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I was surfing and like.. [Jul 3, 2008 * 6:25pm]
I'm no Pastafarian but look at this,



It's like a Swimming version of FSM,
Swimming Spaghetti Monster!!

...It's actually a spaghetti worm. Small creature, no monster. I ♥ NatGeo!
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Vote for my DM Boot Design please :D [Jun 4, 2008 * 5:53am]
Hallo! Have a look at my entry for the Doc Martens boot design gig:

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If you like it, please head over to http://dmbootdesign.com/view/hannya and vote.

Also, go design your own DMs over at http://dmbootdesign.com/. Two winning boot designs will go into production.


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lolling at lolzfight at lolzpost [May 1, 2008 * 12:44pm]
Talk about lolz man! Some mystery person is trying to fight me over a lolzpost I published at my Multiply: http://noellest.multiply.com/journal/item/126/Catlike_Musings_What_do_Apple_Bottom_Jeans_look_like?replies_read=2

I wouldn't have taken the bait except it was really bad timing on his part. It's the first day of my bleeding vagina :P
Though I'm still very much the warfreak I'm on a lifetime medical order not to put stress upon myself so I had fault in that too.

Anyway, I'm sharing coz I know how my LJ flist love this sort of thing. ü It's been so long since I posted here I thought I'd give y'all a treat!
I don't think we ought to respond anymore though. Let's let him have his laugh and let's let us have our lolz

BTW I still read your posts. Miss you all. Have a nice day.
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In really lousy French [Apr 9, 2008 * 9:17pm]
[ mood | dumb ]

Excuse the attempt at French. It's been 7 years and I didn't exactly pay attention then.
I mean really. I wouldn't even dare read what follows coz its a load of crappola.
It was written with what little I remember of the vocab and less of the conjugation.

Rechute? Absolument pas. C'est impossible que passer.
Un, tu, le ami en commun avec mon frere, es interdit.
Deux, tu es sympa mais laid.
Trois, la fille tu l'aime est une jolie femme. Plus que moi.
Quatre, je te déteste.
Je te déteste. C'est vraiment un perte de temps.
Je te déteste et ton chanson stupide.

Non, gros bête. Je n'ai rêver de tu.


See? Definitely crap.  I need to start at it again soon. Bah.

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End of Crush [Mar 4, 2008 * 10:24am]
Over the holidays I suddenly got this bright idea that I should do this one thing I've never done before just because I've never done it before. A personal dare of sorts..

I've sat on it for a while. Had second thoughts, thirds, fourths and fifths. Watched Kmovies for inspiration. Rehearsed the lines in my head over and over again. Assessed possible consequences. Disregarded consequences. Telling myself repeatedly that if I'm ever going to do this one thing, it has to be soon.. so I waited for the perfect opportune moment.

A rather long wait with a number of complications here and there. A couple of misses because I hesitated, some missteps I can't retract. The delay has gotten the situation messier and messier and different versions of the same dialogue had to be practised.

A number of times I've talked myself into not doing it at all.. but how can one back out on one's self? I wasn't doing it for anyone other than myself. It's not a New Year's Resolution per se, it's more of realising that I needed to talk to myself less and actually live a life. It's like facing fears and doing new things, small things, every month. Small braveries for my lampa self.

This was supposed to be the first of a series of firsts.

So everyday since vacation ended I looked forward to seeing him, ready with what to say. I waited. I was ready for the humiliation, this is a bravery thing. I waited. Everything's planned for and all I needed was perfect timing.
I waited.
                   Waited.
                                      Waited.

Until finally I sat with myself, and could no longer justify what it was I meant to do. I could no longer justify why I looked forward to seeing him. I lost reason. While waiting for the moment to tell him suddenly there was nothing to tell. The crush is gone.

If you remember, dear readers, I didn't want this crush in the first place. I didn't want it because I've long decided that I won't crush on friends of B. So really, right now losing Beast just feels.. I don't know. Blank? It feels like I lost something and I did but.. what bothers me most is that it's over and the next crush won't happen until 2013.

