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[Jun. 26th, 2004|01:58 pm] |
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Stupid shit always happens to me. I went to school yesterday...the last day. Saw everyone which was pretty rad, and my eye is feeling much better, I have cigarettes, it's the weekend, and I returned my stuff to the school and got my working papers. Got everything out of the way. Why don't I feel a little better then? Yesterday I was at the mall at 10:30am. Why? Don't ask bordom. Went with a bunch of people and I had my folder with all my stuff in it. Working papers, social security card, and my birth certificate. I remember leaving for a few with Jack and Mangela and later on I realized. My folder is gone. I lost it like a fucking idiot. I was so fucking pissed. I saw mad people at the mall but I didn't care. I had money to buy stuff and I spent it on bullshit. We all went into Aeropostal and I saw the nicest shirt on sale for $10 and I didn't have enough because I spent it on bullshit. WTF...I was so mad.
I might go to the Bronx tomorrow but I don't even want to do anything this weekend anymore. Yea after the huge fuss I made right? I don't even feel like it. Too much on my mind...I don't think I'll get into THAT though.
Later Days
Bordom
Name: NIKKI
Sex: Female
Straight/Gay/Bi-Sexual: Bi
Single: Yea >_<
DOB: June 9
Occupation: Drunk
Age: 17
Age I act: Depends how I feel and If I'm drunk or not
Age I wish I was: 21
Height: 5'6"
Eye Color: Brown
Happy with it?: Nah it's boring
Lefty/Righty/Ambidextrous: Righty
Family: Mom, Sister, 2 Brothers
Pets: Sam
Piercings?: 6 in my ears, and my lip
Tattoos?: I want 4 so far...the Keywork on my inner left arm, the Co&Ca dragonfly on my lower back, a heart on my stomach, and the hot ass ASL design that's on my shirt with the winged creatures holding a broken heart on my upper back
Do you speak another language?: A very tiny bit of spanish , I understand more than I speak
Have a favorite quote?: Not sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not sure
Deep thoughts about life and you in it?: I think I may have mentioned many of them in this journal
Do you live in the moment? Most of the time
Do you have any secrets? Of course
Do you hate yourself? Most of the time
Do you like your handwriting?: I write like a 2 year old boy
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: I'll get back to you on that
Can you sing?: Sometimes
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: No
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Nah I'm too annoying
Are you passive or aggressive?: aggresive at times
Do you have a journal?: What do you think I writing in?
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: No
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? Finishing High School, going out with certain people
Do you think life has been good so far? It's had it's good points but no
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? Learned alot about love, being in love, losing it and I learned to live though I'm still in love...
What do you like the most about your body?: Nothing really
Do you smoke?: Yea
Drink?: Yea
Read the newspaper?: I watch the news more
Pray?: No
Go to church?: No
Talk to strangers who IM you?: If they're not creepy
Sleep with stuffed animals?: No
Take walks in the rain?: Not intentionally
Drive?: No
Like to drive fast?: No
Have you ever...
Been out of the country?: No
Eaten something that made other people sick?: Tomato soup
Been in love?: Yes
Done drugs?: Shut up
Had a medical emergency?: Miscarraige
Had surgery?: No
Ran away from home? Not funny
Played strip poker? No
Got beaten up?: Playing around
Beaten someone up?: ^^^
Been picked on?: Yea just like most kids
Gone one day without food?: I've gone several days without
Talked on the phone all night?: Yea
Slept together with the opposite sex: Yea
Slept all day?: Yea
Killed someone?: Oh god they're after me
Made out with a stranger?: No
Had sex with a stranger?: No
Thought you're going crazy?: O yea
Done anything sexual with the same sex? yea
Had a dream that came true?: Yea
Broken the law?: Most likley
Met a famous person?: Yea but I didn't care
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: No My brother hit a cat with his car and I'm against animal cruelty
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: Yea
Stolen anything?: Want to see the collection from the mall?
Been on radio/tv?: No
Had a nervous breakdown?: Plenty of times
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yea
Miracles?: Don't happen for me
Magic?: No
God?: No
Santa?: No
Ghosts?: Sometimes
Luck?: I am the SI's most unlucky girl
Love at first sight?: Maybe
Do you wish on stars? Never works
Deep theological questions...
Do you believe in the traditional view of heaven and hell? Uhm...not really
Do you think god has a gender?: Definitly a guy
where do you think we go when we die?: I don't know about you guys but I'll be left wandering
The friends...
