a bus and go? find a job, find a place to stay, and just live out their lives. forget the current problems and just start new as someone else. thats my dream. id just like to leave jersey, go somewhere else, cleaner, less hectic.. link 4 comments|post comment

[Jun. 30th, 2005|06:01 pm] [ mood | sleepy ] 1. john ritter 2. matthew perry 3. topher grace 4. ryan reynolds 5. ryan gosling 6. josh duhamel 7. tom cruise 8. jude law 9. jack black 10. jason lee and o yah g dubbua of course ;) o ur top ten celebs u find attractive in ur livejournal everyone who reads this. its one of those awesome awesome chain things, and just for fun ill add some bad luck if u don't... oouuu link 1 comment|post comment

so tired [Jun. 16th, 2005|08:54 pm] [ mood | pessimistic ] [ music | tv ] my life sucks. i have nothing going for me and all i feel is stressed out link post comment

[May. 2nd, 2005|11:06 pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | hot hot heat ] i am having major writing block with my public policy final essays, so i am taking another break from it.. can you call it a break if you never started? i am not sure if i want this year to end. i started out at stockton really depressed and wanting to transfer, but it really turned out to be a good year. i made the most amazing friends. noa- i am so glad we became friends. if it wasn't for you i'd probably be ending the year like it started. you are such a great friend, really considerate of other people, and i loved our "relaxing" weekends leslie-i am soooo glad you're here. you've been there for me for years and years and i know i can trust you with anything i <3 you 4ever! stacy- i was so afraid of you in the begining haha. you are truely one of my favorite people ever. next year is going to be rediculously fun and we can have our own national treasure hunts haha pat- haha how glad am i i stalked you after rhetoric and comp? BFF forever, am i right?! LOLOLZ. you are really a funny kid and since i have ur cell number 4 life expect me to call you everytime i come close to monmouth mall. laura- i am going to miss you x9054906809!! you're so creative and funny, and i really love hanging out with you. you are gonna have to live in the apartment next year and obviously help us decorate trisha- haha you have to be my favorite roomate (when u stick around haha) ever. you are so funny and i am sorry we didn't get to train for magic enough and tell your crazy bf that i am training for street fighting so next time ill be able to take him lauren-my favorite republican bitch haha and future "sister" :) i say we impeach mac haha and everyone else who made this year fun... o man. next semester will be great times. i love you guys link 2 comments|post comment

maybe i didn't miss home as much as i thought [Apr. 28th, 2005|11:24 pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | none since my stereo has been ripped out already ] number of hours i've been home: 3 number of times i've been called a bitch since: 6 number of times i've been yelled at for no good reason: 12 number of nice things said to me: 0 number of times i've cried: 2 number of ciggerates i've needed: 3 i really hate this house, why was i so desperate to come back? i already miss my dorm room, and i'm not sure how i am going to handle this summer. i'm ready to just kill myself, but maybe i'll get lucky and get lung cancer and just die. what was i expecting? i'm an idiot. number of times i've been screamed at since i started this post: 4 and counting link post comment

three [Apr. 19th, 2005|11:20 pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] [ music | 3s company ] THREE NAMES YOU GO BY: 1. casey 2. case 3. bitch THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: 1. dinosaurs 2. skerry movies 3. dancing THREE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY: 1. friends 2. sleeping 3. tubbykins cuddle monster THREE THINGS YOU HATE: 1. people that are like "jello" 2. when people take things out on me 3. bad grades THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: 1. television 2. sleep 3. computer THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: 1. stockton tee shirt 2. black sweatpants 3. socks THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE (OR SAME) SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU: 1. comedic timing 2. smartness 3. political affiliation THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: 1. spending money 2. watching movies 3. reading self help books (not that i need them) THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW: 1. to see my cat (how sad) 2. to die 3. To punch someone in the face THREE CAREERS YOU'VE CONSIDERED: 1. politician 2. foodtown cashier 3. lead singer of the donnas THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION: 1. boston 2. austraillia 3. canada THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1. to be finacially secure 2. own every single season of threes company 3. Make everyone I know happy in some way. link post comment

