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Thursday, July 17, 2008
12:28AM - Love will find a way..........all the more quickly if your doing you know what.
Gary Allan - Right where I need to be (the video is stupid, but the song is great and it just popped into my mind tonight)
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My day started off with a boom. Mrs. Van touches base with me the ol.........."My period is late."
Well, to a 20 something num-nutz horn dog that means nothing. To a slightly worn out 40 something it means a whole 'nother thing. "No shit Hon? Do you know who the mother is? Ok, how about the father?" :)
Well, the last year my schedule has been a bit non-conducive to an optimal family/domestic situation. It has been right fucked up and stressful at times. Now, last month I managed to find some time to be home with the family and Mrs. Van and I were able to knock boots (for you young punks check with your folk if that don't mean nothing to ya).
How many gals around the world are late this month? *sigh* I can only hope for twins. Or a late cycle. Either way, I will adapt.
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On life downrange..........well.....as I was talking to tread head.......the endless boredom is overwhelming, the moments of excitment are intense, and bouts of fear are sharp.
Without revealing classified info, I did manage to find out that if your locked down in an Abrahms, zombies can not open the hatches to get in. Period.
Honest to Woden truth there. So, if your being chased by a horde of scroll bearers, climb into the nearest abandoned tank and sit tight. Yes, it's stupid, and I've already been laughed at for it.............but it works. So stick that in your pipe and smoke it.
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Has anything in your life really challenged what you accept, and have been taught, as real?
Not something simple such as "Do cats land on their feet when falling" or "Does butter bread land butter side down?"
Rather, more dramatic things akin to "Is there life after death? If so, what kind?"
"Are myths and legends real? Or just legends and myths?"
"Is Bush really just Hilter re-incarninated?"
"Why is Oprah a hack?"
Things of a serious nature like that.
Ya know Vern?
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I'm afraid I've made a mistake and cheated on my love.
I bought a cheap bottle of gin last week and boy does it taste crappy. I tried to smooth it out by mixing it with a bottle of good gin and just dirtied up the good stuff.
I tried to shave a few bucks and done fucked it up.
Never cheat on your lover or your drink, you'll just end up ruining both relationships.
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Any cavers out there?
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That's about it ladies and gentleman. I need to wrap things up and move on before the monkey handlers come out to check on me.
Monday, July 7, 2008
10:59PM - BOHICA
"Consider the source, and just let it go."
That was the advice from CO on down. When a male disrespects and denigrates you, just let it go. WTF, over? I'm feeling kinda betrayed and I'm not even the victim here. To say my two troopers are feeling beat down is an understatement. So much for the govt looking after it's own. On one hand, we have the public who may only care on a good day. Then we have the media which was racking us over the coals today with some bad coverage, and then we have our fearless leaders doing their best to overlook stress and abuse at the lower levels.
The CO had a heart to heart with the guy. Now, from what I've heard, I understand in a way why things are being handled the way they are........they're laying a foundation for the next offense. Do I agree with it.......noooooooooo.
Dee-Dee and Bec have pretty much lost their faith in the unit. So, at the cost of their loyalty, future plans are built upon. Afterall, it's just two female's word against one male's.
Great trade off. Right? Come on, right? Really..........right?
No.
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What a day. I'm sitting in my vehicle earlier and suddenly ............get an anxiety attack? For lack of a better way to put it. I was alone thankfully and just kinda freaked out and had a panic moment.
Ten minutes later, after getting a grip on myself, I sat there thinking about it. It was rather un-nerving and made me feel kinda.....awkward.
Stress is a real pisser when it gets to the point it messes with your physcological makeup. Working for the govt just doesn't make for an easy life.
Been doing it since I was 18 and I'm not in my 40 somethings. With the exception of 2 years I've been govt that whole time, and I think I can safely say it's been the cause of my drinking problem, many of my emotional problems, and surely the cause of my "wig-out" moments when I broke down and kinda when Coo-Coo-Nuts in the middle of traffic and started beating the hell out of my vehicles dashboard and slamming the radio mic till it cracked.
Yeah, that was a moment allright.
*sigh*
It's certainly given me the frame of mind in trying to help my kids NOT repeat my failures and ........problems. Woden, please let my kids be officers, maybe it'll be easier on them. Being a noncom isn't easy.
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On a side note, I've been talking to some .............disregard.
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Ahhhh, well, I'm kinda out of things to say...........I kinda get.........well........it's kinda hard to say.
Oh, anyone remember that episode of King of the Hill when Hank is telling LouAnn on to ..........stand by...........brb.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
10:54PM - Checking in
Things are still going.
Some good things have happned, and some bad things to boot. In either case, we're still trudging on. We've got some ugly things coming up next week........and I hate to say, but it can't go well. Seems we'll be having a case of sexual harrassement being presented to the powers that be. Two of my female troopers were address in a not so nice manner and advised that due to being female, they aren't doing as well as the guys would.
And generally, if you call one of my people a "stupid, crack whore." I"m really not going to be very happy with you. Specially if your not joking. The saddier thing, is that several of the other female troopers are advising my two people to "just ignore it, brush it off."
What the fuck, over? Am I missing something here?
I'm a decent friend to the old man of one of these gals, and he's ready to stomp the shit out of the one guy who said this, and worse. It's hard for me to deal with those want to brush this under the rug, and those who don't think it's an issue. Maybe it's just me. Really. But if someone said this to Mrs. Van, I'm not sure what I would, or wouldn't do..........but 3 or 4 punches to their face leap to my mind.
I"m becoming a pariah because I'm pushing for a horsewhipping and a boot to the offenders ballsack. I can see the my team mates selecting sides and distancing themselves from us. Don't get involved is what I keep hearing.
I think not. If I and Dee-Dee and Bec don't make a stand and do something, then it's ok to let this shit continue? And then next time say, "Oh gosh, something should be done........but you do it, not me." Like people usually do.
Fucking punk ass chicken shits.
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On a side note, two of our LTs set up the Captain for an ambush.........IMO, and laughed about it afterwards because he's not rolling over and playing puppet.
I'm constantly amazed at how brutal things have gotten.
There's time I'm even worried to post my own thoughts in case they happen to find this place. Gotta love Govt at work on my behalf.
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Anywho,
Hope ya'll have a great 4th. :) I'll touch base with ya'll next week.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
10:56PM
Just a "quick quick". Things are going well. The new Captain is awesome. He's 5x5 with his head not in his rectum for a change. Lt and I are loving it.
On a sad note, and I'm sure you've all seen it..............a blues legend has passed on. Now, I was never a big fan of Bo Diddley, but I've seen the contributions he's made to our environment. I wish his a safe and quick passage to whethever he goes, in Frith.
Speaking of the blues.........I thought, and think, this is a wonderful video. It's about Jonny Lang and some of the influences in his life.
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If you wish to visit the official site for Jonny Lang, go here: http://www.jonnylang.com/
Mr Lang has a very beautiful song, IMO, called "One Person at a Time". It's about how we, me, you can make a difference and change the world. Several of his latest songs cycle through, for free. If you like the blues, please stop by and take part of the amazing gospel like voice that touches on many social issues and things that most Americans take for granted, but many Afghanies and Iraqi's can only wish for. Soapbox speech over with, carry on.
AND
I'm very pleased to see that Ohbama has gotten the nod for Democratic nomination. If your think otherwise, that's fine. I don't really have a desire to debate it with you, but I'm rather tied of fighting for a President that doesn't have a personal committment, like Prince Charles does. In other words, if the Crown Prince is willing to go fight and possibly die, I'd expect NO LESS from the US Presidents family. Period. The Bush daughters are hacks. IMO.
That aside, I'm very thankful that I have someone to love and be thankful to Woden and Frigg for. For every breath I take, I have Ms. Van and the Vanites there. So, when I start to get a bit crazy and stressed, I try to reign it in and think of them and realize I have a lot to be thankful for. Life is good.
As I was telling Mrs. Van tonight...........disregard further.
If your a parent, hug your kids today, tonight.
If your kidless, hug your partner. Really try to appreciate the positive affect they have in your life.
If your in the United States, no matter how rough it is, you really do have it good. Really. Honest to Woden.
To all my other homies........peace out. ;)
Stay strong everyone.
P.S.
I think the TRX Suspension Training is HORSESHIT.
Monday, May 19, 2008
12:15AM - Bad wolf........baaaaaaaaaaaaad.
Kelly Clarkson - Walk away (yes, I still love this video)
Oh dammit, Wolfie got it before I did.........ooooooh.......Ok, my replies follow hers.
