Long time no see. I've been mostly still trying to find a job, discovering my livingroom via a deep clean and going WOah! When I realize I'm also mentally organizing my life.

I do see that in a way, while I organize, I'm also mentally organizing. It allows me to think about things and organize them in the neat piles and then categorized and put away. I feel the more organized my external life, the more my internal life would come up. I keep discovering stuff in my livingroom, I'm unravelling the thoughts in my head.

I found podcasts on itunes. It downloads itself onto my computer packaged with quicktime. I deleted it the first few times and have sucummed and will keep up with it considering it's really cool.

I found deos Shadow Pagan podcast. I love listening to it. Very well grounded. I'm listening to the one where they talk about the peer pressures of having these 'magickal abilities'. I usually go away from the pagan community because of these type of people. The people who treat it more like a D&D session and not real paganism. I do love the normal people, who think, yo, this works, but most of it doesn't. Where it's a part of their life, not an obsession. Thinking of people like Josty, Psuedopagan, Leilah. These are the people in my life that actually grounding.

I seek that middle ground, sure you can go and create your own path, but when it comes down to it, someone has to bring you back to normal reality.

I've even thought about going to Mass last night. I think that I will. I would like to understand Catholicism from a different, less "We're all Catholic, so you should be catholic too." upraising that I got.

Roman Catholics are usually the less to actually get all fundie, and the only reason they do is because it's scaring their own tenative understanding of their religion, most of them having the same kind of upbringing.

I want to consider it as a connection to a younger part of myself. And nine bucks says I'm going to get bored somewhere halfway and my mind would run away just like when I was a kid. Kinda thinking about my origins.

My vested interest in OSU has continued on for another year, so bear with me as I write about my ventures with OSU football.

This adds a new dimension this year as I live on OSU's campus. The extreme north side of the campus, walking distance to the stadium. So I make sure if we win, if I'm out, that I stay out until about seven, depending on gametime. Or I won't go out period.

Today I was helping people move. Now, the stereotypical guy would sit there and grunt and push and get all this stuff over at the new house, while blaring OSU on a radio, or at least most of the guys I know. Not these guys. No. The only time I listened to OSU was in two different places. One was in my friend's Mom's car, the other one is at the Subway we went to for lunch.

I was sad, I wanted to see how the game was going to play out. Offence, defence, our rushing, our passing, our hitting. Seriously, I wanted to see what our new team looked like, a lot of our team last year was Seniors.

Well, at least the next game I'm going to plan on. Fall is officially here.

36-6? I think we smoked them in our pipe.

Well enough commentary with that...

O-H!

I-O!

So... I haven't been on here in ages. I still write though. I just don't talk much.

My life has been short of boring outside of the federal government giving me 232.13 to play around with... Which is nice. I bought a camcorder which will be fun to play around with as well as make videos.

I've been doing a lot of that lately, although my life has been in some kind of stasis lately.

Yes, I know, stasis=not good. But whatever I've been getting out of it. In fact so out of it I cleaned my bathroom which really need cleaned. Deep cleaned. Seriously. No lie.

Although I got my kitchen while I was at it and I'm going to be working on my livingroom this evening.

Mainly too because maintanence is coming over tomorrow to check the smoke alarms and the heater filters. which believe you me, I know the smoke detector works. too well actually, if you ask me, going off while I cook.

I need them also while they're here to check out that circuit and find out why it's not working. My stove works, my garbage disposal works, but my light above the stove and fan don't work, that light socket on the wall by the sink don't work, and the kitchen light doesn't work now, although it did when I moved in. *le sigh*

I dunno, I'm feeling kinda tired today, it's been hot.

Part of my distraction as well has been the fact that I bought myself two tamagotchi's. Yes. Two. So I've been taking care of them, outside of watching movies and going out to see people.

It seems more and more like ash and I are making it a habit to get together every friday night. It's been fun, making all kind of special items with the kids and letting them play around and then putting them to bed then our time for an hour before Ali and Sharon come back.

My life has been filled with interruptions. Three of them in fact. They're not mine but my brother's and for a little bit of money I'm helping him out.

I've been trying to take it slow, I have a lot of inward work to do lately to reconfigure and reconnect to it's been a hassle with the kids here.

Brb... I left my Tama in the bathroom... poor Tami...Good thing too, she had pooed. *rolls eyes*

Make that four interruptions.

