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( long fucking ass survey )
> rachel
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| so long. farewell... |
[23 Apr 2004|12:30am] |
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the working title ;; something she said |
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so yeah im closing this journal :D
I got a new journal. Sharing with my best friend. Because the new journal.. is just fracking rad.
www.livejournal.com/~whorexxcore
i've already added EVERYONE on my list so just add me the new name back <333333 see you at the new journal <3
rachel.
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| the early november |
[22 Apr 2004|05:55pm] |
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i want to hear you sad ;; e11 |
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for all of this
im better off without you
do you regret
your lonliness
.. i love this song <3<3
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| Job hunting. |
[22 Apr 2004|01:36am] |
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I applied at a retirement home today.
Tomorrow I'm dropping an application
Back off at 3 places; Shelby's (coffee house)
Tropical Smoothie, and Hannah Park. I am
getting a little interview tomorrow
with the people at Tropical Smoothie
so good luck for me :D
<3
rachel.
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| grar. |
[20 Apr 2004|03:19pm] |
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boys suck so hard. gr.
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| everytime i try to fly i fall... |
[19 Apr 2004|10:38am] |
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whatever crap is on tv |
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Well.. I just watched the new Britney Spears video. I've waited like a while to see it because I heard people talking about it. I don't know if I like it yet, it was weird and I'm not sure. haha.
( my weekend )
So Benji the hot topic guy has like pink and black hair and its like a mohawk but I've never seen it spiked up. He's got a lip ring and tattoos on his arms. And he's tall and realllly skinny. He i/m'd me last night and was like "I saw you in my work and you don't even say hey don't be shady" and I was like "you didnt say hi either!" and he's like "I don't say hi first thats how it works with me" I was like ahh fine, next time or something. haha. I asked him, online, what his favorite band was... and he said SILVERCHAIR. And I was like, are you kidding. And he's like no. And I'm like dude.. that has been my favorite band for SO LONG. And so we started talking about all that. And I'm going to let him borrow some of my DVD's of Silverchair and vise-versa. I was like holy mother of hell we were meant to be haha. He's in a band and they just signed some sort of production deal to go record out in L.A in a couple months and I was like dude that is sweet. I'll post the website once it's up. So yeah, he's hot and he's really cool... just like me :D hahahah.
I had a hard time sleeping last night because of watching Texas Chainsaw. I don't know why but I get superly freaked out and I start to hear noises and feel things and see things and I really creep myself out. And so once I got offline around 4:00-something I went in my room and turned on Disney Channel and I fell asleep pretty fast. I was scared I was going to have nightmares, but it's all good. The bug Riker sent to my house, he taught him Taikwando so he can attack all the monsters and stuff I make up in my head, lmfao good work fly good work.
<3
rachel.
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[18 Apr 2004|10:11pm] |
so uh
im bored
someone i/m me.
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| Sundays blow my face off. |
[18 Apr 2004|12:24pm] |
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ben folds fives ;; brick |
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Why are Sundays like
the most boring day
ALWAYS. haha.
Chad just called.
We talked for like 3 minutes.
He was like "I just called,
because I didn't call you yesterday,
but I can't talk right now"
What the frack... don't call me then.
haha.
Paul didn't call yesterday and not
so far today. He wanted to hang out
today, or so he said on Friday.
But who knows. I don't want to call him
first because I ... don't know why.
I'm trying to get my mom to come
down here today and then we can take
my car out because it needs to have gas
put in it and be driven around because
it normally just sits there and maybe
we can find something retarded to do haha.
<3
rachel.
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| Question time. |
[16 Apr 2004|04:05pm] |
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I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions; no more, no less.
Ask me anything you want.
Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.
( copied from jas<3 )
<3
rachel.
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| I love the mall. |
[14 Apr 2004|09:18pm] |
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I got a new black and pink skirt.
It's really nice.
And I dress it down with t-shirts of course.
It was on sale for 18 dollars at JC Penny.
It's past my knees and like...
All different directions.
I'll post pictures later.
I got 5 new bracelets.
A rainbow one.
A white one with black polka dots.
And 3 of these silver and colored jewels ones.
Pictures will come later as well.
I got new MAC make up.
2 eyeshadows.
One is a gold.
And one is a really pretty green/blue sparkle.
Then I got a new eyeliner.
It's dark green. Looks nice with the eyeshadow.
