Dude, I got these awesome blank CDs that are black on the bottom and has a black and green design on top. Sweeeeeet.

Anyway, my life has been basically consumed by school. It makes me pretty sad that I think about homework and plan out an itinerary based on my homework and I get really antsy and anxious at work from worrying about how I'm gonna get my shit done. Oh man, I don't even want to mention work. Yesterday was the second worst day of work ever. Things went horribly wrong and it was no one's fault. But the boss kept treating me as if I did it. *Sigh* I hate my boss. So very much.

I have Japanese class in a couple minutes, but I really don't feel like going. I'd rather just sleep. I got 3 hours of sleep last night and that was only because I accidentally slept in. And I would've just slept in if I knew that the moon observation paper was gonna be due on Thursday rather than today. JinWon told me, "Oh, I was gonna call you to tell you that it's due on Thursday, but then you came into class." XD Ah well.

I've been hanging out with the Korean group a lot. They're pretty awesome people, except for the one fact that they speak in rapid fast Korean to each other and make you feel left out at times. But whatever, I'm used to it. I'm learning some Korean too. Dija... Kogo shin. And uhhh... That's about it. I haven't made many inside jokes since middle school (damn, those were the days), but with these guys, I have TONS! It's great. XDD Especially since we yell all these absurdities to each other and other people turn around and stare. Kono mustard! Extra pen please. Crispy #6 with barbecue sauce. But if they charge 50 cents, then never mind, just ketchup. Crispy baby toes. Damnit. DUMBASS!! Dija dija. Ishiteru. Sex ticket.

Haha, hopefully, they'll agree to come karaoke tomorrow!! :D

Tuesdays and Thursdays are my ultimate enemies.

At school for frikkin 12 hours. I do have a couple hours of break, but it's still around 9 hours of actual class on Thursdays and about 10.5 hours on Tuesdays. I took a nap between Astronomy and Art in my car and it was fucking cold. But I did not want to go to the cafeteria, risking being harassed by someone I don't like and I was tired, so I slept in my car. It felt nice, kinda.

Let's see... For Color Theory, I need to make a color study based on some kind of cultural or religious reference. The teacher couldn't pronounce "Shinto" right at all (she kept saying, "Shintu") so just to make fun of her, I think I'll do a Shinto based piece. Since lately, I've been really fascinated by the Yatagarasu, I think I'll do that. Which reminds me, I'm part of the DeviantArt Pick Your Poison tournament and I need to make a piece that reflects my interpretation of death...

Anyway, my art class is filled with a bunch of moms trying to find a new career in mostly interior design. I feel really weird and awkward in this class. They all talk about their kids and husbands and issues that make them worry about their children. Yeah, it's really strange to have to be around. I mean, they're nice and all. But I wish there was someone that was at least kinda near my age...

Statistics is so boring. It's such easy logical fractions crap right now. We're doing standard deviations right now and I'm wondering why it seems so easy this time around when back in high school, I was struggling...

Japanese was so painfully boring. God, I hate Prince-sensei. And honorifics are so difficult for me to get because I've been brought up on informal Japanese slang. It doesn't sound right to me, but it's actually backwards. What I'm saying is technically not correct.

Afterwards, Ben called me and asked if I wanted to study with him. He has a really busy schedule and he is my oldest friend who I've actually stayed friends with throughout the years, so I was overjoyed to hear that. We went to Borders and it seemed like he went to COMPUSA and bought a bunch of useless shit just because it's cheap cuz COMPUSA is going out of business. Anyway, he was trying to figure out the instructions and I did my Japanese homework. Then he needed to charge his whatever the hell it was and so we went to the children's section to continue our studies... Yes, the children's section is the best place to do your college level homework. XD Nah, it was the only section with an outlet in plain sight. Then we just talked about random shit and then it was almost closing time. I had a coupon with me, so I took advantage of it and bought Letters from Iwo Jima and then went home.