Even then Tami and the cats aren't going to be that bad.

I'm just like, whee, I'm trying to find a job during the day and watching kids at night?

At least they're gone by the first. And besides I have today off. So I've been making tea and thinking and taking a shower.

The kids did help me clean the livingroom. Or at least parts of it. I'm about to finish my picture in the coloring book. I think I'll get one for myself. I can't find my brush so a dollar of my money's going to buy me a new brush because my dad has yet to bring it up with him when we get together.

Thursday. Right before the first of the month. I feel the stress coming back now and I hate that feeling. I hate this period of my life.

I've been avoiding livejournal like the plague. I would like to personally thank Taylor Ellwood for at least putting his stuff behind a Lj-cut because I'm one of the few who hasn't read it yet. It's getting harder and harder to accept. I want to know what happens with Harry and Ron and Hermione and Neville. Oh god I don't want to know until I read it.

I dunno. With Tami I'm wondering when the matchmaker's coming for her. Oh when they do I'm so going to be cheesy and play Matchmaker from Fiddler on the Roof. :D

I'm sad. I know.

Still looking for work. Still not getting any answers. Oh well. *sigh*

My life has become boring, routine. I wake up, get on the computer, fiddle around with monster.com and then go to various other web sites and mess with those. Then I get itchy and either I start calling or I start cleaning my apartment.

I dunno right now. I'm feeling all angsty for some odd reason, like I'm a teenager all over again.

I think at the same time I feel I should have had a job by now but nobody answers me back. Hello??

*sigh*

It's so hard not to get discouraged anymore. It seems that I hardly have anybody to talk to. I feel like I'm suffocating and there is no relief in sight. I mean, I used to know so many people. Even outside of whatever work I was doing yet now they seem so impossibly far away. People are dividing, taking a stand and I don't know where I stand. I mean I can see equally from both sides of the fence and believe me it's clearly a lot of fingerpointing.

I just want to feel like I"m not stagnant. That I'm moving foreward. Yet it is so discouraging sometimes. Especially when everything moves so slow. (generally it does during the dog days of summer as well).

I need to stop underselling myself I think. I do that too much because I've never been taught to do differently. people compliment and I usually bring up some stupid fault because that's the way I was taught to be humble IMHO.

Oh I give up, I'm just grasping at straws. Landing a job just seems to be blind luck.

Oh I can go to the clintonville fireworks, I say. I can walk it, I say. It's night and it'll be fine, I say. I'll get there before they go off, I say.

I walk out with my camp chair strapped to my back and I decide that I'm going to take the route by the river. See, we have bike paths that span the entire lenth of the river, so I thought, I could follow that. I started walking. And walking. And walking. By the time I got there the fireworks were going off and I had logged at least 3 miles.

Shit.

I had to walk HOME that way too. Nobody was going to pick me up. Damnit. I even had a brain fart on my aunts cell phone number. But cest la vie. I came home. I'm here now.

6 miles I"ve logged today. that's not even what I've done with the DooDah Parade.

Oh yeah, logs of that too... DooDah... Doodah... :-D I park it right by the 'nuns' who have everybody in stitches. It was great. Imitating people and things. OMG. Then the parade started and it was awesome. I started arguing with random people in the parade over their politics (bush should be impeached! some guy was yelling. Sure, I yelled back, but cheney is next in line! Yeah, he counters, but they're like peas, they'll both go together. Like hell, I countered, but he was already gone).

By the time the end of the parade it was sprinkling. By the time they were completely done, the rain came. And boy did it. I sat down at THe Coffee Table and waited for it to dry up a bit. Which it did, thank gods.

there were these people with motorized coolers. I WANT!

BUt the thing I want most is what I saw going to the fireworks tonight. Okay two things. First thing was this small small teeny tiny house maybe holding a one bedroom house, and in their front yard (or their backyard, I can't tell which) they had a 30 foot shortwave radio tower it was MASSIVE long and tall. I was like, ZOMG! Who are these people. Are they hams? Can I borrow their antenna and nobody notice? Can I get a radio operator license?

Also the other thing is this really nice house. It looks like a barn. except it doesn't. I mean, it's shaped like a barn, but it's made out of brick and I think aluminum siding up on the second floor. But it was a beautiful thing. Double glass door front door, it had a patio on the second which I think was the master bedroom. Exposed A beams. Oh. That's my second house that I want. The other one's right next to the mansion of clintonville.