Survey viked from ODD ////
THE BASICS
Name: Tan //// Van
Gender: Female //// Male, or so the penis implies
Age: 35 //// Early 40 something
Screen Names: Mommawolfie, Wolfshadow //// Vanatru, Vantru_Vineland
Birthday: 25 January 1973 //// LOL........somewhere back in the day
Race: Dutch/Scots/Gyppo //// German, Irish, English
School/Grade:
I finished high school, qualified for university but got married instead…currently doing some community college //// Bachelors degree and a bit beyond
Status: Poor white trash (preach it sister!) //// Middle class trash
Hometown: Perth, Australia ////
Current Town: Perth, Australia //// Orlando, Florida
Parents Still Together?: Nope //// Yep
Siblings: 2 younger half brothers //// A brother, were pretty close
Pets: 4 cats, an assortment of tropical fish and lizards //// 3 furbag cats.
Smoker: I smoke pot occasionally for pain relief so I can sleep //// Pipe, Captain Blacks stuff
Drinker: Yeppers //// Never. I can't stand the stuff........unless it's gin.
Virgin: I think I almost requalified….but not anymore! //// Yes. Someday I hope to change that
Orientation: Bi //// Lesbian. I can't help but love lunch at the Y. Sorry guys, don't bother calling.
Drugs: Ive tried a few – Ecstacy and Speed I did twice in a controlled environment just to find out what it did, was fun in a shagged beyond the point of exhaustion kind of way….. but the comedown was NOT worth it. Pot sometimes for pain relief. //// Never.......except for those pot parties. Fucking awesome.
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APPEARANCE
Hair Color: Blonde //// Brown, w/gray temples
Is It Dyed?: Yep //// Ah, no. Graying on the chest, and still brown down town. If ya know what I mean. ;)
Eye Color: Blue //// Brown, for all the shit I'm full of
Height: 5'7" //// Holy bat crap, she's taller than me. I'm 5' 6".
Style: Thrift Shop/Goth //// Beach bum. Shorts and t-shirts.
Glasses/Contacts/None?: Glasses //// Yep, bi-focals.
Freckles: A few //// Nope
Body Type: Soft, squishy, and round (I hear ya!) //// Solid, but yet flabby. An amazing combo
Shoe Size: Usually 7 1/2. //// Bigger than my penis size........9.5
Piercing: Only my ears at the moment, 3 in each //// Nadda, none
Want More?: Probably not. Was heavily into piercings at one stage, but kind of over it now. //// No thanks.
Tattoos?: None //// Yes, several
Want More?: If I can settle on a design that I honestly believe will still be relevant to me when Im in a nursing home. //// Yep. A few more. Full sleeves if I could afford it.
Braces?: No. //// WTF over? In my 40's? I think not.
Overall Best Feature: Apparently my boobs… //// My shoe size?
Overall Worst Feature: Cant decide between my arse, thighs or stomach…. //// My charm?
Do you get most of your traits from mom or dad?: A pretty good mix actually. //// Dad
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LIKES/DISLIKES
Favorite Color: Anything bright and dramatic //// Green......Army green
Worst Color: Pastels *yawn* //// Blue?
Favorite Number: 42 //// 69
Favorite Animal: Wolves (and my cats of course!) //// Cats.....do elves count?
Favorite Mythical Creature: Phoenix //// Honest politicans
Least Favorite Animal: Snakes and rodents //// Reporters
Favorite Flower: Gerbera
Favorite Food: Pasta //// Thai
Worst Food: Tripe //// Ditto........that shits chewy like a rubber
Favorite Junk Food: Kentucky Fried Chicken or pizza //// Pizza, which is what I'm having now.
Worst Junk Food: BAD junk food? Sorry….just just does NOT compute! //// Ramen noodles?
Favorite Restaurant: La Porchetta //// Thai Kitchen
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Peppermint Choc-Chip //// Mint....just mint, none of that fucking chocolate chip shit in it..........plain mint.
Favorite Candy: Not a big candy person //// Diabetic here......candy makes my tummy hurt.
Favorite Alcoholic Drink: Bourbon //// Not sure, I'm thinking of trying gin. I've heard lots of good things about it.
Favorite NON Alcoholic Drink: water or coke //// ............water?
Worst Alcoholic Drink: Beer or those really sweet girly drinks //// Something with "cooler" in the description.
Worst NON Alcoholic Drink: Red bull (but I drink it anyway) //// Malta beer
Favorite Genre of Music: 1970s-1980s metal and rock //// 80's rock and blues
Worst Genre of Music: Techno //// Whathever is popular today
Favorite Band/Artist: Varies, but always metal //// Oh crap......metal, hairband style
Worst Band/Artist: Any doov doov band //// Current rap
Favorite Song: Metallica – Whiskey in the Jar //// Tesla - No way Out
Worst Song: Any pop or techno song //// Prison Love Band - Bend over, here it cums
Favorite Radio Station: 94.5 (yes it’s the ‘oldies’ station with ‘classics’ from the 70’s and 80’s) //// 94.5 Star FM R&B, 105.9 Sunny FM.
Favorite Book: Wuthering Heights //// XL by Score?
Worst Book: Sorry, I don’t understand that concept….I’ll read anything… //// The bible
Favorite of Movie: Fantasy/Sci-Fi/Military….and porn of course //// Oh baby, I think I love Mommawolfie
Worst Type of Movie: Chick flicks *shudder* //// Gay porn?
Favorite Movie: 13th Warrior, or King Arthur //// Classified
Worst Movie Ever: Anything with Steven Segal in it, Im sorry but the man cannot act…. //// Shut your mouth.....Segal rocks.....anything with that punk ass bitch........what's his name.....David Spade.........expect for Tommy Boy
Favorite TV Show: House – its my laugh fest for the week //// Camp Lazlo? How it's Made, Ninja Warrior.
Worst TV Show: reality shows (oh yeah!) //// Anything primetime
Favorite Season of the Year: SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!! //// Winter
Worst Season: Winter – I hate rain and I hate being cold //// Oh yeah, come let me warm ya up. ;)
Best Friend: Aaron, Brett and Shannon //// Mrs. Van, Little Vans, and the furballs.
Worst Enemy: Who cares…I know who is out to get me, and I know I’ll get them first, *shrug* //// *Sigh*..........so many........so many
Favorite Day of the Week: All of them…every day above ground is a bloody good day! //// Ditto
Least Favorite Day of the Week: Monday mornings are a struggle… //// Workday........
Favorite Sport: Bedroom olympics //// Wow, she is so naughty.........I have to agree. Monkey Sex Sports rocks
Sport You Hate: Cricket and golf bore the shite out of me //// Oh hush, cricket is cool. Golf sucks.
One thing you can't get enough of: Aaron //// Time with Mrs. Van and the little Vanites.
One thing you hate more than anything: not having enough money to pay bills (Ooooh yeah) //// Dittoooooooooooo
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LOVE LIFE
Are You Single?: Dating //// Married
If not, who is your bf/gf?: Aaron //// DNA
How Long Have You Been Together?: Almost 5 months //// 16 years. She's fucking crazy and won't kill me, divorce me, or leave. I guess I"ll just have to keep her. :)
If You're Single, Do you Like It?: When I was single it was ok…
Do You Have a Crush On Anyone Right Now?: Aaron lol //// Of course
First Kiss: 15 years old on my first real date….heheheheh //// Ahhh, don't remember
Ever Kiss in the Rain?: Yep. //// I think so
In a Movie Theater?: Yep //// Oh yeah
Underwater?: I don’t think so…. //// Yes
First Love: Healthcliffe from Wuthering Heights //// Classified
Have you ever Cheated on Anyone?: Yes. Not proud of it. ////Yes, and it was only so-so
Been Cheated on?: Yes, most of my relationships have ended that way //// Yes, by the cheater
Used Someone?: Yes. //// Of course, it's in my job-description
Been used?: Yes //// Yes it's im my job-desciprition
Lied to your bf/gf?: Havent lied to Aaron, havent needed to, he’s known me too long and knows all the skeletons in my closet anyway. Other partners, yes as needed. //// Well, duh...yes.
Ever Made out With Just a Friend?: No, made out with people who should have been Just Friends though…. //// Nope.
Ever Had Sex With Just a Friend?: Same traffic as last question. //// Negative
Are You a Tease?: I can be //// Only with a feather, my teeth, and husky breath on your neck
Do you Flirt a Lot?: Sometimes //// No, not really.
