I've been on a nostalgia-trip lately; if I'm sick of staring at my half-done papers I go watch old anime. And boy, does everything change when you view them as a nineteen-year-old who proudly lists "pornography" as entertainment.

Things in Anime That Have Escaped Me Completely Back in the Days When I Was a Wee Child (Yes We Were All Innocent Back Then)

1. I denied the gay in Card Captor Sakura, even if it was waving its ass at my face. When Sakura confessed to Yukito and it was revealed that Touya was Yukito's "number one" (CANON WORDS, PEOPLE), I deemed it as a loving, devoted friendship. Even when even Sakura shipped them in the end. The blatant pedophilia (TeradaxRika, MizukixTouya, heck almost everyone in this series) I also regarded as something weird, but pretty much a normal background plot device.

Card Captor Sakura = CUTESY? What, with Tomoyo's strange obsession? I still fucking ship SyaoranxSakura, anyway, and I won't let Tsubasa ruin my "feel-good" ship. CLAMP, YOU BITCHES

2. I shipped het in Gundam Wing. YES, ALL FIVE OF THEM. I paired up Quatre with Dorothy Catalonia. If that isn't fucked up, I don't know what is. (and you know what? I still don't like the gay. xD)
3. I also shipped het in Weiss Kreuz, which is gayer than a rainbow. Especially since their straight relationships go down in the end...
4. When Haruka and Michiru were revealed as lovers (I love the Philippine dub, they didn't change anything at all) I didn't think of it as OMG LESBIANS but more like "Oh, so they're lovers. Okay." Now I ship them just as hard. ♥
5. I shipped Kurama x Botan. WHAT THE FUCK
6. I didn't know Shinji was masturbating to Asuka. Then again, there was so much going on in End of Evangelion and everyone was naked so I lost all consciousness.


Hunter x Hunter was what made me come out of the closet, and I ended up being a rabid Leorio x Kurapika fan. I still am. Also, my eyes were opened by Hisoka's disturbing preferences and uh, general behavior. Thank you Yoshihiro Togashi, for raping my brain.

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My big brother's blood pressure is abnormal so I decided to live a healthy lifestyle and promptly banned fried, oily food in the house (my parents are abroad, so I'm in charge for now ;_;). kotomine and I went to to grocery store and bought oranges, apples, bananas, imported apple cranberry juice and orange juice with pulp, salads, and a lot of other healthy stuff. What's ironic is that we spent so much money on fruits and vegetables, whereas unhealthy food costs less. It really is tough to live healthy if there is no other option. Seems like the food companies are determined to kill you. T_T

Mucho love to ficcentricity for the link ♥



I am now being pestered by my WEB BOYFRIEND! I picked Souma Kaoru, because he looks nerdy and sorta like a bitch. HE KEEPS ON BITCHING WITH ME ;_; How do I please him? (Also, if you look closely at the ads you'll see that they're selling BL manga. HUZZAH FORCED HETEROSEXUALITY GAME)

...When I touch/click him, he says "Uhn." Wat

...This game is strangely addicting. Even if I think I'm manlier than these boys combined. AND EVEN IF I'M NOT AN EXPERT IN JAPANESE. *pumps fist* I must review my notes again!

...You'll know that life is shitting you (and doing it for the lulz) when you try to enlist subjects online and belatedly realize that all the remaining majors you need occupy the same time slot.

IN OTHER MORE IMPORTANT NEWS:

1. Life-size R2-D2. Claims to be the most authentic R2-D2 robot ever made, and people may ask, "why do you need a robot like that, anyway?" and I would reply conversationally "THIS IS R2-D2, BITCHES. YOU CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND." And yes, they may never understand why I fap to a beeping and squealing metallic...thing.

I'd take it with me to school!