Oh gods. I'm so exhausted. My whole body is not happy right now.

But that's an update.

More about Red White and Boom later. LOL

Today is Red... white and BOOM! BOOM! BOOM! I even made a hat for the occasion!

Yesterday was interesting.

I wake up and start cleaning the kitchen. It's looking much better. However I get a call from Leila, Apparently we had the picnic today.

So I get ready and get all my stuff together.

When I go outside it's the most goregous day I've seen, not too hot, not too cold, beautiful. I sat under the waiting tree for them and just enjoyed the feeling of outdoors. It was the first time the looming hole of my job life hasn't brought me down.

So Justin and Leila show up and I hop in. In a roundabout way (including a few that involve one way streets) we go to giant eagle. We pick up a few things and then Justin (Who had been whining the entire time about doughnuts) drives us to Buckeye Doughnuts. We stop in and grab a dozen and as we leave I notice a bright green crate.

Being the kind of person he is, very glib, Justin grabs the crate and we walk briskly back to the car.

Finally on our way!

We follow the directions until we got to reynoldsburg. it was one of those exits that refuses to allow you to go in any other direction but the one it wants. I.E. NO stoplight. But we stop at a CVS to pick up an extendable lighter. WE leave and continue on our way. Apparently the lighter doesn't work! So we stop at a Meijers and pick up another one. Finally on our way we continue down a street looking for lancaster and somehow end up in Canal Winchester. We get directions back to where we're supposed to be going and we get turned around.

Yay. We made it. Josty was already there cooking up a bunch of meat and Chrissy was organizing things. Inna was there, Paula was there, a bunch of other people I didn't know though. But once we got to talking as dinner was being served it was all good. Yay. Food was great. They even had bocca. :-D I made a cheese 'hamburger'. We talked about things, from drama, to various ailments to harry potter and various fandoms. Yes, these are my peeps.

We cleaned up because we were going to go down to Violet Flame store in Newark Ohio to have some fun and meet up with Murv and Dorothy. But we had a two hour break because they were going to prepare for the band, instead we went over to Josty's. I had my first wii experience. They had this really fun position game that I think I'd like to try one day. I tried my hand at bowling. I'd release the b control before I was supposed to and it'd come off rolling the slowest I've seen a ball roll. But it's cool, very cool.

So after all that excitement we begin our trek down to Newark from Reynoldsburg.

Great. It was very fun getting down there. When we got there we stopped off at the store and it didn't look like a store at all. It was a modest two story house with a small porch and a small front yard. Murv saw us and started running. LOL (Or that's the accepted story.)

We sat and chatted for a while and a few of us went into the store to look around. There was plenty to look at and smell and experience. It was great. Joe, being joe saw the most phallic thing in the entire store and just had to pick it up. We were all talking over it and all the other things in the store. However nobody or nothing told us that this was a working altar. It just looked like a decorated table for all intents and purposes. (Even to my eyes it did.) The lady was very condesending toward us about it, "Well you know, in a Wiccan store, when you see a table with tarot cards..." the tarot cards were UNDER the glass giving the impression of being creatively decorative (Which for a "Wiccan store" it wouldn't surprize me). the other thing that gets me, what store has a working altar? That makes absolutely no sense. It looked like all the other little sections of the store, so people are probably going to go by and touch things. It's normal in a store, kinda expected.

That's why I'm tired of some Wiccans. Seriously. Their attitudes are all high and mighty toward the 'commoners'. Hell we weren't even commoners for that sakes, we were actually working wiccans for the most part (yours truely something else entirely.) It wasn't like we were new to the path and damn. Her attitude was just very negative all the while.

The party though was a riot. As the night wore on we got louder and louder. It looked like a residential neighborhood so I was trying to imagine how pissed off the neighbors were. I had me some nacho goodness and then we were like, okay we're gone.

We said goodbye to Murv and Dorothy (Or I tried to but cest la vie). We walked out to the car. We had to go back to Chrissy's to get my stuff and we did. And that was my day. I came home and just crapped out in front of the computer.

