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Today is a sad day ;__; [Tuesday, June 28, 2005 ××× 12:33AM]

[ feelinghearing | gloomy ]

[ feelinghearing | Fatima - "Shoujo to Closet" ]

( A month or so later, I'm lj-cutting the picture because it's messing up my new layout. )

Today is, in essence, Fatima's last day as a band. They're playing their last live tonight.

After I go to bed and then get up later, it will all be over already (time zones- Japan is, I think, 14 hours ahead of me, but I might be an hour off if it changed with daylight savings time or whatever). That almost makes me not want to go to sleep. Not that it would change the fact that they're disbanding, but... I don't know.

By the way, if anyone's interested, their official site got redone layout-wise. It looks nice. Not that it didn't before, but... you know what I mean.

(If you don't like the fact that I posted somewhat of a wide picture without an lj-cut, sorry, but I'm not going to put it behind one. -__-;; Sorry, but it's a special occasion XP And besides, it'll be off your friends page soon enough, anyway.)

Randomness: I'm going to go change my mood icons before I go to bed. I can't stand the little "goth-girl" ones anymore, they're driving me insane.

Look at me being all cool-like and posting this entry as PUBLIC XP

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[Tuesday, July 20, 2004 ××× 02:19AM]

[ feelinghearing | happy ]

[ feelinghearing | Fatima - "Love Me" ]

Saku and Kisou got here in the mail today. ^_^ Well yesterday, technically, but yeah. I haven't listened to all of Kisou yet (but I've heard most of it anyway, haha...), but so far it's great. ^_^ Saku wasn't as bad as I expected o_O I mean, I really think that they (Dir en Grey) are capable of much better, but it's still okay I guess. I don't hate it, anyway. I love Machiavellism (am I spelling that right? XD), though. It's neat-o. As for G.D.S. ... I'm still kind of developing an opinion on that one.

ALSO, I decided that after I had already spent so much time on my pastel drawing of Die (not to mention money- well, my mom's money XD- on materials) that I should really finish him, so I worked on him for quite a while today. All I need to do now is finish a small section on his hoodie/shirt thing and then do the hair, then it's all set. It's not perfect by any means, but... I think it's going to turn out okay, especially for it being a first attempt at a pastel piece o_O

Uh, that's all that really happened today. Except a spider attacked me. Well it didn't attack me, but... it was running around on this table, and then I squealed because I was surprised when I saw it, then the thing jumped. That scared the hell out of me. I killed it ;-; I don't like killing spiders and I usually have someone just "rescue" them and put them outside, but I didn't really have any other choice, and... it was jumping *whimpers*

I forgot to say that I deleted a bunch of LJ icons yesterday (10 or so I think) and that I'm going to upload more soon, but that's not a big deal.

...That's all o_o

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[Monday, July 19, 2004 ××× 03:10AM]

[ feelinghearing | amused ]

[ feelinghearing | Psycho le Cemu - "Michi no Sora" ]

Everything is amusing at 3 in the morning XD

I just got Psycho le Cemu's "Michi no Sora" PV and... it's wonderful. Hahaha, it probably wouldn't be as funny to me if I watched it like in the middle of the day, but I'm tired, so... yes. Daishi and Yura-sama were fighting over Aya O_o XD (I believe that Aya was playing the role of a girl, and if not then... well, he was playing a very very girly man. I mean, I know Aya always LOOKS girly, but... oh nevermind haha.) Daishi and Yura-sama were sword fighting near the end, which was fun. I want to sword fight someone ;-; Except I'd probably get killed, haha. Aya and Yura-sama almost kissed o_O I didn't even notice until Aya turned his head and then I was just kind of like "hey, wait a minute". Haha. I don't get why in the end Daishi just randomly left with Lida, nor do I really know what Seek had to do with much of the video (he was wearing an... odd costume and you couldn't see his face o_O)... I mean I'm sure it was something but I didn't quite understand. I don't know. I need to watch it again I think, then I'll get it o_O I don't know though, from what I've seen Psycho le Cemu videos are a bit.... well, they don't always make perfect sense, at least not to me XD

All and all, the video was really amusing and now I need to go to bed. *nods*

Why am I making a journal entry completely about some random video...... O_o *is in desperate need of sleep at the moment apparently*

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[Sunday, July 18, 2004 ××× 08:31PM]

...I don't even know who the hell I think I'm fooling anymore.