I already saw Letters from Iwo Jima with my dad at the Regency. And frankly, we were both sorely disappointed by the movie. Poorly developed plot and story. People seem to like the color filter placed on it and yeah, it is kinda unique, but it's not really necessary... It was distracting to me. There were a lot of moments where it seemed so ridiculously unrealistic. Romance movies, that's passable. But a war movie? No. The part where Fujita gets shot by the American soldier standing on the sand dune was so stupid. General Kuribayashi was OBVIOUSLY still alive, even to someone standing faraway. If that American soldier made the effort to shoot Fujita, why not Kuribayashi...? And then how the hell does Saigo come down from the sand dune, perhaps 5 minutes after the American soldier took a shot without getting noticed and shot as well? I really fucking hate that part. My uncle saw this too when my dad went to Japan a while back and he was pretty damn disappointed too. But still, it's a sad war story. It's just a shame that they tried to pack too much in a movie.

I think I kinda want to do my Pick Your Poison entry with relations to WWII. I don't like being personal with my artwork, but this will give me an opportunity to relate my views through impersonal concept.

Man. I have work tomorrow. That sucks. I hope the weather will get better. The heavy rainfall is making me miserable.

Btw, should I live in a dorm or an apartment? I really can't decide. The SJSU dorms are so beautiful. The UCLA dorms are set up so that you have to share a bedroom with like 2 people or something. I'm not so happy about that. I should look into it more.

Thanks to Danielle, I didn't have to go searching through my archives to get this survey! XD

1.What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Drive my own car. And um. Worked at a restaurant.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I made pretty stereotypical resolutions, like don't procrastinate. But I think I did keep one that was make more money. I'll mostly make art related resolutions for next year cuz that'll actually motivate me and I'll actually keep them.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that I know of... I know Rimu (my baby cousin!) was born last year... So no, not this year.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nicole Injayan. We were good friends in middle school. I really do miss her.

5. What countries did you visit?
Japan.

5 1/2. What states did you visit?
Didn't visit any other states. D:

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
A place of my own or a dorm away from my parents. And attendance in UCLA or SJSU rather than COM.

7. What date(s) from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 13. THAT'S WHEN I MET YUL KWON!!! *___*

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I didn't really achieve anything worth mentioning this year.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Seriously, being at COM. I really hate this school.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I sprained my ankle in the spring.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My car and FFXII.

12. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Shane. I get all riled up just thinking about it.

13. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My Uncle Chillman cuz he was able to find a nice job in Osaka!

14. Where did most of your money go?
Gasoline... Food... :(

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Uhhh... Karaoke? Japan? I dunno, nothing really out of the ordinary happened this year.

16. What songs will always remind you of 2007?
Amuro Namie, melody., Dragon Ash, and Radwimps.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
Sadder. Shit happened.
ii. thinner or fatter?
I think I stayed the same.
iii. richer or poorer?
Richer. Hella ballin'. Haha, yeah right, I wish.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Art. Goddamn classes I hate keep getting in the way.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Less online/computer time.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
Uhhh, I slept in. I watched TV with my dad. Then Nico, dad, and I had a dinner. And that's it.

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Nah.

23. How many one-night stands?
Haha, none. Hell no.

24. What was your favorite TV programs?
Survivor, naturally! :D And Man vs. Wild and Planet Earth! America's Most Smartest Model was pretty good too.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I hate my boss?

26. What was the best book you read?
Well... I didn't really read a lot of new books this year. Reading the last Harry Potter book was fulfilling and that's about it.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Radwimps and Dragon Ash!

28. What did you want and get?
A car and a well paying job without having to work a lot of hours.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
300 and Ratatouille. *_*

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
On my actual birthday, I went to the beach with Danielle, Lacy, Max, and Conner and also had some dinner. A month later, I had my birthday party which consisted of Robata and hella karaoke. XD I turned 19. What a boring age.

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Not being at COM. Living on my own. Not wasting my time on stupid people.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
More graphic with a lot of soccer shirts. And of course, shorts everyday, regardless of the weather.

34. What kept you sane?
Who said I was sane? I was not sane for most of this year. I suppose mangas and music.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Yul Kwon because I GOT TO MEET HIM. I swear, it was DESTINY. Ahahaha

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
I dunno. A lot of political issues stirs me up. Probably the environmental ones.

37. Who did you miss?
Uncle Chillman. :(

38. Who was the best new person you met?
My co-workers at Robata! Otto-nii-chan, Toshiya-san, Shin-san, Kawasaki-san, Tomo-san, Tomo-san, Hiroki-san, Akemi-san, Nui, Anthony, Fernando, Claudio, Santiago, Alvaron, etc...

