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Thursday, July 26th, 2007
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| Subject: | AWWWW |
| Time: | 9:38 pm. |
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I saw this picture and made the instant "Awwwwwww"
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Saturday, July 14th, 2007
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| Subject: | wooo |
| Time: | 5:03 pm. |
| Mood: |  bored. | | Music: | room mates music. |
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I'm so bored... SAVE ME! I'm only a phone call away!
My dorm set up at Ole Miss! Go Rebels!
San (the cutest dog EVER) shows off his new Ole Miss collar i got him!
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Thursday, June 14th, 2007
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| Subject: | Life |
| Time: | 9:32 pm. |
| Mood: |  annoyed. | | Music: | typing on a keyboard. |
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So i find myself sitting in a 24 hour computer lab on the Ole Miss Campus writing on my live journal. This is going to be an experience of a life time. So many things have opened up. I can't describe it. It feels like home in a way. What am i to do... ~Erica~
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Tuesday, April 24th, 2007
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| Time: | 9:28 pm. |
| Mood: |  jubilant. |
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OMG I GOT A NEW RAV4!!!!!!!!!
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| Time: | 12:13 am. |
| Mood: | mellow. |
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I haven't written since October... i thought it was about time i wrote something... How does one even begin to start to pour ones self into words? Just typing out what you think and trying to make it up as you go as i appear to be doing at this very moment i guess. so that is how it shall be. For now at least. Until i decide otherwise and start actually making sense... nah. There is no fun in that. Mindless rambling always leads to something more... right? Maybe not but for that i don't care. Mellow music makes me happy. it Just kind of takes you away and you can just imagine your self floating on your back in a pool or vast body of water staring up at the clouds and thinking about what life really has in store for you. What does all of this mean? Where should i turn? What will i do next? Until you find yourself tearing at the sky but you just can't reach it. It appears so close but so far away. So you just find yourself at the place where you started. Drying yourself off with a towel and walking away from your thought process.
~Erica~
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Monday, October 23rd, 2006
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Tuesday, September 26th, 2006
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| Time: | 8:49 pm. |
| Mood: | mellow. |
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I feel so lonely.... i'm so far away from my friends.... from my boy friend.... sometimes i wish they could all just come with me! But i guess i can't do that... because i have to do this alone. Sometimes i wish i didn't. And no matter what people say about how they want to be there for me.... They can't help me hold my gun or help me sing a important song for college.... I just want love! Love love love. hehe thats all i need to get through anything. So you people better notgive up on me! And i'll do my best!
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Sunday, September 24th, 2006
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| Time: | 10:37 pm. |
| Mood: | content. |
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wow me writing in my livejournal. You know i must be bored. haha. Lots of exciting stuff. Got accepted into MISSISSIPPI! i'm gonna be a rebel! YES! And i'm most likely gonna shoot there too! And sing! YAY! College excites me. That is the one thing i'm looking forward too the most. And i got my first choice of colleges so i'm excited. And i'm in Columbus, GA right now. Shooting of course! I shot smallbore today. Smallbore=love! Its so much fun. Challanging and thrilling! and when the bullet shells fly out the chamber.... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........ So more smallbore tomorrow and air rifle training. Then tuesday and wed. 40 shot standing air rifle. YAY! then i get to go to Ole miss and shoot! Saturday is the day when i shoot. Thursday and friday i'm showing my dad around. <3 OLE MISS=LOTS OF LOVE! hehe I miss my friends though! Lots and lots and lots! well its time for me to SLEEP! So good night my good people!
~Erica~
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Wednesday, September 6th, 2006
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| Time: | 9:57 pm. |
| Mood: |  blah. |
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Where do i stand...
With you and myself?
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Saturday, August 19th, 2006
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| Time: | 8:04 am. |
| Mood: | happy/tired. | | Music: | none. |
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This year is gonna be so much fun!I am lovin my classes and i just have so many things to look forward to. Senior privliges rock! i get to cut the whole entire lunchc line! Senior lounge... but i don't like the locker rooms... sure its by most of my classes but its so freakin crowded all the time and my locker is in he back so i have to dodge people and such to get to it. haha so yeah. Greatness of the seniors! muahahahahahahahahahaha...