its 4 am and i have to be up in less than 4 hours [Apr. 13th, 2005|04:00 am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | my girl ] (x) smoked a cigarette (x) smoked a cigar ( ) made out with a member of the same sex ( ) crashed a friend's car ( ) stolen a car ( ) been in love ( ) been dumped (x) shoplifted ( ) been fired (x) been in a fist fight ((kinda haha)) ( ) snuck out of my parent's house (x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back ( ) been arrested (x) made out with a stranger ( ) gone on a blind date (x) lied to a friend (x) had a crush on a teacher (x) skipped school ( ) slept with a co-worker ( ) seen someone die (x) had a crush on one of your myspace friends ( ) been to Canada (x) been on a plane ( ) thrown up in a bar ( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire ( ) eaten Sushi ( ) been snowboarding ( ) met someone in person from myspace ( ) been moshing at a concert ( ) been in an abusive relationship (x) taken painkillers (x) love someone or miss someone right now (x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by (x) made a snow angel ( ) had a tea party (x) flown a kite (x) built a sand castle (x) gone puddle jumping (x) played dress up (x) jumped into a pile of leaves (x) gone sledding (x) cheated while playing a game (x) been lonely (x) fallen asleep at work/school ( ) used a fake id (x) watched the sun set ( ) felt an earthquake (x) touched a snake (x) slept beneath the stars (x) been tickled (x) been robbed (x) been misunderstood (x) pet a reindeer/goat (x) won a contest (x) run a red light ( ) been suspended from school (x) been in a car accident (x) had braces (x) felt like an outcast (x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night (x) had deja vu ( ) danced in the moonlight (x) hated the way you look ( ) witnessed a crime ( ) pole danced ( ) questioned your heart (x) been obsessed with post-it notes (x) squished barefoot through the mud (x) been lost ( ) been to the opposite side of the country (x) swam in the ocean (x) felt like dying (x) cried yourself to sleep (x) played cops and robbers (x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers (x) sang karaoke ( ) paid for a meal with only coins (x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't (x) made prank phone calls ( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose (x) caught a snowflake on your tongue (x) danced in the rain (x) written a letter to Santa Claus ( ) been kissed under a mistletoe ( ) watched the sun set with someone you care about (x) blown bubbles ( ) made a bonfire on the beach (x) crashed a party (x) gone rollerskating ( ) had a wish come true ( ) humped a monkey ( ) worn pearls ( ) jumped off a bridge ( ) screamed penis in class (x) ate dog/cat food ((not willingly, consequence of having a big brother)) ( ) told a complete stranger you loved them (x) kissed a mirror (x) sang in the shower (x) had a dream that you married someone (x) glued your hand to something ( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole ( ) kissed a fish ((i wish, sugarface is cuttteee)) (x) worn the opposite sexes clothes ( ) been a cheerleader (x) sat on a roof top (x) screamed at the top of your lungs ( ) done a one-handed cartwheel (x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours ((prolly lol cristen)) (x) stayed up all night ( ) didn't take a shower for a week (x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree (x) climbed a tree ( ) had a tree house (x) are scared to watch scary movies alone ( ) believe in ghosts ( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes ( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say ( ) gone streaking (x) played ding-dong-ditch (x) played chicken (x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on ( ) broken a bone (x) been easily amused ( ) caught a fish then ate it ( ) made porn ( ) caught a butterfly (x) laughed so hard you cried (x) cried so hard you laughed (x) mooned/flashed someone (x) had someone moon/flash you (x) cheated on a test (x) have an Ashlee simpson CD (x) forgotten someone's name ( ) French braided someones hair (x) gone skinny dipping in a pool ( ) been kicked out of your house i've done a lot, i need to add one tho (X) WASTED A LOT OF VALUABLE SLEEPING TIME THAT YOU ARE GOING TO REGRET IN LESS THAN 4 HOURS.... link post comment

weekend blues [Apr. 10th, 2005|02:41 am] [ mood | worried ] [ music | weezer ] well this weekend has been a bust with my work goals, hopefully i can fully dedicate my mind sunday.... hopefully for my grades sake. i did enjoy this weekend tho. did drugs, played some rock and roll, you know the usual stuff. got to have some bonding time with laura (i <3 her) we watched movies and tv and sat around and even ate food. patrick stuck around this weekend too and hung out with us (a little), and i went to brunches and dinners with him, ya know fine stockton cuisine can't keep him away, and he finally got us to watch fargo. steve buschemi and william h macy are very good actors. i am sick of pretending that things don't bother me when they really do, but i will, so you can stay oblivious. link post comment

[Apr. 8th, 2005|07:01 pm] [ mood | devious ] [ music | simpsons ] it started last night when i started slamming the dorm door really loud out of sheer bordem and because ever after is such a good-terrible movie. well then i started drawing on the white board and door was ajar cuz i was talking to trisha who was sitting in the room well charlotta comes up and tells me to stop slamming the door. even when it naturally shuts its loud, and she told me to put a work order in about it. so i was about to laugh and i went into the room and slammed the door in her face. then i went back out there a little while later and started talking loud to trisha about how the work order should go to god because hes the one who controlls gravity, so i write FUCK GRAVITY on the white board and started slamming the doors for the rest of the night. well the worst thing just happened. charlotta just came to the door and asked me to come out side to talk to her cuz lauras here and she starts going on and on how i am a sweet person on the inside and that the slam door thing musta been a joke and shes gonna let the gravity thing go as a joke so i was like ok and she starts going on about the library job she can't afford to make mistakes at and i was like me n trisha were asleep by 12 and shes like i saw u in the bathroom @ 2:30 and i was like is it a crime to pee so i go back in the room but shes like im not done talking to you but i shut the door in her face n locked it really really fast, and she starts knocking and tries to open it, but thank god its locked and then she stood out there for 3 minutes knocking but we ignored it talk about akward. link 3 comments|post comment