Let's finish this with the same science we started with, as in facts:

  • Beast was called Beast because of a song I was LSS-ing on at the time:

New and a bit alarming
Who'd have ever thought that this could be?
True that he's no Prince Charming
But there's something in him that I simply didn't see

      ~ Something There, Beauty and the Beast

  • The identity of B can be found here.
  • How slow Noelle obtains her crushes is directly proportional to how quickly she loses them. The poor thing.


~FIN~
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Valentines 2008: Introducing a Special Friend [Feb 14, 2008 * 7:11pm]
 



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Post It Friday [Feb 1, 2008 * 8:04pm]
I only just remembered to get some Post Its when I felt like going to school. It's a very busy week so what I ended up drawing is something of a confessional:


"I tried a ciggy the other day. I was too drunk to remember what it felt like."

Marija, a classmate and friend, did something more artistic:




Later, I felt like the Post Its needed an explanation:


"Post It Project. Google Search it."

These are stuck at the locker area of the College of Fine Arts, University of the Philippines.
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Your survey is mine!!! [Jan 31, 2008 * 1:53am]
I've moved to Multiply quite permanently now. I still check my flist tho.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
:: (N)oelle
:: Oes
:: Nenen

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
:: ube mania
:: noelele
:: noellest

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
:: dimples
:: hands
:: eyebrows

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
:: scars
:: baldspots
:: crooked teeth
(Arr! I be a pirate!!)

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
:: Filipino
:: Mongolian
:: Spanish

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
:: red ants
:: stupidity
:: strangers

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
:: television
:: mirror
:: toothpaste

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
:: Kuya's Wii shirt
:: pambahay shorts
:: and surprisingly, a bra.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
:: Queen
:: Motley Crue
:: Spice Girls

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS: (at the moment)
:: You Me Dancing - Los Campesinos!
:: Under Pressure - Queen and David Bowie
:: Girlfriend - Alicia Keys

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
:: good surprises
:: music
:: learning

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
:: I wanna Shakey's
:: and eat lots of mojos
:: but I'm not hungry

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
:: non-commercial smile
:: voice
:: vein-y hands

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
:: Googling for random info
:: Making fun of people
:: Feeding people

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
:: sleep
:: get my shit done
:: see my all my friends

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
:: stage director
:: back-up singer
:: teechur!

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
:: Egypt
:: Europe
:: New York

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
:: Filippo
:: Lucas
:: Stella

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
:: Travel
:: Give back to the people
:: Get fit

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
:: I go through several outfits before stepping out
:: I shop like crazy
:: Makeup is a hobby

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY (like) A BOY:
:: I like bugs, snakes, frogs and lizards
:: I can actually enjoy pro-wrestling
:: I don't like wearing stupid bras!!!
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but only if there's Worcestershire and Carmencita spice available :) [Jan 24, 2008 * 10:27am]
44%
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Post It Project, Pass it on! [Jan 10, 2008 * 10:52pm]


I think this idea is tres cool.
Draw on a Post It or more, stick it up somewhere on Feb 1st, take a photo.
It's a global thing, ya know? No particular cause, perhaps unity.
And it's easy.
Because that's what peace is supposed to be.
Easy.
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First Night [Jan 7, 2008 * 12:07am]
It's my first night on my bed. No, nothing is new. Same heavy antique, same old cushion, same dirty sheets. It's just that every Christmas season I get exiled from my room so the parents get to sleep comfortably. I become a nomad for their whole stay, sleeping on the floor or taking the dayshift on someone else's bedspace. It isn't very special but still I am happy. Tonight is my first night on my bed! Yay!
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The too-lazy-to-be-original New Year post 2007!!! [Dec 30, 2007 * 3:49pm]
001. Real name: (Andrea) Marie Noelle
002. Nickname: Noelle, Oelle, Oes, Nenen

003. Married: I don't think so
004. Zodiac sign: Capricorn
005. Male or female: Female
006. Elementary: For the most part JASMS and then this ghastly unmentionable exclusive school
007. Highschool: a year of ghastly unmentionable exclusive school, 8 days of JASMS, 2 years of Hongkong and back to JASMS heaven w00t!
008. College: UP Diliman (Thank God!)

