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I sprained my back a few days ago and have been unable to sit, stand, walk, or sleep for lengthy periods of time without the minor aid of flexaril.  So, it sucks.   I have a lot of catching up to do.  Plus, I'm sure I have missed a few birthdays.  Happy Belateds, Happy Birthdays...I'm in so much pain, I'd better end this attempt now...Later, Ladies.

My cousin's wife has taken it upon herself to give my myspace blog a recent review.  Seeing as the last blog post I've written in there was dated Sept 2007...( Ranting is unusual for me, but I was peeved today... )

All I can say is that all is well.  I'm happy. Good visit. 
( Cut because I don't want to obnoxiously take up your friend's list )Oh, and you would have all gotten your answer a lot sooner if you checked my profile page....lol

But will post when I return....Yay for those Aveda Pure Privileges $75 spa gift certificates.  It pays to be a member!  Later.

So, I didn't spend yesterday the way I planned, but strangely we found a peacock in the median across from our yard.  By the time we called animal control, he crept  into someone else's lawn eating random bits of something as he walked along the way.  A peacock?  There must have been some escapism during the last big storm.
We'll go on Sept 30 the OB at which point, if it is there...we'll be able to see it on a transvaginal ultrasound.  I think it's the planned  dates I'm infatuated with right now.  I don't know if I'm more ready than I was the last time.
I have to go to work now, but I'll catch up with your journals when I get home.  I appreciate all of the well wishes.
  "You really like me!"  I love you guys, too.

I have confirmation or denial tomorrow.  We'll see how much I spill.  I just don't want to know.   Of course, I do.

...until our next wedding anniversary. I know some of you thought something else. lol  The one in which we renew our vows.  I'm beginning the mini plans for this. I'm consignment shopping for the dress.  I don't really care about the size.  Mom used to design wedding gowns on the side in effort to keep us out of the Depression era during single motherhood.  So, I'm looking for the general idea of an elegant white/champagne cocktail dress vice a white full on wedding dress.  I procrastinated on this because I knew we wouldn't need a whole year to plan.  My church doesn't even allow that much reservations for vow renewals until 30 days prior.  No fees are involved besides if you want to bless the minister.  On the other hand, my mom and her new husband have a church of their own.  Forgive me, if I'm a bit more traditional than that.  I want a structured foundation.  But it's still early in the game.  If I want something elaborate.  Yes, my mother's church because she'll allow me to decorate a lot.  If I don't mind a subtle, simple ceremony, then the beautiful church grounds will be the place for my ceremony.  We're going to have a mini reception at another location anyway, so that should be fine. The guest limit at my church will be 25 people for an informal ceremony.  Unlimited at my mom's church.
Checklist for vow renewal Friday, February 6, 2009. In no particular order. And far from complete.  I don't know what else to do, we popped in the Justice of the Peace one random day in February headed for Mission Beach (the best beach ever, btw.)

1. Wedding gown.
2. Reception location.
3. Invites.
4. Catering.
5. Wedding cake, (I'm seriously thinking of Whole Foods on this and #4.)
6. Decorations and theme.

It was a year and three days from the date that I quit working as a flight attendant.  I heard news of the first attack on the radio.  At the time, I just though zut alors, un pilote soulard!  I made it back to my flat in time to see the second one connect.  Immediately, I knew something was amiss.  There's a lot surrounding that day that I cannot even wrap words around.  
This Sept 11th, instead of honoring those who passed on that fateful day.  We have to scramble about in preparation for Hurricane Ike.  So, I may be without electricity soon.  I may voice or text post on my Palm...I'm not sure what my motivation at that time.  I bought plenty of snacks, nonperishable food, boiling some eggs for quick protein snacks, cooking spaghetti to last today and tonight.   I have over 10 gallons of water.  Activities for the boys, magazines and over 45 unread books for Joe and I, ( I buy books a lot in hopes of a moment to read them,) flashlights, battery-powered radio and I bought 15 packs of batteries. As well as an evacuation kit, in case we need to make a quick getaway.

