| Sep. 17th, 2006 @ 11:29 pm curtains |
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this talented trio of high school volunteers played a beautiful song at my senior center. it was titled 'curtains'.
it completely revealed my thoughts at this moment after reading an email from my sister, about her dream of my brother. saturday night i stayed in to recover from my cold. i asked around my apartment complex for movies to borrow. one of my neighbors told me that her son had great anime movies. i went into her apartment and knocked on the door to meet her son, arjun. he has dark hair, tall, lanky and was miserable from allergies. i did my introduction and we chatted about movies and high school. it's his freshman year in high school and he likes it. he loves dragonball Z and all these cartoons. really smart kid. i commented to him that he reminded me of trung. i went back to my room, feeling smitten that i met such a sweet kid but deeply sad from missing trung. i stood there in my empty bedroom, looking at the clothes in my closet. oh how i missed trung! thinking over and over...I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO HAVE MY BROTHER BACK. tears almost escaped my eyes. and i walked out of my dark, empty bedroom.
once in awhile, i come across a teenager that reminds me of trung. i start to really think of him and miss him. this feeling will never go away. i may never express how not having him in my life, makes me feel lacking. lacking as a sister. incomplete. but it's emotions i rarely express to anyone, just a reality that i have admitted to myself in the dark. with my busy life and growing pains, the curtains have to be pulled to let in some light.
i love my brother.
i wasn't perfect,
nor was he.
but i miss him whole-heartedly.
-Vanae |
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