[Filter: Private]

They say I cannot write [this?], however we never [heard? asked?] them, which is why we [bonded?]

It matters not what they say. Yasirina is my [heart?, location?] and [charge?], and it was not [disputed?] what [Ferdidad] did in the [Riverlands]. It is my [decision].

Hmm... and then there's still...

[a carefully copied section, with certain sections underlined, circled, or bracketed]

[the copying down of some other notes]



[Old High Kilian]

... you do not [conceive? comprehend] any of that, no? I [feel? realize?] that I cannot [detail?] it, that I cannot say you any of the [?] that I [crave?] to so [poorly? perversely?]. I cannot [furnish?] the [assistance?] for or to say you which [...? future?].

You should be [disorganized?; in the dark?], if this is the way that you take. There should be many questions... and the [responses of none]. I feel it that I cannot give them you, but I [crave?] to give [?] that I am able.

[Trade]

Perhaps you do not [comprehend?] any of that, no? I [feel?] that I cannot [give detail] on it, that I cannot say you any of the [?] that I [desire] to so[poorly?] I cannot [give? furnish?] the [assistance?] for or to say you [?]

You should be [perplexed?], if this is the way that you take. There must be many questions... and no answers. I feel it that I cannot give them you, but I [desire] to give it to him that I am able.

... Mn.

Some of the phrasing is... difficult, haa~ why, not even the letters match, truly, or the meanings... hm.

[Filter: Jonathan]

Ah... dear~? I believe I may be in need of your eyes once more~

[Filter: Private]

Mmm, now let me see~

[a carefully copied paragraph, with some words underlined]

Now lets see, haa~ it hardly seems to match up with what I have here, no? Bits, and pieces, though perhaps ...

[carefully copied word] -- mm, and this is the one that seems to be stressed; so perhaps ... it is akin to [Old High Kilian] mine [Trade] though perhaps a little more ... my, yes, that may be it...

And these letters... now, if that's correct, then... these are pronouns, here, and ...

[something carefully copied from her notes] ... well, that fits a little better, does it not~? Perhaps, "They say..." and ... yes, that fits with --

[Old High Kilian]

They say I cannot write [...]

[You and I - we?] never [heard? asked?] them, which is why we [similarity? -- bond?]

It matters not what they say. Yasirina is my [carefully copied word; location? similar to home, and yet ] and [ burden? charge? ], and it was not [knowledge root; asked? disputed -- no ...] what [Name; possibly Ferdiad?] did in the [location; low lands, perhaps ... Riverlands? If this is indeed archaic, and Kanemoria is... hmm]

It is my [option? decision]

[Trade]

They say I cannot write [this?], however we never [heard? asked?] them, which is why we [had a bond? something-- hm, this still feels unfinished]

It matters not what they say. Yasirina is my [?] and [charge?], and it was not [disputed?] what [Ferdidad] did in the [Riverlands]. It is my [decision].


Haa, I had hoped it would look better in here, though perhaps I should keep to my notes~ and that's only the beginning. The rest is full of holes, still ... I'll have Jonathan take a look at it~

[Filter: Private; Old High Megam]

Haa, there is so much that I could write here, truly, and so little of it that I wish to ...

If only there were a better way to gather my thoughts, without traveling down certain unpleasant avenues~ still, this is hardly the time, with so much to do, so much to ...

Getting them all through this is what is important ... I am glad that the time has passed, and perhaps we can hopefully be on our way. Especially if has come to ... such times. I do not fault him for it, in his position, naturally ...

At least once we'll on the road I'll have more time to work through our lovely little piece~ Jonathan has certainly been diligent in this matter, though I have to make sure he gets his proper rest, no~? Haa ...



Mm, it was home once, wasn't it~ and now there are ghosts, everywhere ...

I have to wonder if Drucey's forgotten about me, out there~ perhaps it's for the best. Even though it wouldn't surprise me if we all ended up back together anyway, haa, and then why even wonder about these past few months ...? I ne

This is getting too long already, really now~ and I haven't even... touched, some topics~


... Mn.