More in keeping my running theme of  a work in progress.  I'm trying to focus more on that.   So, I'm motivating myself to stay on task.  It's also a dear term to me as it's what my hubbyloverfriend calls me.

Google is my instant knowledge go-to.  Type in any objective word or phrase and you can find a wealth of information.  If you want biased support to defend your cause, type it just a you feel it.  Instantly, millions of different levels of authorities in agreement.  I use Google for product reviews, lowest price searches, general discovery, email, calendar, document translating, and various other free services that normally require expensive software.  My favorite thing about Google is that I earn a lot of cash from simply owning stock in that company.  I  only wish that I'd gotten it sooner.  And did I mention that I'd so work there forever,

I can pg test on the 11th since my period is due on the 12th.  Regardless of the result, I won't post it until the 13th week.  I'm not even sure if I'll tell my husband until then.  As he would feel too much pressure to do greater things on the job.  He's not very good under pressure.  I will obviously have to reduce my fashionista budget in that time, so I'll save the money I don't splurge on shoes and clothes (there's always hair and handbags,eh?)  

He's no LJer, but wishfuly good birthday thoughts all the same!!!

I'm so thankful!  I anticipated a small serving of pay this period, but the seed I planted in church on Sunday has shown itself evident!  God is so faithful and I'm quite thankful!!

Or not?  I've started taking my organic prenatals again.   And attempting to drink more fluids.  I amaze myself in my hate for water.  I own four Brita filter pitchers  and a Brita faucet filter..but  I loathe plain H20.  Just in case there's reason, I'm only drinking ginger or raspberry tea instead of Earl Greyers.   I will find out in eight days.  Wait, is that heartburn?  OK, check the symptoms...elevated body temp, headaches (I don't get headaches,) achiness, tiredness, etc  following let's say egg white activity.  I don't know what to tell me.  We wait and we see.
In other news, I think Josh has finally weaned...He went looking for a cup when he awoke thirsty.  The end of an era.  A milestone.  It's been four years straight...not all on the same child, but four years straight through pregnancies and what not that I've nursed one of my boys.  My body needs a break.  .So, I'm too thankful that Josh took it well.  Joey took it horribly, but he felt a bit replaced by the new baby. 
For some reason, I suddenly remember the news story of a nursing mother who kept her small children alive while huddled up in some weird area stranded during a blizzard.  I instantly blamed the husband, but felt bad after he was found dead as he searched for help.

The much anticipated series premeire featured a few old familiar faces with plenty of spicy new action.  The show has gone into a totally different direction from the start.  True, the old Beverly Hills, 90210 had plenty of sex, lies, and videotape...but there was this huge morality or social issue that lurked in every storyline.  From the first two episodes, it seems like we're sticking to realistic teenage drama.  Hot jock gets vehicular friendly with someone who later turns out not to be his girlfriend. His girlfriend happens to be a bit Queen Bee-ish.  OK, a lot Queen Bee-ish (kind of reminds me of Mean Girls at times.) The strong linkage between characters are not marked yet, but there's plenty of time for friendships to develop.
To be contined...

Has anyone tried the social  Yoono add-on for Firefox?  It's about one fourth as good as the Flock social web browser, but for those who love Firefox, it will have to do.  Honestly, Flock  is easier to navigate and it allows for more social sites to be added including LJ.  Plus, Flock offers a pink version.  I reverted back to Flock for this passed week missing everything Flock...but the Yoono disappointment seals the deal

 I'm fertile now.  And I was yesterday the 28th.  I did take a bit of advantage, but chickened out afterwards hoping it would all drip out. TMI..then I'm like maybe I'm ready.  Maybe I'm not.  We'll see.  I have to watch the mercury intake.  Wean my 27 month old (no matter which way you feel about this...Yeah, I know.)  Zero plum wine.  It seems so much to do for maybe.  We'll see how vested I am.

RULES:
_ Pick your birth month.
_ Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
_ Bold (or italicize) the five-ten that best apply to you.
_ Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.

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YAY JOEY!! Here's a self pic I found of him using Photobooth.