~Erica~
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| Subject: | revolation |
| Time: | 11:42 pm. |
| Mood: |  contemplative. | | Music: | the air conditioning buzzing. |
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wow... i have been thinking alot. this trip i'm on... the things i'm going after. Now that i have found the college i want and know i can get in and be on the rifle team and sing my little heart out, things just seem to be falling into place. I can see this future in front of me....
Success is happiness.
people want to be able to go through life succeeding. Sometimes it doesn't work out that way but success isn't measured by money or how smart you are. it is measured in how much you want something and go after it and the prize is the happiness of success.
I want to go through college and obtain my goals. I want to find the perfect job. I want to be happy for the rest of my life. I want to be with the one i love till the day i die.
I might not have the best social life. I might not be the best of friend. People think i do too much. This is my life. Mine. I love doing everuthing i do. You can't make me stop from doing i something i love to do because then you take my happiness away. When i volunteer... seeing a little kid's face light up after i painted a unicorn on their cheek... just priceless. Singing makes me feel free and my cousin helped me face this fear i have no idea why i had. Shooting makes me feel in control of myself... You can tell me i'm too busy but i won't listen. I am starting to find that i was happy all along. I just never grasped it.
~Erica~
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| Subject: | REBELS!!!!!!! |
| Time: | 11:18 pm. |
| Mood: | jubilant. |
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So i have officially fallen in love with the University of Mississippi. That is the best university i have ever seen. It fits me perfectly. Its a artsy type of school but has that certain flare of dignity that attracted my attention. It has a beautiful campus, an awesome rifle team, great voice program, and i have lots of scholarship opportunities. So i'm destined to be a rebel!
~Erica~
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Tuesday, August 1st, 2006
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So i'm on this hunt... for the perfect college. One with both a excellent rifle team and music/voice program. So as of right now i am looking at the following colleges:
Jascksonville State University in Jacksonville, Alabama
I visited this college on monday and this morning and i liked the campus because it was in the hills but the rifle coach made me nervous and didn't seem that he even wanted to talk to me and the music department lacked immensely so JSU is now ruled out.
University of Mississippi in Oxford
I am currently at this location and the campus is HUGE! It confuses me alot. The campus is pretty though so i have to give credit where credit is due. I tour tomorrow and see the music department too. On thursday i talk to the rifle coach.
University of Memphis in Tenn.
I am so excited about visiting this place! The coach has been awesome and the college as a whole has been helpful and prompt to our every need. I am going to a morning Sociology class with Jessica who is one of the member of the rifle team. Then a tour of the music department. Followed by a campus tour then a meeting with the coach and he is gonna show us the rifle range and such. This is the school i'm most excited about!
Texas Christian University
A day of touring this university next monday. Not thrilled about this college but i'll keep an open mind to it i guess.
So yeah. the Hunt continues and updates will be made.
~Erica~
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| Time: | 9:29 pm. |
| Mood: | contemplative. |
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So i thought i would write.... just my thoughts of the day. Welllll i got accepted to Jacksonville state university!!! So that makes me happy! I'm really into the University of Memphis right now though... They have been the best! I talked to their coach today and he was really nice and he gave me some tips and he said that i didn't even have to tryout for the rifle team there because i have a good understanding of rifle and the equipment! so i'm really excited about it. Great program it sounds to me. So this week i'm workin on summer reading! WOOO! i finished one book! haha i should be writing my report now for it but i just don't feel like it.....
I feel really bad.... Poor Jenny being pestered about college and she breaks down crying and i just sit there... talking to her mom while Jenny is doin the dishes crying... Today i was in a bad mood. I should of gotten up and gave her a hug but i didn't feel like it. No offense jenny! Its just that i have been doin my own thing for the past few weeks and i dunno. I was havin a ton of fun and then i go to your house and reality sets in. Responsibility kinda just slaps you in the face and if you don't respond you go to therapy! haha I know your mom loves you she just wants you to do well without breaking down from stress. You are a ton more sensitive about things than i am so i can handle stress in a more sensible way. I like being busy because i don't like being bored. But when i do stuff all the time my social life dies and i just sorta shrug it off. I want to be more of a friend but i just got out of that routine with everything that i'm doing. :sighs: I dunno. I like being helpful and competitive. I want to be the best in alot of stuff and with that comes its downfalls. When reaching for the top sometimes you lose you way up or get sidetracked so you have to get back on track and find the way of life that best fits you.