[Filter: Keagan]

Ah ... would you prefer writing, dear ...?

[Filter: Private, in Old High Megam]

I didn't quite expect to see Lady Susan writing again. Still... perhaps it isn't best to say anything, until her writing at least seems ... steadier. So many reminders. I can understand why it's so hard for her, haa ...

I haven't written to Mm, but that is yet ... another matter. I truly shouldn't dwell on ... my, but it's difficult, when ... well. No more of that, you silly woman~

As for the rest, I suppose that being here in this inn is the best circumstance that we could have hoped for, considering ...~ certainly better than being on the road, when the date draws ever closer. How very odd time is ...

Mmm, in the meantime, there is this lovely translation to continue work on... mmm, if I could only find my original notes on the language, then it shouldn't be too difficult for us to piece together. At least we have the next few days to focus our concentrations before ... ah, well ...~

How much more will they have to endure ...

I'll have to speak to all of them, before ... mmm. Just a little more time, with this letter, and then perhaps ... a walk with Keagan, some tea with Celeste, and ... talks with the rest, Kail would like his favorite snack, and ... the same for Faith and dear Sawyer, as well ... and then Lawrence, haa, my ... so much to do. So little time ... but we must make the most of what we have.

[Filter: Private, in Old High Megam]

Haa, I... I suppose of all the dates for me to keep track of, it would happen that another important one would slip my mind, like this...

And how very like Jace, to be aware ...

Perhaps if we had been able to leave sooner, but time does fly by, and we've already experienced this on an open road before... and this is a desert, indeed. So much more dangerous ... and there is no telling what may occur this time, considering ... first home, then nightmares ...

[Filter: Lawrence and Keagan, in trade]

Ah... dears~?

I believe there is something, mmm, that needs be discussed... ah, before we become too involved with our current plans...?

[Filter: Private, Old High Megam]

Haa, another translation, then ...? It should be ... busy work, at least, whenever they do return ...

Now~ so busy, these last few days ...! Prizes, birthdays, consolation prizes ...~ it's a start, at least ... and it is wonderful to see the uplifted spirits these past few days. It won't be long now, before ... though there's time yet, before unpleasantness ... no need to bring it up now, truly~

[Filter: Public, Trade]

Haa, I certainly hope that the cake was to your liking, Sawyer~ congratulations again, dear.

[Filter: Private, Old High Megam]

Haa, my Keagan, it has been a while, hasn't it, dear~ though it was ... rather nice, to have time to ourselves, we hardly ... it was a lovely time. And... haa~ well.


My, and then to only return to -- well, perhaps it wasn't on purpose, however, it's still ... well. I'm just being silly, truly~ after all, we did ... discuss it, and ... well then. I ... mmm~

[Filter: Dr

... ah, well~ it's not as if it wasn't ... expected, truly ...

[Filter: Private, Old High Atsirian]

My, today has certainly been ... mmm. It certainly takes away from the mood just scarcely a few days ago, though it is entirely understandable. It is a loss ...



Still, there is nothing more we can do but wait. Wait and ... haa. What more can I say, truly ...? Keagan ...

[Filter: Private, Old Megam]

This city... while it has changed, it is still very much the one I recall. Ghosts need not trouble me, nor... someone's games, truly~ but best no more be spoken of that, why, it would almost seem as if I am~ distracted, by such nonsense.


Joshua is just remarkable, truly... so, small, still, but growing larger all the time... even though the time is hardly passing, it feels as if it is. It is... haa.

And it's... almost a year, already, isn't that... something, haa~ such a foolish woman, truly. Foolish, foolish ... and what more could I say ... oh Keagan.

[Filter: Private, Old Megam]

Haa, I suppose I should be reading this more, though lately it seems ... it's hard not to see the pleas for help, out there in the open. And then Lady Laeleena, herself ... she was hardly older than I, and with so many losses, she ... I suppose there no real reason to, haa, lie here, though if a strong woman such as she could be driven to such measures ...