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[Sunday, July 18, 2004 ××× 06:50PM]

[ feelinghearing | bored ]

[ feelinghearing | hide - "Goodbye" ]

Baaaah. It bothers me when I'm talking to someone and they say "lol" in response to EVERYTHING. I mean, it's not just the whole "lol" thing that bothers me, it's people that say it even to things that aren't funny in the least. One of my friends was getting offline the other night, so of course I said "bye" to her, to which she responded with "lol". O_o She has also said "lol" in response to me saying things about having migraines and stuff before... o_O Nice!

Anyway! That wasn't the point of this entry, haha. Um... I've been watching VH1 all day (literally almost constantly since I got up). I watched that little thingy on Johnny Depp (I think the show is called A2Z) and about 3 hours worth of I Love the 90s, which I am apparently addicted to now XD Kristyn seventyxtimesx7 spent the night over here last night, which was nice. I haven't seen her since a couple weeks after we got out of school, and I haven't talked to her very much this summer either o_o That makes me sad.

Um... I have basically less than a week to finish my pastel drawing of Die in, and I don't WANT to work on or finish it anymore, but... I feel like I should ;-; I might just not finish it, ever, but... gah, I feel like I should. I hate it though, it really doesn't even look that much like Die since 1) I got lazy with the sketch after working on it for weeks and getting to the point where I didn't WANT to draw anymore and I just wanted to do pastels and 2) I've never really used pastels much before and so things aren't working perfectly. I mean I guess it's not a TERRIBLE piece (and it will probably look better when it's done) but... I don't know. =/ I should actually be working on that right now, but... I don't want to. Maybe I will after dinner or something.

Sorry I've been super-crappy about updating lately ;-;

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[Friday, July 16, 2004 ××× 04:59PM]

[ feelinghearing | uncomfortable ]

[ feelinghearing | Psycho le Cemu - "Gekiai Merry-Go-Round" ]

o_O I'm wearing some of my old clothes today because I didn't have much else that was clean (I have to do laundry today)...

I look (and feel!) really, really weird O_o

Those of you who go to school with me- do you remember those black corduroy (I can't spell that XD), really wide-legged pants I used to wear all the time? Well, I'm wearing those and a black tank top with grommets and d-rings on it...

I don't like it x_x I want out! I want my other clothes! *sobs* This is what happens when you're too lazy to do laundry or even bring your dirty clothes downstairs from your bedroom into the laundry room XD

Haha, I know at least PART of why I used to obsessively think I was really fat. These pants (and the shirt also but mostly the pants) make me look HUGE in comparison to my other ones. Blech XP I mean, I still think I would like to be at least a bit thinner even when I'm wearing my newer clothes, but... geez O_o

This entry was dumb. Meep.

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[Thursday, July 15, 2004 ××× 09:56PM]

[ feelinghearing | bored ]

[ feelinghearing | Miyavi - "Itoshii Hito (Beta Desuman)" ]

First off happy belated birthday to deathpicnic <3 If I understood from your new journal right it was on the 13th? Sorry if I'm confused with that- I haven't been on LJ very much for a while and didn't know you switched to that journal (I knew you had switched to the one new journal at first but not the other) so I didn't see the entry until a few minutes ago. But anyway, yeah, happy belated birthday <3

Um. Um um... YesAsia shipped my Saku and Kisou CDs today =D I'm kind of surprised, going by the statuses and stuff on the order tracking page it didn't look like they'd even ship until next week, but yay =D *waits impatiently for her CDs to get here*

In other news. Miyavi's new video ("Ashita, Genki ni Naare") is wonderful o_o it's really really cute... and it amused me. Yay for Miyavi running around in fields with an umbrella and a pinwheel and other stuff! *is easily entertained, obviously... o_O*

Um... sorry I haven't been updating much lately. I really haven't been doing anything other than sleeping literally almost all day. 13-14 hours a day, usually. I like sleeping........