2. 'Valkyrie' Trailer is Good Enough to KILL HITLER. Tom Cruise stars as a determined German soldier set on assassinating Hitler. Valkyrie based on a true story and is directed by Bryan Singer (X-men, Superman Returns). The trailer looks fucking awesome, and I say, an eye-patched Tom Cruise is smoking hot. I don't care what the people say -- get over the Oprah Couch Incident -- because we all know that Tom Cruise is a fine actor. Come on, has everybody forgotten Born in the Fourth of July and Jerry McGuire?

3. THE DRAGONBALL MOVIE. Months later I am still denying its existence, but the ever-helpful Kotaku posts more stills of the upcoming manga-based movie. Jesus Christ on a pogo stick.

WHY CAN'T IT NOT EXIST?

4. The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus - Teaser Trailer. As you probably know, this is technically Heath Ledger's final role in a film, but three more actors will be playing him as his character jumps from one dimension to another: Jude Law, Johnny Depp, and Colin Farrel. FOUR HOT PEOPLE, including Heath. IS IT TIME TO FAP UNCONTROLLABLY? Yes, of course! ♥ The trailer has an old, fantasy-world feel to it, and it gives me a warm sense of nostalgia...

Because I waded through knee-deep waters last Thursday (don't ask), I am now stuck at home with fever and a runny nose. I was supposed to spend the day at the ASTE induction, interviewing people, but I can't because of epic head and body aches and so I decided to do this online.

PLEASE, PLEASE HELP ME ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS. I need all the help I can get, this is for my final report. ;_; I will be very grateful.

PLEASE ANSWER THE FOLLOWING QUESTIONS IF YOU OWN A STATEMENT SHIRT. It could be any shirt at all, could be a gay pride shirt, a shirt that says "I am the cutest!" or a shirt showing school pride. ANYTHING AT ALL. Answers could be in English or Filipino or a mix of both, whatever floats your boat!

1. What is written in your statement shirt/s? Give one example.

2. Where did you buy it?

3. What do you feel when you wear that shirt?

4. Is that a representation of your self or your identity? How do you show it?

5. What do you think do other people think when they see you wearing that shirt?

SURVEY NOW CLOSED! :3 THANK YOU SO MUCH. to all those who answered! ;_; I LOVE YOU FOREVER!

Seeing as I'm broke(back), and suffering from pain and agony due to my sleepless and penniless state...I PRESENT MY DO YES WANT(s)!

1. Beatles-inspired sleeveless shirt. Or a John and Yoko shirt featuring their famous Rolling Stones cover!

2.

THIS AS A T-SHIRT OR ANY MERCHANDISE, I SWEAR TO GOD (I would've loved it more if you replace Laurie with a naked Dr. Manhattan). Actually, a plain yellow shirt with the Watchmen "happy face" insignia would be pretty darn cool, but I don't really know if anyone is selling it (plus, DC Comics might sue my ass off).

I know it's Watchmen fanart, and dear god I am going to hell but I DON'T FEEL BAD ABOUT IT AT ALL, fuckyouwatchmen! I plan to wear this shirt until shit hits the fan. I draw the line at Watchmen slash, though, please don't do this...

3. More science-fiction books you'd think I would enjoy
4. Delicious cake (in the form of a pleasant surprise!)
5. Fanart and fanfic dedicated to me
6. Money (lots of it, in huge numbers, in piles, fresh from the bank)

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OH GUESS WHAT I SAT AROUND AND FINALLY CAUGHT UP WITH TSUBASA RESERVOIR CHRONICLES~!

Everybody pretty much lost a bunch of body parts and are not actually themselves, but I can't wait to see how it all turns out. Can CLAMP top their recent Fai and Kurogane angst-party? The plot is convoluted but the characters are lovable anyway. Oh well, everyone knows that Tsubasa is a product of CLAMP's masturbatory fantasies. Meanwhile, Sakura and Syaoran remain the shining beacons of heterosexuality in this gayfest of a manga. In xxxHolic everyone is rooting for the gay but the gay is delivered in small doses. Jesus.

