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FIGHT FIRE WITH FIRE AND EVERYTHING WILL BURN!
And I’m blogging! This past week has been absolutely insane and absolutely incredible. Everything happens for a reason. Everything. And there have been so many coincidences recently that you really just have to take it as a sign for something bigger and better. Jeffree Jac and Hanna are back in action! We all realized that a true friendship can crush any bullshit that has happened in the past (which all may or may not have been caused by a certain moron I will not name). I’m so happy to have Hanna back in my life. We get along so well its insane…its like we were never apart! She’s finally rid herself of so much negative energy. I feel like we all have grown and matured so much, and we’re all going in the same direction.
Anyway, this weekend Jeffree Hanna and I went to the Cobra / Metro Station / We The Kings shows at the Glass House and Troubador. I have been M.I.A. from shows for the past six months, so it was strange being at one again. It was a dramatic weekend like always! Trace’s negative energy, lots of hair flips (not like Chris Crocker), Amy’s top bunk sexcapades, Blake’s photoshoots, Hanna driving like a grandma, Jeffree driving like a fugitive, strobe light dance parties, creepy text messages, taking fake ecstacy (they were pez), Jeffree singing on stage with Metro, Hannah Montana and Billy Ray, Gaaaaaary, Dan’s sweet glasses, lots of vodka redbulls, fake crying, Travis’ dope (or not) palm tree tattoo, the walk of shame, crackheads, “we come in a trio!”, making videos with Gabe, meeting lots of new friends, seeing lots of old ones.
Oh, and since I’ve been gone, I got a blackberry. See ya Sidekick! Never using you ever again!! So, if you’re a friend of mine in real life, give me your pins!
Alright, that’s it for now. Expect good things in the future. Stay classy my friends. Stay classy.
“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
– Howard Thurman
Music I've been into lately: Joy Division, The Dandy Warhols, The Wombats, and The Hoosiers.
( if life is subtraction, your number is up )
QUESTION OF THE DAY: what are two bands you can’t stop listening to lately?? I need new music!
QUESTION OF THE DAY PART 2: OBAMA 08 BITCHES! If I made an OBAMA bracelet, would you buy one? This is a great way for those not old enough to vote to show their support for the man who will be soon running our sweet sweet country of love! Thoughts?
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[January 25, 2008] |
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to come back to livejournal, or not to come back to livejournal....
that is the question.
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[July 22, 2007] |
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NEW SHIRTS FOR SALE!!!!! RUTHLESS BRACELETS STILL ON SALE!!!!!
hey guys. i finally have my online clothing and accessory line started up. let me know what you think!
click on this image to direct you to my myspace!
( wassup wassuuuuuup )
and add me on myspace if you haven't yet!!!
myspace.com/byjacvanek
i haven't updated this journal in like 8 months. haha. so, its time to get back into the swing of things. photos from the summer and such will be posted soon. four of my friends and i are (hopefully) moving into a gigantic 6 bedroom, 3 story house in august. and fyi..those DONT exist in hollywood. so this is major! HELLOOOO PARTY HOUSE!!!
question of the day: if you know anything about interior decorating...help me decorate my room!! i want it to have a 90s, hip hop, fresh prince feel. neon colors, lots of contrast, totally legit. etc etc. i want someone to graffiti my walls! other than that, i have NO idea how to decorate my walls, what decorations to use..anything! if you have links to websites, show me!!
also...we're all going to get something for entertainment purposes. what's a must have? i'm buying guitar hero, someone needs to buy a beer pong table....what else serves as good entertainment?
party on.
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[January 7, 2007] |
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and you cannot run or ever, ever escape. and you cannot hide or ever, put it away. why'd you have to get so hysterical? why'd you have to get so fucking useless? play it cool boy, play it cool.
it’s the secret. its all in your head. its everything you were, everything you are, everything you will ever be. its what you believe. it’s the law of attraction and it controls everything in your life. everything in your life, you have attracted. everything. ever wonder why the rich always get richer and the poor always get poorer? its because this small fraction of people understand something. they understand the secret. all of the power is internal; your life is under your control. you can be and accomplish anything you wish. when you believe. the question is: are you willing to change it? something glorious is about to happen.
do yourself a favor. instead of complaining and worrying and gossiping and always looking at the worst, try being grateful and loving and laughing and counting your blessings. oh what a simple change! but the results can be magical. some things are the exact opposite of what they may seem. i’m not too worried. as long as i know the truth.
new years ruled!!! except pretty much every single person cried. hahaha. some of my friends are creating the most amazing music my ears have heard in a long time, and i couldn’t be more proud. youre going to be blown away with this year’s releases. i got an A on my astrobiology final. hell yes! school starts again on monday. not stoked. vegas in three weeks, so dope. lizz has been here for a week. so much has happened. creepsesh2007 and thesecret work wonders. and we know this so it will happen. bffs and bfs start tomorrow. stoooked. funk comes tomorrow. holla! i think my apt should be nicknamed “HOTEL JAC AND ALYSIA”. new years resolution is to lose 15 pounds, but isn’t it always? ha.
( she said i'm gonna use my teeth and my claws. she said i'm gonna use my teeth and my breats. i'm gonna make it happen. )
question of the day: new years resolutions?