010. Hair color: Black
011. Long or short: I'm not sure my scalp can handle long hair again :'(

015. Are you a health freak: hahaha no. I'm against eating green living things.
016. Height: 5'0 - 5'1? last I seriously checked I was 4'3
017. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yes, gedemmit!

018. Do you like yourself: very much, thank you!
019. Piercings: 2
021. Righty or lefty: Ambidextry :D


FIRSTS :

022. First surgery: dimples. nah am just kidding!
023. First piercing: ears

024. First best friend: probably Pola hehe
025. First award: won Snoopy drawing contest, age 5 lolz

026. First sport you joined: sportwhatsport?? I am most unsporty person ever.
027. First pet: two hamsters I poisoned with Lysol
028. First vacation: I don't remember, methinks some beach somewhere.
029. First concert: some concert in Ateneo I think.

030. First crush: First grade pa yun e hahaha

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating: I just ate cold Churros :P
050. Drinking: nothing. We're thinking about Margaritas if that helps.
052. I'm about to: let the kuyas play DotA.
053. Listening to: Dr. Feelgood - Motley Crue

YOUR FUTURE :

058. Want kids: Not entirely.
059. Want to get married: Not exactly a want, more of a curiousity.
060. Careers in mind: As long as I get to boss around people, s'all good.

WHICH IS BETTER?

068. Lips or eyes: er lips?
069. Hugs or kisses: I imagine both..
070. Shorter or taller: not shorter

072. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or nice arms: starmachs. sorry getting weirded out by the questions heh
074. Sensitive or loud: basta nasa lugar

075. Hook-up or relationship: relationship diba?

076. Brains or brawns : brains
077. Trouble maker or hesitant: cautious warfreaks


HAVE YOU EVER :

078. Kissed a stranger: no
079. Drank bubbles: bubbles of what kind?
080. Lost glasses/contacts: no
081. Ran away from home: nope
082. Liked someone younger: I don't go for younger men because I'm already too immature for my own good.

083. Older: yeah this is a hugeass factor for me
084. Broken someone's heart: I wouldn't know.
085. Been arrested: hahaha no.
086. Turned someone down:
most probably in this sense>>
Hearts/other: Noelle punta kang Coffee Bean!
Noelle: I'm on my bed, not moving. lolz

087. Cried when someone died: I think I still am.
088. Liked a friend: Exhibit Bete, ok

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself: more than I believe so
090. Miracles: Yes
091. Love at first sight: I wouldn't know
092. Heaven: Yes
093. Santa claus: Did
094. Sex on the first date: No
096. Angels: only when I need them

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

097. Is there one person you want to be
with you right now? er..

098. Had more than one
boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?: not ever, not even one :P

099. Do you believe in God?: Yes

100. There really is no number 09.
BTW we has pc. i has no laptop tho XP

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I haven't any resolutions. Come to think of it I never did make any.

2007, though peppered with medical messes, has been good to me. I daren't change a thing.
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Le Nouveau 22 [Dec 24, 2007 * 12:39am]
1.) Was born a leftie. Forced right-handedness around 1st grade. Now somewhat ambidextrous.

2.) I believe this forced ambidexterity is a large factor regarding my clumsiness which includes, but isn't exclusive to: accidentally bumping into corners & walls, bumping containers holding liquids and getting self and/or another wet, managing to get sharp objects to fall close to cutting self, losing grip on expensive/fragile/both things i'm holding, random cuts and bruises etc.

3.) My favourite dinosaur is a stegosaurus.

4.) I mostly go to church because I like to sing in public without thinking about pleasing an audience.

5.) I'm the only person I know who gets off-balance while standing still.

6.) I don't think it's fair to the general public if someone lets me drive a car.

7.) I'm fine with cockroaches, spiders, snakes and lizards. It's ants that I abhor, very very much.

8.) I'm always in the mood for lambchops, yum yum!

9.) I miss being called Nenen.

10.) If my 12 year old self saw me right now she'd find a terrible disappointment as she expected to have been kissed by the time she was 15.

11.) Wednesday has always been my favourite day of the week. Yes, even before I came to UP.

