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Zell Dincht

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An introduction of sorts [19 Sep 2013--19:11]
そうだよ。


Can't read past The Primary Vivid IIDX?
~Siren says, "This journal is not 'Friends Only'."
~Welcome to Zell's journal. Enjoy your stay.
~Journal by Zell, Art by ???? (unknown), Original Date 2001 Aug 1.

Just a few simple rules:
1. I'm generally hyper, Genki, open-minded, outspoken, and cheery. Please respect everything I post in this journal. This is my journal, not yours.

2. Just because you add me doesn't mean I will add you back. If I have absolutely no idea who you are and we don't share the same interests or people on our friends' list, I will not add you back. Also, if you add me back and I don't feel like adding you back, I won't. As stated in #1, this is my journal. Not yours.

3. If you have hundreds upon hundreds of friends and then you suddenly decide to add me, I'm not going to add you unless you actually comment on my LJ frequently, or unless I know you in real life (like [info]tidus).

4. Respect my friends list and their journal. This is in correlation to rule #1.

5. If, all of a sudden, you remove me from your friends' list, I won't ask any questions. I will remove you right back as soon as I notice it.

So... [03 Jun 2006--15:59]
[ mood | ech... ]

Well, with all the bullshit that's happened and with all the beating of a dead horse that has been done, it's time to call it quits.

It's really funny because I did that for the past two years. But guess what? I didn't get bitched for it then. Why am I getting bitched for it now?

Because you assholes like to start drama with me, and then claim that I started it.

It's really funny because the previous two years I said something like this, I let it go the next day. No one said anything else about it, and we were all on our merry little way, and everything was still cool.

But this year was different. Because of assholes that like to troll in my journal. Or worse yet, someone here on this friends' list spread the word so that a flock of people would hoard my journal just to see me get, and I quote, bashed, stepped on, chewed up, spit out, and have it repeated all over again. If you don't agree with me, I'm sorry, but that's how it felt like.

I'm not going to apologize for what I said, regardless of whether it wasn't true or if it was. If you fail to understand that what I said was an opinion and they were things that I felt, then you're failing to understand what I'm saying now. Again, I let go of it the next day, only to be brought back to my face repeatedly. I've admitted to myself that my opinion was wrong, but none of you seem to understand that. That's what you get for reading too much into my posts. Then again, that's probably how you felt for reading too much into it.

So tell me something... how am I supposed to let go of something if it repeatedly keeps being brought up in my face?

Also, I don't need you to tell me what libel is. I can write down whatever the hell I want whether it's true or not because it's how I fucking felt at the time. Trust me, I'm not the only one who felt this way. The only difference between those people and myself is that I had the fucking guts to tell the whole world. People like you took advantage of that just for the chance to pwn me. I hope you're fucking happy with yourself.

And yes, when the Coordinator subject was brought up, don't fucking turn the subject around and bring this accusing bullshit back up to me, alright? I do not want her to get off staff, so why the hell would I suggest something like that? I know she worked her ass off to get this running as smooth as all hell and she did a wonderful job at it. If you only did that to see my ass get pwned, I also hope that you're fucking happy with yourself.

And finally, you really should stop hiding behind posts that I'll eventually see when you're talking shit about people. Why are you so fucking 2-faced? Why the double-take? Why is it necessary? Also, have a little more respect with people and have some proper netiquette even though people say something that you don't agree with. If you were trying to get attention, I think it just worked itself in reverse.

Well, I guess that's it for this post. And for this journal. Yep. This journal is no more. It will be abandoned. For good? I can't say. Because I don't know. People like you only leave me to make decisions like this. Go ahead and spread this out so a hoard of people can pwn me again. YAY! ♥

Anyway, see you guys, and thanks for all the fish.

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[31 May 2006--21:18]
[ mood | OH LOOK! ]

YOWZA!

HELLO LJ WORLD! :D

Why are you all so intent on starting drama on my thoughts and feelings of things?