Longest Relationship: 8 years //// 16 years
Shortest: Few months //// 2 hours?
Have you Ever Gotten a Poem?: Yes //// Fuck no.
Ever Get Flowers?: Yes //// Yes, and I told her never to do that again
Sweetest Thing You've Ever Gotten: //// heh heh........oh yeah........sorry, classified
Do you Like Valentine's Day or Sweetest Day?: Vomit… //// Bullshit, Madison Ave holiday
Do you Believe in Love at First Sight?: No, that’s lust, which is not to say it cant turn into love over time //// Yes, and my penis proved to be right.
Do you Believe in "The One"?: Not sure //// Yes, be shacking up with her for 16 years now.
Do you Fall in Love Fast?: I used to, Im far more cautious now //// Only as fast as my hormones went
Are you a Player?: No. //// No, I don't have the tape deck or chips.
Would you ever Hook Up With Someone of the Same sex?: Been there, done that, if the chemistry is there would do so again //// Sure, if I was stranded and he was a trannie.......and I was horny
Have You ever Kissed 2 People in One Day?: My kids? //// Yes
Kissed 2 People At One Time?: No //// Is that possible?
Had Sex with 2 People in One day?: No. //// No, but I'm open
Had sex with 2+ People at One Time?: No. //// Hell, I can barely handle one, much less two
Ever cried over someone of the opposite sex?: Too many times //// Only crocidile tears it seems
Ever Been Dumped?: Yep //// Oh yeah.......
Ever dumped someone?: Yep //// Nope
Ever been rejected?: Sure //// Heck yeah
Do you have a lot of ex's?: Not really //// No
Are you a slut?: No, Im choosy //// No, and I've tried......but I just don't have the slut luck.
Ever been called one?: Of course //// *sigh* No.....and I've tried.
Ever dated someone more than once?: Actually yes, but hey relationships end for a reason and that reason is usually still there…. //// No
Do you ever make the first move?: I find that really really difficult but I have done //// Hel yeah
Double dates or single?: Usually single //// Single
Do you want to get married?: Don’t know ////Sure, someday. ;)
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SEX (what you're attracted to)
Hair Color: Dark. /// Dark
Short or long?: Long //// Either
Eye color?: Blue ////Brown/green
Style: Blue collar working guys //// Bimbo.....just kidding. Average gal type......kinda on the heavy size, and older than 35.
Age: 25 - 45 //// 1-100.......
Height: at least as tall as me //// Taller than 4 feet
Weight: irrelevant //// On the bigger size.....probably from 150 up to 250lbs.
Muscular or skinny?: slimish but strong… //// I guess...muscular....skinny isn't my thing.
Boxers or Briefs?: Anything and nothing works for me. //// I don't care....whatever she's wearing can get pulled aside or tossed aside. I'm good either way. :P
Do you care about looks?: To catch my attention in a crowded room – yes. A better option though is to bloody well talk to me and prove you have a brain and a sense of humour. //// No....I've been with stunners with the IQ of cardboard. It didn't last. I've been with rough gals that I've loved to death because of their personality. I'd go for average looks any day and great attitude.
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OTHER QUESTIONS
Can you drive?: Oh yeah! //// Yes, and more so when I'm drunk. That's a joke people. Ha ha....you know, joke?
Do you have a car?: Sure do, sometimes its even roadworthy //// No, a truck.
Do you have a cell phone?: Yep //// Yes....and I hate the DAMN THING!!!!!!!!!!!!! If Mrs Van didn't require, I'd never have the damn thing. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Frickin' thing.
Are you online a lot?: Not a ‘lot’ //// Daily
Do you like gay/bi people?: What a stupid question, why the fuck should the sex of the people someone chooses to fuck be relevant to you liking them or not? //// Yes, they're actually pretty tasty with some tabassco or that spicy sauce Burger King has for it's onion rings. As for the non-edible kind, yes I thing gay/bi people are as cool as non-gay/bi people.
Can you speak another language?: I know a little Indonesian, Italian, Spanish, Russian and Dutch. //// A bit of spanish, german, and arabic.
Do you do well in school?: Yep I was a geek //// Hel no, I was a major misfit. D average and always in trouble.
Do you collect anything?: Books and Debt //// LOL, MW your cute. :) Trouble, I collect trouble.
Have an obsession?: Making money //// Sex and money. I can't get enough of either.
Do you hate yourself?: Actually no, which is a nice change //// Occassionaly for the things I feel I have to do to keep things equal.
Ever smile for no reason?: Sure. //// Only when my mind goes cookoo like cookoo puffs.
Talk to yourself?: Yup. All the time. //// As a matter fact, just today as I was driving down the road.
Do you have any regrets?: Only a couple. //// Yes, lots.
Believe in magic?: Yes //// Yep. If Woden does, why shouldn't I.
Do you support gay marriage?: Same traffic as the last stupid homophobic question //// Sure, why should gay people suffer like straight people. ;)
Sex before marriage?: Try before you buy… //// Would you buy a car before test driving it? If Costco can offer samples before you buy the food, so can I.
Do you trust people easily?: Not anymore. //// Sure, if they're dead. Otherwise, no.
Forgive easily?: No. //// I never forgive.
Do you have a secret no one knows?: A few. //// Nope. Not at all.
Do you get along with your parents?: Depends how much effort I put into it. //// Yeppers. When I left for the Army our relationship improved 100 percent.
What about other people?: Some people, others just shit me to tears. //// What did Wolfie just say? LOL..........she's cute.
How do you vent your anger?: Rant, clean (yes, when Im upset I clean my house….) //// Well, that will vary from down range to real world.
Do you like George Bush?: The man is an idiot //// I like him as much as I like Clinton or Bin Laden or any other piece of shit on my boot. I think George Bush is awesome. He's probably the most successful Special Olympics person I've ever seen.
Goal before you die?: To get the most out of life //// To see my kids succeed
Biggest Fear: Poverty //// Failing my family
Biggest Weakness?: Laziness //// Sex or booze. It's a toss up........not a toss off, but toss up. Arh arh arh. *sigh*
Do you play an instrument?: Nope //// Just the 9mm.
What do you want to be when you grow up?: Grow up? Who says I have to do that? //// A kid again. I wish I could be like Peter Pan and never grow up.
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PERSONALITY TRAITS
Are you...
A bitch?: Yes //// Nope. I belong to the Dick-Heads Union. Our contract forbids us from being bitchy.
A daydreamer?: Yes //// Hmmm, what? Sorry, I was thinking of something else.
Shy?: I can be //// Hardly....just ask Mrs. Van.
Talkative?: Not really //// When I need to be.
Energetic?: No //// Yes
Happy?: More often than not. //// Actually, yes.
Depressed?: Sometimes //// I get the funk every other week.
Funny?: I've been told I am. //// If being a jackass is funny, then yes.
Sluttish?: No //// I tried, but it I wasn't very good at it.
Boring?: Probably //// Hah, nope.
Mean?: I have a bad temper and Im big on vengeance…. //// When I have to be, but I'm actually more brutal or violent, but it's not personal. It's work.
Nice?: If its deserved. //// If your on my team, yep. If your not, no.
Caring?: As above //// Only to team and family.
Trustworthy?: I try to be. //// Only to team and family.
Confident?: Sometimes //// Oh yeah, more than I should be.
Friendly?: Yes //// Of course......come on into my parlor. Have a seat.
Smart?: I have an above average IQ. //// Smart ass, yes.
Sarcastic?: Yes //// Never....not my style.
Dependable?: Yes //// Yes
Quiet?: Kinda //// When I need to be.
Weird?: Absolutely //// Define weird?
Adaptable?: More or less //// When I need to be
Strong (emotionally)?: Yes //// No, I cave in like a sinkhole
Strong (physically)?: No //// Only when I eat my spinach
Mature?: I guess so. //// No, but I love mature women.
Logical?: Not really //// No. Spock said I wasn't
Religious?: Yes. Hail Aesir! Hail Vanir! //// Ditto, Hail Thor
Modest?: Yes //// Kinda, sorta
Indecisive?: Sometimes ////Yes........no........well..........maybe.
Sympathetic?: Yes //// What? Oh yeah, sure, sure I am. Fucktard.
Polite?: Yes to a point… //// If I have to be
Creative?: Sometimes //// Very much so.
Fun to be around?: Apparently //// According to my team, yes.
Lovable?: Apparently //// baby, I got what you need....come on over here.