12.) I seriously believe na maganda ako & may ganda ako. Whether you, someone, all or other disagree, I am far too old to care.

13.) I prefer dim, naturally lit rooms over bright, electrically lit ones.

14.) I don't like roses. Not even the scent of it.

15.) They tell me my first crush was Roger Moore, but now that I think about it Timothy Dalton is a way more handsome 007 and Daniel Craig the hottest.

16.) Pepsi is a certified Noelle repellant.

17.) I like even numbers over odd ones.

18.) Why am I still single? It's because I'm cursed. Some ten years ago Kuya & I were fighting and he swore no one will ever find me attractive. Oh dear!

19.) I lovelove to shop but I hatehate malls.

20.) My favourite shape is a circle.

21.) Bet you didn't know: Me & my sisters starred in a newspaper pictorial for the then newly opened Enchanted Kingdom.

22.) Noelle's goal in life is to be so grand that society no longer has the right to demand that she wear a bra.


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I'm not entirely sure about this whole happy birthday thing. Mostly I get really sad, sometimes to the point of crying, on my birthdays. This year I planned the org party to counter my annual depressive state but then the party got cancelled and now I don't know what's going to happen.
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I'm not telling you who my crush is! [Dec 10, 2007 * 8:35am]
>_< What follows was written yesterday but our net's all wonky and won't let me post on Multiply, check my LJ flist, and read my mail. Teh suck.

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Harhar. Met & drank with the Hearts last night and somehow got bombarded with questions about my "boylet" (one of the worst terms I've ever heard and this is the only time you'll find it used in my blog), questions that of course didn't get straight answers.

The thing is I don't want to have a crush on him. Not that he's awful but once you figure out what the whole deal is your most probable reaction is to laugh and ask why. I wouldn't know how to answer why. I think the whole who what why is terribly unimportant, in fact if you're ever put in this situation I suggest you shut. Believe me, I would..

If my crushes weren't so rare, so acute and so terminal, I'd not have even blogged about it. Ignored the issue even! But such occurrence is terribly infrequent: Bête passed scientific study. Horrid as it is, I merely submit to the conclusion because of its rarity. Once every half a decade, mind you, so I couldn't help not jotting it down. But seriously, I hate it. I've lived my life carefully avoiding sharp complicated objects thus the tedious testings I do.. which Bête just proved not to be foolproof. XP

The point is:
(a) I don't want this. I want a crush but not this one.
(b) I'm not telling you who it is.
(c) If it's important for you to know, figure it out yourself
(d) and I'll only confirm your guess if the following are correct:
1.) Identity of Bête
2.) Identity of Variable B
3.) Connection and importance of Variable B
Enough data/clues has been provided previously. Enjoy! So far only Sarsi with Egg know --because I told them hahaha
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noelle's christmas wishlist 2007 [Nov 30, 2007 * 11:24am]
Hallo! I've decided to follow the trend of Christmas listings. What follows are a number of things I most definitely will appreciate receiving ^_^ heehee 1.) Multi-coloured Sharpies, like those used by the Miami Ink people heehee 2.) Biggest set of Staedler Triplus Fineliner pens 3.) Box of Mongol Number Twos 4.) big bar of Cadbury Black Forest 5.) Someone to draw on my wall 6.) 7 different bags of potato chips as per your recommendation 7.) Books! 8.) I need a pretty trash can 9.) Swimming lessons 10.) A pair of simple, not shiny, hypoallergenic, everyday earrings It wasn't generosity that killed the cat.

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LJ on hold [Nov 10, 2007 * 7:59am]
Sorry. I just saw how un-organized my entries are. Our laptop died late September, since then I've been using my O2 to surf and blog. It's easier to cross-post from Multiply to LJ than vice versa but the posts on LJ lose the breaks of my paragraphs. So, until we get our new PC or my laptop (I'm not even sure we're getting either), I've decided to blog on Multiply in the meantime. I will still check my flist regularly.