"A Beautiful Lie" - 30 Seconds To Mars
Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
Cuz this is just a game
It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me
It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game
Everyone's looking at me
I'm running around in circles, baby
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game
So beautiful, beautiful...
~Erica~
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Thursday, July 20th, 2006
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| Subject: | Truth |
| Time: | 10:40 pm. |
| Mood: |  distressed. |
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This week was great.... My cousin cam in town and we partied it up but in a good way. We went to river street and sang our hearts out and she played the guitar. This was like the first time that i ever sang something from the top of my head in public.... it felt so inspiring and i felt so happy singing and people comin up to us to say how beautiful we sing. We even got offered 3 gigs! And a recording lol but my cousin leaves tomorrow morning early and she is at tybee right now with her parents hotel and i won't see her for a long time. That makes me so sad. I need to learn to play a instrument.... unless anyone out there wants to play and i sing and they can sing too and harmonize well with me! Highly doubtful..... I love singing and i'm so glad im choosing to pursue it. It makes me feel alive and to see others enjoying the music i make makes my heart leap.
:is all sweaty: i just walked out some major frustration... like a hour and a half worth... it helped alot. i should really do that more often. I was literally pacing the neighborhood bridge that is located in the back area. But ths really good some came on and i started singin it and dancin to it and it just made me feel better.
I'm just tired of this unsocialness that i have found myself in. I wrap myself in activities to make myself happy and all i find instead is loneliness and hollowness. Like this whole week i was out of the house having fun! and i didn't care about anything besides what type of sushi to get... well that true until Kevin had to go to the hospital for his grandfather. So now i'm all worried about him because he is about to lose someone he held dear to him and i can only do so much for him. And even though he says he is ready there is still that final blow to come. This all just makes me think of my grandmother and how i'm probably gonna break down and cry like i'm almost doing now. I just haven't really accepted it all i guess.... if i'm still crying about it. I never got to do alot that i wanted to do for her because i live so far away. It was such short notice too. She was suppose to go home the day that her life ended. I was suppose to sing for her both in person and at her funeral and neither happened. When i went to her funeral there was just this emptiness in he house thatdidn't seem right. I still think that when i go back she will be there.... telling me a passage from the bible or sittin in her chair talkin or yellin. I miss her so much. I can't even really express it.She was such a big part of my life. and she has been gone for over 6 months.... I hate crying but it makes me feel so much better afterwards. My problem isn't anger but sorrow.
I think Jenny has a good idea of how to open up to stuff. Write it down. After crying and writing it and getting it out of my system it relieves some of that pressure built up inside.
wow this is a freakin long entry for me..... oh well.
~Erica~
P.S. I MISS JENNY!
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| Time: | 8:57 pm. |
| Mood: | blah. | | Music: | crickets outside and the baby crying in the back ground. |
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I GOT MY NEW WALTHER KK300 SMALLBORE RIFLE TODAY!!!!!!!!
LOOK AT THE PRETTINESS!!!!!!!
Oh i love it love it love it! i'm goin to the range to shoot it this weekend! I need a 50 meter range for this one! not the length of my hallway. grrrrrrr but i love it none the less.
So i find myself sinking. Deeper and deeper into my self trying to figure out why i am the way i am.... Not much luck yet but i'm working on it. Just gotta find my happy place!
Jenny brought me ice cream today... that was nice. we were gonna go swimming but the lightning was freakin all over the place.... and me and lightning don't mix... acctually i like looking at it but i hate the sounds it makes. it scares me to know end! Jenny said i reacted like her dogs when she heard it lol. so yeah....
~Erica~
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| Time: | 1:18 pm. |
| Mood: | pissed off. |
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Some thinigs just piss me off to no end....
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