Lady Lelani is still ... shaken, by all of these events, and who could blame her, truly? If Corrina were ... it would be almost welcoming to face a tirade from Lady Susan, and instead there are all of these ... pauses, and silences.

Birthdays, haa, I certainly have much to make up for again, don't I, dears~? It is only fortunate that others are willing to put forwards the effort, as of late, despite the circumstances.

Helping Inara with Joshua seems to be taking up most of my time as of late, it seems, anyway; and ... he is a wonderful boy. Remarkably patient, save for certain situations, though he seems to calm quickly enough when I am there, haa ...

As for the situation it is... certainly regrettable. Lawrence ... I can only hope that he is willing to open up to the others soon. He seemed even more strained, before they left, though that could have simply been due to ... circumstance. And that woman's motivations, I still haven't been able to quite put a finger on them, though her decisions seem ... hm. It is a shame that I was not able to become closer with Karlesta, though I suppose certain ... situations certainly conflicted with that happening, despite my efforts.

Keagan ... I suppose there is little to be done about that, as well. An argument with my husband, when we hardly have the time to speak to one another as it is... especially with certain ... dates on the horizon, that will certainly not help the matter. And the time, while it often seems ... slow, it has a tendency to fly by when we are most... unprepared for it. Now is not the time for ... inviting certain things, to be sure ...

And then there's Drucey... and Terrance, and ... that entire mess, I can't even think, haha, truly ...


Oh... Joshua's woken up. I wonder if he'd like a song, haa~ it's ... something, at least, is it not ...

[Filter: Private, Old Atsirian]

Haa ... the Moon Festival is tonight, and ... truly, what more can be said, for ... everything.

One tragedy after the other ... it is all too much at once, truly ... and with each, what more could we ... what more could anyone ...

To be a Mother in this ... my heart aches for all of them. Those losses... each so painful... if they are anything like the holes left by Corrina and Aine, they ... haa, I ...

And despite all of this ... Drucey, he ... as if that ...


And Celeste... how can I ... how can I even console her in this, anyone, when it is only the very beginning, and so much is breaking ... I ... and there's nothing to do but continue on, is there, doing what ... there has to be something

... I cannot accept simply being useless, when there is so much ... at stake, always ...

[Filter: Private, Old Megam]

There is always a certain ... something painful, about ... being able to do nothing but watch, as those who are suffering in front of your very eyes beg for help, and yet ...

Oh Celeste ... there is no easy way to answer that, nothing that could be said to ... fix this, truly, words will do little in such a time, despite ... everything. They only must continue to remain ... strong, despite everything, strong and ... we must as well.

And this madness ...

Surely their suffering cannot go on much longer, not ... if it is indeed similar to what happened with Kail, and Norey -- the earthquake, the tornado -- then the time is surely near, is it not ...? For -- something, whatever that may be, to ...

Surely. So much has gone on, already, and ...

I cannot ...


[Filter: Lady Laeleena, in Atsirian]

From one Mother to another ... I am aware that you certainly have your hands -- tied, however, if there truly is any way at all that I may be of aid, or even if you wish to speak ...

[shaky]

[Filter: Private]

Haa ...

How many have I missed already, in these past few weeks, dear? I've lost track since ... Belle, truly ... and today is ... haa ...



... and then Celeste, tomorrow ... I will have to make it up to her, all of them, truly ...

[shaky]

[Filter: Private]







... and today ...

They all need ... surely -- they'll need, and ...


dear ...

[shaky]

[Filter: Private]

[whatever was started here has been struck out]






ah ... Drucey was right, I ...

It is my fault, dear ...

[Filter: Private, in Old Megam]

Haa, today ...

My, and to think that two years ago was when we were betrothed~ and that does make it all the more special, doesn't it? Time is certainly ... it passes, before you can truly understand it, and ... appreciate it, before it goes past ...

And there is always a time before, and after ... so many things, that are simply precious. One cannot truly -- imagine a different future, for what is the use in that, mmm~? Dwelling on the past is as well, and ... truly the past is what cannot be changed, only where time leads you under your feet ...

