Now and then I confess you cross my mind
Now and then I guess I have a little too much time
I've changed my way of thinking
I've tried hard to separate
What came too soon
From what came too late

(chorus)
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love

Oh, in terms of love

I'm countin' on heaven to understand
I didn't mean to go and mess up all the plans
Sometimes you know where you should go
Before you know the way
I'll bother with tomorrow
Once I've made it through today

(chorus)
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love

I don't think about black in terms of gray
Or revelations in the light of day
I don't think about cold in terms of ice
Or second chances happenin' twice

(chorus)
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love

In terms of love
Oh, yeah
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I don't think about us in terms of love

Know why I hate fighting ic? Because with some people it feels like so much more >:|

Stuff:

Took Sean to his first concert, he picked out Flogging Molly so we went to Blossom with Lynn, and Bruce[Lynn and I walked into the guys bathroom and it was soo funny because this guy was zipping up his pants when we came in all "O.o" and I'm like "Wrong bathroom! XD*turns around*"

Things got weird between Bruce and I again
Got  a letter from Doomie ^.^! <3

Dad drank 2ls of whiskey. Been drunk all weekend

Got a new fan

Helped out Grandma Ryan with her house

Went to the gravesite for Grandpa Ryan, set it up with pretty flowers, also went to see Grandpa Behra

Went to see Grandma and Grandpa Hash

8 Days left

Gotta finish my gift for Scott
Found a song by Flogging Molly that I really liked though so

was cool haha

So....its my birthday today *nods* and for those who made it special, thank you! and for those who made it bad/uncomfortable...Thanks...I'll...return the favor sometime?...
So yeah. Don't feel like writing about it here, if you want to know ask me sometime. If not then thats fine. ^.^ no matter. I'm gonna go lay down now though..my head is..pounding.

Update when you have something to update about….ok….
Use me when you want to cum I bled just to have a touch when I’m in you I want to die…!...
^.^
I love Manson right now! Ugh anyway. Updating.
Less then two full weeks left of school, I’m quitting my job tonight because I’ve come to the conclusion…I just don’t want to work there anymore. I need money if things next year are going to go smoothly and working less then one day a week for 4 hours isn’t going to cut it. That’s why I’m working at the head shop again this summer, that’s 3200 easy for the entire summer, working 7-4 M-F, Weekends are mine. Ugh I just want to go already though. Next April Lynn and I are going down to Arizona, New Mexico and then on our way back up we’re going to go through Texas…and I want to stop by El Paso *nodnod* For obvious reasons ^.^; Then sometime before summer I want to take a trip out to WA to go see Billy because ugh I worry for him when I’m not able to talk to him, and haha I want to see his kitty :[! By THEN I will be legally able to leave the country! So…I want to go to Germany, the only thing about that is it looks like a bunch of people have to back out of the trip and if I have no one to go with that’s going to bring up a real problem! Because the only one I know would go for sure if I asked is Bruce and I don’t want to fly with my ex to another country -.- That has molestation written all over it. So if your in the following areas next year let me know, I’d love to come see you all :*!
- Grand Cannon
- El Paso
- WA [God if I could only remember the name of that wittle bittle town he lives in x3!
- Anywhere in between Ohio and Mexico on the way down south west
- Germany? O.o I doubt it haha but okay
Leaving because >.> I have a meeting to get to. Grrr….annoyance @.@ <3

Aww this is so belated :[ and I hope he sees it haha, but Reesh sniffles I miss you lots and happy birthday babe! *loffs*

Mistah Schnydah message me there if you need me, doing something to help doomeh out so I won't be on my regular sns for a while.

Billy please cheer up. I miss you hun *hugs* Lots.

why do I hate the number six -.-;...


I'm dressed....like a princess today o.o I have a crown..a lacy halter top, blue jeans faded on the thighs and ripped a bit around the feet, a red converse...which got spray painted hot pink yesterday XD and I have my toy cow :ppppp Dil x"(


yawwnns...uhm...I'm...gonna go poof now...yeah...:[....


Reesh once again, I miss you! D:! *loves*

Billy I miss you too! *loves loves*

everyone else! *LOVES* <.>
EDIT DOOMIE I LOVEEEE YOU!!!!