I've also been rewatching Card Captor Sakura for nostalgia's sake. I'm already at the third season -- admittedly my eyes scanned the previous seasons because I was too impatient....I wanted my SyaoranxSakura first-love-never-dies action, LOL. They bring out the sappy girl in me, but I don't care. ♥ They're one of my ultimate OTPs since they can really make me blush (and that means a lot), but fifth-graders in love and MAKING TEDDY BEARS NAMED AFTER REAL PEOPLE, it's just so unfair!

Also, pedophilia. Yay CLAMP!

1. Looks like the Adventures of Tintin Movie will be delayed. Universal Pictures backs out from funding the Tintin movie -- apparently Steven Spielberg and Peter Jackson presented them a budget proposal that made them shit their pants. Am slightly miffed, as Spielberg + Jackson = OMG WET DREAM OF A FANBOY, but rationally speaking I don't blame Universal at all. These directors need to cut down their spending, seriously.

2. From cox_and_co: Robert Downey Jr. is now set to play SHERLOCK HOLMES in a dramatic remake, which is going to battle Sasha Baron Cohen's comedic take on the infamous detective. Rumored for the part of Watson is Jude Law, as in JUDE FUCKING LAW. Half of me is strangely aroused because HolmesxWatson = DowneyxLaw total fappery, but I'd much prefer it if they used lesser known actors for the roles. Not that I doubt their acting, I've loved their movies so far, but I seem to have higher expectations for Sherlock Holmes and I don't want to bring their offscreen personas in the picture. :( Still, exciting news!

3. Josh Groban sings memorable TV themes at the 2008 Emmys! Even if I am still bitter over the fact that Josh didn't visit me personally when he came to the Philippines (FUCK YOU JOSH GROBAN -- AND YET I LOVE YOU) I still wanted to hit him so hard, hit him like a fucking speeding bullet train. Literally. Oh god he is hotter than Jesus. Mmph.

4. mikkikoron is now helping me with my 2001: A Space Odyssey fanfic (he denies it, but he's given most of HAL's dialogue). Yes. I am writing fanfic about the romance between a psycho neurotic computer and an almost unfeeling human being. People may say that it is a travesty, and that Stanley Kubrick is rolling in his grave, but Arthur C. Clarke keeps on hinting on "men who feel frustrated because the lack of intimacy in space" and I wonder...

Anyway, an excerpt from the fanfic (that is writing itself gloriously in my brain):

"Dave...please, not there." Hal pleaded.

AHAHAHA OH MY GOD I CAN TOTALLY SEE THIS IN weepingcock! (Rule 34 applies, bitches!)

5.

Old news (for me, anyway) but in case you didn't know: Jim Carrey and Ewan McGregor play prison inmates who fall in love in the movie "I Love You Phillip Morris". I am pretty excited for this film -- I know people probably won't think that Jim Carrey can pull it off, since he has his fair share of haters and admirers. But when you look back at his other films like The Truman Show and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, you just KNOW that he is a fine actor. I've seen Ewan McGregor in a gay role before, so I know he can handle it well. I just hope they have beautiful chemistry ♥ But judging from the pic in the link, their kiss looks very sweet. :)

So I've been too busy to check LJ and do extracurricular shit, and we all know the My Cat Ate a Bird story, but not too busy (apparently) to look at porn. I can't help it. After the inferno that was LAST WEEK, I immediately wanted to do things to make myself happy.

Here are some fun distractions:

1. From daegaer: Annie Proulx does an Anne Rice. The Pulitzer-award winner bemoans the proliferation of Brokeback internet porn, but no one cares! The Guardian even posts a list of their TOP TEN BROKEBACK NC-17 FANFICTION from where else? The ever dependable Fanfiction.net!

2. The Five Scientific Experiments Most Likely to End the World: The Hadron Collider is there, but seeing as we're still spending our time watching a kid with a light saber in youtube, then I guess we should count it out (unless there's actually a new dimension out there, somewhere...)