Easily Amused?: Yes //// At your expense, yes. :)
Outgoing?: I can be, in the right mood //// No, I'm an introvert
Daring?: Sometimes, I’ll do odd things on a whim… //// Not at all ;)
Clumsy?: Yup Im completely unco… //// Yep, I'm my own worst clusterfuck
Nosy?: Not really //// It's my job, yes.
Lazy?: Yup //// I wish
Scary?: I wish //// When I'm on the job, yes. Otherwise, no, not really.
Optimistic?: Yes //// Sure, I'm sure the shit will hit the fan. Positive.
Persuasive?: I can be //// Ditto
A good listener?: I try to be. //// Even if I don't wish to be, yes.
Curious?: Oh yeah….I wont die wondering, Im more likely to die in the process of trying to find out…..//// I have 2 lives left, the other 7 are gone.
Determined?: Stubborn is a more accurate word for it. //// Depends on the situation
Artistic?: Yes //// No
Honest?: Yes //// Usually
Respectful?: Yes //// Usually
Conceited?: Maybe.. //// Moi? Never......I'm too good for that. Bitch.
Cocky?: Not really //// A tiny bit, sure.
Controlling?: I can be //// Yeah, right. Hardly.
Playful?: Yes //// Oh yeah, baby. ;)
Easygoing?: Yes //// To a fault.
Carefree?: Sometimes //// Hmmm, what?
Hot Headed?: Yep. //// To a fault
Serious?: Nah //// If I need to be
Thoughtful?: Yes //// From time to time
Considerate?: I try //// ........of course...........
Stubborn?: Yep //// Never
Romantic?: Meh //// Oh yeah, your bring the gin, and I'll bring the mixer
Ambitious?: Yes //// No....actually I'm good being a nobody that nobody will ever know about.
Jealous?: Sometimes //// Rarely
Insecure?: No //// Yes, do my sides look fat?
Obsessive?: Yep //// Only when my OCD kicks in.
Attentive?: Most of the time //// Huh?
Helpful? I try //// If I can, yes.
Punctual?: I try but I usually fail…. //// Not in the least.
Rational?: Nope. //// Like a Vulcan
Sincere?: Usually //// Of course, trust me.
Tolerant?: Yes, to a point. //// Of most things, yes.
Accepting: Yes. //// Yep
(There's a difference between tolerance and acceptance.) //// Like peanut butter on your nuts and liking it, or just dealing with it?
Thursday, May 15, 2008
11:23PM - Still a goober after all these years.
James Otto - Just Got Started Loving You
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I'll admit, I like to look at other lovies..........but songs like this make me think of Ms. Van and how much I love to snuggle, huggle, and love that woman down. She's so sexy, tasty, and wanton. I love to do all kinds of naughty things with her. She really is the best thing that has ever come into my life.
I was rubbing her legs down for about an hour tonight and it just flew by. I hadn't realized how the time went by.............kinda like the last 16 years with her..........Mmmmmmmmmm..........Seems like I've know her forever, but I still feel like a newbie courting her. I still get tongue tied when talking to her and nervous. Silly, I know......but she's so..........something. You know?
*sigh* She's still a sultry dream come true.........and she gives those really really really good back massages........the kind that relax me till I fall asleep...........and I'm so damn paranoid I don't relax outside of family.
Most of my viewers are in steady relationships...........and can appreciate being able to lay in a bed with a person and appreciate being able to just touch hips and that's it........no sexy sexy.........just being in the prescence of someone who you feel connected too........and enjoy their closeness.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
9:30PM - Black/white inter-racial history
I'm actually kind embrassed that I forgot to post about this, but a friend of mine did.
Please take a moment to drift on over to Battleraven's page.
http://battleraven.livejournal.com/128010.html?view=320522#t320522
She's posted an a bit about a significant part of American history that has been relatively forgotten.............like so many other things.
The people in the story really, and truely were ground breakers. IMO.
8:45PM - American First, first, last, and always, no matter how much shit we start elsewhere
Elvis Presley "The King" - In the Ghetto
Alright, I'll get it out of the way. I'm in my emotional/crying mode today. So what's new.........well, normally I'm not crying. Just emotional.
I had a dream last night that I was in Afghanistan. It's one of those whacky dreams where we're doing something we normally do, and do it reasonably well, but as well all know, in the dreams we keep screwing up.
.....As the snow flies....
I was humping from point A to B to C and cluster fucking it all up.. I was more concerned about making sure my wall locker was squared away and my paperwork was in order. What the fuck, over?
I know that's due to our new CO. He's an ex-Navy man who's come over to the dark side. He's by the book, but doesn't micro-manage every little shit we take. Hel, he hasn't even pulled our LTs aside to talk about our various "personalities" running around the unit. This guy plays it cool, so I know IRL I'm hoping he'll do right by us, and vice versa.
Another part, a disturbing one, is that I'm on a hillside, overlooking a dusty road leading down to plains type area. Up in the hilltops behind me is snow. Off in the distance is a hub........I wanna say a port (but I don't recall any seaports in Afghanistan), so it had to be an aeroport of some type. There was this huge bluish gap between it and me. That was my disembarcation point from here and I was worried I wouldn't make it in time to get out. If I didn't get there somehow, I wasn't going to see Mrs. Van or the Vanites again.
Not a comfortable feeling.
After I wake up, the rest of the morning goes pretty darn good. I drop Little Van off at school and go on to the field house and get a decent workout in then pop into the unit and make myself invisible.
As the afternoon rolls on I take a break and listen to my iPod. Now, I have Elvis Presley #1 Gold Hits on it and suddenly "In the Ghetto" comes on. Here's the crying part. Three Amigos. Kids someone wanted at one time, but never got to see grow up. As for me, I've lost all contact on their where-abouts. As I see it, another failure.........not on their part. On mine and ours.
With the exception of the "...on a cold gray Chicago morning" this could be a song about the people in war torn Afghanistan.........or Iraq........or any 3rd world shit hole country.
Just before that, I'd tuned into a talk radio station that was talking about "America First, America First"
*sigh*
On one hand, I see that...........but I also see that usually the people saying that arent' the ones seeing what goes on elsewhere.
I take a look at you and me
Are we too blind to see?
Do we simply turn our heads
And look the other way?
The host was a right winger, while the co-host was a left winger. But both agreed that helping other countries wasn't a priority.
And a hungry little boy with a runny nose
Plays in the street as the cold wind blows
Out of sight, out of mind. Who care's that millions of children, women, and men will die around the world. Not when we have problems at home. How to justify helping rebuild an orphange in a Muslim country when you have to finish rebuilding a city in the US.
People, don't you understand
The child needs a helping hand
Or he'll grow to be an angry young man some day
To me, that would be fine, about 15 years ago. If I hadn't seen how a US President, for whatever reason, choose to invade not one but two countries and throw a region into turmoil. How the lives of the locals are impacted horribly. Some for the better, some for the worse. And how if some of those people will grow to become enemies of the US because of politics...........such as pulling out because "it's the thing to do. No WMD here." More soundbite bullshit from people who really don't give a shit, but just want a cause to call their own. IMO.
People, don't you understand
The child needs a helping hand
Or he'll grow to be an angry young man some day
Cut and run now, so we can face the angry survivors later. I will not doubt it at all. If McCain becomes Pres, the war and eventually a draft will follow. I think.
If Clinton or Obhama become Pres, will pull out within the next several years. Still, leaving a mess behind.
Then one night in desperation
The young man breaks away
He buys a gun, steals a car
Tries to run, but he don't get far
And his Mama cries
With a country torn apart, and foreign powers pulled out, the religiously intolerant will resume power. With a crippled economy and severe shortages, desperate people will flock to the terrorist powers that can provide. The ranks of he Al Quadea will swell and they'll eventually be sent forth to repay us.
But, I could be wrong. I hope so. I'm not holding my breath though.
In case you were wondering, the lyrics to "In the Ghetto" are as follows:
As the snow flies
On a cold and gray Chicago mornin'
A poor little baby child is born
In the ghetto
And his Mama cries
'Cause if there's one thing that she don't need
It's another hungry mouth to feed
In the ghetto
People, don't you understand
The child needs a helping hand
Or he'll grow to be an angry young man some day
I take a look at you and me
Are we too blind to see?
Do we simply turn our heads
And look the other way?
