Lost Meadow

5:33pm: Time for an actual UPDATE UPDATE!
All right.. from the beginning of the month of July I was in Wisconsin for taekwondo nationals. Our we took around 25 students and we got 24 medals out of it. I forget the numbers but it was a good. We had a bit of family problems but yanno thats all right. Btw: while I was at the tournament I bought something special. So expect to see it with some new costumes.

After the tournament we returned home. I started working out again, and babysitting. I haven't been sewing as much but I have made a new costume. And that is my Lei Fang costume



SO I wore that to Video Games Live 2008. I got second place in the costume contest and I got third in the guitar hero contest. Which I loved the show this year it was great. I've been working on a lot more Dead or Alive costumes. I just need to get them done.

I attended Ikasucon and that was great seeing friends. But I will not be returning to this con due to the unorganization that follows the cosplay registration every year. I've attended for three years and they always change the registration... its like a never win situation.

Anyways.. It was my birthday the 21st. No I didn't not participate in the consumption of alcohol.. I will sometime soon. Other than that... thats been my summer.
THANK YOU TO ALL THOSE WHO WISHED ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Oh yea. I got my state Id and my drivers permit.. YAY

As for my other half aka boyfriend... we're running into problems. It was bound to happen but we're working on it.

2:57pm: GUESS WHAT!
I just snagged a few pics of my brother as he returned home with his new guitar. Ya... I'm sneaky like a ninja. FUCK YEAH!

As you all may know... he is supposed to be my ride for Matsuricon. But right now... hes having doubts on going.. if anyone wants to help my cause for me to go to Matsuricon... please message/instant message him on aim or whatever you use at

ATKAFIGHTER
It's worth it! It's for a good cause!
( PICTURES!! under her~! )

Btw Ladies... he is single **cough cough wink wink cough cough**

1:38am: WOOO
It's mah birthday... going to get some alcohol nao..

11:24pm: FINALLY UP TO SPEED!
So! Right now I put my sewing drive in full gear and I started working on my costumes again. My Lei fang has a bit more to paint then its finished for this weekend. One of the girls from cons named Emily asked me to cosplay with her and do a photoshoot at Ikasucon. I'm excited for that. I don't know what else to cosplay for it. I need to fix my Meg cosplay for her. I don't know what happened to all of it so I started cleaning. I do know for a fact that I will be redoing the shirt.

So this past week and weekend I started working on a new cosplay from Dead or Alive 4. I've been on a crazy kick since I beat the crap out of that game. SO expect a lot of costumes arising from it.

I've got two kasumi costumes planned, a helena costume, and then maybe... 2 lei fangs? But the Kasumi ones have been worked on.. so it'll get there.

As for other costumes.. I'm thinking of finishing these first then working on all others. SOO much I want to get done before this weekend.. wish me luck!

BTW: GIVE ME A CALL IF UR EVER BORED.. I lost my mp3 player. :(

1:01am: HEY WE'RE PLAYING TAG!!
Rules of the Game:
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.



1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I would honestly ask them... why? am I not good enough?

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
My dream would have eternal youth.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
In a meadow... with the wind blowing and flower petals are flying everywhere

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
YEAH... tons of crazy shit is about to go down

5. What's your current relationship like?
I'm sooo far from my boyfriend.. surprise right? I'm not sad by it. Because I know I'll be loyal to him and vice versa with him. We take care of each other even though we're not near one another.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone: because you can always love someone but they might not love you back

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I don't plan on waiting for anyone anymore. I'm in a great relationship and I don't want to change that.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
hypothetical question... well.. I would just be their friend. Nothing is wrong with that.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
DRAMA. ENOUGH SAID PERIOD

10. How do you want to live your life?
Being GODLY

11. Is being tagged fun?
I suppose

12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
either dead or alive... XD and working? maybe got a kid?

