A Fragrant Seashore

12:26 am - So staying up all night didn't help as much as I thought.

I woke up the next morning on the couch, to my friend asking me if I had class. I'm like, "HDfeorffhh.... Maybe."

He says I better get up 'cause it's 7:17.

Now, when you're more than halfway awake, that sentece seems very innocent. Why did I care what time it was? 7:17 didn't really click in my mind that I had class in 20 minutes.

So ten minutes later, hes like, "dude get up!"

I'm like, "Listen, I lied, I don't have class today."

He goes, "Are you sure?"

And I'm like, "I only have class when you have class!"

and hes like, "I'm going to class right now!"

That got my attention. I had to ask him what day it was. xD!



Such a funny morning.

Current Mood: sleepy

03:09 am

IM STAYING UP ALL NIGHT.

Just for the hell of it. I figure if I can do it, then I'll sleep mad good tonight and be able to get up early for class tomorrow.

:D Hoorah for fucking up sleeping patterns.

Current Mood: drained

09:39 pm - RFAD

I watched Requiem for a Dream last night with the guys. Damn, it was amazing. The way they filmed it, first of all, was orgasmic in itself. And the storyline dealt purely with the human mind and what people will do for their addictions.

Its an awesome psychological movie. I ripped it onto my mac. :D


Also, Rihanna made an acoustic version of Umbrella and its fucking AMAZING.

02:29 am - Oh dear God.

I found a site that has TONS of unreleased Third Eye Blind songs.

I HAVEN'T HEARD THESE BEFORE! GOD ITS LIKE I'M REDISCOVERING LIFE!

THEY MAKE ME FEEL SO GOOD! OH DEAR GOD.


I'm in heaven.

Current Mood: Orgasmic

09:23 pm - First class: Computer Sciences

The teacher wants us to call her Bird.

She also said she doesn't use the textbook the school "requires" her to use, so I got a 100 store credit! I'm gonna spend some of it on an Ai Hoodie. (Cause they have sweet hoodies) I'll save the rest of it for a time that I desperately need art supplies and have no money.

I think Monday will be spent putting in more applications for jobs. I applied at express, but I can't guarantee they'll call me back.

Anyway, the class is seriously easy. Little to no homework. She said most of our assignments will be done during class. I mean, the one we had today was an internet scavenger hunt. We had to look up train schedules and pictures and shit. Easyyy.

Color Theory tomorrow. That should be an interesting day. We all have it together, at least.

Current Mood: happy

04:31 pm - Ahh...

It seems like now that I've got so much to write about, I don't feel like writing it. Haha.

Ben and I were walking around Philly with my other roommate, Stephen. We went to Written House Square, which as far as I can tell is the largest park in Philly. Its still pretty small. This whole city feels so miniature in comparison to NYC.

We went through Chinatown, also. Pretty interesting stuff.

Ben and I took a few pics in Love Park. Not really a park as much as a small plot of land with a fountain in the middle. What these people consider a park is very much different from what I consider to be a park.

There was this building near Love Park that had these game piece sculptures all over the place. We took pictures with the Monopoly iron and wheelbarrow, plus a few ches and Sorry pieces. There were four dominoes, one fully upright, one leaning, and two on the ground. They were pretty freakin sweet.

Stephen took us to his ghetto pad where all his friends live. Theyre all stoners.

We honestly have such a diverse dorm. We've got the token black guy, Roger.
The gay guy, myself.
The Father figure, Ben.
The Graffitti artist, Mike.
The stoner, Stephen.
And the tattoo guy, Jon.

Jezz we need our own sitcom.

I feel like this is where I belong.

Current Mood: energetic

07:53 am

So, I now live in Philly. It really is an amazing city. We're probably oing to do some cool shit tonight, see some of it, y'know?

Roger, Jon, and Ben are all really fuckin awesome. We played poker last night, and we went out a couple times. They're gonna be my new best friends. Steven is kind of a pothead, though. I don't really have a problem with it, until he starts doing it here, which I wont stand for.

