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Saturday, August 22nd, 2037
2:43 pm	OUT OF DATE This first post is where you can leave general messages for me, rather than on other entries which should mainly address the entry in some way. They will be hidden, so don't worry about privacy. Following is a guide on how to date entries cooly for disclaimers. ( Read more... ) (12 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 6th, 2008
12:25 am	It's not going away... Bloody head bulge thingy, I can feel it like a worm or something in there. It's the kind of thing that you'd almost think is alive except on antibiotics a bacterial infection would go away, not appear... so is it something that bacteria were keeping at bay which now grows unchecked? CANCER? I fucking don't know, lol. I should ice that bitch. I have this growing fantasy about jabbing a boiled needle in there to see what comes out, how gruesome. I feel more like Stein-kun every day... speaking of which SHINIGAMI CHOPPU! Medusa+Stein is such mega-love... and smiley tying up Zaraki to prevent a Byakuya duel early on is also interestin'. But anyway, Futatsu no Kishi... WAY FUCKING SAD. The neat thing about this anime is its packed full of fan service, but still gets you twinged. The first and second had a different nature, the first had a leading camera type approach, always having things offscreen slightly, it was very creative. The second didn't do that, but had more blatent stuff like sailor fuku and catgirl stuff. The only thing is it kept foreshadowing them. In fact, the fuku was shown on season 1 opening but didn't show up until 2, and the cat kept being shown before she even cosplayed/fursuited one. Which makes me think, what era was the first Gandalfr from anyway? Did it have catgirls back then? I'd assumed it was WW2 but maybe it was later... Speaking of which, mega harry potter reference at first, though less over time... and I guess LotR, especially with a mega-elf chick showing up to save the two heroes from doom. I had thought it would get really fucked up like it was the ring who brought them back but it seems another (creature?) has the power over life and death... unless that's an illusion shown by a more creative female master of the ring versus stupid curly count dude who sucked and wasn't creative with his messing with males... That would actually be a really fucked up twist, it'd be two horrible if those two were under the thumb of Albion... speaking of which, why is it called Albion again? Didn't it get renamed? Did that change because the group was wiped out? Who does that lady work for? I must see Princess no Rondo! But... Ayu!!! (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 5th, 2008
9:22 am	Painme Or panime... either way the vowel order can't be maintained for a portmanteauh, eh well. So like, there's a bus strike and I was running home but I tripped on something, I think I know where because there's a hole in the sidewalk. So anyway, I got 3 or 4 holes on my left back of hand (it's basically 3, but technically 1 has this separate sort of part which is like 4) and I stopped at a restaurant on the way home to wash it. I could have stopped earlier but it wasn't a chain restaurant, felt too privately owned or family type so I felt strange thinking of going in, but a chain is less personal and more inviting that way. I felt guilty hogging the bathroom's hot water and air so I had a chicken wrap. I want to try their junoir burger combo for the same price... and overall, it is high time I went back to that place. I've changed so much since the past incident after all. Plus in her recent commercials she is so... charming! haha. But anyway, the damn thing got infected. So I have to take an antibiotics regime now. It makes me feel weird. I had a cream upgrade too. I had also torn my elbow which dries better since I don't wash it as much as my hands. But after my shower last night (I had been avoiding showering since I wanted the elbow scab to dry out) it was gooey and when I was rubbing the cream in there a bunch of bloody puss came out of it, it was really gross. After a good's night sleep it dried out again, this time much flatter so I think it may have been a good thing, like I cleaned out some waste or something. It wasn't really bloody blood so I think it was somewhat wastey and needed to get out of there. Painful and stuff but bearable. Preceded by an Hdoujin it was coincidentally mentioend to me the 'Zero' title which I'm watching now. During the 'downtime' (cam chatrooms take way too much bandwidth! I owe money!) I watched 'Magikano' and 'Ichigo Mashimaro' which were both very good anime, though Ichigo certainly had the edge due to... well... so I finally know where that one scene where pigtails is chased around the table