3. Adam and Andy, a webcomic. Burly domesticated men in love (Just what I needed!).

4. Another webcomic, possibly my all-time favourite next to PBF. Actually I've seen this ages ago, but it never fails to make me laugh. In a really disturbing way, sometimes.




5. Bored?

6. What else have I been doing? I finished watching Pulp Fiction thrice (that's like, two and half hours worth times three of Quentin Tarantino mindfuckery and Samuel L. Jackson quotes that I've memorized). My sister and I bought our own copy of Watchmen to prepare ourselves for the movie, since prices will most likely increase once its out (as well as the number of slash fanfiction, OH GOD WHY). I literally devoured Ursula Le Guin's Birthday of the World and now I'm getting started with Arthur C. Clarke's 2001: A Space Odyssey. Same events as the movie, with some major differences, but I love them both to bits. I think I'm going to name my future adopted son Hal David, as in from Space Odyssey and Metal Gear Solid. It'll make me look like a dork, and I may have sealed my son's getting-beat-up-after-class fate as cynicade put it, but I will train him to be like SOLID MOTHERFUCKING SNAKE, MOTHERFUCKERS

My cat just killed a little Maya bird. I heard it cry for mercy, but Momo-chan was ruthless. He even played with it just for kicks. I tried to save the bird, but my cat escaped. The sound of the bird dying, and the fact that I haven't slept for days, made me just sit back and cry it all out. It's a horrible sound. It's so fucking good to cry.

Doumeki Haruka, referring to Doumeki Shizuka and why he eats Watanuki's cooking

WHAT IS HARUKA TRYING TO SAY, ANYWAY?

1. What we all think it means

2. What we don't think it means

3. What we think CLAMP wants us to think, which is probably what we don't think it means

4. That CLAMP is fucking with our brains by not creating all-out yaoi couples and instead making a lot of blatant innuendo with sizzling homoerotic overtones every goddamn panel in all of their goddamn series JESUS CHRIST ON A POGO STICK WILL THERE OR WILL THERE BE NO BUTT-FUCKING, HUH



This is proof that the internet has ruined me. I can't even think of "mouth", "put in", and "satisfy" without smothering a grin...

In other news, xxxHolic is becoming really interesting again (there's a new customer in Yuuko's shop)! I realised that when xxxHolic crossovers with Tsubasa I get really depressed reading it, like there's such a heavy feeling. Are the original characters in Tsubasa still themselves, anyway, or are they all clones and shit already?

Meme from star_flare.

1. Leave me a comment saying you want to do the meme.
2. I'll respond by asking you five personal questions so I can get to know you better.
3. You should update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You should include this explanation and offer to ask someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be asked, you will ask them five questions.

1. Who/what is your greatest influence in writing?

Ooh, this is difficult. In a fandom sense, the remusxsirius fanfic writers back in the glory days played a huge role in my love for writing; wonderful people like minnow_53, thistlerose, franticbabbles etc. They were the ones who really encouraged me to continue, and I eventually shifted my attentions to writing original material. Funnily enough, I found my "writing style" by reading modern poetry, not prose. That is why some people say that my short stories have a lyrical feel to them. However, if there is one book that I would say has been very influential to me in developing my characters, it would be Les Miserables by Victor Hugo.

2. Is there anything in particular that's been making you happy now? Anything that has you looking forward?

Right now, my acads make me happy. Sad, I know. *laughs* I'm stressed (like any other college student), but working on my finals with my friends is such a pleasant experience. It's great to work and brainstorm on a project with a group of people who are all creative, dedicated, and highly innovative thinkers. I like talking about geeky art things with my friends. You have fun, AND you use your brain, too. =))

3. What is it about organizations that make you want to spend so much time and effort on them?

I believe that one should not limit her education inside the classroom. The real world composes of networking and coordinating with people you are not familiar with; and the greatest challenge is that you must be able to work with these people and gain stellar results. My organizations are a simulation for the workplace, in that sense.