Well, the world turns
And a hungry little boy with a runny nose
Plays in the street as the cold wind blows
In the ghetto
And his hunger burns
So he starts to roam the streets at night
And he learns how to steal and he learns how to fight
In the ghetto
Then one night in desperation
The young man breaks away
He buys a gun, steals a car
Tries to run, but he don't get far
And his Mama cries
As a crowd gathers 'round an angry young man
Faced down on the street with a gun in his hand
In the ghetto
And as her young man dies
On a cold and gray Chicago mornin'
Another little baby child is born
In the ghetto
And his Mama cries
Friday, May 2, 2008
11:27PM - The blackest white guy.....
69 Boyz - Tootsee Roll
So, I was working out at the field house yesterday and had my iPod on and was dancing about and I noticed Gnarls laughing at me. He asked what was the song.
"Tootsee Roll, toot toot tootseeee roll." I said. He laughs and says I'm the blackest white guy he has as a friend. "Gosh, thanks guy. I appreciate that."
So our newest squaddies, the GunPitt, shakes his head and gives me this gang sign (two fingers of the right hand in a V at waist level held horizontally) and laughs. I think he likes me. But what the does the flash sign mean? Victory?
And mom said being crazy would never get me anywhere.
I was walking out to my vehicle tonight after having just jackjawed with some of the team. From the darkness I heard a guys voice, and my hand went right to where my weapon would normally be. Now, on one level I was pleased that instinct kicked in, on the other hand I was irked by that fact that I wasn't carrying a weapon. Glad to see some of that shit is still working on auto even when my brain ain't.
I think tomorrow where going go get a BBQ grill and perhaps make some ribs. Mmmmm.....gotta get some tater salad.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
11:57PM
Glass Tiger - Someday (Ok, these days they might be Emo, but we rocked back in the 80's, and I really like this song)
Ok, lets begin.
Viked from JDee and Lily //// Negative, I viked this from naughty girl Droiche, and she is, have your ever read her stuff? Naughty, naughty girl.....and we like that. Yes we do.
Her original replys will preceed the "////"
Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. sell prints of my original art pieces //// Have a piece of literature printed
2. build my dream house //// See my children succeed
3. get the hell out of Grand Junction, Colorado //// Truly come to appreciate Mrs. Van.
Three Names You Go By:
1. ODD //// Asshole. The term of endearment form my team-mates.
2. Never Joy (It's a pun on my real name.) //// Vanatru, a heathen name I chose.
3. Neva //// Panda, a call sign I went by while working overseas.
Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1. ODD //// Vanatru
2. Odinsdragondaughter //// Vanatru_Vineland
3. Droiche //// Classified
Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself: Bah. I'm only going to say one. -_-
1. My hair. Seriously, it's the only thing I like about my ugly body. People say I have pretty eyes and hands, but I think they're daft or lying when they say that. //// Sheeesh, Droiche is such a dork. She's cute, but like most gals, she doesn't see that. Women, wathcha gonna do with them. As for me, I'm a stand up guy. If I tell you what's what, I mean it.
2 ..... //// I'm loyal to my team, and I'll damn near die to prove it. And have almost done so.
3....//// I'm not a quiter. If I commit to something, I'll follow through, whether you like it or not. :)
Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1. English //// English
2. German //// German
3. American mutt =-P //// Irish
Three Things That Scare You:
1. escalators //// Creepy crawly insects
2. deep water (drowning) //// Prison love
3. driving with other people on the road (Now you know why I don't have a driver's license.) //// Not be able to help my team/family
Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1. something to drink //// Family
2. something to eat //// Working out
3. a computer //// Gin.......my one true lover
Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. borrowed black sweatshirt //// Red Disney dragon t-shirt that Mrs Van wants to snuggle with
2. borrowed beige trousers //// My dorky Walmart slippers, my feet get cold.
3. my work boots //// My silver wedding ring
Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1. Alan Parsons //// Icehouse, an Australian band. Have loved them since the 80's
2. David Bowie //// Tesla........of course. No way out. Right?
3. Balligomingo //// Who? As for me, Elvis Presley. I've always loved his sound.
Three Of Your Favorite Songs:
1. The Alan Parsons Project, "You Won't Be There" //// Icehouse - Lay your hands on me
2. David Bowie, "Slow Burn" //// Gary Allan - Right where I need to be
3. Vitas, "Where There's You, There's Me" //// Who? Tesla - No way out (go figure)
Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
1. I had viral meningitis when I was a year old. //// I can't get enough of okra stew
2. I like spinach. //// I have several children from different mothers, yes I'm a bastard
3. I have a boyfriend. //// I'm an intelligence operative
(If you folks can't tell which one is the lie, I'm going to track you down and thump you. =-P) //// If you can tell which the lie is, I suggest you keep it to yourself......or else. ;)
Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1. digital art //// miniature gaming with my kid/s
2. reading //// Reading sci-fi
3. creative writing //// Wench, same traffic. Creative writing
Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1. sleep //// The same thing every guy wants..........sex baby. Oh yeah. ;)
2. RP at STTE //// Have the next day off from duty.
3. shag Genjyo Sanzo //// Who? What's up with Droiche? For me, another gin & tonic
Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1. artist //// Corrections deputy
2. writer //// Porn star
3. horse breeder //// Professional writer
Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1. Germany //// Germany
2. China //// Eire
3. New Orleans, Louisiana //// Classified
Three Names You Like:
1. Brenda //// Holly
2. Nicolaus //// Dietrich(family name)
3. Mingxia (I need to remember this one for a character I'm creating. >_> ) //// Krieg
Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl: //// A Guy:
1. I have boobs. //// I like guns?
2. I am too sensitive. //// I like to work out at the gym
3. I have a moon cycle. (It may be screwy, but it still exists.) //// I love lunch at the Y.
Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy: //// WTF is this fucked up mem?
1. I'm angry all the time.
2. I seldom wear make-up.
3. I seldom wear skirts or dresses.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
11:52PM - Thrashings upon the mind
I just came across something from my old high school days. So, like a chump I glanced at it, and then the follow up to the class website.
*sigh*
It's been a few decades since I graduated. As long time followers recall, I left for the military three months after getting that ol' diploma. Didn't know shit then, still don't know shit now, didn't know what to do with my life then, still don't know now. Amazing how things don't really change. The tiger doesn't change its stripes, they just go from black to gray.
On a good note, 4 of my classmates have died since then and at least one was a total fuckbag. While I can't say this it totally accurate, the sentiments are.
“I have never killed a man, but I have read many obituaries with great pleasure.” –
Clarence Darrow
My classmate was a total douche, even though we had mutal stoner friends and had gotten stoned together. I hope the death was painful and perhaps degrading. Knowing John, it was probably drug related.
I almost posted on the class website and pulled up that thought real quick. 99.999999% of these chumps I haven't spoken to since 10th or maybe 11th grade expect for some fist fights (yes, I did have lots of them back in the day.....). So, I'm thinking to myself........I wrote to a few friends when I was seeing Iraq..........and didn't hear shit back from 'em. WTF over?
So, on getting back stateside I happen to go back home a.......
*sigh*.........disregard. Van, remember, we're trying to let these hostile feelings go. Let it go.....don't dwell on shit. Think good thoughts. Postive things about life.
You know what? I'm gonna go snuggle Mrs. Van and rub her legs.....and if I'm lucky....well, I've got my eyes crossed for luck. :)
Later.
Monday, April 14, 2008
11:41PM - Nothing new in bums-field
Mary J Blige - Family Affair
Wow, I just read the saved draft of a previous post. Apparently I get naughty sometimes when I post after having a wee bit of Lady Gin. I guess I should put in some parental controls to keep myself from saying things I probably shouldn't. But, for what it's worth, Chaka Khan is sexy. :)
I've been given a 6 month break. Oct is the next down range launch date. Till then I can either worry, or work on other things that may or may not pay off. Decisions. Either way, I'm hitting the gym 5 days a work. I've got to get rid of this gin-gut. Specially with all those cute monkey-handlers at the fieldhouse.
*sigh* Note to self: As you get old, it's harder to trim that fat off that formerly lean, mean, fighting machine. Rawhh!
In case you ask, and your not, I'm inclined towards Senator Obhama for the upcoming elections. I'm not to keen on old man McCain and I detest Hillary, to many lies in that camp.
Friday, April 4, 2008
11:56PM - Thanks to all....
Icehouse - Crazy (one of the original versions of this video)
and the average American version of the video
I have always loved Icehouse......the band by Iva Davies (the Aussie singer) and the beer (an Ami beer).
Of course, the gal in this video has always had a sexy sultryness about her. :) Woman have always been my downfall.
Anywho........I don't really have a whole lot to say. I'm home again. I'm sitting here at my laptap......no, not the Russian one I travel with, but the American Dell one.......sipping on my Gin and tonic....ok, my third gin and tonic.