That's it for now I think O_o I could try to do a runthrough of the past few days but I don't remember doing anything really, other than going to a family friend's house to work on some stuff, which didn't turn out to be that much fun. x_x

I want to talk to people on AIM ;-; *is overly bored at the moment*

I still have new LJ icons to upload! Crap. I keep forgetting ;-;

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[Monday, July 12, 2004 ××× 09:06PM]

You know on yahoo messenger that little smiley with the heart in the corner? The lovey one? (if you don't... just go along with it =O)

Well, if this 12-year-old boy I'm talking to doesn't quit using them while he's talking to me soon... I think I might have to go jump off a building O_o

It's creepy. O_o And... you know. He's 12.

I don't even know why I'm talking to this kid. I don't know WHO gave him my username O_o I'm just talking to him to be nice/polite.....

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[Monday, July 12, 2004 ××× 06:29PM]

[ feelinghearing | bored ]

[ feelinghearing | Miyavi - "Requiem (Due le Quartz Cover)" ]

Stolen from zucci_zookeenee:

Post your completely honest opinion of me as a comment to this entry. Please post anonymously, and don't feel afraid to say whatever. I want you to be brutally and completely honest. Write as much or as little as you want, but if you're reading this, I want you to comment. Once you're done, put this in your own journal.

Doooo ittt XD You know you want to. And stuff.

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I just ordered Kisou and Saku (Dir en Grey CDs... yes) from YesAsia. They're supposed to ship out on like Friday and then are supposed to take I think it said 7-9 days to get here ;-; I WANT THEM NOW!

Oh, zucci_zookeenee- Sorry I haven't IMed you about those Miyavi songs yet, but I will soon. My brother's being a jerk and is refusing to let me get online that much O_o Which he doesn't have the right to do since he doesn't pay for the internet connection, but... that's beyond the point XD Anyway, I will IM you sooooon.

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[Saturday, July 10, 2004 ××× 01:02AM]

A quick question I've been meaning to ask. Once in a while lately I've been posting random pictures in my LJ (not of me, but of other people- for instance I've been posting a lot of Dir en Grey pictures lately). When I make those posts though I just make them for my school friends, but it just occured to me a couple of days ago that only about two of my school friends ever read my LJ that I know of O_o

So the point of this is, I'm asking who would want to see those posts... I will put those people in a custom friends group. So yeah, if you want to be able to see the posts just comment or whatever and I'll put you in the little group thingy. And I put the pictures behind cuts, so if you don't want to see them, then... it's not a problem.

So like I said, if you want to be put in that friends group, then comment or something.

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Kind of a pointless entry about Dir en Grey CDs O_o blah. [Friday, July 09, 2004 ××× 11:54PM]

[ feelinghearing | crappy ]

[ feelinghearing | Dir en Grey - "Mask" ]

Holy crap. I was just checking prices for some stuff I want online... the only sites I've found that has Dir en Grey's Gauze and Missa CDs is the Japanese HMV site, and with shipping included, it's going to cost me $71 or so to order those two CDs. More if I order them seperately, that price is an estimate assuming I order them both at once.

...I need a job O_o

( The options I'm considering right now... )

I'm thinking maybe I should just order Saku and Kisou on Monday... because at any rate, I can always just save up $70 later O_o

Yay for having extremely expensive interests and hobbies! >.< Why can I never like cheap things?!

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[Friday, July 09, 2004 ××× 11:23PM]

Grah. I need to get out of this house for a while.

My dad was yelling at me for being "selfish", while at the same time he was freaking out because he had to make his own dinner because my mom had to take me to a meeting and then do chores, among other things. He's really hypocritical sometimes.

I tend to get really, really afraid when my dad yells at me and... yeah. I'm still kind of shaken right now.

who are you?

[Thursday, July 08, 2004 ××× 03:45AM]

[ feelinghearing | restless ]

[ feelinghearing | Dir en Grey - "Bottom of the Death Valley" ]

All of a sudden, I'm feeling really... uncomfortable. That's the only way to say it. I was fine not too long ago, but then all of a sudden I just started feeling really stressed out. I don't even know why. I feel like there's something I need/want, or something I should be doing, but I just can't seem to figure out what it is. ...does that even make any sense?