[Apr. 4th, 2005|06:59 pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | bird house in your soul ] welllll todays monday, and it was pretty much a drag. i did a lot of napping and 0 homework so far. i really am going to regret all the slacking sooner or later.. (hopefully later) FRIDAY~ great day, possibly one of the greatest. i started out by skipping class (which dang was supposidly very raged up) and went to ihop mmmm. it was pretty much the best breakfast ever. that night we went to see maroon 5!! omg it was so much fun, they had such a great show. and the donnas opened up for them, which was terrrible but luckily we were able to make up for thier suckiness with our own donnas version of life. (yes i am a donna) then after the show we had our very own concert in the car in the parking garage and even a game of beep-horn. good times. you'd think after all that we would be tired, but no we trooped through and stacy was gave us a grand tour of her town and we got to meet one of her friends. then me n stacy ended the night with a sleepover. SATURDAY~ it was terrible out, absoulutley terrible, god was crying about the pope with tsunamis in southern jersey. but me stacy and her bf went to quiznos=mmm toasty, then saw sin city=awe rory gilmore! it was a fabulous night with my bff's the weekend was top grade i do say! <3 link 2 comments|post comment

boring days and boring nights [Mar. 29th, 2005|11:18 pm] [ mood | distressed ] [ music | jack johnson ] well today i went to the mall which was fun, cuz well mmm smoothies. and we ordered pizza, and well mmm pizza. and trisha bought me home presents <3 best roomie ever. noa stacy and leslie got high competition next semester. well since the last few days have been rainy i thought i'd bring some sunshine into your lives with this beautiful sight. ..RIP john ritter... (and all his hotness) link 3 comments|post comment

so bored... [Mar. 22nd, 2005|11:45 pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | save me ] spring break sucked. i did get to hang out with ami and see hostage also go on another road trip with kristen.. ahh foodtown people, they are my favorite. also a sleep over with some of my pinekids was fun, stacy got to experience brick woo.. my great uncle died and i had to go to his wake, it was sad. its weird to meet parts of your family you never knew.. this week at school has been really depressing. i am useless and lazy. luckily thursday im going home and i'll get to see cristen and hopefully jessie. woo bernie mac movie friday nite, but boo working all weekend. happy fucking easter link 1 comment|post comment

i find it kind of funny, i find it kind of sad [Mar. 9th, 2005|11:39 am] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | La La ] its funny, i can see who reads my livejournal and the people that never talk to me (or have a life for that matter) are the ones who read it the most... you know who you are, and no one has sympathy for you. link 3 comments|post comment

i am 19 [Mar. 6th, 2005|02:00 am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | rock and roll mcdonalds ] 19 sucks. i never want to be 20 :( thats just too old to handle... my 19th birthday was nice tho! the day before i went and saw conan obrien!! he was so tall and handsome, and the studio was so small. it was pretty much the best thing i've ever done! we (me, cristen, jordan and bill) took the train to NYC, went to applebees for lunch and then went over to the studio and waited forever, but got great seats! and we were able to chase the last guest (beard and mustache WORLD champ in the muskateers division) out of the studio n get pics with him! <3 friday (my actual bday) cristen and ami came down to stockton and met my pinefriends! i was really happy to have everyone here for my bday! we went to applebees then watched 2 1/2 movies! saw was the creepiest movie EVER. i hated every minute of it, but it was clever, i will admit. <3 i have the greatest friends<3 i got so many great presents, now i gotta make some type of creative cards to thank them all.. should take me hours, but who am i kidding i have nothing else to do lol, i quit school. attn stockton kids: THURSDAY N WING NATIONAL TREASURE- BE THERE :) the movie makes you smarter, i swear. link post comment

tuesday ugghhh [Mar. 2nd, 2005|12:15 am] [ mood | traumatized ] [ music | jay leno ] there is conan, isn't he just adorable?? well, i went to clean his bowl, so i put him in his cup.. i leave the room and i come back to him laying on the table still and dead i saved his life! i am such a good person... link 5 comments|post comment

monday [Mar. 1st, 2005|03:08 am] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | wesley willis ] link 4 comments|post comment

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