Also, I want to prove the relevance of my hobbies and interests to the general public. With my love for anime and art, I get to utilize my ideas and skills through these orgs, and at the same time pose challenges concerning these concepts. And what's even better, I get to do all these with my friends. :)

4. Y: The Last Man scenario, except in reverse - What would you do if you were the last woman in the universe?

Dear god, a world filled with testosterone? I'd probably kill myself.

Haha, I don't really know. I would feel really horrible (and that's an understatement) because all of a sudden you're the only FACTOR for the survival of the human race, and everyone else seems like a penis ready to penetrate you. The rest of the world will only look at you as a uterus, a baby machine. That's just fucked up. It's not right. While I don't think I have the courage to do anything drastic, given the circumstances, I might just hurl myself off a cliff. Or donate my egg cells to a facility. Something like that. Then I'll go mourn over the death of Cate Blanchett...

5. Why UP?

I want to be free. And this is not in the shallow sense, either; to be specific, I want to free my mind, my soul. And in UP, this is the closest to ultimate freedom I've ever had. UP is one of the best things that ever happened to me. It's way up there in the list, definitely.

They are, quite possibly, the sexiest men I have ever laid my eyes on. And I am sure, definitely, that you are all giving me a look right now that reads "what the fuck"?

The Flight of the Conchords also known as "Formerly New Zealand's fourth most popular guitar-based digi-bongo acapella-rap-funk-comedy folk duo", is composed of Brett McKenzie and Jemaine Clement. Their songs are silly, fun, and always hilarious! Watching their live performances is an awesome experience, for they always add new twists to their songs in each gig.

The Conchords also had a critically-acclaimed HBO TV series, and now they're working on the second season which will air next year. I am so psyched! ♥ Each episode has at least one music video, which are always great to watch. If you want to try them out (and I really, really suggest you do) then here are some of my favourites on youtube:

* Business Time
* (Robots) The Humans are Dead
* Frodo, Don't Wear the Ring

(I initially thought their manager Murray was annoying and Mel was seriously freaky, but I learned to love them, especially the way they look out for the band. It's just that Jemaine and Brett's characters are so dumb most of the time! xD)

Also, I love their deadpan comedic delivery (a refreshing change from in-your-face American sitcoms) and the chemistry between Jemaine and Bret. As Polly Vernon of The Guardian said, "I think most of all, it's the combination of Bret and Jemaine, which is sexy. It's the closest straight women get to hot boy-on-boy action. As salon.com put it:

'A guy with a guitar is hot. A guy with an accent is hot. And a guy who can make us laugh is really, really hot. What, then, could be better than a man who embodies all of the above? Two men, who do. And though we may love McKenzie for his reedy shyness and Clement for his inexplicable overconfidence, what we love best about them is how appealing they are together."

Uh, she is probably a shipper. Who knows? NOT MY WORDS, MARK YOU.

Why I wanted to go

1) Tradition. kotomine and I have been loyal yaoi con-goers, even back in the first time when we were just in a small, dark room, giggling to ourselves like a cult of sorts. The Lights-Out people call us "the sisters". I was underage back then. Haha!

2) To meet my online friends and friends I haven't seen for a while.


Why I ended up not going

1) I decided to marathon Flight of the Conchords instead. And I love it, most especially Jemaine, even if he looks retarded. But he's cool! *u*)/ You're so beautiful--like a tree. Or a high-class prostitute. The night before, I finished Watchmen, and a mind fresh from a Watchmen experience is not something one should have during the yaoi con.

2) I might see people I don't want to see. It's not that I hate them, it's just that they're a not-so-good reminder (lol understatement) of my recent past. I might end up sulking the whole day, which is a horrible sight to behold. Plus I won't make great company.