It was fun all in all. I miss hanging out with these people. LOL. I do miss hanging out with them for the most part. *sigh*

ComFest was crazy as per usual, but a little more so. I had a kitten with me that would sit on my shoulders and ride around. I got some disaproving looks, and a lot of "awww look, kitty" and "this is the first cat we've seen out of all these dogs"

The cat wasn't too happy about the dogs either, but I can't blame them. I generally don't like dogs either.

I took will on Friday night and he was like 'zomg'=ing every gay couple he could savely oggle without looking weird. He also walked around roving his head like it was some foreign exotic land he got displaced at. I however was home. Aimee remembered him (he was rather surprized) and I was just happy to be there. I kept exclaiming that i couldn't believe it was festival time again.

Saturday took off with a few delays. Most of them being ash's car, and by the time we got there it was three in the afternoon, and we only stayed until eight. However since I gots dah moneys from my aunt I was able to get beer tokens and got my first alcoholic beverage at Comfest. Nice. Although Ali kept saying "Beer tax!" and taxing my alcohol which he owes me like .75 cents for IMHO. *grr*

We did walk around a bit, more ooohing and ahhing over the cat which I didn't have on Friday. Got to see a bunch of people I haven't in a while. Got temporary Tatooed as well, branded cd101 clone for the duration of said tatoos. Oh and I won a snap load of CD's this weekend. That was awesome.

On Sunday I was hellbent and determined to get there early so I packed up the cat and myself around 10. We got there around 11:30 and I sat down at the coffee Table to wait out everything. I don't know why I did wait, I was just bored, I guess. And the kitten wanted out. So he sat on the table and we watched the people coming to and from Comfest even though it was early.

Then we went down to sit by the lake which we did and then we were off going god knows where. Just walking around randomly. It was too early for alcohol and much to early to think about chilling somewhere and I walked around hoping to run into people. I didn't run into many people I knew. I realize my social circle is getting smaller and smaller.

So around 1 I decide it's past time and I get lunch. The kitten sits impatiently while I eat and decides to climb up onto my shoulder. Fine and dandy until the kitten decides to jump OFF me and onto the back of some unsuspecting victim, I mean, chick that was sitting behind me. Man, I wish I had a camera.

I tried to get the kitten to eat a little but he wouldn't. Ran into someone I haven't seen in a month or so, Woulda had more of a conversation if it wasn't so farking loud from the jazz stage not so nearby.

After a rousing lunch we go down to watch Xrated cowboys play. I finally got the kitten to eat a little. Their set seemed like it was so short! I loved listening to End of the World though. One of my favorite songs of theirs. Of course I allways confuse it with the REM song of the same title. HOwever the message is much different. (My favorite stanza being: "we were counter culture, now we're counter productive")

After that little rousing fiasco the kitten and I decided that we'r egoing to walk around some more until the drum circle. Which, we did. Ran into Nate, talked to him for a while. Got him to admit he loves the kitten, and more than just a dinner snack.

Then finally we made our way to Drum Circle. Before hand they allways have some kind of poetry slam. That was awesome. I loved the 6 year old who came up and read a poem that made as much sense as the rest (not much).

So apparently the lady that does the drum circle from last year is helping out with the deaf community and teaching them to drum. (I don't get it? I guess they feel vibrations of the drum but still?)

They had their little demo. And then they had some kind of african dance exercize chick explain to us about it. I joined in. Yes, on stage. LOL.

FINALLY drum circle. I start playing with the kitten under my seat, but that wouldn't have lasted long due to the fact that he was underfoot of many of the dancers that joined. So I put him on my shoulder. He was content there. I was even getting up and dancing around. Random dancers would come up and pet the kitty that was being so calm during the drum circle. I think at this point the cat could have watched fire shoot out of my ass and been nonplussed about the experience he was that expectant of anything.

I miss drumming into the odd hours of the night. But the new Yuppie population of the Short North complained about it and drummers are now exiled from the park by 9 o'clock. And that's another rant for another day. But that's the gist of what my weekend was like.

I almost wish that ComFest was a whole week, not just a weekend. :-( The neighbors wouldn't aprove but the neighbors can KMA for all I care...

So. Welcome to my madness. This is the mad rush here. My manic phaze of the year (out of two).

This is why:

*Arts Festival
*St. James Festival
*My birthday
*My uncle's birthday
*Comfest
*Pride weekend
*Red white and Boom
*Gallery Hop
*Clintonville Fireworks
All within a week to less than a week (some on the same day) of eachother.