I've been stressing about a couple of specific things too, but I'd rather not talk about those right now. =/

I hate my body. Okay, explaining that, I don't mean as in my appearance (even though I don't like that either, but that's not the point). I just mean health-wise and everything... it's been doing strange things to me lately. I've been getting a LOT of migraines and just... a bunch of random weird stuff. Blah. x_x

I think I'm losing my mind or something. Earlier, I randomly remembered that I HAVE to hurry up and start working on Die (pastel drawing) tomorrow or I won't get it done on time, and I literally almost started crying. I don't know why. It's not that I don't like working on it, it's just that I hate having deadlines. I have a couple weeks to get the thing done in, but still. =/ I want to quit with the pastel drawing and do a graphite drawing now, but I can't. x_x

I think I read somewhere on LJ that you can get your username changed for $15, and I am seriously considering doing that (even though it's a lot of money). I could just get a new journal, I guess, but... I'm all settled in so nicely here and I don't WANT a new journal. I hate my username so much, I just randomly picked it because I needed a name. =/ Oh well, it's not like I have a new username in mind yet. I did, but it turned out someone's already used it. Maybe someday I'll blow $15 on a new username, but for now, I'm stuck with this one I guess. I don't even have $15 to spend on getting a new username, anyway, I need whatever money I have right now. =/

...that's enough of that for now I think O_o sorry about that, I always feel bad when I rant.

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[Wednesday, July 07, 2004 ××× 11:45PM]

[ feelinghearing | sore ]

[ feelinghearing | Psycho le Cemu - "Chinese Shounen" (it makes me giggle O_o) ]

lilyamelie had this thing posted in her journal today and I decided to do it... it amused me O_o

( Recommended Interests for me )

I am quite confused by the 'oral fixation' and 'rape sex' interests on there. XD The only things on there that I didn't really agree with were System of a Down (I don't know, I used to like them and still like a few of the songs from their first CD, but yeah), The Simpsons (it's not that I like it, I've just gotten tired of it I guess), and... I never watch Family Guy. I don't know, it's funny though. The recommended interests weren't too far off I guess, haha.

My teeth still hurt. x_x

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[Wednesday, July 07, 2004 ××× 11:11PM]

[ feelinghearing | sore ]

[ feelinghearing | Miyavi - "Shikenkan Baby" ]

Today was... so-so. I hate going to the dentist even more than before now, though, because... well, my appointment ended at about 4:30 and now, at after 11pm, my teeth still hurt badly. On top of that I have a headache. ;_; I can't even eat without cringing in pain O_o Stupid hygienist (I can't spell that word XD).

BUT!!!! To make the day somewhat brighter, I got a new shirt AND The Cure's new CD. Both, surprisingly, courtesy of my mom O_o I didn't really even ask for either. The shirt was on clearance and she pointed it out and said it was cute, I agreed, and she put it in the cart. O_o As for the Cure CD, I SORT OF hinted at it but not really... I just pointed to it on the shelf and said "I need to buy that soon" and she picked up a copy and put that in the cart, too. o_o I loves me mommy sometimes. X) I still have yet to listen to it (I keep being in the mood to listen to Miyavi and I can't quit for some reason O_o) but I plan on listening to it probably tomorrow. =)

Um... that's all. I still need to call Kristyn! ;_;

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[Wednesday, July 07, 2004 ××× 12:54AM]

[ feelinghearing | bored ]

[ feelinghearing | Dir en Grey - "Akuro no Oka" ]

LJ friend stats
LJ Username
LJ friend who likes you the most zinger2o
LJ friend who wants to meet you crazypenguins
LJ friend who has a crush on you lilyamelie
LJ friend who looks up to you come_as_you_are
LJ friend who you should get to know better undisputedloser
Percentage of LJ friends who actually read your entries - 0%

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Comments on that:
-I have already met crazypenguins O_o She's one of my school friends. It's Kristen L., for those of you that go to my school and stuff O_o
-I know for a fact that at least SOME of my friends read my entries XD
-On the rest... I unfortunately have no comment. XD

I would do a full update, but, um... I have nothing to update about. So yeah. That is all for now.

