Just a quick update since I haven't updated in over a month. At least in this journal. (If you want a more detailed update...take a look at Dreaded_Destiny. You'll have to add me so I can add you back or comment in the Friends Only Post).

Let's see....

John and I are still together. Seeing each other maybe 1x a week. Talking to each other a few times a day.

Missy left Steve on November 17, filed a CPO against him (which she has since dropped). They are now "friends" and she's always on the phone with him.

Steve and I are no longer "seeing each other." He said that he doesn't want anything to cloud his judgement when working things out with Missy. And he wants to work things out with her. Whatever.

Basically that's it. I'm sick and going to go back to bed for a while.

YUCK! My friggin boss is here today. He claims he told me he was coming in, but he didn't. So that totally sucks. I threw EVERYTHING into a desk drawer to clean my office. Fucking idiot. I can't stand him.

How Much Would I Make a Night ( $50/Night )

Ummm...that sucks

BASICS...
:x: name = Shelly Ann _____ (only a select few know this)
:x: piercings = 2 normal ear piercings, trangus, upper cartlidge, tongue, both nipples
:x: tattoos = Tribal heart on right calf, rose anklet on left ankle, tribal across lower back, tribal on back of neck, fire chi symbol with flames on right hip
:x: height = 5'5"
:x: shoe size = size 9 to 9 1/2 in dress shoes, 10 if sneakers
:x: hair color = light brown
:x: length = medium length for now til I decide to chop it
:x: siblings = younger brother, Chad (22)

LAST...
:x: movie you rented = Couldn't tell you...it's been that long
:x: movie you bought = Ummm...don't remember
:x: song you listened to = Fire Down Below - Bob Seger
:x: song that was stuck in your head = MSU Fight Song
:x: cd you bought = POD - Payable Upon Death
:x: cd you listened to = Results May Very - Limp Bizkit
:x: person you've called = Lilly (Missy's Mom)
:x: person that's called you = Steve
:x: tv show you've watched = Something on MTV last night
:x: person you were thinking of = Steve

DO...
:x: you have a bf or gf = Kinda sorta....damn married men
:x: you have a crush on someone = of course
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = of course...who wants to live in this hell hole?
:x: you think about suicide = Yeppers...when I get really depressed
:x: you believe in online dating = It sucks
:x: others find you attractive = some do, some don't
:x: you want more piercings = Yep
:x: you drink = socially I do
:x: you do drugs = Prescribed I do. Nothing illegal
:x: you smoke = When the mood strikes
:x: you like cleaning = Fuck no
:x: you like roller coasters = They're ok
:x: you write in cursive or print = Depends on what I am writing
:x: you carry a donor card = Nope...who wants my organs? They're fucked up anyway.

FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships = neither
:x: using someone = against
:x: killing people = the thought has crossed my mind
:x: teenage smoking = they're going to do it regardless...well at least, some will.
:x: premarital sex = you do what you feel is right
:x: driving drunk = against
:x: gay/lesbian relationship = For...why should we condemn for who they are?

FAVORITE...
:x: food = Chinese, Chicken
:x: song = "In Your Eyes" - Peter Gabrial
:x: thing to do = Work...
:x: thing to talk about = anything and everything
:x: sports = Wrestling
:x: drink = Vanilla Pepsi, Mt. Dew, Dr. Pepper
:x: clothes = Jeans
:x: movies = Top Gun, Pretty in Pink
:x: band/singer = Limp Bizkit, POD, Bob Seger, Metallica, Rob Zombie
:x: holiday = I despise holidays

HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a guy/girl = Sure
:x: ever lied to someone = Yes
:x: ever been in a fist fight = Nope
:x: ever been arrested = Nope

NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? = Seriously in love - 3
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = lots
:x: of hearts I have broken? = 1 that I'm awre of
:x: of girls I have kissed? = 1
:x: of boys I have kissed? = ummm...over 15 I think
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life friends = 3
:x: of people I consider my enemies? = 1
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? Don't recall
:x: of scars on my body? = Lots...do you realize how many accidents I've been in?
:x: of things in my past that I regret? Oooh alot

FAVORITE...
:x: disney movie = Beauty & The Beast
:x: scent = Baby Powder
:x: word = FUCK
:x: nickname = Barbie
:x: eye color = Green or Violet
:x: flower = Lilac
:x: piercing = tongue/nipple