Ahaha, truly, so much preparation throughout these days, it will be such a wonderful flow of activity, by the time Rose Day arrives ... most everyone has settled on what they wish to get done already, haa, which certainly makes preparation easier, to be sure~ and those who have not, why, there is still time, regardless.

My, reflecting does take up time on it's own, doesn't it~? I suppose it cannot be helped, truly -- hm, now, what is ...

[long pause]


Ah, haa -- it couldn't have been, of course, I'm

Mmm, it's simply because I'm here, after all, in this, ah~ a trick of age, or so they say~? Indeed~

I should stop that, haa~

[Filter: Private, in Old Megam]

Haa, perhaps that was ... mmm. Unexpected, I suppose, and all the same ... perhaps I can ask Drucey about her, later. It's something we've hardly discussed since ... he arrived from there, after all ...

Not that there was any need, for ... mmm. Perhaps I am simply being silly, after all, haa~ ...

There is so much more to do, still, even with ... the recent progress, as of late. I suppose I have to admit that it is ... touching, that they seem to have liked the suggestion. Joshua is very darling, after all ... it would be strange to call him something different. I suppose that is rather ... haa, well, it is not a concern, is it not, truly now, I should not be so silly ...~

And Celeste, is ... she is coming into her own now, and it is no longer simple, to ease those fears back ... in the very light of all of this, it is certainly ... especially with Faith's condition ... goodness knows when whatever is next will happen, no matter how prepared we may feel that are for it ... or not at all.

It is heavy on Keagan's mind as well, I can hardly even ... mmm. Perhaps, though ... there is still another, yet, and ... haa, it is very unlikely that he will speak to me either, considering ... mmm.

Though there is still hope in ... the attempt, regardless ...


[Filter: Lawrence]

Haa, it hardly feels as if we've spoken much at all as of late, dear ...~

[Filter: Private, in Old Megam]

Haa, that was unexpected, I'll admit~

Though it has been some time since I've been referred to as such ... not very long, perhaps, but ... enough, mmm. There is hardly a need for it, truly, as well as these other formalities.

Haa, and there's still ... I do hope those two are able to come to some form of agreement, truly~ it has been some time now, for that. Once they have decided, it will not matter what I've taken to calling him in the meantime, truly ...~ an accident at that, but mmm.

My, but there is hardly any time for that now. There are many that need to be checked on, after all, and that is always more important than writing like this~

[Filter: Private, in Old Megam]

Goodness, this is ...

I suppose it does explain his actions, earlier ... still, while well planned, it is also quite -- worrisome, to be sure ... a dosage such as this certainly requires a certain precision, and ... mmm.

Regardless, there is nothing that can be done for it now, haa~ though others should be informed to his ... being indisposed, for the time being.

I am sure whomever is being sent will arrive shortly ... he cannot remain on his own in this condition, though thankfully he was aware of that as well ...



[Filter: Lady Laeleena, in Atsirian]

Ah ... I apologize for the interruption, however it is important that we have a moment to speak immediately, Lady Laeleena -- it concerns Lord Joseph, and what he was speaking of, earlier ...

[Filter: Private, Old Megam]

Mmm ...

I certainly hope they can agree on something~ it is a shame that their thoughts on the matter are so ... hm, radically different. Though I suppose there is still time for that, after all ...

Haa, time indeed ...~ there is always so much more to be done, truly~

It is a shame, for next month is certainly one that moves ever so quickly, with Rose Day and ... all of those birthdays, mmm~

Surely there will be time for those ... haa, I am sure that with how well everyone's recoveries are progressing, there will be ... why, it is not as if I can let them pass without ... something~ there are so many, after all.

Haa, and ... has it been nearly a year now, since Celeste ... why, that is odd to think of, of all things, truly -- I do suppose with Inara, it... it is certainly a thought, mmm ... and Celeste leads only to Aine, after all, and --

Hardly the time for this at all ... haa, though I suppose I do get caught up in writing, when I allow it, it would seem ...~