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
People who I talk to and see like in a month or something.. just close people who I call a lot. So if you've ever received a phone call from me. yeah.. your important.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Someone who works too hard

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
SINGLE AND RICH!!!

16. What is the first thing you do every morning?
stretch

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
I wouldn't get into a relationship knowing that it wouldn't work out. I don't lead people on.

18. If you fell in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
its happened.. and I didn't choose either of them.

19. What type of friends do you like?
anyone who listens and cares about what I have to say.. if you don't then why don't you leave?

20. What type of friends do you dislike?
People who abuse my friendship, doesn't listen to me, only take me for my looks and not care about what happens to themselves and extremely SELFISH PEOPLE!! etc etc

I tag:
1.drhikaru
2.cowgrl_88
3.togebri
4.rakuen42
5.stranghawkchik1
6.wonder_penny
7.rukawagf
8.ayanamichan7

11:11am: Matsuricon!
I just wanted to know who will be attending Ikasucon and Matsuricon. POST BACK!

2:14am: Back Home
It feels good to be back home. Although my family troubles, I don't think that they are getting any better. At least thats what it looks like to me.

ANYWAYS, Madison is a small little place. Kinda too flat. um.. theres not much to say other than TAE KWON DO TOURNAMENT! Man I am tired of little kids.

I'm glad to return back to my home... WII PLAY NAO!

10:45pm: WOW DIABLO 3
Okay so I'm updating everything on the hotel computer. So this will be fun for the little kids to come by and read... **heavy sigh**

Wisconsin is very pretty. Madison is really hard to navigate but it'll only last a few more days. I can't wait for that to be over. Then again I wish I went to Colossal.. if only it wasn't the same weekend that we were leaving for Madison.

Speaking of Colossal, I heard many good reviews. I just wish I had gone. **cries in emo corner** oh well. I need to cut back on my cons... somehow. I dunno how I'm working this next month out. I have bought my Video Games Live ticket.. and then the next day going out to Ikasucon then its my birthday. I'm not really looking forward to that. My brother wants to get me wasted. I think I'll die. HAHAHAHAHA.

So next cons are most definitely Ikasucon, Matsuricon, and Sugoicon. I don't plan on leaving the Ohio area. I doubt I'll be able to go to Ohayocon unless I pull a miracle out of my ass.
As far as cosplays go.. I have no idea. I know that I updated my website so please visit that.
MY WEBSITE LINK

And so my daily life...
It right now consists of nothing but video gaming. I've been playing Revenant Wings for the DS. I've got like 68% all ready. I'm working on Rock Band and Guitar Hero on Ds for like ever and yea. I'm stuck on Green grass and High tides on the damned game.

AND... most importantly.. I need a way to keep this family together.

8:18am: Epic Adventures
So I'm about to leave for Wisconsin. I'm still sad I wasn't able to see everyone at CCC. I'll be back around the 7th.

I'll have my phone with me. :)

2:15pm: Heres a Quick Update!
I'm really sorry to all those who knew that I'm going to Colossalcon.. but actually I can't make it anymore. SO you know what this means.. I gotta make it up some how. I dunno how.. but I've put Ikasucon back on my list and then some how for drhikaru I need to visit her on the West coast... which I did complete two new costumes on the side for the con... exception of slayer_sango who made an outfit for me. I'm devastated that I won't be attending. So expect to see me maybe next year at it or at another con!

Seriously it feels like the end of the world for me when I miss out on something that I've planned for so long. But I hope it works out in the end. I'm trying to work out my Ikasucon and VGL plans for next month then of course the MATSURICON, that was such a great con.

1:56pm: WOW LONG TIME!
THE END OF INUYASHA WAS SO PREDICTABLE! Btw.... if you think thats the end of it.. yeah thats the end of it. Finally its all over.. but I'm not done fangirling over Sesshoumaru... XD

8:45pm: CRAPPLE
It's not snapple.. it's crapple.

So Faye seriously has gotten me hooked on the cosplay bug and I really want to make a ton of Ragnarok costumes... damn it.