Because you all have nothing better to do and want to start shit with me about something I'm TRYING to let go of.

Also, it helps not that you all keep bringing the same shit back up OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN~~!

I love you all so much! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Death be to me now, eh? I'M SURE YOU'RE ALL WAITING FOR THAT! ♥

With that said, I will refrain from making posts on LJ, going on instant messages, posting on message boards, and ALL THE WHINING AND BITCHING AND SORE-LOSING THAT YOU ALL OH-SO-CLAIM THAT I HAVE because you people HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO WITH YOURSELVES OTHER THAN START BULLSHIT WITH SOMEONE WHO WAS ONLY TRYING TO GET HIS OWN FEELINGS ACROSS AND THEN HAVE A HOARD OF PEOPLE ATTACK HIM BECAUSE *gasp* MY OPINION WAS COMPLETELY WRONG AND UNFORGIVABLE. BUT MY FEELINGS DON'T FUCKING MATTER IN THE LEAST BIT!!!

ALL YOU ASSHOLES CARE ABOUT IS GETTING ME BASHED AND BEING PROVED WRONG BECAUSE I SAID SOMETHING THAT THE WHOLE LOT OF YOU DON'T AGREE WITH!!!

You people make me sick. THERE, I SAID IT. You people make me utterly and completely sick. You all have nothing better to do than to direct people to my post and attack me IN A BLOG, NO LESS, just to see me be bashed, stepped on, chewed up, spit out, and have it repeated all over again.

OH LOOK, I EXPRESSED WHAT I'M FEELING ONCE MORE~! AND YOU WILL ALL START DRAMA BECAUSE OF IT!!! WHY? YOU ALL HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO!!!!

Again, I will not be making any more posts on LJ, on message boards, or be on instant messengers. Date of return is OPTIONAL.

Fuck you all, and get the fuck away from me. I'm not going emo. I'm pissed. Extremely pissed.

Sorry, you mother fuckers. Commenting is disabled. There are other ways to get a hold of my whiny sorry ass. You know what they are.

x_X death be to me [31 May 2006--12:08]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I am starting to get a little annoyed at people who don't know how to operate StepMania. I am quite tempted to just tell them to fuck off and link them to that site, but since I have a lot of patience when it comes to people...

Convo snippet )

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If you've had the displeasure of spending an adequate time with me as of late, you'll come to find out that I have an angry disposition (Thank you oh so fucking much, Seifer-muse). But hey, everything else is in-tact. :D Or something...

Me? Angry? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Me? Genki? Don't make me laugh.

Me? Mean and vindictive? LMFAOROFLCOPTERLOLLERSKATES

Just as my best friend said on her LJ, I'll say this. I'm as human as the next person is. I have my own needs and wants. When I'm hurt, I'll cry/sob/shout/scream/yell/angst and when I'm angry or dissatisfied about something, I will yell/bitch/whine/moan/complain. How people react to it is not my responsibility because I cannot control their actions. Stop fucking blaming me for expressing myself and my feelings and opinions on my LJ. You are disrespecting rule #1 on the front page, assholes.

I should stop holding shit in and make myself and my emotions known (like how I was back in late 2002/early 2003), which will then make a lot of people on my friends list take me off just based on the principle of being unable to put up with my bullshit (and I, luckily, could give a rats ass at this point). But is that really gonna help my already angry disposition that has developed in the past year? I don't think so. I have school and my single parent, mainly, to thank for that.

o_O

Do I need to explain myself further? That's for me to know and for you to find out.

...












......

If you really want an answer, it's a NO! BZZT! Try again.

My boxers with fish on it are missing.

Oh, and hi. Stop reading into my vague posts, please.

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A few things [31 May 2006--09:44]
[ mood | har ]
[ music | Beatmania IIDX 13 DistorteD - NAOKI & Tatsh - DEEP ROAR ]

[info]daemonitellama, I'm in need of vexing an entity. And it's for a tremendous cause, I swear it. That means I'm gonna need your help. The subject in question has a great amount of will. If need be, I can get a few more (at least one) to help. I will explain more if you call me or IM me.