Add me up: noellest.multiply.com
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Guess I could.. Die Another Day [Nov 8, 2007 * 7:21am]
I realise now that I was being too scant when when told I might fall while climbing a scaffolding, I retorted: So? I die. Scant, because exactly 5 years ago my friends and I actually almost did die. November 8, 2002 -- On our way to climb our first level two mountain, Mt Bahay Kalo, riding along SLEX and minutes after a stop at Shell Select our vehicle suddenly swerved and tipped to its side, screeching towards the island. I remember clearly, as I was the scribe for that day, that exactly 20 minutes after our stopover we were all being treated at a private hospital in Muntinlupa. I wasn't severely injured. I just had these huge-ass bumps on my face, almost like a Klingon sister-specie with a very shaken brain. When I got home and finally got to see myself in the mirror it was then that I cried. It is intensely horrifying to not recognise one's self in the mirror. The Sunday after the accident I could only attend Mass through the television. The Gospel was Matthew 25:1-13, the gist of which is: "Watch ye therefore, for ye know neither the day nor the hour.." It's the one time I cried over anything biblical. The words struck me: We could have died. Me and friends I've known since I was 6, we could have died. But we didn't. We live. If there's one time I truly believed in God and truly appreciated His presence that was it. We could fallen in a ditch or hit by speeding vehicles in the busy highway but we weren't. God intervened. He lives, we live. Today we live and celebrate our second life. Thank you, God.

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A deliberately stress-free day [Nov 6, 2007 * 6:38am]
If you know me like I know me you'd know that I'm terribly shy. Yes, smiley Noelle gets stressed out by talking to what she refers to as strangers. So today I didn't quite accomplish anything because of that. Because older people, the faculty & staff, can never be anything but strangers.^^ I'll explain further one of these days.. I told myself I'd spend today stress-free, absolutely no worries. True, that mantra got in the way of my actual agenda but whatthehell! I got sunshined on and I saw friends and I'm happy. And darlings, mind you, one's own happiness is clearly more important here.^^ Now for Random News: Pisa is no longer the leaningest building in the world. The record is now held by a small church in Germany. Go Google it!^^

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30 Days of Night [Nov 4, 2007 * 1:16pm]
As if to cap the end of sembreak my siblings, cousins and I went to Trinoma to watch 30 Days of Night. It's not your typical vampire movie, no sexy lusty bloodsuckers no scantily clad she-devils. It's a lot of gore and carnage, my kind of movie. Pero wag ka, naiyak ako. I got really affected by the scene with the senile old man. You'll have to see it to understand why I was seriously in tears but the bottomline is I hate it when old people & small kids, innocents have no, er, wala silang laban. Watch it if you can stomach people eating people.?

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Isa nanamang Saturday ^^ [Nov 3, 2007 * 8:27am]
Akala ko wala ng mas nakakapagod na day kesa nung last weekend, Lunarock induction, pero parang mas pagod pa ko ngayon.. Pumunta kaming Himlayan today para iwas crowd. Putek ang kalat! Bungad palang grabe na, parang: Ano bang mga tao 'to?! Pero hindi naman yun yung reason kung bakit kami napagod. Sobrang init na kasi naglibot pa kami. Tradition na rin kasi namin yun ever since.. sayang nga at kulang kaming magpipinsan. Nakakapagod talaga. Bisita si HimLion, yung bilog na church, puntod ni Tandang Sora, tingin-tingin ng two-storey mausoleums, wish sa I'm Wishing Well, at finale pictorial sa puntod ni Emilio Jacinto. Nakakapagod sya kasi hindi na kami bata XP Pagka-uwi nakilagay lang ako ng sim sa cellphone ni Potpot tapos dumiretso ako sa Gateway. Na-miss ko si Gab pero andun naman ang ilan sa Happy Hearts so ok na rin Ilan meaning tatlo, si Anj, Mon at Myka. Isang sem ko rin hindi ko nakita ang Hearts tapos kulang pa. Tipid sa mahal na kapihan, mag-udyok sa pamimili ng sapatos at konting libot sa Shoe Expo at tapos. Aba walang alcohol! Dapat mas may itatagal pa ang araw ko pero sabi ko nga pagod nako.. hindi na ako fit. Siguro dapat mag-training ulit ako kahit walang akyat.

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