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
Don't schedule your classes in the morning if you're a night person.

40. What's your favorite song of 2007?
Hmmm, I have a lot of favorites. But I suppose Nettaiya by Rip Slyme or Kiseki by Radwimps.

41. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Sore zore hitotsu no life, sore zore ga eranda style, sore zore hitotsu no life, hitotsu no ai whoa yeah yeah.

Man, I don't know wtf I'm doing... :\ Why are guys so difficult? Haha, I'm probably the one being difficult.

Tomorrow, I should work on some art. Like actually finish some pieces. And start on a Happy Holidays drawing. Or something. I've been very unproductive lately.

I had jury duty this morning. My dad told me I should come in 5 minutes late because they always call more juries than they need and by the time I get there, they'll let me off the hook. So I went 5 minutes late and I had to sit down and watch people who were like an hour late also have to sit down and wait. Goddamnit. Some people were called to come back later for a different trial and the rest of us had to wait until the judge could tell us what the hell was going on. Two hours later, two volumes of Bleach, and a lot of texting later, it was announced that the trial is not gonna happen and we all went home. Oh well, at least I got to read some Bleach.

I was asked to come to Starbase and play some arcade games. Man, I haven't been to that place in years! So I thought I'd go play some DDR for old time's sake. Bob was there, but I don't think he remembers me. XD Haha, that's okay. I played some DDR with Kat and damn, I'm out of it. I can't do it anymore. :\ Oh well, it's not a skill that I'm devastated about losing.

Afterwards, I went to Y's house and we chilled until Annie came by and went to Melissa's house so that the four of us could go to the new Hawaiian restaurant that used to be Tomoe. The story behind that restaurant is crazy! Tomo-san used to own Tomoe and it had been around for a very long time until he decided to close it down. Then it became a really shitty sushi restaurant and I suppose that went out of business. Well, Tomo-san now works at Robata as the grill chef and Moy, one of the servers, her sister bought the old building and now she has a Hawaiian restaurant. Weird, eh? Well, I think it's really weird. But it's awesome cuz even though the food is pretty generic, the portions are huge and very cheap! And I really like the curly fries. :)

Then we went back to Melissa's house and burned each other's hair I mean... We straightened and curled each other's hair. It really didn't work though. We all smelled like burned hair and our hair looked like it was half straight, half wavy-ish. So pathetic.

And there are plans to go karaoke on Thursday!! :D Fuck yeah!! Toshiya-san introduced me to this awesome band, Radwimps, and I wish the karaoke had their songs, but it's very doubtful. Oh well. "Nanchitte ne~" XDD

Name some good songs that aren't hard to sing so that I can start practicing! XD

I really frikkin hate winter. And I probably have seasonal affective disorder.

( Whining and bitching... )

It's 4:19AM... What am I doing up so late... I don't know...

I was drawing. And then I was chatting with an old pal of mine... And then I was checking out tablets. I want the medium size Bamboo rather than an Intuos... But if I do want to get serious about my art, I suppose I should go Intuos... But the Bamboo is so lovely! I love it.

Anyway, I'm done with applying to UCs and CSUs. I applied to San Jose State, Cal Poly San Luis Obispo, and UCLA. My first choice is UCLA, then SJSU, and then CalPoly. I'm thinking about applying to a couple private schools, just to see how much of a scholarship I can get. But the application fees are so expensive... My poor bank account... Anyway. Does anyone have recommendations for which schools I should look into/schools I should avoid at all costs? I'm trying to major in Graphic Design. But I am considering Animation too. And Japanese as a second (or third) major. Fashion Design has really fascinated me recently too... Arrrrgh, wtf am I doing? Am I trying to commit suicide?

Well, any words of advice would be so awesome.

Thanks.

Don't mind the title. I actually hate that song.

But I really had an awful day. Man. I don't really want to go into details of what happened because it just makes me feel like such a douchebag. And now, you are probably asking, "Then why the hell did you mention it?" Just getting out the fact that I had a bad day makes me feel somewhat better.