3) I'm not comfortable watching yaoi with a bunch of people I don't know. I know it's strange, but I just can't. I even watch my favourite movies and anime alone (or with my siblings, but we're used to each other). I like reading manga and comics alone, without a person peering behind me. I think it's a habit, but also because I regard reading/watching as a sacred, private ritual. If there will be mad fangirl squealing, it will be the one inside my head.

4) I've lost interest. kotomine feels the same. WHAT? MUSHROOM LOSING INTEREST IN YAOI? (Is it the end of the world?) No, no, no, it's not that. I am still flaming gay, as usual. And I ship gay like my life depends on it. But I'm not interested in the kind of yaoi that they sell or display anymore. Reason is, I'm a) broke and saving for graphic novels and b) the internet has spoiled me. I think of downloading instead. And if I'm not going to buy anything, then what's the use of me going there?

5) I've lost interest in anime conventions, generally. Conventions that aren't from up_ame. (because AME cons are always worth it and more :P). Most likely because I want to spend my money on classic Dvds and books. I have too many plushies, pins, cards, and other anime merchandise already.

6) I'm interested, however, in the Comic-Con. So yeah, hope to see you there? :D

Much love to giethe for lending Watchmen to me. I am entranced by it, and will probably keep images of the graphic novel in my head for days. Alan Moore you may be a dick but you're one of the best writers alive today, and so I can understand your anxiety over movie adaptations. Just don't be an asshole about it. And yet...

SUDDENLY WANK OVER THE WATCHMEN TRAILER MAKES SO MUCH SENSE.

1. If Rorschach is played by some dopey pretty boy actor then blood will be shed. (Goddamnit Hollywood do something right for once)

2. Zack Snyder. Dude who directed 300. Normally I would say "Oh holy fucking shit amazing" because 300 had the most epic visuals -- I think my eyes watered the three times I watched that movie, I couldn't trust myself to look away at all. Plus manly boys and pecs. What's not to love?

But then I realized that 300 was dumb in all other aspects. Initially you'd choose to ignore the crap because OH MY GOD RIPPLING MUSCLES, but after watching the movie three times you get to see how shallow everything is. And then you move on. It's not the type of movie that sticks to you. Rather, it's the type of movie you remember because of all the homoerotic innuendos and jokes you come up with.

Ah hell, I didn't like the graphic novel to begin with. Err, sorry Frank Miller fans?

3. Which is not to say that I'm NOT excited to see a Watchmen movie. I am. I salivate over the thought of seeing Dr. Manhattan on Mars, I actually pictured it as something perfect for a film. I want to see Rorschach's jail time portion! I WANT OZZY. But after re-watching the whole trailer with the whole Smashing Pumpkins song I'm all what. Because Watchmen is one of the most depressing and satirical graphic novels I've ever read, and the trailer made it look like they're Fantastic Four, or something.

4. Nevertheless, I await the movie with both excitement and dread. Here's to hoping Zack Snyder and his writers capture the wonder of the original, while adding their own great, let me repeat, GREAT ideas in the mix.

What? It was cute. ♥ Snagged from hyper_airis!

1. There are 30 questions.
2. Next to each number, write only the name of the person who fits.
3. Answer one question with one name.
4. Don't tell the questions to anyone who isn't doing the meme. (I'd either IM you the questions or send you a private message!)

1. sei_kou_ki
2. kotomine. wapepepepe
3. Right now, athena_crikey
4. megane_penguin
5. austere_flare
6. iraya_sama
7. neiarc
8. fera_festiva
9. mooguriklaine
10. wuzu
11. wigiboy
12. ranalinde
13. minnow_53
14. BOTH POINTS GO TO undyingpenis =))
15. hyper_airis
16. factorielle
17. gigacat
18. cheska
19. leviosa8
20. kyrios_efiastis
21. ame_pubcom
22. tea_drinker
23. erisdoll
24. sarjhoshino
25. moki
26. MY FLIST HAHAHAHA (or not)
27. himitsu_no_hime
28. luvien
29. star_flare (...in MCDO! xD :3)
30. OMG BALLS