I think I'm gonna go out to buy a phone so you peeps can get a hold of me. To say the least though, I now have online capabilities here at home. Still, I need to buy that phone because if and when people call me, I tend to yack my ass off.

Onee-chan ([info]cyracin25), I really hope she stops calling you. How the hell are you SUPPOSED to fix a problem you have no experience with? I don't get that shit.

Still contemplating on getting black fabric from Okaa-san or just getting a new batch of my own. :x

[info]satrugha, you and Cory should give me the hi-res pics from your digicams since I wanna make prints out of them. 20 free prints for the frickin' win.

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Haha! :D [31 May 2006--02:32]
[ mood | YOWZA! ]

It's funny how people assume I'm starting shit when I just let my feelings and opinions known to the whole world without any underlying message, intent, or cause and effect! :D <3

Hello double standard, HOW ARE YOU? :D Haven't we met before? Of course we have! :D Isn't this my LJ? :D Of course it is! ^_^ Aren't I allowed to write whatever I want on it?! OH OF COURSE NOT BECAUSE PEOPLE WILL AUTOMATICALLY ASSUME THAT YOU ARE STARTING SHIZZLES WHEN YOU ARE EXPRESSING YOUR FEELINGS TOWARDS THE ENTIRETY OF TEH INTARWEB BECAUSE YOU KNOW, TEH INTARWEB IS SERIOUS BUSINESS! :D~

OMG I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! ♥♥♥♥♥♥

PLEASE MARRY ME! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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Hmm... [30 May 2006--15:37]
[ mood | complacent ]

Here at DeVry making a post. It's nice to know people who are working to be in the gaming industry.

I told myself I'd make a Fanime con report, but there really isn't much to report for me because half of it was spent making costumes. So yes, people. Please scold me if I try to pull something out of my ass like that again because that ain't gonna happen again. To say the least, I finally have the costume.

The people in the dorm here are planning to play Soul Calibur III. I have a few gripes about it, but it's pretty to play otherwise. Oh and ugh... Soul Calibur in English... x_X I'm gonna need to start kicking ass, don't I?

I need a Soul Calibur icon, too... Hmm... *runs off to make one*

I also need to buy black fabric again for Cliff since I left the stuff at my LA home... x_X

Work tomorrow...

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Fanime [30 May 2006--01:14]
Fanime, overall, was fun. Though, I feel bad that half of it was spent in the hotel room working on Baralai.

Will make a report later when I'm more coherent. But I will say this. Masquerade SUCKED. Why does Fanime keep picking judges that just make their friends win? I mean honestly. Most of the people and groups who won the masquerade? The judges knew who they were. The judges were apparently friends with the winners. That's hella retarded.

Oh, and 3 more costumes to work on for AX.

1. Cliff Fittir
2. Siren
3. 2P Soul Calibur II Kilik

And probably 1 more costume if I get the chance. :x

Watch me pull something out of my ass again. :(
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[25 May 2006--11:39]
[ mood | SPAZ ]
[ music | ric - in my eyes ]

ONE DAY BEFORE FANIME AND I'M STILL NOT DONE WITH BARALAI! :O

Anyhow, [info]satrugha... you said you were gonna interface Baralai's collar. When can you do it? The day of? I'll be in a Benimaru costume that day.

And [info]selphiealmasy, do you have any black fabric? I need it for Baralai's sash thingy with the god damned Yevon symbols on it.

Oh, and does anyone have a red curtain pull? I don't have the slightest fucking idea why Baralai has a curtain pull around the collar of his coat.

Everything else, I'm done with. BUH! Showertime.

Oh, and I HAVE FREAKING WORK TODAY! W..T..F..

And WHY ARE ALL THE FINAL FANTASY GATHERINGS ON SATURDAY? :O I CAN'T DO ALL OF THEM! AND THERE'S STILL THE FASHION SHOW!