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty = no
:x: funny = I have my moments
:x: hot = hahaha no
:x: friendly = Sometimes, depends on who I'm with or talking to.
:x: amusing = They don't call me Barbie for nothing.
:x: ugly = There are days that I feel that way.
:x: loveable = Like a puppy dog
:x: pessimistic = All the time
:x: optimistic = All the time
:x: caring = See answer to "friendly"
:x: sweet = I haven't been called that lately
:x: dorky = When I work on my webpages

RANDOM...
:x: Spell your first name backwards : Y-L-L-E-H-S (what the fuck)
:x: The story behind your user name: Not sure....just sound cool
:x: Are you straight?: Bi...thank you very much
:x: 4 words that sum you up: fucked up, confused, misunderstood, sleepy

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) -
:x: In my mouth = Mt. Dew
:x: Fetishes = ummm...I don't think I have any
:x: Person you wish you were with = Bruce...if you mean sexually - Steve
:x: Something you're looking forward to in this up coming month = Nothing...oohh maybe 2 days off on the 27th and 28th
:x: Something that you are deathly afraid of? = Losing my son

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...
After all...

Was Matt really going to ask Lita to marry him?

I am trying to get rid of some OSU vs. Michigan tickets.

They are as follows:
Section 8
Row 65
Seats 3 & 4

What would any interested party be willing to spend for these? Send an email to FireFaerie2647@yahoo.com if interested. Need to get rid of these ASAP!!!!

Hmmmm....could Brothers of Destruction not be far off? They always feud for a while and then become the best of friends.

Kane jumped to Smackdown??? I saw him help Vince and my mouth dropped open!!! WTF??? lol

I was a busy little bee today. sinstresses and I run a Neopets Guild and we revamped our guild website.

See how pretty it looks: Freaks & G33ks

It's far from done. I'm not sure if we're totally happy with the colors. Or the font. The layout is great, but I don't want it to be hard to read. Anyone got any ideas???

Was supposed to go to the Vampire game with sinstresses tonight, but once again, I wans't able to because my mom refused to babysit for me. She said that she watched him last night, she wasn't watching him again tonight. We got into a fight, I left and went to Steve and Missy's.

I had to fix their internet....God knows what Steve did to it. Missy and I ended up going to Circuit City (twice mind you....and I drove) to get a router and then return the defective one. Watched Steve fix his brakes on his car. Took him to Murray's to get something, can't remember what it was.

We watched (we being Missy, Mary and I) 2 Fast, 2 Furious. That's a good movie.

That's about it. now I'm going to bed. Night all.

( Meme Fun )

Will this day ever fucking end? I have to bowl tonight, which I'm not really wanting to do. For some reason it just doesn't appeal to me. Work sucks. But then it always does. I'm training people to use our new time management system. UGH! That's all I'm going to say.

I found a shitload of awesome icons off Greatestjournal.com....now I just have to figure out who the hell to credit. I sure as hell didnt make them.

Steve is expecting a "bootycall" tonight. HAHAHA...fucker. You're not getting dick! Literally.

Lights before Christmas starts tomorrow at the Zoo!! Over one million lights this year!!!

Maybe I should go. I've never been to that. Then of course, I haven't been to the zoo in at least 15 years.

Yeah I suck.

Does anyone know about a virus that has to do with the Timeline movie that comes out on November 26? Tonight, I was proofreading a story I had written in Word and was also connected to the internet, but I was on the Netzero homepage.

All of the sudden, I hear this commercial for the Timeline movie (nothing else was running...not even AIM) and then my computer does a minidump and shuts itself off. It did this to me on Tuesday night as well. I ran a Norton Virus Scan, but it found nothing.

This is really friggin annoying and I'm going to throw the laptop out the window if it does it again. I shouldn't do that since technically it's not mine, but oh well. Hopefully John has insurance on it.

If anyone knows anything about it, please let me know so that I can get this piece of shit fixed. Before I do something harmful to it, like dump it in the bathtub or lay it in the driveway and run it over with my car. Yes....that is how pissed off I am at it.

The damn thing has been doing minidumps every few weeks, but yet, no one can tell me why. Not even the techs that I work with. Scary to think that they go work on people's computers, networks and printers.