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Alot lol
Who is your best friend?: I don't think so anymore...Allysia
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Stitches, Demo, Sam
Who's your longest known friend?: Maria, Chewie, Demo
Newest?. Kids from Port and the mall
Shyest?: Allysia
Funniest?: All of them
Sweetest?: Sammy
Cutest?: Alot of them, Allysia, Bam, Demo, Markeda, and so on
Closest?: Ugh
Weirdest?: Little John
Smartest? Iono
Friend you miss being close to the most?: Demo >_<
Last person you talked to online?: Brian
Who are you on the phone with most?: no one really
Who do you trust most?: No one
Who listens to your problems?: Sam
Who do you fight most with?: SAM and Alberto
Who's the nicest?: Allysia
Who's the best singer?: ME...that's a lie
Do you always feel understood?: Ehh
Who's the loudest friend?: We're all loud
Do you trust others easily?: No
Who's house were you last at?: Probably Gerardo's before skool ended
Do your friends know you?: How are they my friends if they don't know me?
Friend that lives farthest away: Everyone in the Bronx, Luis in Florida, Bryan in Cali
Love and all that...
Do you consider love a mistake?: In my last situation, yes
What do you find romantic? Ehh
First kiss? Michael
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: Yea
Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out: Doesn't make a diff but I'd rather a guy ask me out so at least I know he likes me
Who was the last person...
You wanted to kill?: It's still Stitch
That you laughed at?: Andrew
That laughed at you?: Me
You went shopping with?: Little John, Jenna, Allysia
That broke your heart?: to make you cry?: That's not funny...
That you thought about?: Bryan (Diaz)
You talked to on the phone?: Adam
You saw?: EVERYONE
Who are you going out with?: Noone >_< not by choice
What are you wearing right now?: Blue plaid pajama pants, A Static Lullbay Tee and vans
What are you worried about right now?: Being alone
What book are you reading?: None everyone borrowed my books
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: Oh God The After-Math
Are you bored?: Yes
Are you tired?: No sleep
Are you talking to anyone online?: Brian (not Diaz)
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: No
Are you lonely or content?: Lonely
Are you listening to music?: Sugarcult
Song that makes you happy: Anything Monty Love
Song that makes you want to cry: "Short Stories with Tragic Endings" - FATA and "Trust" - Thrice
Song that makes you feel dreamy: "Anatomy of a Journey" - Boys Night Out and "Trouble" - Coldplay
Song that makes you sleepy: "I, Robot" - Coheed and Cambria
Song that makes you want to dance: I don't dance
Song that makes you want to close your ears: Too many to list
Song that makes you think of that special someone: "God Send Conspirator" - Coheed and Cambria...Don't ask
Song that makes you feel relaxed: Most music
Song that makes you feel inspired: Alot of music
Song that makes you want to sing along: Anything Coheed
Which of your CLOSE friends have you known the longest?: Demo, Sid, Chewie
Which of your CLOSE friends you have known the shortest?: Allysia and kids from Port
Who of your friends is the tallest?: Jack and Kevin they're both like 6'1"
Who of your friends is the shortest?: Demo, Bam and many others
Who do you talk to for LOVE advice?: Noone
Who do you talk to for SEX advice?: Noone
Who do you talk to for SCHOOL advice?: Lots of people
Who can always cheer you up?: Very few people
Who can always bring you down?: Demo
Who can always put you in your place?: Demo, Mario
Who can always make you do stupid things?: Me
Who brings out the best in you?: Me
Who can you cry to?: Noone
Who do you share your deepest secrets with?: Noone
Who do you wish you saw more of?: People from the Bronx
Who do you need to see less of?: Sam
Who is the biggest flirt of your friends?: Sam, Kevin, Anthony
Who is the most retarded?: Kevin
Who is the proudest of your friends?: The Graduating ones
Who will become a nun?: Allysia
Who will become a stripper?: Sam....::cringe::
Who will become a teacher?: None
Who will become a doctor?: o god Noone
Who will stay unemployed forever?: Stitch
Who will marry first?: Probably me then get divorced and inherit lots of money
Who will have the most kids?: Demo lol, he loves kids
Who will live the longest?: Me, just my luck
Who will you remember forever?: Everyone
Who is your friend with benifits?: Brian
Who do you love the most?: Everyone because they all have something special about them, I know it sounds like some stupid after skool special but yea... |
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