Except for that I have a dentist appointment tomorrow. I hate going to the dentist. *whimpers*

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[Tuesday, July 06, 2004 ××× 01:08AM]

[ feelinghearing | bored ]

[ feelinghearing | Dir en Grey - "Hotarubi" ]

I got stuff accomplished today =O Woooo. Well, technically I got stuff accomplished YESTERDAY, but shh. I think my day starts and ends at noon, not midnight on my time, going with my screwed up sleep schedule XD Except... not really. O_o

LiveJournal is being so weird right now. bloodyrice, sorry about replying to that one comment three times, LJ is being mean to me. O_o There should just be one reply there now. >.<

I didn't work on Die yesterday like I was going to, but I did today for a few hours and I got a LOT accomplished ^_^ I finished the sketch and started on the pastel part. I have his face ALMOST done, I just have to finish the eye (well, eyes, but one is only partially visible) and the eyebrow(s). The lips won't turn out right, though, because the pastels I have to use for that part are crappy quality x_x I need a pinkish color and alllll I have that in is my icky set. Oh well. *shrugs* Other than that it seems to be turning out nicely, I THINK I'm catching on to how to use the pastels really well. Anyway though, I should be able to have Die done in a couple days if I keep working on him and then I can start something else. I think I want to do a graphite drawing, and I have a picture in mind to use, but I'm not sure if I'll have time to start it just yet because I think I have a bunch of other junk to get done in the next couple of weeks. Then I'm free to do whateeeever I want, though. x_x

...blah, AIM is weird. You know the noise it makes when you receive an IM? Well, it just made that noise, but... no one IMed me. O_o Creepy. Someone signed off and then a few seconds later or so it made that noise.

I think I'm off to go make a massive update on my site now, I have to upload the new section for winamp skins along with a bunch of other stuff. How fun. x_x So yep... that's it...

I need to call Kristyn. I miss her. =(

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[Sunday, July 04, 2004 ××× 06:24PM]

[ feelinghearing | good ]

[ feelinghearing | Fatima - "Downer" ]

This first, then I'm going to do a 'real' entry... I stole this from bloodyrice:

Who do you picture when you read my LJ? Whose face do you associate with my words?

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Um, not much happened this weekend. Well, JA was here ^_^ She was supposed to just spend Friday night but she spent Saturday night too. It was fun =D We watched Angel Sanctuary and a bunch of my random music videos on the computer and never bothered to go to sleep on Friday night/morning. Haha. We took naps later that day though XD

I'm afraid of my upstairs bathroom. I haven't had a nosebleed in years, probably since I was in fourth grade or so (I just finished tenth grade), but... I got two of them on Friday night. The scary thing was that I got both of them when I was in my upstairs bathroom. O_o The only thing I could come up with as an explanation was dry air and plus there was probably a lot of dust and that kind of stuff in the air up there. I haven't gone into that bathroom since Friday, and I've been fine since then.

My headache I had for a few just went away today, or maybe last night. I keep getting stomachaches though. I haven't been feeling very well this weekend at all O_o

I worked on my Die pastel drawing before Joey got here on Friday though, so I'm glad I got something done on that. AND, we got our hot water heater fixed (I got to take a WARM/hot shower for the first time since Wednesday)... so I'm super happy about that ^_^ Well, actually, we got a NEW hot water heater, but... close enough, haha. I should probably go work on Die now, even though I don't really feel like it... if I don't work on it then it's never going to be done on time. I'm cutting it pretty close right now, anyway.

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[Friday, July 02, 2004 ××× 01:54AM]

[ feelinghearing | nauseous and headache-y. ]

[ feelinghearing | Dir en Grey - "Ain't Afraid to Die" ]

Blah, I've had a really bad migraine all day. My eyes keep going all weird and I can't see right. x_x

JA/Joey/Girl of A Gazillion Names XD (but not as many names as me!) new_evolution is coming over tomorrow. Hopefully my head will stop hurting by tomorrow...

Our hot water heater died so I had to take a cold shower today x_x And by cold I don't mean lukewarm, the water was like freaking ice. It was awful. They (my parents) are going to try and get it fixed tomorrow, I really hope they can.

My entries are so damn interesting lately, aren't they? X) Sorry about that.

I REALLY REALLY need to work on my pastel drawing of Die! I had sworn to myself that I would get my sketch done by this weekend but it's not going to work out unless I work on it for a long time tomorrow. ...well, I guess I pretty much just have to put in the hair and fix a couple other little things, but yeah. I was going to work on it today, but having the headache I do I haven't wanted to do anything. I spent at LEAST seven hours watching TV today, and I usually only watch it for less than an hour a day.

Um... that's all for now x_x My brain has died. Stupid migraine. I should take some of my super-wonderful children's Motrin...... *is afraid of taking pills, so has to take liquids*

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