Next to me is Loki, our black and white Persian cat. Like the heathen Loki, IMO, both black and white. Good and bad in the stero-typical concept of Black-bad, and White-good.
Join me, and Loki, as we share my mind for the next two minutes.
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Anyone know what today is? The thirtieth anniversary of the day Martin Luther King was murdered by.......James Earl Ray. Ok, I know lots of white folk are tired of hearing about MLK.........so, if your one of them, please move on to something else at this point.
Otherwise, think of the changes that Dr. King, inspired by Ms. Rosa Parks, has helped bring about in this country of ours. Really, I can't but think otherwise that the country would be the worse for the wear if it wasn't for people like them and all the other countless, un-named folk who stood up for equal rights. People who endured the horrors that the people of Iraq and Afghanistan are currently facing.
I was blessed to be raised by parents who didn't judge by skin color and didn't teach me to dislike folk based on color, and so when I made friends and lovers it was with an open mind.
Thankfully, I can pass that on to my kids. That people here in the U.S. and in the middle east are good people.........can be just as good as you.....and I......if given a chance.
And still on the same soapbox.......one of my FAVORITE radio shows is the Michael Baisden show on 94.5 Star FM (back home). If you have a moment, take a moment to check it out.
http://www.michaelbaisden.com/
And if you have something similar to recommend to me, let me and the others who read know. I'm always interested in people who are looking to progress equal rights........regardless of skin color, or sexual orientation.
Only the ignorant, foolish, and hateful turn a blind eye on these issues. IMO.
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Tomorrow, I'm going to Disneyland, Animal Kingdom with the family. They're all crashing hard right now. Resting up.
But, my side's hurting. It's like someone punched me in the kidney and the pressure is keeping me from relaxing, even after.....my fourth gin and tonic.
If my Lady Gin can't ease the pain, it's not good........and it's still bothering me. At least I'm not alone though.
Our cats have gathered around me, and are staring at a point behind me......not something that makes me feel safe. I can't see anything behind me......so my mind thinks.."Supernatural entity". Yes, I do believe in things unseen. Can you proove equally that things don't exist as much as I can prove that they do? Doubt it.
Looking out the sliding glass door I see a big ol'fat raccoon eating the catfood I've left for the neighborhood strays. It's probably the baby raccoon I brought home six years ago and let go.
Now that would be cool. Trying to help out another living, breathing, creature. It would be nice to see that moment coming to fruition (http://education.yahoo.com/reference/dictionary/entry/fruition).
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On the team front. I hope I'm not repeating myself from earlier posts.
I think I mentioned that Lil Mike finally came through with his divorce. He and his Russian wife have officially parted. She can go back to her Russian mafia family (I ain't joking, ya ever hear of Tarzan?).
Dee Dee's life has stablized. Her ol' man has been released from the hospital and is doing good without medicationss.........though he doesn't understand why I call him Poo-Poo............'cause he fucking looks like Dusty Rhodes. :) And Dee-Dee's daughter had cooled her shit and toed the line.
Gnarls kids have done likewise. Toed the line now that he's back home. Gnarls has been assinged the brown round and is riding the trail now training newbies.........pause for a moment as I laugh.........poor sap, I did that for six rotations and love/hated it.
Is there anyone I'm missing?
As for me.......I'm doing damn good........the pain and pressure in my side is fading......Lady Gin giving me the kiss....love that gal.
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On a personal note,
I'd like to give kudos to Prince William and Prince Henry of the Royal family.
Neither of these lads has chosen to shirk the duties and responsiblities of their station.
"Van, what does that mean?"
Well, Dear Reader, in a nutshell......The Princes both come from England, and England is one of our staunchest supporters in the war in the middle east. Both of the Princes are sons of Prince Charles and Lady Diane and both have requested military duties alongside the other soldiers of their country currently deployed in Iraq and Afghanistan.
Neither have requested any special considerations. Can I verify that with you offically? No...unoffically.........yes. These two kids are alright.
Unlike the children of American leaders, these two have NOT choosen to fucking party down and avoid serious issues they should be facing. IMO. Fuck the Bush daughters. Qoute me, fuck the Bush daughters.
I can't say that I've met the Princes, or the Bush daughters, but the Princes are really nice kids. Lady Di and Prince Charles did good. The Bush girls are twits.......not that I know personally. Ya know.
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BBL, incoming news for me. Stay safe.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
11:14PM
Michael Jackson - Beat It (what if a possible viking was hip and hopping to the song?)
First saw this on Odinist.net, not the racist board that is Odinist.com. Of course, some feel this is sacriligeous to the Gods..............yeah, of course. Like they this one thing is that bad? I'm sure it's worse than Thor dressing up like Freyja to fools the Jotins? Yeah, nay?
To MEEEEEEEEEEEE, the video was frickin' funny.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
12:03AM - Another mem.......viked from another person I like
Mommawolfie, like Droiche, is an old time friend.
http://mommawolfie.livejournal.com/
Her replies proceed mine by the "//"
1. How do you feel about violence?
It has its place. Im certainly not above it. // It's a good tool for dealing with many dumbasses who feel they have free reign in the modern mamby pamby society.
2. Do you think natural disasters could be predicted with more caution?
Possibly, who knows what science and esoteric practices could come up with, individually or in conjunction. // How?
Do you think you make the ideal partner?
I think Im capable of being a great partner, for the right person. // Not unless the other person is foolishly in love with me.......otherwise I'm a pain-in-the-ass.
3.Why/why not?
I am a devoted partner, but it takes a very special person to bring that out in me. // I'm kinda pig-headed like my dad.......and a bit opioninated.
4. Would you ever get a genital piercing?
Maybe, Ive considered it. // Sure, it's right behind going to jail and getting some prison loving, and having my nuts waxed.
5. Do you think happiness is underrated?
Most people don’t allow themselves to experience true happiness because they don’t trust it enough to let go and fully immerse themselves in it. True happiness is like nothing on earth. // Yes and no
6. What do you think would be the most embarassing death?
lol autoerotic asphyxia would be fairly hard to discuss at the funeral… // I can't say. It's actually a fantasy of mine......so, you can just dwell on that. ;)
7. Do you honestly think nice guys will end up better-off in the long run?
I don’t know. I think nice guys/gals do end up happier, surrounded by better quality people. They may not end up with the same material wealth as less nice people, but they are definitely more fun to spend time with. Id rather be broke and happy than a rich, lonely asshole. // Not unless they can kill that bad guys first.
8. How do you feel about self-harm?
I think its sad, for that to be the only outlet someone feels they have for their feelings. // It's a useful tool for loosers who can't or won't deal with reality and need someplace to hide. IMO of course.
9. Would/Have you ever done drugs?
Been there, done that. // Oh hell yeah.
10. Where was your first kiss?
In the city, on a date with my first ‘real’ boyfriend. Heheheh Im such a goof, I had no idea, made a real mess of it. // With that neighbor girl who I wish I'd banged the hell out of, she was soooooooooo "the girl next door" to the "T"
11. Where do you wish it was?
Hey it’s a cool memory, I wouldn’t change it. // Where the lunch is at the "Y" if you know what I mean. ;)
12. Would you consider yourself deep?
Drunk or sober? // Sure, like a well
13. Do you think that music lyrics have lost all true meaning?
Oh hell yeah. Most lyrics are pathetic. // I'm kinda lost in the pre-2000's if you've been paying attention to the videos I link to on my blogs. So, yeah, modern lyrics suck donkey dick.
14. Do you think prejudice should be taken more seriously?
I think the whole ‘pc’ movement is out of control and needs to end. Yes, real prejudice does exist, but most of what gets bleated about in the media is all in people’s heads. // Nope. It's taken way more seriously than Gnarls and I can think of.
15. Do you dislike clingy people?
Yes, they shit me. I am a very independent person. If I wanted an anchor Id buy a boat. // Not when I'm in bed with them.........otherwise, yes.
16. Do you prefer revenge or just pure jealousy/envy?
Vengeance gets me out of bed in the morning. // LOL............ah.............yes. If I could get away with killing them, I would. Otherwise, I'll go with envy.
17. Have you ever felt like ripping someone’s tongue out?
I prefer to go for the throat…// Why yes, yesterday as a matter of fact.
18. Do you know what Russian Roulette is?
yeah // Sure. It's the game of dumb ass Russians or stupid white boys with angst.