And I can mix all the colors that I got last time.
And make new combos.
Pictures later.
<3
rachel.
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| Whatever. |
[13 Apr 2004|11:31pm] |
I went to target.
I got two new necklaces.
They are both pretty.
I got a Frank Sinatra "22 Greatest Love Song" cd.
I went to Cd Connection.
And I got the new Ben Jelen cd.
I don't know if it's good yet.
I'm on song number 2.
So we'll see.
I had practice for my performance.
I went to his house.
And we used his equipment.
Like big amps and a nice mic.
I don't know.
I'm really scared.
I have one maybe two more practices.
Before the real thing.
Hopefully I'll do good =)
rachel.
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[13 Apr 2004|06:22pm] |
wow.
i did something so fucking stupid.
i hate this.
i hate not knowing.
i hate caring.
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| Woo about to sleep. |
[13 Apr 2004|04:34am] |
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I just got off the phone with Ryan. We talked for almost and hour and a half. He's the dude from online with a whole bunch of other people that go to this chat (hello my whores) most of them have journals now =) I have never talked to him before on the phone and I thought he used to hate me and I used to not like him, but it was cool.
I am about to go to sleep and Lloyd In Space is on. I watch this show when I'm up at 4:30.. which is usually every morning. It's a dumb show but it amuses me at this hour.
rachel.
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[13 Apr 2004|12:15am] |
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who wants to make out with my icon... aka me :D haha
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| CHURCH BLOWS. |
[11 Apr 2004|11:50am] |
lmfao sorry
my old best friend used to go to this church
and his parents were the pastors.
so i thought id go since i havent seen him in forever
and they no longer go there
so... i had to sit in a friggen thing for an hour
and i really hate church, im sorry lmfao
so im going to try to call his old home number..
i havent called him since the 7th grade?
we were best friends, he got mean
changed schools
came back, was nice
but we never really became friends again
ive been thinking about him so much lately
and i miss him and i miss having him as my friend
he was such a good part of my life and it just really sucks
that we drifted apart because we were like ... gah
it makes me sad.. i cried about it two nights ago.
Happy Easter All. haha.
I had my graduation party last night.
We played pin the tail on the donkey and i got spun around 10 times
i was like 4 feet away from the target. SO FUNNY. lmfao
and we had a cook out. and i got some small little gifts
and i got 200 bucks :D
im going to buy a digital camera
and then with the rest put it in the bank.
we had cake. mm haha
chad told me he likes me and stuff
all his friends that are girls like him
so he doesnt want to "go out" with me
because he doesnt want to lose friends
which i understand
i dont want a boyfriend so we can just hang
which is cool.
he thinks im hot =)
well, thats all for now.
much love.
rachel.
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| Off to work I go. |
[05 Apr 2004|07:06am] |
I'm going to work today with my dad.
I am going to get 50 dollars for it. YAY.
I need to stick with my diet this week
Because I feel like I've gained weight
And I hate that feeling
So I need to stop eating like a pig
And eat according to my diet
And lose more weight because I was doing so well.
Becca, dahling. I love you.
Don't always be so concerned about me like..
Not wanting to talk to you because of whatever
This is regaurds to your journal.
And I'm sorry <3
Please don't feel that way
rachel
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| are all the things you've said to me a lie? |
[03 Apr 2004|12:12pm] |
so im crying and i feel like i could throw up
why do i even read his journal
why do i even care anymore haha.
something needs to sink in for me to realize
that i'm not enough
can someone just please tell me
that i'm not enough.
please.
i am tired of feeling hurt
and having my heart broken
over and over by the same person
i hate love. and i hate this.
i used to think love was worth something
its not worth anything
if the person you love doesnt love back
and i hate you for not loving me back.
but for whatever reason, i do still love you
everything i see, think, hear, feel, touch.
it reminds me of you or is about you.
and i hate that i cant get over you
and i hate that i always feel something for you
and i hate that i try to make myself believe that you care
and i hate that i try so fucking hard for something so worthless
and i hate that i ... can't make you happy.
you are my everything, really.
and i'll continue to wait, because i'm stupid like that.
i'll continue to pretend that you want me to come over.
and i'll pretend that you like me
i'll be happy for you if thats what you want me to do.
i won't stop loving you.
until i stop breathing.
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[03 Apr 2004|12:05pm] |
my heart just stopped.
and i'm crying now.
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