The other guy, I forget his name for now, Kind of floats in and out. I'm honestly not sure what I think of him, because I havent really hung around him all that much.

Things are looking great!

We've got our orientation today, where we get our IDs and such.


Our dorm is kind of ghetto. The thermostats broken, so its always freezing in here, and the shower in one of the bathrooms doesn't work properly. We're hoping we can get maintenance up here, but so far they've been all talk and no action. We'll see how that goes.


WOOOOO iiM A COLLEGE BOiii

Current Mood: cheerful

04:49 pm - Keys and Mice

So I've decided that I intensely dislike the Mac keyboard. The keys are juist so inset, its hard to tell where I am when I'm typing. Although, now that I', used to it, my other keyboard feels so clunky and hard to use. GUH

I'M DEFF GETTING FED UP WITH THE THINK PAD, THOUGH. I've always hated those things so much. A mouse is just so much easier to maneuver.

An now I cant decide which keyboard I like better! I'm going back and forth right now, and I guess the Mac one is a lot less clunky. The caps lock key is still not my friend, though. You have to hit is REALLY HARD or it won't turn on. -_-

Current Mood: bored

10:03 am - OMGOMGOMG6PPL

So, I talked to one of the guys I'll be dorming with. He was the only one who was able to gt his hands on phone numbers. He doesnt think hes supposed to know, but he kept bugging his counsellor anyway.

THERE IS SIX OF US!!!! I'M SO HAPPY!

EDIT: I just ran around my house a couple times. That proves how happy I am.

Current Mood: bouncy

11:36 pm - Writer's Block: Your Costume

Current Mood: artistic

12:50 am - Ohh,

I feel so centered, so at peace with the world. I took an amazing bubble bath, with tons of salts and fizzing stars. (I also did a few unmentionable things, which I'll spare you all from hearing about.)

My skin feels softer, and I feel more relaxed. I was starting to get frustrated with little things, and now all those problems are just so miniscule now.

It just brings things into perspective. I'm even breathing more deeply now. I put on my chillout mix just now, and it's helping even more.

Tell me about things you do to relax.

Current Mood: At peace

10:14 am - Everything loads so much faster...

I'm so happy.

Anyway, I'm rediscovering Malice Mizer. They're songs are just so amazing.

I'm going over to best bargain books sometime soon to grab the last twilight book. (It will be a little weird, considering i don't own any of the others lol)

I'm hoping everyone went to borders or something for a midnight release, and that Best Bargain will still have some available.

I tried to continue reading Tsubasa, but I've kind of lost my interest. I'm going to finish off what's on onemanga.com and then see how I feel about it then.

What I really want is a full anime. Manga has always been confusing to read for me. Not because its backwards or anything, but because everything is in b&w, so its hard to tell what things are sometimes.

An anime would really help me.

Current Mood: thirsty

12:16 pm - ldnf`

So right now, I'm pretty much just killing time on my Mac until I have to go to work. Still debating whether or not to bring it to work... I probably won't, but I really want to.

My printer I got with the computer didn't come with a cable to connect it to the computer. I know, it sounds stupid, but I checked the manual, and it said it 'May be included'.

My mom said she'd pick one up for me when she goes out later.


I'm still trying to think of all the things I have to download. I got FireFox. That was the very first thing. From there, I got Photoshop, the Microsoft Suite, and Limewire.

I was also able to find a program that retrieves all the music from my iPod and puts it on my computer, so now I don't need to fuss with my [broken] computer to try and get all my music back.


I'm content.

Current Mood: calm

10:06 pm - POSTING FROM MY MACBOOK

BITCHESS! My own, personal, Mac.

I feel sexy. :D



DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS THING DOES? It knows that when I touch the pad with two fingers, I want to scroll down the page. HOW FUCKING CONVENIENT IS THAT!?

Current Mood: ecstatic

08:58 pm - Writer's Block: What happened to you today?

10:43 pm - When I say 'Peanut Butter' you say 'Jelly'! 'Peanut Butter!'...