19. Do you think that bullies should be locked up in barns and burned alive?
No I’d prefer public stoning myself. // Actually, I can think of worse fates for them.
20. Which celebrities would you “knock boots” with?
Cant get aroused by all that fake shit, Id rather shag someone real. // Mimi Rogers. I'd lick her up one side and down the other and then have lunch at the Y. Her and Samantha38G. Mmmmmm.
21. Do immature men amuse you, or annoy you?
Define immature. Some people need their teeth knocked down their throat and Im happy to volunteer to do it, others are just a laugh. // Both, I'm one of 'em.
22. Are you happy with yourself?
Im getting there. // Hel yeah. I'm the biggest goober I know. I can't wait till I'm senile and batcrazy.
23. Are emos show-offs?
Emo is a blight on the universe. Emo’s are too needy and attention whoreish for my tastes. Too high maintenance. // Like an Emo would care?
24. Do you think that thinking highly of yourself is good or bad?
There is nothing wrong with it if you live up to your own ideals. // I'm good........but with a bad side
25. Who would you like your next “fling” to be with?
Fling? Nah…got to mean something. Happy with my current man anyway. // No one. It's fun to speculate and talk shit.........but I couldn't follow through. I'm all talk.
26. Are you the brawn or the brains?
both // Ditto...........both.
27. Do you hate those fluro kids?
Fluro kids? You mean like techno? Meh… // What are fluro kids........ones that brush too much?
28. Isn’t it annoying when people have 10489043 msn accounts?
Don’t really use it so *shrug* // Is this a geek question?
29. How much does it take to write a literary masterpiece?
Dedication and passion. Ideas aren’t enough if you don’t have the discipline to get it all down on paper/word processor. // 1000 monkies with typewritters.
30. Have you ever been embarrassed with a lover?
I used to. // Nope.
31. Are you a virgin? Elaborate.
I have two kids, what the fuck do YOU think? // LOL.....Mommawolfies a virgin. I heard it through the grapevine. As for me.........no..........not in a longtime.......thank Freyja.
32. Do you agree that Kurt Cobain’s lyrical ability was underrated?
He had some good ideas, I think the comparison with Jim Morrisson was a bit much though. // He was an average garage band bum.
33. List the pros of marriage.
In an ideal world marriage would be spending your life with your best friend. // Your partner becomes a best friend......next to family and kids, it's hard to beat.
34. List the cons of marriage.
This isn’t an ideal world // I can't kill them when they piss me off.
35. Do you think that plot lines for movies these days are just getting worse?
Most movies are crap. There are one or two that make you think or at least make you FEEL something. The rest are no more than mental bubblegum. // Ahhhhh, when they have to REMAKE fucking TV shows from 50 years ago? Yeah.........that's a serious lack of creativity.
36. What is the most cliched pick up line you’ve ever heard?
Do you know what rohypnol tastes like? No? In that case can I buy you a drink? // I'm not sure I'd know what one was these days.
37. Has your heart ever broken from just being too in love?
Yes, and it sucks. // Yes
38. What do you do when you’re upset?
Fight. Drink. Fight some more. Drink some more. // Analyze if I can kill you and get away with it. Otherwise, try to move on.
39. Describe your “dream come true”.
It’s a work in progess // When I win the lottery
40. Is your cup half empty or half full?
Id go with ¾ full… // Full
41. Have you ever been afraid of someone?
yes // Of course
42. Why?
An ex who beat the shit out of me on a regular basis. Anyone ever raises a hand to me again they better make the first shot count because they WILL be dead before they get the second one off. Id rather do time than live like that again. // Because they were in a power position over me and were able to dictate my fate.........
43. Do two wrongs make a right?
Not really, but the second wrong can sometimes neutralise the first. // In Hollywood.......no. In my world. Yes.
Monday, March 3, 2008
11:19PM - Aha...........a viked mem
Viked from Droiche.........ha ha ha ha.........the Landshark lives on.
Her reply proceeds mine, noted by the //
1. What is in the back seat of your car right now?
No car. No license. // Same. No car. Now, my truck has 3 milk crates and a rug (don't ask)
2. When was the last time you threw up?
Ummm...a few days ago // Day before yesterday
3. What's your favourite curse word?
I dunno. All of them? // Dumbass, SOB, fucktard
4. Name 3 people who made you smile today?
JDee, Sashi, Lechymonk // Mel, Bec, and Gnarls
5. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
Sleeping // Taking my kids to school
6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Reading my LJ friends page while waiting for someone to post at STTE, IRC, dA, et al // Making a drink......is that a crime?
7. What will you be doing 3 hours from now?
Prolly sleeping again // Damn, this gal is good........I'll be in bed too
8. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Nope. // Yep, but not in since before I've been married, going on 20 years. I'm a dog and I bark, but I don't run around.
9. What is the last thing you said aloud?
"Who's plan was it again?" (Referring to a stupid show on Adult Swim) // Oh crap, something cute to Mrs. Van before she went to bed. It was funny 'cause she had that smile on her face. Sorry, I'm on my third drink. My memory is fuzzy.
10. What is the best ice cream flavour?
B & J's Cherry Garcia // :::Shrug:::: I'm not a big ice cream person.
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Water // GIN and tonic. :) Water, what the hell, that's for ice cubes.
12. What are you wearing right now?
Black sweatshirt, black velvety trousers, pink socks, dark blue clogs. You don't need to know the rest. // Black shorts, an old police union shirt and slippers. And we're going commando baby. ;)
13. What was the last thing you ate?
A banana // Taco salad
14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
Nope. // Shit no. I wish.
15. When was the last time you ran?
I don't run. I trot...slowly. Ummm, a few days ago I guess. // Last Wed. I had a rash I was trying to let go away, but don't worry, I'll be pounding the road tomorrow with Gnarls and Mel.
16. What's the last sporting event you watched?
Prolly a horse race or a dog obedience trial on tv a couple of years ago. Maybe the mud dawbers competition at the county fair last year. // Soccer...........frickin' Brits have that game down pat.
17. What is one thing you could totally live without doing?
Sex. I've been doing without it for years. Even when I was married. -_- // LOL....silly kid. I think I could do without taking more orders from Govt brass hats.
18. Who is the last person you emailed?
My buddy Samantha, I think. // Mrs. Van on b-day presents for the kids.
19. Ever go camping?
Yes. // Been there.....way more than I need to.
20. Do you have a tan?
I have a light tan all year round. // Farmers tan......red face, red arms
21. What is your guilty pleasure?
Genjyo Sanzo // Gin.....Mrs. Van kindly allows me to indulge in that sweet sweet elixer.
22. What kind of foundation do you use?
Don't wear foundation make-up // WTF, over?
23. Who is your cell phone service provider?
Tracphone // Sprint, fucking corporate American crap.
24. Do you drink your soda from a straw?
Yes // Ahhh, no, that's gay, unless your in......1954 or something or at McDonalds.
25. What did your last IM say?
Something about STTE with JDee, IIRC // IMwhat?
26. Are you someone's best friend?
I like to think I'm Samantha's, but who knows? // .....Mrs. Van's I hope.......but otherwise, I don't know.
27. What are you doing tomorrow?
Sleeping, taking my son to school, sleeping, picking my son up from school, sleeping, going to work. Somewhere in there I hope to get some sorting & packing done. D: // Eerily similar to Droiche. Taking son to school, but then going to the gym with Gnarls and Mel, then going grocery shopping for Mrs. Van, and then taking Little Van to karate class.
28. Where is your mom right now?
At work // :::snort::: probably in bed. She's early to bed, early to rise. If she's up past 9pm, I'm suprised.
29. Look to your left, what do you see?
My mom's couch // two laundry baskets
30. What colour is your watch?
Don't bother to wear a watch anymore // non-reflective black nylon.
31. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
The Outback and my cousin Hollis // I think I'd love to go on a survival trip to the outback, and Mommawolfie and I wish I knew how she was doing. Good I hope.
32. Would you consider plastic surgery?
No. Cosmetic surgery doesn't do magic. // Sure, lipo to my fat ass and gut. I've been humping my ass off for years and that shits still there. Drives me batcrazy at times.
33. What is your birthstone?
Rose zircon or opal. Whatever the consensus on October is. // What, what the fuck is a birthstone?
34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
Depends on what the other people I'm riding with want to do. // Yes, both.
35. How many kids do you want?
1 is too many. // As I understand it, I have 3. Perhaps one more. My Dr said he thinks I'm crazy, perhaps another kid would put me over the edge. :)
36. Do you have a dog?
No, but I want an Alaskan Malamute and a standard poodle some day. // Nope. 3 cats though. Did have dog in Korea last. It was good. With some noodles.