Stolen from my new friend Kristy.

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Dean Winchester (IRL Jensen Ackles) . Why? Hell, yes! Why not? The boy is melt worthy. My time would be well occupied and it would be more like Blue Lagoon than Lost. Oh, yes.

We're supposed to go to Chuck E. Cheese's tonight in celebration of my three year old's upcoming birthday...However, darling hubby went for an interview for the Houston Police Department at which point he meter parked for two hours without a proper fill. Needless to say, the car got towed. $200 gets it out. Probably got a ticket, too. But he didn't mention that, he's afraid of the wrath....which leads me to my previous post. How will I react? He's a bonehead at times. I know it. He gets random tickets and preventable blow-outs. Just the worst of luck. I would feel awful for him, except that this, too, was preventable. Argghh!! Because he flicks his tongue the second I come home with one too many bags, I don't know how I will react. Hopefully, I've learned that disrespect is not any option. I used to think a statement of fact is not disrespect, but I now know that it is. I cannot make him feel worse than he probably does, but I cannot have this happening every month. Not when there was a decent rug, I wanted for the kitchen that he gave me a total eye roll for suggesting. He's a good guy altogether. My hubbyloverfriend. He' just a serious mook. I have to laugh, because it's not cry-worthy. Just his luck! And mine, I guess, because I'm paying for it. He isn't home yet, but I hope this doesn't affect our celebration. I may have to take the kids on my own or celebrate on Sunday when my mom gets here. Sounds grimy, but she would pay for everything which kind of offsets the towing and potential ticket. I'm bad, but I'm one of those who feels a weird and invalid sense of entitlement to some tangible things when it comes to my mother (as anyone who knows my story knows that not only does my mom suck in the emotional department, she's pull things that would royally screw up the average person...but I'm such an optimistically, proactive pragmatist that I played the hand I was dealt. And I made it into a happy and joy-filled life....which is definitely a struggle...but I'm here!! And I know that counts for something.)
I hope he, at least,gets that job. Merde!

Love. Unconditional love.
More than fingertips on the small of my back or a soft caress.
Love means never having to apologize for my being.
Love is. Love hopes all things. Love believes all things. Love is optimistic. It just does and is. Love conquers all. And you can love the one you're with as passionately as the one you wish.
When I was in high school, I had this weird notion that people pair up with another one with the same idea of love. In order for that to realistically occur, I'd have to marry the same sex. Men and women think differently about love. Plain and simply. ( Read more... )

ABC's Invasion would be one of my first choices.  Barely aired a full season before it was canceled leaving its slim viewers to wonder what exactly happened in the aftermath of the hurricane when the aliens gradually took over.  It aired soon after Hurricane Katrina, so maybe the Hurricane thing was too touchy for some.  I don't know.  I enjoyed it while it lasted, but it's kind of like when a vibrator runs out of batteries just when you're about to....well anyway...no need for graphics...just know that I was a bit perturbed...
Of course, I want to know what happened after the series finale for Beverly Hills, 90210.   (But hopefully, when the spin-off airs, they smooth out loose edges for me.)
No, booing, but I 'd love to know how things went between Joey and Pacey.  Good old, Dawson's Creek.  The only decent seasons were two and three.  Otherwise, I think the show was quite obnoxious.

I came through for the boys and took them to the zoo.  The humidity inspired some weirdness with my hair, so when/if I do post pics...they definitely won't be of me.  It stormed yesterday leaving the zoo soggy in the aftermath.   We visited a lot of the usual animals, but I don't think we saw any lions or bears...well, there's always next time. 
A stark difference between this zoo and the one I grew so familiar with in San Diego.  These animals seemed as bored and confined as a woman in a bad marriage.   In all fairness, a lot of keeper attractions were closed recovering from the storm.  I have gone to many a San Diego zoo show that featured animals who seemed almost proud to be there.   In San Diego, it wasn't a rare thing to learn that the latest San Diego millionaire who passed away left all money and possessions to the zoo.   So, I assume that the creatures who live there get the next to best of everything.
I could here those San Diego zoo tiger (from way far back up in the bleachers) shout and roar, "Look at me.  Look what I could do."
 It didn't appear like some forced circus act.  You know, one of those..'it's either this or the glue factory, bud' performances.   I'm sympathetic to animals, so part of me wants to hate the zoo and its entrapment, but another big huge part of me loves being able to get up close to animals who normally wouldn't allow such an encounter.
Afterwards, I asked Joey if he wanted to go to the Rainforest Cafe which has been our fall back all those times the weather or the time did not permit us going to the actual zoo.  So, before today...my boys thought the cafe was the zoo.  Well after learning the truth, Joey answers,
"No, Mommy, this is the real zoo.  I want to stay here.  I just love it here!"   Awwwww...  My little three year old is all grown up now.
I so enjoyed today. 