is from, finally. I certainly really like the older sister though, I feel like I can relate to her and stuff :) Even though she's a girl... Tried to get into X and Pretear but they did not have the correct feel. Catching up in Naruto is cool, seems less new Bleach due to a schedule change and no doubles. Asumaaaaa!!! No... so I need to take Judo or something for an excuse to learn japanese. I would feel like if I say I learned it just for liking anime it'd be weird but if I took a martial art and said something like "oh, it seemed interesting when I was learning it for this martial art" it'd be way cooler! Except nowhere here teaches Judo... I wonder if Kendo is japanese sword and fencing is french sword, if Judo is japanese martial art (better than Aikido right?) then would Savate be the closest french? TKD is korean and Karate is Okinawan, and Kung Fu is chinese... I can't forget the russian sambo or the greek wrestling or others either... (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 14th, 2008
11:36 pm	Pic time! First is a pic I took, and then the rest I basically cut out from some manga I'm reading. I think it is an artform to be able to drag a 'select' box to only encapsulate a given area. ( Read more... ) (Comment on this)
Friday, September 12th, 2008
1:06 am	Jesus rules one, he quiets his breath and seeks a path to us. He knows us, foresees our thoughts and movements. Sometimes we can't feel his presence, but we can feel it faintly. He purges our souls, and he is what god is, fair, no tricks, that's his way. Don't try to stand out more than Jesus, you're a million years too early to do that! He protects the angels, and he won't bully! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 9th, 2008
7:29 pm	Soul Eater 15 I haven't watched any of my usual series in a while so I have like 3-4 of each which is nice. So anyway... GHOST LOLI. But besides that... Death the Kid just went up HUGE in cool in this ep. He was already cool of course, but his wearing the death cloak, and relating symmetry to restoring order... and oppressing people's freedom to kill... makes me want to be a Shinigami too :) I wonder if I'd be strong enough to use paired pistols. I need a char who uses guns too. Swords are cooler if you don't regularly use them, like if you regularly use martial arts or guns then swords are rare and exceptional tools which have more coolness that way, more appealing. Using ecto hands and a cyberknight's psi sword you could even do Rukia's attach sort of. Like, if you phased your hand into and did a heart attack death blow and then formed a psi sword into the brain I bet that could even kill a demon due to like being an uber critical called death blow or something. But anyway, there are pushup handles shaped like guns, 1 in each hand would certainly build a steady arm. Hopefully when training that closed chain it would transfer to the open chain which is the actual wielding. So anyway... I need to ficate on symmetry and dye some white streaks in my hair or something! (Comment on this)
Monday, September 8th, 2008
11:48 pm	Blade Witch Strawberry lol, so I heard it has an ending an anti would love. I totally cracked up. Sometimes now matter how horribly guro something is, a good artist can make it cute and hilarious. (Comment on this)
Friday, September 5th, 2008
9:07 am	Uh Oh, Flamingo! In regards to this show, Owen Only's mom = MILF and Bird Brain = LILF. Certainly this is a show of high quality which I initially overlooked as dumb due to appearance. Off the top of my head, I thought the same of Inu Yasha, and probably other great ones. So I'm glad I took some time to watch it. Of course, BB likes the Captain, and that's got to be respected. I tell ya, if there's one thing that's lovely, it's a loli in love, and if she must be smitten with someone it may as well be some neandering goodhearted shota rather than some bad boy pop star or whatever which tends to be annoying and stuff. Honestly, I wonder, if a loli ever liked me, would that also be annoying? It might... I dunno, it certainly would now, I like a loli with standards and anyone with standards would not be bamboozled. I wonder if this is why a lot of guys treat girls like shit because they don't respect them for liking them, which is why you often have guys who are losers treating girls badly, and guys who are winners treating them well. Of course, this is not consistant, because there are some very nice losers and some very abusive winners. This is because some people are very conscientious of trends and reject them (for example, I would like to be a nice loser, and I think I am, until I can be a nicer winner) whereas the abusive winners I guess, maybe they don't get smitten? Or maybe it's some 'hidden pain' or insanity type thing where they value nothing or odd things which lead them to exploit others? I dunno. (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 4th, 2008