So either way, if I'm not here, or online, I'm at one of those things. Yeah.

I had an interview with another company. It went well. I think so. I'm just waiting to see what came of it later. They said they'd get ahold of me on Monday.

In other news, life's been crazy. I need to work on my articles, my stories and other things. I might get into that.

Okay, I know he don't read this blog but STOP ANNOYING ME! Okay? We get the point! STUFU!

Anywhos. Sorry this post is a little more ADHD than usual.

I haven't been doing much magick lately, focusing on the physical. Mercury is retrograde which is making things just as hard as they can be anywhos. Going to be doing a little bit of something with someone later, to see what happens. Maybe one day I'll come out with what, but as of now under wraps it goes.

I should be working on a few other ideas of mine, but lately I haven't been working on those because of this time of year. I should have time next week before comfest though. Which I will definately do a little bit of work. One of the things that I should be working on is stalled until I get some money coming my way, I need to get a few things together.

Oy vey. Either way I thought I'd post.

1.)Q. Can you cook?
1.)A. Yes. Quite well. I love learning new recipes as well.

2.)Q. What was your dream growing up?
2.)A. to become and author. I'm making that now.

3.)Q. What talent do you wish you had?
3.)A. to pay attention to when bills are due.

4.)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be?
4.)A. probably something fruity or crazy, knowing us.

5.)Q. Favorite vegetable?
5.)A. tomato.

6.)Q. What was the last book you read?
6.)A. Time Traveller by Ronald mallett

7.)Q. What zodiac sign are you ?
7.)A. Gemini

8.)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
8.)A. No and my ears are pierced.

9.)Q. Worst Habit?
9.)A. biting my nails.

10.)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
10.)A. if I had a car. Yes.

11.)Q. What is your favorite sport?
11.)A. football.

12.)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
12.)A. optimist

13.)Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
13.)A. probably catch up on stuff... Been stuck on a bus with yah.

14.)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
14.)A. Right now they just told me I have to move out if I can't pay rent. I have the check in my hand right now. I'm like, you want it? I'm confused.

15.)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you:
15.)A. Only one? I like cheese.

16.)Q. Do you have any pets?
16.)A. Four. Runt, the rat. Ebony Midnight, Graymalkin Electron, and Butterscotch Malcalypse.

17.)Q. What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
17.)A. I'd invite you in and clean up what little mess there is.

18.)Q. What was your first impression of me?
18.)A. Aww, what a trip!

19.)Q. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
19.)A. SCARY!

20.)Q. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be???
20.)A. All this weight. Outside that, I'm cool.

21.)Q. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
21.)A. PIC...

22.)Q. What color eyes do you have?
22.)A. blue

23.)Q. Ever been arrested?
23.)A. No.

24.)Q. Bottle or Draft?
24.)A. Draft is nice, but bottle is good too.

25.)Q. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
25.)A. Pay rent for a year, and then use the rest for bills teh rest of the year. Luxary items after that.

26.)Q. Would you date me?
26.)A. Honey, if you were straight.

27.)Q. What 's your favorite bar to hang at?
27.)A. Blazers if I ever go.

28.)Q. Do you believe in ghosts?
28.)A. Yes. The real question is do ghosts believe in us?

29.)Q. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29.)A. Write and watch paint dry.

30.)Q. Do you swear a lot?
30.)A. Only sometimes.

31.)Q. Biggest pet peeve?
31.)A. people who don't know how to use a tissue. and they keep sniffling it back into their nose.

32.)Q. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32.)A. Chaotic

33.)Q. What's your middle name?
33.)A. Kathleen

34.)Q. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same
34.)A. Sure. I won't be the only one though, I know it.

YAY! I gots my first published thing. I'm so excited! Life is sweet... bittersweet as I still have other issues to contend with, but that part of my life is slowly coming together more readily than it has in the past.

How DSL Works

That's the link.

Yay.

I'm so excited.

life is awesoem...

Also if you want a subscription, I can add you manually to the list... feel free to comment (or comment on the site, it has anonymous posting enabled.)

Ty... ty... *bows*

Ahh, finally. After the mess of 2003 onward they have finally fixed the short north arches. Finally. Innit beautiful? I think so. Especially since I had a feeling of personal embarrasment. After all, they're my fault.