*spaz attack*

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Damn.... [24 May 2006--13:38]
In all the awesomeness of DDR SuperNova, there's one little thing I'm disappointed about.

more deep (ver.2.1) is not in it :(
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Mood themes [23 May 2006--11:38]
Does anyone know if there is a Kurosaki Ichigo mood theme set somewhere out there?

If there is, please be to letting me know? I'd really appreciate it. Thanks! ♥

Back to sewing for Baralai...
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:D [23 May 2006--01:49]
[ mood | happy ]

Hello, manipulation! ♥

How are you? ♠

I like to manipulate my friends into making them think however and whatever I like! ♥ I also like lying to people just to get what I want, or to make things happen how I want them to happen. ♥♠♥

Thank you, manipulation! ♥ I like to throw away people just like that because they have wronged me in the worst way possible and I can't let go of the past and see the bigger picture! ♠

YAY!

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Ehh... [22 May 2006--11:05]
[ mood | blah ]

I really like how people are so one-sided these days. They get one side of the story from one person, and don't even bother to get the story from the other side. Some friendship that was worth.

Then again, I have very low expectations from everyone so this really shouldn't surprise me. But it somehow does... Maybe it's because... nah. It can't be that. I've done that to numerous people so much that it's gotten to the point where it doesn't count anymore.

I also really like how some people have become highly unapproachable these days because of this issue.

Oh well. As the world turns, it turns even further. In reverse. Emo post? I don't think so. More of a realization and coming to some sort of understanding that I've stopped caring because really, people really like to walk in and out of my life at their own convenience. But you know what? Zellie does not equal a welcome doormat. And yet, I'm treated like one over half the time.

Oh well. Just a reminder for myself that no matter what you do, you can't make everyone happy.

Edit 1: Hmm... I heard about what happened. And yes, I wasn't surprised at all. Because jealousy seems to be a nasty feeling that one likes hanging onto, they'll do anything to get what they want including telling other people lies, backstabbing people, and the like. That just gave me more reason to believe that one is now a very insignificant and unimportant part of my life. I have a lot of other people who are important to me and the one can pwn me as much as they want. I'm not going to let it affect me any more.

Edit 2: How can you consider one place sacred when 28347540968134095 people are there every day? Especially during warm days? Were we supposed to ask for permission before going to said sacred place? What about the other 28347540968134095 people that were there? Were they supposed to ask for permission as well before entering said sacred place? Isn't that being a little over-obsessive?

Edit 3: Sorry. What you did just backfired. Karma, baby.

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Check it up, check it up.. I just wanna get your love..... [19 May 2006--11:48]
[ mood | complacent ]
[ music | BoA - 気持ちは伝わる ]

.... )

Listening to this song reminds me of the old days for some reason.

WTF I have costumes to work on... [info]takaishihoshi, we need to set a day solely for costume-making. We'll never get anything done at this rate.

Reiko, I will be online later this afternoon so we can discuss the Locke costume.

And I really need to hunt to put together a costume for Siren. Geh... I'll be pissed if I put that off until AX this year. Well, at this rate, I might have to. I don't even have a hat for it yet. Ergh... I have over half the costume already but still...

Oh and Baralai.... OH DEAR GOD BARALAI. Don't even GET ME STARTED.... Yea... I think I'm gonna have to pull something out of my ass for Baralai's costume, like what I did with Kilik's costume (which took me about 10-15 hours to do, nonstop). But yes... OMG so much shit I need to do.

If, and only IF I get Baralai's costume done early (which I am highly doubting), I am going to hunt for stuff for Siren. Until then... x_x

Work today at 4 pm - 1:30 am. Swing shifts suck. But then again, it's just for Photo. I was the breaker last night, meaning I was covering breaks for everyone and I was like... on the floor most of the time putting stuff away. The managers at Store #4517 are pretty cool, too.