Other than that... I'm going to Cleveland C. Con.

I'm pissed that myspace doesn't have Getting Away with Murder from Papa Roach. I like it a lot.

I watched Kung Fu Panda.. it was cute.

I'm almost done with code geass and kaze no stigma..... and I'm reading soul eater.. definitely need to go faster.

6:44pm: OHKAAY
So you all remember that post where I was talking about that guy right? So I finally got a hold of him again.. and we sorted it out. We patched things up and forgave each other. Yeah I know that I went pretty far with my words but you know we're all human in the end. Sometimes people don't treat others that way but thats where forgiveness comes into play. I just wanted to solve the problem... that wasn't the case after that...

as you all might not know...

I'm in a relationship now... causing tons of problems for Celeste fans everywhere... I'm sorry but I happen to like this guy and he was the first to ask. ((FINALLY COMING OUT OF THE CLOSET ABOUT THAT))

ANYWAYS... the guy who was my date for the ball we worked things out and we're sorta friends again. I don't like loosing people... thats all.

But we talked it out over the phone... and everything is good... PEOPLE WHO READ MY JOURNAL I did type the extremes and such but don't think hes such a bad guy either.

EDIT:
For those who want to know what happened:

It started Friday of Anime Central. I was the date of someone to the masquerade ball. I left to fulfill some errands and help some friends and then i went out to dinner because I was starving! Anyways.. I got back a little late.. and such... but yeah... thats what happened.

So he was mad at me so I didn't go to the Video Games Meet Up. Honestly I don't want to add gas to a fire. SO I stayed away. If I had known it would have been okay with him to be there then I would have. Other than that... I didn't feel like it was my place to be there.

After that we talked later on.. he got emotional, and I don't really like that sort of thing. I don't question people's pasts.. I don't pry it open either. I'm not the type to go back and read someone's past. I'd rather them tell me. I didn't know his past and he expects me to know. But thats kinda intruding. If you want to tell me.. then tell me. But don't do it the way where emotions control you.

I don't like him. I like my boyfriend. This person is not my boyfriend.

7:03pm: Btw: Ninja's for the WIN!
I definitely love the pirate's jacket but ninjas are definitely my style... I wanna go kite flying.

Just a quick update! So I'm definitely taking my summer easy.. not doing that much. I wish I could hang out with friends more but the house is such a mess from doing a ton of **donations and throw aways** stuff. So it's starting to get done but not all of it. I really hope that we can get the house clean before the next con hits so some friends can just stay at my house for the night and then we head off to the con the following morning...

SPEAKING OF CON STUFF: I'm feeling better now. I'm only coughing here and there but I can sing and that just means the world to me. I know I wouldn't have been able to sing at ACEN so it sucks. I believe everything is just dandy... except

ANYONE GOING TO CLEVELAND COLOSSAL CON SAY I!

We're looking for roomies so please speak up.

I don't know my costumes for that con.. I need to like.. figure that out IMMEDIATELY.

um... nothing else other than that. OH! If you got my cell... GIVE ME A CALL. I'm bored these days so hit me up!

11:58am: NEED NEW PANTS!
Man I can't believe how much food I've taken into consumption. XD I feel like a total fatty. I'll definitely start working out harder for Cleveland Colossal Con. This is my next con. And such. I'm glad slayer_sango and I convinced Ariel to go.. and now Patrick will be joining us. I'm so excited!

hikaruchan: slayer_sango and I won't need a ride anymore. Thank you soooo much still! We'll see you at the con!

I definitely don't know if I'll personally be making any new costumes for this con. I'll probably be making something later but I don't know if I'll wear it to this con.

Well yea.... thats about it. XD Oh yeah... um POKEMON! I've been watching Code Geass... I swear WTF IS UP WITH CC'S PAST!