Back in 2005, I was apparently very fertile the week of Aug 28th (birthdate of my firstborn)...which is weird because it seems yet again, I'll be fertile during that time.  I have to decide if I want to get to make another May 22 (birthdate of my secondborn) baby.  Well, actually,  I could schedule between May 9th and May 18th.   Getting way ahead of myself  especially since five out of seven days I eat sushi and drink plum wine.  Not exactly ready to be without those things....

No one knows.  Not even you.

I have about 13 episodes of the old 90210 before it restarts from the beginning.  Season 10 is so booooring! Seriously, I like the Gina/Dylan anti-relationship.  I love it even though I hate the tension between Gina and everyone else.  Brunettes are just natural born beaches in California.    And then...September 2nd...the spin-off begins...and I have something decent to watch...
 The Young and the Restless sucks right now...only because the drama I want is not happening...I'm a romantic I want happily ever after.  Instead, I get yet another switched DNA test.  If it is that easy, then dammit my children are Daniel Goddard's also.  Dammit!!!  I want what I want to happen.  Come on, CBS!! How many times can we do this?  Hell!
Well, I  do look forward to Fridays.  I get to watch Pysch and Monk!  Love those shows.  Detective comedies. 
Big Brother 10.  Eh.  Ok. Yes, it's more habit than addiction this season.  I've been watching it for almost 10 seasons.  I skipped season 3!  So, out of obligation I force myself even though I have no loyalty to any of the "most volatile" alliances to date.  At first, I loathed Renny.  Now, I love her.  It's all in the editing.  I really hoped this would be the season in which girl power ruled the house, but wishful thinking. 
So what is everyone else watching?  Reruns.  I'm starting to think my saved Supernatural episodes are a lot better than any of this new stuff...Or I could be patriotic and watch the Olympics,huh? 
87 shows/movies saved in TiVo memory, but nothing to watch.

For a split second, the pregnancy bug bit me.  I think part of me has always hated wasting an egg.  While the other, doesn't want any of them fertilized.  So, around the time I'm most fertile, I've always (not quite accurate to say always as I have been impregnated quite a few times.)  shunned sex.   So, yesterday, a few hours before the steady flow of my period, I want to be pregnant again....luckily the feeling went away rather quickly.  Nothing like chasing two young boys around to snap back into reality.  It's almost now or never for me.  I mean, seriously, I don't want the middle child syndrome.  For some reason, I'd feel more comfortable if they were closely spaced.  I'd get to baby them all.  Life doesn't guarantee anything.  And I don't really think there's a cheat to the sibling system.  The more children you have, the thinner you have to spread yourself to make everyone feel that your 100% vested in them.  Jack of all trades=Ace of none.  I've said this before, but I have a choice in the matter.  I put my children first, naturally.  They are my world.  So, I make sure my children know that everything I do is for them.  So, even after getting this new position, I seem to have snapped out of the honeymoon period.  And AND I've fallen into some weird ho-humness that I passed off as can't be top dog in every arena at least I'm a great mom...But that's wrong.  It's so wrong.  Is it my employer's fault that I have children??  So, he should then accept less energy from his employees with parental obligations??  If I can't fight with everything within me to give the best output in my work, then what is the point of working?  I mean sure we have to eat well, have a roof, cover our bare bums, put away for college, and retire before age 100, but I can still strive to be the best in everything.  Aiming high doesn't guarantee success, I would much rather do.try.hit.play.   Anything else is an automatic fail.    Maybe that adage applies only to Jacks, I'm definitely a Jane.