I hate IPods, so…why am I listening to one -.-, what a wonderful question. Okay unless you read Twitch’s post then this post will mean nothing to you.
But in reply to Billy’s post I want to ask a totally unfair question to him because I honestly believe that if things keep up this way your going to fall so deep into a hole that your not going to be able to get out :\ You can’t stay in that house hun. She’s bad for you and so is Mark, obviously I’m sure you know this. Just take the kitty, your stuff and get out. I already told you that you can come stay with me but ugh x.x;…

Anyway, lighter notes, happier tidings:
I love this song :\
My grades are down from A's to D's
I'm way behind in history
I lost myself in fantasies
Of you and me together

I don't know why - I - I but dreaming's all I do
I won't get by-I-I on mere imagination

Upside down
Bouncing off the ceiling
Inside out
Stranger to this feeling
Got no clue what I should do
But I'll go crazy if I can't get next to you

My teacher says to concentrate
So what- his name was Peter the Great
The kings and queens will have to wait
Cuz I don't have forever

I wish that I - I - I could walk right up to you
Each time I try- I-I the same old hesitation

Upside down
Bouncing off the ceiling
Inside out
Stranger to this feeling
Got no clue what I should do
But I'll go crazy if I can't get next to you

Somehow someday
You will love me too
One day will be the day when all my dreams come true

xD
last edit -.-
Work Habits -
[]Quiet
[x]Music
[x]Alone
[]With other people around

[When working Alone]
[Listen to - Everything
[Multi task - Yes
[Focus on one thing - no

[When working with others]
[Organized - Yes
[Controling - :x sometimes
[Things get done on time - yes

[Play List]
[Rap - mhm
[Rock - :P Naturally
[Techno - haha of course
[Punk - Yeps
[Dance - yepp
[Other - Salsa xD

[Right now]
[Current project - Anti Flag Website for Stroy
[Its coming along - Good, its done heh
[Listening to - Bump Bump Bump - B2k
[Does it inspire you - uhm..sorta but not for web design :D
[Thinking about - Doomie and that damn picture she sent me *>.>*
[Eating - Nothing, dont eat this early.
[Drinking - Coffee :33
[Doing other then work - Filling out stupid quiz?
[I would rather...- Go dancing or sleep and you have no idea how close those are in comparison >.>

[You feel]
[]Happy
[]Upset
[x]Tired
[x]Indiffrent/content
[x]dazed
[x]hyper
[x]scattered
[]annoyed

[This quiz was...- O.o...a quiz bah dum chh ^ ^

This is my new fav pic ^.^
Reyes and Priscilla; Photoshoot by Pepe Botella 2005

Hahahaha aye x.x

Dude lynn is so cute sometimes. We went up to marcs and bought a box of those fruit chews…Uhmm…”Smiles” I think that’s what they were called ^.^ They were good though. Anyway she kept like making them either..well smile or frown and then she bit there mouth off so they were all o.o with no smiles or frowns…spazzy entry I know XD Don’t mind me.

 

Rawr rant time...

 

But hell not everything from yesterday was bad xD I talked Kevin into going to bring me ice cream at work because I had a major sweet tooth, then he stuck around and took me home. I didnt even bother driving yesterday it was so pretty outside I walked T.T;  haha I forget how long of a walk it really is though up to 43.  I feel so horrible right now though :[...because I haven't really talked to Billy in a while. He was all "RAWR" the other day and I wasn't feeling goo dand didnt want to get yelled at so I just stopped talking to him to let him cool off and all. And these past few days either he hasn't been online or i keep missing him. But I miss our talks.

O.o;;; dude...

Okay so last night when I got home from work my mom was like totally trashed and she was talking with my dad in the livingroom and I was in the other room on my computer all la lee laaa ^_^;;; and I made a joke at her and she tackled me! I'm all "O.O HOLY S***!!!" XD my dad laughed so hard he never even yelled at me for my "choice words' yesss thats what they are called now. Choice words. 

Aww so yeah remember how I told everyone that my parents had become bible pushers? well...yeah haha they still are, but I haven't missed church once these past two weeks and I'm all O.o;;; because now they're trying to baptise me again XD And its so freaking funny. I'm all "DX I DONT WANT TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YOU CANT MAKE ME o.o *hides*" haha. Its been this big thing I guess "Lets get her in line" rawr to that *>.>* 

 Coute song


This is a really long post o.O I didn't mean for it to be but oh wells.


I MADE AN ICON FOR BOBO because it was pretty :[..

Oh yeah! DOOMIE! THAT WAS MY Enline card for joo! :* Because I'm prolonging sending you the other letter ^.^   I'll get there I promise.