1:00pm: HAVE CONTROL PEOPLE!
( how to deal with ACEN drama.. WARNING MASSIVE POST! And it really is worth reading )

11:41pm: GODLY BUT NOT ENOUGH!



this is the godly performance that my friends and I did at acen. ENJOY


guess what I did.

5:44pm: ANIME CENTRAL 2008
I definitely can say that I've had better cons than this one. Although I know there was troubles I'm over it. There's better times to look forward to so it's easy to handle. So to get over these troubles, it just shows a sense of maturity yanno?

My older brother's birthday is this weekend... yea he's 22 this year and its like his birthday is soon. I still dunno what to get him and stuff, I didn't find what I wanted to get him at ACEN. MAYBE if there wasn't problems and time issues with everything I would have had an easier time. But what can I say? I can just shrug my shoulders and go on with it all.

Still... I know that he's capable of getting over problems, so I'm taking in what he does and just lets it go... Honestly if I dwell on it then nothing will ever get accomplished.


well...


ACEN... next year you better be better or else I'm not going after that one. Sunday was better than the rest of the days.

7:43pm: OH SHIT
People I just need to know if I can borrow a white petticoat! LET ME KNOW AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!

11:38am: GUNZ SON!
Okay so because of my ever so fast growing obsession to finish all costumes on time with commissions, I definitely looked into playing Gunz: The Duel again. But then I decided why not cosplay from it too!? Seriously, I haven't done enough video game cosplay in the last few cons. Seriously, what gives?! Heres two photos I plan on cosplaying from.
( saving ur eyes from the horrible images Im posting... )

Sorta like a kick ass thing right? Well when you play its better but the graphics aren't up to par. I definitely think its a great game...

ON TO SEWING

I still have to finish around three costumes? XD God I fail. I need more thread.

2:50am: COSPLAY
So today I bought the base of my Bullet Witch gun. I'm so happy that was a great find. Technically its modifying but you know what.. FUCK. I'm making this thing so HA. I definitely want to make a great gun and COSPLAY IT!

The great part about it is that my mom and brother's conversation about it.

"oh, you're getting your brother a gun ((for his birthday?))"
"uh no.... its for Marissa."

((BURST INTO LAUGHTER!))

time to be a photo whore about it!

( PHOTO WHOREAGE....that kills )

10:13am: TOTALLY KICKING ZOMBIE ASS... well I'm a camera whore right now
( totally obscure post that contains stupid images..sadly... of me. )

2:16am: Maybe I'm Thinking Too Much Again
So as you all know.. I love video gaming... but I don't enter tournaments.. why is that?

well.. first off.. I do this because it's not in my nature to be the best of the best.. I do it for fun. But when it comes to Soul Calibur.. then FUCK YEA IM GOING TO KICK ASS. ((I just watched the trailer again... and I want to fight))

I just don't see the point in playing competitively on my side. I get a kick out of it enough that people are like.. "OMG FEMALE GAMER!... AND SHE'S ASIAN!" Thats like enough right there. But I guess if its too much then its over kill. I do like to fight people and challenge them every so often.. but I guess at cons and such it's just not my thing...

UNTIL SOUL CALIBUR BITCHES. YOU BETTER GET YOUR COFFINS READY BECAUSE I'MMA GONNA KILL YOU.

I think I should lay off the ice cream. I bought another tub today. XD I definitely need to upload some pics of this shit.

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12:19pm: Because I Saw This On drhikaru's journal

My Personality

Neuroticism	49
Extraversion	89
Openness to Experience	56
Agreeableness	15
Conscientiousness	28

You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind, however you feel enraged when things do not go your way. You are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter if you think you are being cheated. You are an active group participant but usually prefer to let someone else be the group leader. You prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition. You find helping other people genuinely rewarding and are generally willing to assist those who are in need. You find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice, however you are not adverse to confrontation and will sometimes even intimidate others to get your own way. Your sense of duty and obligation is average and although you are mostly responsible you can sometimes be unreliable.

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