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[December 12, 2006] |
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your life is an iceberg. all you see, and all you will ever see is just at the tip. but if you believe, you have the ability to turn it all around. life can be so much more. life can be anything you want it to be.
ask yourself: is there something more? why am i here? what is the purpose of life? where am i going? what happens when i die? asking yourself these deeper questions opens up new ways of being in the world. when you dive into the spiritual, the religious, the scientific, the mechanic, you dive into yourself. your consciousness influences others around you. it influences the material. it influences your future. it influences more than you could ever imagine.
i am much more than i think i am. i can be much more even than that. i can influence my environment. the people. i can influence space itself. i can influence the future. i am responsible for all those things. i and the surround are not separate. they're part of one. i'm connected to it all. i'm not alone.
i’ve been pretty content lately. i’m on a journey of self awareness and self worth. its not easy, but i’m changing my life. watch “what the bleep do we know?”. then you’ll understand. there’s no need to waste my life on the worthless. there are certain people in this world that are so fucking dilusional and imbecilic, it blows my mind. what sort of fantasy land do you honestly think you're living in right now? what sad, sad excuses for human beings. i've been researching and reading up on lucid dreaming for the past couple weeks, and the more i learn, the more fascinating life becomes.
i’ve been a busy bee lately. studying for the damn astrobiology final for 96 hours straight. armor is finally here so its pretty much hang time every night. too many cheeseball farts. lizz and paul come soon, whats going on for new years?? planning a trip to chicago feb 14-feb 20. hopefully itll work out!! i need to see my favorite people!!! maybe reno in march. brittany cait and jac time needs to happen asap, if not in january. i’m back on the diet again. insane photoshoot with alaina when she gets home from london. funfunfun! i only have class mondays and wednesdays next quarter. high five!!!
oh...and i almost forgot...
just kidding! how can i forget...VEGAS?!!?! basically the run down is...the rejects, gym class, motion city, and the format had a show at the joint. i was hired to shoot the after party for the new atticus catalog which YOU BETTER GO OUT AND GET!!! i had to actually play real photographer for once, so i'm hardly in any pics. BOO! the pictures speak for themselves...lets just say it was the most insane night ever. vegas...i love you.
( vivaaaaaaa las vegassssssssssss )
question of the day: what's the one movie you can't live without?
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[November 20, 2006] |
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www.myspace.com/rightinthefamilyjewels
go buy her jewlery NOW. its all i wear and i love her. you should too.
sorry long time no update. everything is so busy. I GOT A BUZZNET. annnnnd buzznet gave me a sweet phone so expect daily updates of pictures and videos! benito comes in 8 DAYS!!!! god i cant wait to hang out with him every day. vegas next wednesday to shoot stuff for the atticus catalog at the rejects show. its going to be out of control. lemme know if you’ll be there. ive been on a low carb diet for a week and im goin strong. a highlight from last week was a dope singalong to bohemian rhapsody with di. new years = lizz paul and cait so far. shout out to my best friend cait holmes!! life has been good but strange lately. crossed fingers.
once you met a young girl. she was glowing and secure and playful and had everything you could ever want. everyone would look at her but no one would look her in the eyes. when you did, you saw that underneath the pretty face hid a tangled mess of confusion and distrust and heartache and the yearning of someone to notice. someone to understand. someone to listen. everyone would look at her but no one would look her in the eyes. because no one wants to look past that pretty face. i don’t know what everyone was looking at. i think, i think that its me.
it’s the same as before. or the other time. or the time before that. hope and doubt coexist in the back of my mind. always. i can never tell which will outweigh the other. i hope i hope i hope. that for once, maybe for once, it isn't all a dream. i doubt i doubt i doubt. because its all just a cycle and i see the future. overanalyzation and an acute self awareness aren’t always a good thing. i'm scared of changing seasons, i'm scared to be alone in winter. i'm scared i'll get scared and i swear i'll try to never give up.
sometimes i believe in soul mates. sometimes i don’t. i want so badly to believe. like a young girl picking flowers in the lawn, she gets every kiss and tear. she gets every smile and fear, but still she never finds the last of them is gone, oh she never finds the last of them is gone.
( didnt i find you when you thought you'd never stand out? )
question of the day: what do you want for christmas?
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[October 17, 2006] |
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i could use a hero right now, and you could use someone to save, someone like me.
slow down, this nights a perfect shade of dark blue. at that moment it is all clear. its something you can never fully explain, a feeling that you can never really put your finger on. everything is just so perfect. everything fits. it doesn’t matter what i was doing before, or where i am going after. in that moment, problems, and worries, and heartache, and doubts don’t exist. in that moment, all that exists is hope, and faith, and love, and happiness. i am slipping through, i am slipping into the airwaves. i am a ball of gas, slowly floating above the heads of everyone below me. the world stops rotating, yet it seems to rotate. right. around. the black and white. it’s the music i’ve breathed in for the last seven years of my life. it’s the words that always understood me when no one else did. its my inspiration, its my hope. for everything. it was me and you, and the whole town underwater. you can breathe, you can breathe now. maybe the world could look like this forever.
i had that dream again where i was lost for good in outer space. emotions are running around like madmen. when you don’t have enough time in the day to finish everything and when there’s way too many things to do and places to be and people to see. it wears you out. in a good way i think. pushing and pushing and pushing, cause hey, you only live once. i tried my best to fight the atmosphere, to think the happy thoughts that leave the phone lines clear. i’ve never been so busy and excited in my life. i’ve never been so productive. i’ve never been so alone, and i’ve never been so alive. its all so bittersweet. without you i don’t have a place that’s safe from all the monsters that hide in my head and sing me to sleep. i guess it’s the price to pay sometimes. have you ever been alone in a crowded room? where are you now?
shits been absolutely unreal lately. in the most awesome way possible. some good hangs with some great friends lately. i can't believe how amazing my life is. i am so grateful for everything and everyone who has helped me along the way. thank you everyone. i love you.
( oh, and the postcard's gonna read: fuck yeah we can live like this )
question of the day: what are you being for halloween? i need a kick ass idea for a costume!
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