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[08 May 2006--05:14]
[ mood | sarcastically cheerful ]

What the hell is Cassie bitching about this time?

Edit: Because I'm SUCH A WONDERFUL DRIVER, I LOST MY CEL PHONE. GREAT.

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Ghetto [03 May 2006--17:33]
With my ghetto ass cel phone, I managed to figure out how to put my own wallpapers on it.

So I now have Eiri on my cel wallpaper as opposed to T-Mobile's default one. I've also managed to put a great deal of the other characters there, too. Like Celica and Erika <3

Tired.

Will be on and off sporadically.

I know... that's just the way it goes
And you ain't right, for sure
You turned your back on love
For the last time
It won't take much longer now
Time makes me stronger well
There's nothing more to say

One day in your life
Said love will remind you
How could you leave it all behind
One day in your life
It's gonna find you with the tears that let me cry
And baby I'm stronger than before
You gotta lay it on the line
Maybe one day in your life
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Tch. [03 May 2006--07:48]
[ mood | ech ]

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a brother of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

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Hmm... [02 May 2006--17:07]
[ mood | blah ]

I half-heartedly expected that sort of answer. But I guess it's like me to never expect much from anyone. Including the people who are close to me. Sorry if that makes you feel uneasy about me, but that's just the way that I am. With people walking in and out of my life at their own convenience, I really don't have any other recourse but to do that. And at this point, it has become second nature for me because it's happened so many times. Including much of my childhood. (i.e. my father)

Even if I try to hold on to those said people, I can't ultimately do anything about it because it's their choice and I am going to respect it. The last thing I want to happen is to get them upset at me even more than they already are.

But people can't say that I didn't try. Because I did.

Anyway, semi-Eiri day once again. I really should lay off these Caramel Frapps, but damn they're oh so good. As opposed to four Starbucks trips yesterday, I only made two today. And that's where I am right now.

Part of me wants to just lay down and sleep for the rest of the day and the entire night. Another part of me wants to protest and bounce up and down and off the walls. But overall, I suppose you could say I feel meh and mellow. I'm beginning to be immune to the effects of caffeine once again.

Anyhow, I'll be online for the mean time. If I leave unexpectedly, please excuse me.

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Rar [29 Apr 2006--15:07]
[ mood | bitchy ]

So customers bitch at work because we were putting up sale signs for TOMORROW. Because you know... it'll help us more if we put up the sales for tomorrow, TOMORROW.

Fuck you, bitches. You try working for retail and see how shit operates. Don't talk shit in Spanish either because I know enough to get the fuck around.

Oh and Adrian (coworker) needs to learn how time-clocks work. You CANNOT take a 20-minute lunch just because all you do is listen to music and sip on soda. You have to take a 30-minute lunch BECAUSE IT IS CALIFORNIA LAW. And the time-clock won't even let you clock back in from lunch because you are 10 MINUTES SHORT.

Other than that, I had a complete Eiri day. I took 3 trips to Starbucks for their Tall Caramel Frapp. And I'm STILL tired.

Then again, work sucked like dirty shit.

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Hmm... [27 Apr 2006--21:47]
[ mood | complacent ]
[ music | Daniel Powter - Bad Day ]

I went to Wal-Mart today to go look for Siren shoes. They look like this: (sorry, you all get no cut)



I found something like that at Whore-Mart, but THEY WERE TOO SMALL!!! W.T.F.! The biggest size they had it for was 6. 6!!!!!

So yea, that failed. First, Siren's got the amethyst thing goin' on. Then the orange? It... horribly color-clashes, but I love Siren nonetheless, anyway. :D

Anyhow, ToeFur is one insane bastard. And I like how his posse thinks they're pwning us when we're the one pwning them. They constantly keep defending their shit by saying the same words over and over and over again. -.-

On that note, I need to bleach my hair before it's too late already. It's QUARTER 'TIL 10 ALREADY?!?! DAMN IT, SLOW DOWN, TIME!

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