HELP!

I'm watching Tru calling on Fox. It's not a bad show. I like Eliza Dushku. She's a pretty good actress. I've liked her since Bring It On and when she was on Buffy. This episode is about a battered woman and Tru is trying to save her brother who she sees kill the woman's husband. Tru can go back and help the dead people she works with in the morque. Reminds me of Missy. I missed the first 20 minutes of it, but I'm catching up really quick. I may have to make this a normal Thursday night show. Oooh...sees that Sarah (the "battered" woman) set up Tru's brother so that he kills her husband so she gets all his money because in whatever state they live in, if you get divorced, the wife gets half because it's community property. Where if she has him killed, she gets all and the other guy goes to jail. Hmmmm.....ok so it really doesn't remind me of Missy, but some of the stuff could. The battered women and all.

Let's see.....sinstresses and I talked on the phone for an hour and a half this afternoon, trying to get Missy to see that she is a "battered wife". Brandi knows alot about where to go for help and how these shelters and safe houses can help you. But it's almost like whatever we said to Missy falls on deaf ears. Brandi said it best when she said, "You can only hit your head against the wall so many times before you realize that you'll get a bruise." Missy must have one hell of a bruise. Because it's like talking to a brick wall. Hell...maybe I'm the one with the bruise.

She called me when I got back to work and it was almost as if she found some strength somewhere. She said that if she ever calls me, be it tonight or tomorrow or whenever, and says, "We have to do it now." That's it. She's doing it right then and there. I asked her what made her say that and she didn't have an answer other than she said that at times, she can find the courage, but then she starts thinking and she loses it. I told her that now is the time she can be a surivivor, but it won't be long before she's the victim. Especially after Steve finds out that she took $100 bucks out the other day to go buy Kevin a birthday present. I think we all know how Steve feels about Kevin. In Steve's own words, he won't be buying that kid anything.

Ok....it's 2 hours later than when I started the post. Was it just me or did LiveJournal have a hiccup? I went to my friends page and had a bunch of blank posts from Camwhores dated June 13, 1931. I literally said, WHAT THE FUCK and woke my son up. He looked at me and then went back to sleep. At least I didn't interrupt him tooo much.

New game on Neopets. Yay!! That's pretty pathetic that I get excited over a new game. Guilds are down. Which sucks. But at least we have it backed up on Geocities. Good thinking sinstresses!!! Someone was using their brain!

Uuuummm....I talked to Missy a little while ago. Steve came home drunk. I think he was putting on a show more than anything. He kept asking Missy if I could come over for a booty call. What a fucker. And to think, I have to bowl with that tomorrow night?? Possibly alone if Missy gets smart and leaves? Grreeeaaat. I'm so friggin excited.

Ok...off to bed. I'm tired and for some reason have heartburn. I didn't realize that Muenster Cheese and Saltines were going to give me heartburn. I better go chug a glass of milk before I get sick in the middle of the night.

John's home for those of you who knew that he went to Alpena for two days. Of course he didn't have his cell phone on since Wednesday night. He claims that it went into roaming. I guess payphones haven't been invented up there yet. Oh well...he's home and we can go back to our regularly fucked up relationship.

It stopped snowing!

It's snowing!

Wow! It's friggin windy outside! The trees are partially bent over. Not real good I'm thinking. We were under a tornado watch, but that was lifted. It hasn't even started to rain, but they're calling for 60mph winds tonight. That's pretty damn fast. Hopefully my poor little car doesn't get too dinged up.

Cody was freaking out because my mom told him a tornado was coming. (Go mom! You get brownie points on that one). So before bed, Cody tells me he doesn't like the sound of the wind. Great. The kid is scared of the dark and now wind.

Let's see...John is in Alpena...so he says. He told me he'd have his phone on the entire time he was up there (he comes home tomorrow night). Would you believe that I called him at 9:00, 9:30 and 10:00 and his phone was off? Imagine that. I told him I was going to call at 11:00 and that's it. If he doesn't answer or have it on, I'm going to bed. His loss. I should call the base and see if he's really up there. Wouldn't that be pretty damn funny if I called and asked for him, and they said he wasn't in Alpena. Red handed buddy!

Shit...sounds like the wind is going to rip the roof off. I should go make sure the dog isn't outside. Then again....lol