So I went down to the SN tonight just to check it out. And yes, indeed they are fixed and indeed strange thoughts run through my head. (Am working on some of them now, with some added help again.) Squee.

So anywhos, I just sat and chilled down at the Coffee Table. Gods I needed that. Spent a quarter on a glass of water and went outside to watch the sun set and the random people. I wrote a little bit and realized some interesting things. Consider it a side hobby. Writing is more or less like another job to me, albeit one I love doing, but yeah.

So yeah, after all that, I went home, watching the arches as I passed by. I feel so much better seeing them work. I can finally feel a little better for um... bringing them here in the first place. ROFL.

So didja hear about the new lj drama? Luckily it has nothing to do with frank obsessively eating off everybody's pants, or the emo kids trying to commit suicide.

Oh this is much more serious. IMHO. They just up and deleted a bunch of journals because of 'questionable' content which I think they started doing because of the Myspace squeeze on censorship. Oh it's good we get rid of the pornographic thing, but survivor journals, and things variously like that? What then do they do?

I just think that when they start pulling their politics onto the 'net I think it's just bull. The internet runs by different rules than the regular world if I say so myself. You can't really sensor the 'net.

This again is about parents pointing the blame on the media when in all reality they should be pointing right back at themselves. They don't know how to censor their own children, how to make those spoiled brats not get on the internet and meet that 50 yr old guy for anything. (I've only talked to a few people from online, and even then they've lived here too, and mostly serendipitiously running into them.)For the love of god. Learn to deal with your children. Monitor their activities. If you don't become net savvy as they are then what's going to happen is a larger gulf between you and your child.

That's another problem. There is a greater divide between the generations because the younger generations (myself included) have attached ourselves technologically. I know a lot of 50 year old people (namely my dad's generation of people) that are totally afraid of the internet. I don't know why. Now if we take into account that the average age for a mother of a 15 year old is about 33-40 I don't see the reason for them to be technophobic. They just don't know the right tools.

C'mon you must actively be a part in your child's life. Sure you can't stop the child from getting their hand caught in the cookie jar, but you can stop them before they stick their hand in the electric socket. Grow some Balls and learn to tell that bratling NO when they want something.

Oh, by the way. Please for the love of god watch what your children are posting as pictures. I've seen several several several myspace layouts for 13-18 year olds filled with half naked pics where they dress themsleves up to look much older than they really are. I've seen it done on myspace and it is appalling. Now I'm not trying to be a prude here, but some pictures should not be posted because they look sexually suggestive.

So, stop blaming the internet! We're not here to babysit your children! Some of us like adult sites, okay? We're adults, get over it. You however, do not have the right to go around pulling down web sites and various things because your child might see it.

BTW, just so you know, if it wasn't for the pr0wn then the intenret would not be the internet it is today. It might still be a military application for the love of gods. or BBC for that matter. Oh wait, that would rule too, because then it'd be all us adults not having to worry about babysitting jimmy because he's on the 'net and mommy's at work.

Learn to lock your computer, I used to have some good hackery tools from when I had a roomate when I was in high school that got onto my computer and posted my addy to meet guys. One of the things given to me by a friend was a tool that allowed me to take the internet and freeze it. I would have to have an encrypted password (provided once the thing was locked) in able to unlock it.

What are we going to do? The internet is filled with adults? ZOMG! WTF!

Sorry that this deviated from the original issue with Livejournal

So apparently to my friend JOn my titanic video ended up on some random web site. That rocks.

Outside that, most of my days have been crazy, following some rather strange thoughts of mine lately. Hmm...

Outside that, I started hanging out over at PaganNation again, just for something to do. I remember now some of the reasons why I left to begin with.

Been making videos. Been working on a few articles myself, even though I'm no freaking expert, i've been writing an article on Schrodinger's Cat for associated content. Do you know how hard it is to explain the heisenberg uncertanty principle in a way that people actually understand without giving me blank looks?

Not that I'm not used to blank looks.

Outside that, been trying to find work. Need to go up to Calltech for my last check, They won't mail it. I need to at least by tomorrow, or I'll be late on my rent in a bad way. Ugh.

So anywhos, been looking for a job between all the crazy stuff, hasn't been very fruitful, most technical places are looking for people with more technical skill than networking and generalized troubleshooting.