Just goes with the week....I ended up getting charged for two cameras....Easily fixable, but le sigh......I just have to laugh at me right now.  So, I have to refuse one of the packages in order to receive full credit.  Of course, it couldn't happen on one of my days off when I'll actually be home to receive/refuse the package.  If I don't refuse the package, then return shipping is deducted from my refund.

I've had the worst week ever! Weird and random missile attempts.  But no weapon formed against me  will prosper. I still have unspeakable joy,  peace that surpasses even my understanding, and unconditional love.  (Mine is bigger than that. I wave my fist to the worker bees that set this in motion, but my own disobedience had a lot to do with it.) So, not to dwell on it...I did a bit of retail therapy....

I currently have two Canon Rebel film SLR's; Amazon has the Canon A590 on sale right now. (Like almost every other camera because vacation days are over.)   It's a digital, but I couldn't pass it up.  It's 8.0 megapixels which is decent enough for what I need if I capture at slow speeds.  I'll get a 12 megapixel camera for Seaworld and group shots that would need cropping or for enlargements.   I love photography.  And not just for snapping the little people, but to catch life and immortalize.  With the free trial of Amazon Prime, I got it overnighted for $3.99.  Just in time for me to test it out a few days before heading to the zoo on Saturday. 

Maybe I can reread this to help myself when I feel anti-bliss. 

"I think you understand them very well.  I think it's the accepting of them that is hard to swallow sometimes.  Some great man long ago said that you're never supposed to change for anyone. When I first heard this until maybe five seconds ago, I realized the fallacy in this belief system.  You cannot transition without change.  A man cannot become a husband nor a woman a wife without change.   I've greatly changed for my children.  Women are chameleons.  We adapt to our environment.  While men generally maintain the notion that you shouldn't change for anyone, when in fact you must change some things (not personality, values, or character unless you're a cracked out/ racist/rapist/pedophile/ murderer) in order to maintain a healthy ongoing relationship with another person.  I don't know of anything in existence that can adapt without going through some process of change." 

By now, we know that I'm excessively obsessive (actually more anal expulsive if anything), but if I believe in something; I'm in all the way.  So among my many other loves, I've added the stock market.  I love the rush of watching your risks pay off.  I only wish I'd gotten shares in Google a few years earlier like when it was $12 a few of those employees were able to go into early retirement when that value skyrocketed...now it's almost $500 per share...so far I have 8 shares.. but I want more.  If I can buy a share per month...and if everyone keeps googling every darn thing.  lol...I have a few in Apple and a few others, but it's my new hobby.  I have a 401k, mutual funds, and such.  My goal is to not have to work past 55.  

The littlest one came down with a cold, well sinus thing.  I think it's tied in to hubbyloverfriend keeping the air conditioner set at 75ish.  The thermostat is weird it cools the house five degrees more than you set it. I normally hate the A.C.  Yes, I know it's hot.  I cool off with it as a last resort.  And no, I'm not that cheap.  Not trying to save money.  I do care about conserving energy for the planet's sake, but I just simply love fresh, outdoor air.  But I've got to face it!  I live in Houston again.  It's hardest for me when I drive in the car.  I hate to put it on because it's so unrefreshing, but one has no choice here!!  Anyway, my husband asks me if I'm sure that baby boy caught the sniffles from it being too cold.  (I don't know, have yet to study viral/bacterial pathology at med school .) 

I have noticed that my posts have revolved around clothes, shoes, hair, and makeup.  I'm not that girl!   I'm too MOMMY.  Or maybe I am and it just manifests itself every Fall.  Now that I think about it, since I received my first August issue of Seventeen magazine I have been a bit obsessed with Autumn's splendorous fashion.  The words fall collection have special meaning to me.   Rich colors.  Style.  I love it all.  I cannot wait.