Current mood:

pensive

Poly Cathedrals and Touch (Recent relevant posts from friends)
I've recently seen the following two posts from my friends that are very relevant to what is going on right now with myself and with Cindy and me.

From kiramor, a friend of ours from CAW:
poly cathedrals

Two paragraphs were especially grabbing from this:

But I've come to a place in my life where I believe that love is more important than fear. I've come to a place where I want to release fear's grip and let love come in. I recognize the mistakes I've made and I don't want to make them anymore. I want to let go of my constriction, on both myself and my lovers. I have let go of all explicit "rules," but I'm still living in a place where I'm afraid of what will happen next. I know I'm in for a rough ride, having to deal with stuff I've long avoided.

I've probably said this before, in some configuration. I've felt ready to move forward before, so I don't know how I can trust myself to not forget that this is my intention. The difference seems to be that I'm no longer trying to blame anyone else for my own problems; I'm recognizing that shit is going to come up, it's going to bother me, it's going to be difficult, but it's no-one's fault but my own. (Maybe I should say "responsibility" instead of "fault.")

The other post is from 2egregious, a friend of ours from San Diego:
Touch

It's short and sweet:

soft as goose down, strong as jet thrust

Touch is so vitally important to me that it's impossible to relate the degree of it. This statement really speaks to how touch has felt, so many times.