It's February 1st and I'm still going strong on my New Year's "clean-out-the-whole-house-and-get-rid-of-all-unnecessry-clutter-and-accumulation" goal.
I'm finding crazy stuff I haven't seen (or needed) in years. Adios.
Late on this one I know... lulz.
Mine are to knock down my music backlog. I keep adding music to my library, and it was hovering at over 1,000 unrated tracks for most of 2011. I managed to get it down to about 800 before the year was over. While still adding tons to it.
That's my resolution, to listen to them all. I'm already down to under 600. So it's going fairly well, but I still have all of these CDs next to me, a lot of which are Christmas compilations I never got around to putting on here) and the rest are Harry Connick, Jr.
So yeah. If I manage to just listen to all the music I buy and download (unreleased stuff), then I'll never have my list grow. So I'll slowly chip away at it while still being able to listen to the songs I'm currently addicted to. So I'll use this as an excuse to post this song and video that makes me cry.
I am keeping a resolution I made a number of years ago - the only one I have ever kept, and that is not to make any more new years resolutions.
I know nine days into the new year is a bit late to be making New Year's resolutions, but it's better late than never, right? Starting off, my first resolution is a rather cliché one.
- To eat healthier
For the new year, I'd like to start eating a greater variety of foods. As it stands at the moment, my diet is very limited and unhealthy. I only eat a select few vegetables, I don't eat any fruit, and I tend to fry things a lot which, as we all know, is the unhealthiest way to cook anything. I hope that by changing how I cook things, and adding healthier foods to my diet, it'll make me feel healthier and ease my paranoia.
Within the last month or so, I had a sudden onset of food avoidance. At first, I began cutting out foods which I considered to be salty, but then it became everything. In just a few weeks, I've lost little over a stone, and my energy levels have plummeted. I'm basically surviving off bottles of Lucozade just to keep my blood sugar levels up.
I'm currently waiting to get some professional help for it, but until then, I feel it would help ease my paranoia if I had a healthier selection of foods to choose from. It's not going to happen over night, and it's certainly not going to be easy, but I can't let this carry on. I've met plenty of anorexic people to know what it does to you, and I do not want to end up like that.
- To get myself together and get a job
I'm not going to lie, I wouldn't be able to manage a job right now. Not only have I been suffering from insomnia for a year, but now I have the food avoidance issue on top of it. No employer will want someone who's constantly sleep deprived and on the brink of fainting due to lack of energy. It would be selfish of me to think so as I would only end up being an inconvenience.
So, this year, I want to confront both of those issues and do as much as I can to get a job afterwards. However, like I said, it's not going to be easy. I'm hoping that they won't continue on into 2013, but if they do, that's okay. Just as long as I'm always moving towards getting better.
- To continue studying Japanese
I've become really lazy with my Japanese recently. Although I understand what I'm writing, I mostly leave it up to Google Translate to do the translating for me, and we all know that doesn't end well!
I got so far with it last year - I can now read almost every Hiragana/Katakana character automatically without thinking about it. However, I still need to get over the hurdle that is Kanji. I think I was overwhelmed by the amount of characters there are in Kanji, and I simply came to a stop because of it. What I need to do now is find a way to study the characters. I've already noted that some are symbolic of the word they're representing. For example, '森' (mori) means forest. One way I remember that is by noting that the character looks like three trees bunched together. Clever, right?
- To start writing stories again!
This resolution is brought to you by Bubzbeauty. One of her resolutions was to start painting again, an old passion of hers that she used to love. Likewise, writing stories used to be an old passion of mine, and gradually over the years, I got out of the habit.
As I got older, I became more and more critical of my work. I look back at my old stuff now and cringe at how badly structured some of my stories were. Events happened too quickly to be believable, descriptions were limited, and whenever I began to write dialogue, the story suddenly became all dialogue and nothing else.
Maybe I simply need to stop being so critical and just enjoy what I write? I have so many ideas that I think would be entertaining for more than just myself, and I almost feel bad for not writing them down. I've planned to write so many times and then never followed it through. Okay, maybe I need motivation too, haha.
Wish me luck!
stop buying stuff i dont need/ save money.
also : arrive on time at school.
My news year resolution was not to drink as much as I did on new years eve XD I also said I was going to try to draw more so people can actually look at my pictures and not ask what the hell is that lol
How much did I drink on new years eve?
Well I drank a loooot of vodka and V which I love, which means I ended up on the floor laughing at anything and everything which my friends had way too much fun with. That was totally fine, it was the part where I actually vomitted which has never happened before, at least from the cause of booze. So yeah getting drunk is fun as long as I don't start puking.
Whats with my sudden want to start drawing again?
Well I've always wanted to be able to draw so that I could draw my own comics and be one of those cool people on deviantart but well I'm shit at it. Never the less one of my good friends gave me a bamboo tablet for christmas and so I decided you know what I'm going to use this tablet and try really hard to get better at my drawing. Wish me luck!
To write for at least an hour a day, every day. Persuing your dreams takes hard work, dedication, persistance, and believing in yourself. It doesn't seem like much, but over time it can yield big results. I am going to finish at least one screenplay this year.
I have a few, actually - who doesn't, though?
One, I'd like to lose about 35-40 lbs.
Currently working on that.
I'd like to work on my temper. I'd like to learn how to control my emotions better. I get worked up too easily. But I guess by now that's kind of expected from a Pisces anyway...
I want to start looking at things more positively.
I have a bad habit of being a pessimist unfortunately.
I'd also like to limit my cursing by like, a lot.
It kind of makes me sound like trailer trash.
I don't even live in a trailer...
And I'd like to improve how much I study and how I study. I'd like to improve my grades.
I mean, they aren't bad right now. But at the rate I'm going they will be. I hope to get much more motivation a determination this year.
I want to take time to read.
Just relax and read.
I haven't done that in so long.
Too long, in fact.
I can't remember the last time I just read a book just for fun. It's sad, honestly.
I tend to be overly critical of other people and especially of myself.
I'd like to start abolishing that trait as much as I can.
It's a bad trait to have and it sucks.
It makes you feel like crap.
Hm, there's probably way more, but that's all that I can think of right now.
My New Year's Resolution: Spend more time with my family, pursue my career, continue doing things that I love to do, eat a lot, gain more weight, start a water therapy procedure, have some exercise for a healthy lifestyle, do some boxing session, have more gigs, trips, travels while parties are not over yet, perform rehearsals and more practice, be happy and take time to smile even stressed, stop dating sites and focus on working, be more entertaining, creative, and professionally dedicated to passion, collect more books, save money, make myself a brighter tomorrow!!!