I've been going to the beach every single chance I get, and It's showing! I'm working up a really great tan, and I'm really excited.
( The bottoms of my hands are a different color than the tops. )

Current Mood: excited

01:27 am - THIS SONG IS STUCK IN MY HEAD

kono mama zutto yuku no ne uso o tsumikasanete mo
kono michi o nido to modoru koto wa dekinai
ano toki fumihazushita kyoukaisen no mukou ni
kimi wa donna yume egaite ochite itta

You are always going like this, and even if you pile on the lies
You can never again return by this road
What kind of dream were you drawing and fell into
That time when you lost your footing on the other side of the border?

ashita ni wa miete kuru mirai nante ROKU demo nai kedo
moshi ka shitara sonna mono ni sugaritsuite ikite iru
kitto hontou wa kimi mo watashi mo chigau basho de onaji mono o   
sagashiteru, kanjiteru, tatta hitotsu no shinjitsu
sore dake o tada shiritakute
nani mo motazu ni koko ni iru
yume to utsutsu o samayou, we're too close to the edge

The future visible in tomorrow isn't even close to satisfactory, but
Perhaps we're living clinging to such things
Surely the truth is that you and I are searching for the same thing
Feeling the same thing - the one truth - in different places
That alone is what we want to know
So we are here holding on to nothing
Prowling in dreams and reality, we're too close to the edge

kono mama zutto yuku no ne uso o tsumikasanete mo
fumihazushita michi o modoru koto wa dekinai
kimi ga ima doko ni ite nani o mitsumete ite mo
sonna fuu ni kokoro hanashita mama futari wa aishiau no

You are always going like this, and even if you pile on the lies
You can't return by the road you lost your footing on
No matter where you are now, no matter what you're gazing at
Two people love each other in that way with their hearts still separate

ashita ni wa miete kuru donna mirai o shinjite
tasogare no shizukesa o mou ichido mitsukeru tame ni aruiteru
kono basho o

Tomorrow, believing in whatever kind of future is visible
We'll be walking in order to once again discover the serenity of the 
twilight
Walking in this place

ashita ni wa miete kuru mirai nante ROKU demo nai kedo
sonna mono o shinjiteru baka na tsuyosa ga hoshii dake
kitto koukai ya nagusame yori mo konkyo no nai netsuryou de
ikite itai, sore dake de
kanjiteru, aruiteru, kono basho ni tatte utatteru
nani mo motazu ni koko ni iru
ashita wa doko e yukou ka, we're too close to the edge

The future visible in tomorrow isn't even close to satisfactory, but
We only want the foolish strength that believes in that kind of thing
Surely we want to live with a groundless passion
Greater than regret, consolation, and the like, feeling only that much
And walking, singing while standing in this place
We are here holding on to nothing
Where will we go tomorrow? We're too close to the edge

kono mama zutto yuku no ne uso o tsumikasanete mo
fumihazushita michi no saki o mitodokeru made
miehajimeta hikari ni nani ga umarete kuru no
sonna fuu ni yume o hanashita mama futari wa aishiau no

You are always going like this, even if you pile on the lies
Until you make sure of the point on the road you lost your footing
What is being born in the light just starting to appear?
Two people love each other in that way with their dreams still separate

Current Mood: bitchy

10:00 am - stolen from K-Matt

01. bold what's true.
02. leave plain what's false.

11:12 am - Grad

It's all over. I can finally breathe. I can't wait for Philly.

Looking towards my new Horizon.

Current Mood: optimistic

12:08 am - Guh.. I woke up for this

I was just trying to drift into sleep, when I was hit with a small realization. I enjoy music by people who I wouldn't likee in real life.

I mean, if I went to High School with Thom Yorke, I would think of him as a little over-the-top, and would secretly muse about how ridiculous he was.

And Stephen Jenkins, lead singer of Third Eye Blind, I would probably classify as a world-class stoner, and I would be rather Egotistical in my thoughts of him, if I didn't know him well.

These are two of my very favorite bands, and yet this is honestly what I would think of them if I didn't love their music. I just think it's kind of interesting.

Current Mood: amused