Need to bump the depression off.

I blame the Laffy Taffy.

My little amount of sweets I allow myself! D:

Nomnomnom..

Oh and anyone who likes fantasy with a hint of romance and some decent writing not involving dragons? Check out 'Beauty' by Robin McKinley! It is not a brand new book by any means but... I have it on my book shelf, nearly falling apart. I've read it so many times.. You all have no idea!

READ IT!

Well.

I think I've hit my depressed level.

But I'm trying to fix that or ignore it.

I just woke up.

It's three in the afternoon. I NEVER sleep that late.

So my options are depression finally snuck in and made itself comfortable in my head or I'm trying to get sick. I'm leaning more for the depression which combines to make me sick anyhow...

I just need to get away for a little while...

Just a little while.

First the good!

Got set on a blind date.

He's not insane! Nor a smoker.... *happy spasm*

My house has a/c... sorta. The bedroom and living room have window unites though I can't turn up the living room one with the computer on or it blows a fuse. Ugh.

I'm reasonably healthy! 

I've lost 10lbs!

Working on new avatar/icons for myself. Wish I knew how to make them animated n' spffiy....

The bad?

My sister's car is officially dead.

Still jobless.

Not sure how to get money for rent and bills together unless I get more commissions.

Need to kick my artisitic muse into motion to FINISH commissions... DAMN YOU WOOD GRAINS! *shakes fist* 

I really need a break....
 
I ate three brownies in one go... >.>

Found a meme I haven't seen in a while, stolen from a friend's journal.

The Meme Part
1. Pick any of my characters.
2. I will tell you the origin of his/her name(s).
3. I will tell you random facts surrounding his/her creation.
4. I will give you a random fact of his/her backstory.
5. I will give you a random fact of his/her story.
6. You may ask me(or the characters) up to ten questions about them.
7. I will give the most embarrassing fact they want no one to know, or I will tell you their secret love, or I will give you one TMI fact.

Dead Eye

Page 3 ink's completed.

:) I feel proud.

Some of these are old... some are new...

Enjoy!

So.. without further ado.... DOODLES AHOY!

-Probably not friendly to dial up-

( Read more... )

Phew... and that's just the tip of the iceberg!

Hope you like it! :D

85 As a 1930s wife, I am Very Superior Take the test!

Hey I'd make my great great grandma proud!

Now... BACK TO COMMISSIONS! *zooms*

 Interview over and done with. 

I won't know till next week....

Please please God let me get this job...

Now I need to go talk to my landlady to be able to pay rent. Ugh! I need some happy in my life... >.<

I HAVE A JOB INTERVIEW TOMARROW!!!!!! Ok so it's going to be on Wensday thanks to schedules but... STILL! WOO HOO! ( Read more... )

 Rum.














That is all.

Life goes on as normal. Still looking for a job even as I scream and cry on the inside feeling those dark little voices snickering about failure and being a horrible person. Ignoring those now, it's alot easier to accomplish now compared to when I was younger. It still is hard though.

I just need to find a way to make more money with my art.

At least till I get a job.

My WoW sub expires on the 12th. I'm so close to 70.

But money to pay rent and bills and groceries is more important then a game.

At least it's not the end of the world.

I need new icons.....

At least I was able to scrap up enough from my emergancy fund to pay the electric.

 Just found out the check my sister wrote after I gave her my half of the money for electric, bounced.

I don't have money.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

 Wow....

Took her a little over a week to fire me.

Good for you miss ex-boss. Good for you.

Now I have to figure out a new job.

I still am employeed.

Gerald.. you rock man! I never thought I would love a district manager so much... 

Well this is it. I got the call tonight. I'm going to beat her to the punch though. I'm turning in my two weeks tomarrow before she even has a chance to say I am fired.

I just feel... really annoyed at things. Maybe myself to a point, wondering what I did wrong, what I could have done better. 

At least I can pay rent tomarrow...

I just hope somehow.. I find another job. And fast. 

Or by a miracle I win the lottery.

But hey! Look at it this way! I can actually have time to do my commissions and focus on them! 

-EDIT-

Ok. So far I still have a job.

This run around is getting... really really really tiring.

I'm quitting.


That is all.

You know, I do try to be a good employee.

I do my job.

True. I cannot stand for prolonged periods of time due to at least a dozen various sprains and breaks to my ankles and legs over the years. 

I am polite to customers.

I chat.

I have people always praising me and asking my opinions on things before anyone else.

Why the fuck then, am I the only one lately it seems that is getting reamed for things I have little control over? I have classes on Mondays and Wensdays. I've explained it many times to my managers. Well manager now. And yet yesterday I opened. Fine and dandy. I get everything taken care of, customers are happy. I am unable to finish all the calls for the day due to if I had stayed behind I would have been late for class.

I open this morning.

And find a LOVELY note at my station saying that it was not my place to leave with the calls unfinished for another person to finish when that is what THEY WERE HIRED FOR.

You know... it just... annoys me. Oh and because of the f-cker I have to work up I loathe with a passion, I was two hours late and now because of lacking ink for my printer and the libraries closed, I can't go on my trip I asked off for over a MONTH ago. And I have to figure out a way to get back to town by 9am on Sunday... or I'm out of a job.

Why yes, I am filling out applications at other jobs.

And no.

No I will not stay silent anymore.

I am tired of it.

I have had it.

I don't mind working.

But when it is hindering my own health and mental well being I draw the line.