In bulleted form:
-Dad was FURIOUS with me this morning.
-Couldn't donate blood because of low iron. (Never happened before)
-Missed AGS meeting because I was studying for Biology, but my friends kept distracting me from doing it and I got incredibly sleepy.
-Made some huge calculation error at work and my boss is probably furious at me too. Had to stay after work for an hour to try and figure out what went wrong and both of us don't know why. He told me to be more serious about work.
-Got a fat intense lecture from my dad about being more responsible.

Fucking sucks because if only my dad knew what people my age are really like, he probably wouldn't be this mad at me. But then again, even if he did, he probably wouldn't give a shit because I'm not them. But seriously, his argument was based on irrational anger. So my self esteem isn't really hurt, but I feel rather insulted. That doesn't necessarily affect my self esteem, right? I don't even know, but whatever. Right after my boss yells at me to be more serious about work, I get yelled at by my dad to be more responsible. Man, I'd be dealing with this better if it didn't happen right after another.

I hella want to move out. Not only to have my own life, but to also prove to my dad that I AM capable of living on my own. I swear, of all the people that I know of, I'm not even anywhere near the bottom half of the "capable of living on their own" list. Moving out would be a childhood dream come true. (Literally.) But that's stupid, less than a year before I transfer out... Ugh, damnit.

Being a transferring art student sucks. We gotta do the application process and organize a portfolio. So time consuming... I don't know what the hell to do for my personal statement. Does anyone have any pointers?

Things aren't terribly interesting these days. It's hard to motivate myself to go to school because I hate it so much. I've been ditching Biology a lot lately and on the syllabus, it says the third midterm is today. So I RUSHED to class to find out it's postponed. But thank God. I haven't really studied. This gives me not a lot of time though because Wednesdays are my enemy. I ditched art today. And I think this was a good decision because apparently, it was all lecture and boring shit.

My brother's trying to force me to buy the PS3. Don't get me wrong, I do want it. But there aren't really any good games for it at the moment. The only games I'm interested in are... Um. Armored Core 4 and... Maybe Dynasty Warriors: Gundam, just to visit my childhood days. But I hella fucking want SingStar when it comes out in February... It'll be like having my own karaoke machine! I wonder if they'll have Japanese songs because that's what I'm mostly interested in.

Otherwise, that's about it. Oh, not much luck with the guy. This is a complicated situation that I don't know how to resolve. I guess nothing can really happen until I tell him how I feel. But I'm such a pansy. I can't seem to do it. D: I'm such a stupid girl when it comes to things like this.

Do you people remember Brett from middle school/high school? Remember his adorable little brother, Evan? Well, I kept running into him and I told him that we should hang out because I love the kid like a little brother that doesn't suck. And he came over today! Made me so happy. I don't know what is considered fun for 12-year-olds, so we just played some video games, talked, ate, and laughed at hilarious YouTube videos. Awww, we had an awesome time. He's gonna be such a popular kid in high school. And he's gonna be super famous for whatever. And I'm gonna be like, "HELL YEAH, I totally knew this kid since he was a baby and we're BFFs."

Anyway, I'm giving blood tomorrow morning, so I suppose I should sleep. Maybe I should've taken an iron supplement... Oh well.

Wow, third day of LJ posting. Haven't done that in years.

Anyway, I can't believe I'm asking this. I want to ask if there's anyone going to YaoiCon that's happening this weekend in the San Mateo/San Francisco Airport Marriott Hotel? No, for the love of Christ, I'm not going, but there's a lot of artists that I really like from DeviantArt that are going to be selling prints at YaoiCon and I was wondering if someone who is going could possibly buy art prints for me? I have work over the weekend, and honestly, I have no interest in going to an anime convention, much less a convention for the love of Yaoi. *Shudders* But this may be one of the few chances I'll have to get my hands on some of these art prints! I will even pay half of the entrance fee or whatever. (Well, if you got a weekend pass... Um. I'll have to figure something out.) So, if anyone's going or knows of anyone who is going, please contact me! :) I WANT ART.

Yeah. That's all. Thanks.

This is such a middle school girl entry. But I need to somehow let this out. Ignore this if you want, this is basically just so that I don't let this build up.

( Indecisiveness is my downfall... )

I'm surprised I still remember how to do LJ cuts.