Eee! O.O weoihwio I have to end this post omg because I will seriously just sit here for another 20 minutes and write about anything and everything that is going on in that little bittle head of mine. and right now seeing as i had a nice large cup of coffee this morning ^.^ COULD BE A LOT. And I'm pretty sure that these things do have  a word limit somewhere. If your name was big and colorful i wanted you to pay attention x[!

efwhowihoiwehoiwh @.@...Twitch is at the hospital :|....

Oh...and about that thing? I got stood up ^.^ But who cares



ACK @.@ Worried. Chris let me know what is going on.

woooooooooooot
Playing with photoshop D:...



take it and die =D

Billy I'm sorry I had to run out last night -.-...

Last year all over again =\ I feel so..scattered in my thinking right now. Eh this doesn't feel good at all. D:...Its like finding out Twitch has BPD all over again. The shaking the pressure the feeling of..a balloon about to pop o.o..I cried =\ Not a lot but I did cry when he told me that he may be commited. I guess he means more to me then I let it become known to even me. He helped me work out a lot of personal shit and feelings about people when no one else would listen and was just an all around good guy.

One of two people that could make me so upset that it would make me sick when they were mad or upset at me :p
♥ Reesh : Get some rest and good luck with your flight and your mother. I hope she's doing better real soon babe, I know its got to be hard =\ Liebe dich
♥ Doomie : I know you did great on your talent show, Reesh told me they kept you and thats great to hear. I knew you'd do well you always do. Liebe dich
♥ Billy : Remember doing this before?
♥ Jess : Emo princess
Anyone else...just blah

http://s50.yousendit.com/d.aspx?
id=05BFUBQ6K66H23CRWHBK1O5VKB


:P! For you guys ;D

Whhhaaatttttttttttt is love ^_^?! I shall tell you because this is the second person I've seen do this gebus what a headache D:< bennny beeennnnyyyyy and the jets !.! okay..I'm paying attention
No
_{SERIOUS NOTE}
...
You know...As much as it hurts you really got to use your head when you say that you love somebody. Its not just a word that people should toss around. And Mel, I know its gotta kill right now, trust me, been there, done that. I've had my heart broken by a guy that meant the world to me, and he knows he tore me apart when it happened. And it happened just like its happening to you now. But you know what? I didnt disappeaar, because I didn't want to lose him. Yeah I felt horrible talking to him for the first few minutes but when it got right down to it, he was still who he is today. He was my best friend and he was a friend that I was not willing to give up. So even if it meant not being with him in a dating relationship, I was happy just to talk to him. Thats something you may want to consider hun. You may feel hurt now, but don't let it get you too long, people are usually gone in a blink of an eye, if you close yours to all the good and friendly things you guys shared, he'll be gone and your going to miss it.
So all in all
Love is letting go for them, if he has a chance to be happy it shouldnt matter who with, you should just encourage him all you can to just Be. Happy. Life is to short


So the lesson for today people...SMILE!!!!!!! You'll live longer ^_^;;

-Gidget


P.S. - DOOMIE - I did say it wrong XDDD

So...a lot can be said about what happened last night. Phil let me off work early and I went to go clock out and my mom and dad were there to give me a ride home. Cool? Sure. I got to the car and they took me to Marcs to get some food and stuff for this weekend and blah we went and did shopping and then we went to the pub. Patty was at the bar and smiled and all that good stuff. I havent seen her in a while we havent been to that pub in a while. So My english teacher saw me and was sittiing at the bar so we all sat in a booth. Mom ordered two rum and cokes and gave me one. So we sat and talked a while and Mom brings up the fact she forwarded my e-mail to my dad about the information about Berlin. Then they both started to carry on about all the reasons why I should go =\ My mom and dad said that I would be a poster child for a kidnapper because I'm a "cute american" -.-;;... So I'm all "BLAH" then they say take a roadtrip to Cali and agh if I do billy im so coming to see you and make you a sandwhich xP and anywhere. Arizona to get a sandrose ;x I want one but I really want to go to Germany because -.- grr have been planning this for over a year. You kinda get your hopes up? And NOW I find that Doom would be there and      sob I feel all stalker ish by saying this v.v; but I want to see her D: I want to like...o.O give her a hug? XD I dont know. I just miss her a lot lately. And my parents want to like ground me to the united states. Im like "I'm not promising anything" and I told them honest to god I didnt want to end up like them who had waited to do everything in life and never got to it =\ I wanna go. So no promises. Just..stressed right now I guess.

Maybe its just hard to get past the fact that reesh told me they HATE me sometimes

If today could have been worse? Someone tell me how.