I had to have SBC here today because of slow throughput. I dunno what's causing it, he tested it with a coltmeter and still there wasn't any line trouble. Even from the network side. Whatever. I'll figure it out eventually. At least now it doesn't do the taking forever to get online. Next time though it happens, I'm not going to wait and call tech support. *sigh* What's with that?

Anywhos. I haven't seen a lot of people posting. Maybe they have social lives? I think so.

I did talk to my friend Ash, we hung out a few days ago doing random things just like usual, making sheep, me talking about crazy things again. Of course Will was going to pick me up and we went down to Fujiama for dinner. You want to talk about good food? LOL. It was fun to watch them make an onion pyramid, fill it with oil and set it on fire. Then we went to see Shrek 3. It was okay, cute but okay. Oh and puss of course was cute as usual. *drools* antonio banderas *sigh*

Well I guess that's really everything. LOL Well everything that I can say here. LOL... Silly internet... should make some things friends only, you know?

Guten tag. It's been crazy around here. Writing, talking with people, watching Youtube videos. Thinking how I wish that I could spend my life writing. LOL Of course I'd have to go out and see people. I think I'd go insane. I'm already feeling that way.

I love making fun of fluffbunny wiccans... and I do so well I think. Here's a video to prove it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptOaW_K3RR8

Muahahaah.

I've been dong videos all day to entertain myself. I think I'm loosing my everloving mind. Especially since I don't like to sit down and think because if I sit and think I'm going to be out of it. The sadness sinks in, the depression and so I keep busy. LOL.

I suddenly have a lot of time on my hands. Not having a job and all. I realize one of the reasons I was so comfortable at work is that it was like high school all over again. LOL. Life is a spiral, ne? I've been looking for a job kinda like relaxed. I need to find one soon though. I've got to pick up my last paycheck at work tomorrow. I don't think it's going to be much money to tell the truth. I just hope it covers rent.

I already know I'm crazy, but I feel like I'm slowly going more and more insane. I just wish I had more friends than I do now. It seems I have two. And one of them still harbors feelings for me. I need to relax too, but I cna't and probably won't for a while. Not while I'm here and the bills sit unpaid, you know? But whatever. I'm not trying to get gloomy or all livejournal. LOL

Hi. How goes it? I know it's been a while since I've been on here. Life's been happening. A lot of my usual non-journal type stuff's been accellerating at a fast pace that almost feels quite dizzying. Things that I didn't know could happen, are, and the news is that it's a good thing that they're happening. A lot is clarifying.

I fostered a few cats for a while. Two. They needed homes. And according to my neighbor across the hall they have new homes. In all actuality they started getting on my nerves so I took them to a no-kill shelter. They ate all my cat food. I fished around for five dollars and got two dollars worth of catfood. Right before the end of the month too!

Work has been crazy. I've been trying to work around and work on a few of my biggest issues. I recognize them now and I need to consciously work on them. Because someone said something at work that made me think about it seriously. I mean, I need this job to pay the bills.

Oh a good note, I found a web site willing to pay me money to post on their web site. They seem legit. So that rocketh. I'm trying to work on something. So if I can get into the habit of THAT, then why the hell can't I do more? *sigh*

Ash mentioned something that I realized was missing from a story I wrote three years ago. I've been rewriting it and rewriting it and noticing that something was missing. Then I realized it was the character who died. He needed to be there. The ending of his life wasn't too long ago. GOds.

Outside that, been crazy as usual. Cats are happy with a ledge to sit down on. I'm happy to let them stay there. That's funny.

Well I'm out. I gotta get to work tomorrow. It's the nineth... so that's good!

YAY for the nineth! Payday is allways good!

TTYL!

So life has been crazy as usual. Doing my own thing again. Working on a few things. Writing. Doing more things. UNPACKING.

I feel that I'm on the verge of something. ANd that is so farking cool.

talking with a friend of mine yesterday kick started a whole entire line of stuff that just kinda reminded me of a few other things that gave me ideas. LOL. It's like sparking a whole lot of interesting ideas and feeding off eachother. It rocks when that happens.

Outside that, I've been packing and unpacking. I finally have everything in my new apartment. Today sometime I get to hand them my keys and say aidios. That will rock. Muchly.

Well I gots things to do... TTYL!