37. Last person you talked to on the phone?
My ex-husband // ....Mrs. Van?
38. Have you met anyone famous?
Locally famous? Yes. Nationally/internationally famous? No. // General something or another......otherwise, I can't say.......I could, but I won't.
39. Any plans today?
Same old same old. Sleep & work & get ready to move. // Type this and MommaWolfies mem and then hit the sack.
40. How many states have you lived in?
3: Colorado, Texas, North Carolina // One, two, three, four, five, six..........six.......no wait, seven.
41. Ever go to college?
I have a BA in English from the first go round. Dropped out of the second go round. // Yeppers. Even got a degree.
42. Where are you right now?
Typing on my sister's computer at my mom's home // Mrs. Van's house. Got home yesterday afternoon.
43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
Want me to right a book? // Same traffic as Droiche. :)
44. Last song listened to?
John Williams, "On The Trail" // Parliment's "Flashlight"
45. What do you wash first in the shower?
I prefer baths. I shave first. // My hair
46. Are you allergic to anything?
Hay fever type allergens: dust, pollen, etc // Just my fears
47. Favourite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
Cobbie Cuddlers sandals, but my last pair wore out. T_T // Slippers
48. Are you jealous of anyone?
Not really. // Yes, but when I'm King of the World, I'll have 'em slapped in irons and a metal mask, then thrown in a dungeon till they escape and come back to haunt me.
49. Sweet foods or Salty?
Salty // Both.......depends.....
50. Is anyone jealous of you?
Why the fuck would anyone be jealous of me? O_o // Only if they were from a 3rd world country
51. What time is it?
2:13am // Local time is 23:49 hours.
52. Do any of your friends have children?
Several online friends do. My only real life friend can't have kids. // Oh yeah, prit near all of them
53. Do you eat healthy?
No // Yes, I had a salad earlier, and I just made a potato with chili. :)
54. What do you usually do during the day?
Sleep // Only when on mission
55. Do you hate anyone right now?
No // Of course, I have a select group I'll hate till I can kill them, or I die first.
56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
Probably to the residents I care for at the assisted living home I work at. // No
57. Favourite time of the day?
Night time // Night time, when the world sleeps and I don't
58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
36 // 42?
59. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
No // Yes
60. How did you get one of your scars?
Burned the inside of my calf on the tail pipe of my stepdad's motorcycle when I was around 13 or 14. // Wow, where to start. Bullet, or shrapnel scar. From a cat or dog bite. Perhaps the knife, or metal slash. Heck, my arms alone have about 20. My legs have at least 10. And so on.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
11:25PM - Trying to reach the mountain
An excerpt from the movie Ghandi - Jallianwala Bagh massacre commanded by General Dyer
This has always been one of my favorite movies. Sadly, IMO, things really haven't changed much since the days of Ghandi.
Things go on around the world that most people will never see or know about. I'm reminded of an experience I went through some 20 years ago in college that relates to a modern one.
For example, I could say........that, perhaps, yesterday, I was dreaming that I was in a little po-dunk village in some third world shit hole country........looking out the window of an adobe building I saw a file of people trailing up a hillside, a mountain actually. The people were trying to escape the country they were in, to find safety & jobs eleswhere. By passing over the mountain, they could reach safety. Looking to the crest of the mountain I thought I saw figures armed with weapons.
Our liasons assured us it was just locals keeping the people safe from bandits. Several minutes later I look back out the window and now see platoons of soldiers and armored vehicles arriving and begin to sweep forward while other soldiers at the top of the mountain crest fire down on the people.
The refugees where being shot at by the soldiers on top, and from below. It was crazy. As in the Ghandi video, it would have been conducted by people just viewing it as another mission against..............others? It's hard to explain.
Thankfully it was only a dream.........I would hate to tell you that things like that really happen. Now, if I can just get a peaceful night of sleep.......I would be happy.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
12:14AM - Whats wrong with big brunettes?
Blake Shelton - The More I Drink
What's wrong with big brunettes? Really? Can anyone tell me? I've snuggled comfortably with several and found it very soothing.
The funeral went well. Better than I expected. Must have had a 100 to 140 people there. Not sure what part of the woodwork they crawled out of, but they were there. From the people that came forth to speak on the Captain's behalf, I learned he like to shoot things and kill animals. Wow. I hope people remember me for those type of things.
Doubt it. I'm sure it'll be: He was nice, harsh, brass, funny, loving, and rough, but fair. At least you won't hear about me enjoying killing animals or people or shooting unless I have too.
Of course, it got me thinking. Who would come to my funeral and why. Because they want to, or feel obligated too, or so they can get the day off.
How about you? What would people say about you? Really. How many would step forward and speak on your dead behalf? Did you have an impact on someone's life.....good or bad.
Think about it and be honest.
If I stroke my ego.....oh baby, you make it feel so good......I think I've been a positive impact on many people. Only time will tell.
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Lately, life has been good. It's like the oil workers. 8 weeks on, 2 weeks off. Go home and life is amazing, then it's off to the field again. The family doesn't have time to tire of you since your not there enough and they love to see you because you go and do the fun, crazy stuff while your there and then....poof...it's off to the unknown. Come back with wild stories about stuff they blow off as silly stories.
If they only knew.
Lets just say.....what if.........what if the things that went bump in the night, really did go bump in the night?
Now, I'm not saying vampires, boogey men, aliens, and/or anything exists.........but what if.......somethings did really happen to be out there.......how would that impact your world/life view? Things you thought weren't real, but turned out to be real?
Perhaps Lazarus was ahead of his time..........depending on which Lazarus you go by..........at least 5 last time I checked.
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Ok, that's it. A monkey handler just crawled by. Haven't seen them surface in a while. Later.
Monday, February 11, 2008
11:22PM - Taps for two
Taps Buglers at Arlington National Cemetery
On Friday we heard that the brother to one of our Civil Affairs people was shot and killed. The unit medic was at virtually at his side within seconds. He was medivaced but died at the field hospital within the hour.
Twenty year old kid gone that quick. Never to ceases to amaze me at how fast life can be taken........and how many people say "I'm sorry" "I wish I had more time with them." "I'll miss them" but don't take the time now to do all that stuff they'll miss. Hindsight is 20/20 and sucky.
His sister is part of our team, but on the edges of what I work on. She's asked that if you can, donate blood to help those who need it. I would appreciate it for those who can. Do to my various exposures to things here and there, I'm not able to anymore. So, if you can, try to help out a fellow person.
Yesterday, the Captain finally succumbed to his bout with cancer and despite my anger, I was stopped in my tracks.
I'll be flying back stateside tomorrow for services on Friday and leaving on the following Sunday. I'll be taking part in the honor detail. This will mark the 11th funeral I've been to and it seems to get the harder as they add up.
I'm dwelling on that perhaps apathy is something, easier said than practiced as I analyze the past and seeing things that unsettle me a bit now that I understand why what was done, was done. Sometimes the truth is closer than we care to admit to ourselves. I know, pyschobabble, but it has meaning to some.
Funny how the world can change in a minute.........from good, really good, solidly good........to a mix-match of bad to crappy, to downright horrible.
To much to dwell on, and to much to ramble on about that shouldn't be rambled about. I'm afraid Lady Gin will be my companion tonight as I do some deep thinking about things within the last few years that will have an impact this Friday.
I'm sorry for not posting more often, sometimes I get lost in the mission.
Anyone know how to keep sweat from stinging your eyes?
Saturday, January 26, 2008
1:04AM - Wink
Neal McCoy - Wink
Normally I don't like blonds, but the cowgirl in bluejeans with sunglasses is smokin'. Hel, I wish I were her bluejeans. And I'm sure I'm mistaken, but is that not Mae Victoria in the front row of the crow with a white blouse and brown vest? Huh? huh?
That aside, I see it's the same o' same o' with everyone. :) Same here. More shit, different day and no certainty for the coming year. In fact, I'm expecting a MAJOR, MAJOR, MAJOR life change. Really. I'd be surprised if it doesn't happen. Trust me......my sources tell me all......oh Magic 8 Ball.
And if I hear another cuisine expert tell me that Italian pizza is better than American pizza, I'll be hard pressed not to buttstroke them in a swift fashion. Anthony's Pizza. The BEST. Has soothed more drunken souls than I can recall. Not me, of course, but my....friends.
stand by, need another blanket. It's fricking 39 degrees here.
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