2:20 pm	Stiff It's a good time to 'get physical'. Like, too much time on the net, increasing pointless numbers. Like, what's the point or whatever? Just making people angry... of course, they ALWAYS get angry, no matter what you do or say, so what to do? lol... but time away is time without conflict, and that is good. Net's fucking slow anyway... I need to make some cashola via STABBING MYSELF FOR MONEY so as to get a faster connection and like, a laptop, so that I can, you know, type upside down, and maybe I'll get an aneurism in the middle of some Diablo II or somethin'. Very stiff. Worked hard yesterday, up until 1... (awesome islam family guy ep of South Park part 1) and then woke up like 5:30 am because it was freakin' hot, couldn't even sleep above covers in underwear... So I had like, a chicken spicy sandwich, and my calf muscle spasmed and I couldn't walk for a while. Then I did some salsa dancing, need to return to the library now I guess. I'm not very good. Even with the table moved there's no room to move, and like, the cleared space isn't in front of the TV or something. My arms are weak! I finally measured my bodyat and it was like 15% or something. I was guessing 20-25 so it was pleasant. But even so, I think most muscle is in the legs, I have a really flabby-bad looking torso and arms. Anyway, 5-10% is what I want, and to gain muscle. (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 31st, 2008
2:45 am	GTO I am reminded, I am the same age as Onizuka. He's cool. Why am I not cool like him? Okay...so I need a 2nd dan in Karate? But what if he trained in a better school than I find? Plus, how do you quantify the best motorcycle gang? Are canadian motorcycle gangs as tough as Japanese ones? I dunno... Funny thing is... I can appreciate wantin' to hook up with a nice teacher like in this or in Azumanga, rather than one of the students. That's not to say you're bad for wantin' to, but I can appreciate it. It's 'socially acceptible' as it's said... which is totally unromantic and stuff but has this kind of... appreciability to it. Is that lame and totally neutered to say? I dunno. But certainly, don't want to be player like that one dude who got fired on ep 1. I want to be too busy bashing down people's homes with sledgehammers to break hearts. But I certainly want the capacity to do so, just so that I can't, and then know I made a right choice. Without a capacity for power people never know if they're good or bad because they do so little the results are never clear. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 30th, 2008
4:50 pm	Death The toothpaste! Brush with it! (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 28th, 2008
11:32 pm	Out lately A while ago I tried going somewher but couldn't get there, because I would have to wait nearly an hour for the next bus so I tried walking and got lost and just ended up finding the main line way offbase and going home. Very depressed about that. I should probably call and apologize for standing up... blah. Today I got where I needed to be but I forgot my ID and I didn't have enough money :( Bonus is I got to be around some cute girls. One was 18 (I heard her telling her mom this) and really short and slight and had this soft quiet voice, I was all mentally "eeeee". Second was this midget lady (you can also call her a little girl) who looked to be around 30 and she was with her boyfriend and I kept like... looking at her... lol. When we got on the bus he slapped her ass and she giggled! She had this really odd-sounding voice too, abnormal in a good way... Anyway they eventually got off and this girl in a wheelchair got on, she reminded me of this girl who used to host 'The Zone' on YTV. She was cute but I don't flirt with girls even though we got off on the same spot and I was originally standing right where she was getting on... I moved because I thought she needed to go there but she went on the opposite side so if had stayed there I could have been closer! But like... when they load the wheelchairs on it is all like... awkward and you don't want to feel in the way and stuff and it'd be weird if you were asked to move so you do it ahead of time. So anyway... ARG NEED ROMANCE OR SOMETHING (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 20th, 2008
6:26 am	Jews 'n Muzzies Oh don't worry it's not just them, Christians also do it and even atheists nowadays. But the above two apparently have it as part of the religion. Xianity sorta does too since Jesus didn't directly say it was bad. Fucking circumcision. http://www.cirp.org/library/anatomy/garcia/ Readin' that got me thinkin, about how he explains the analogy to the eyelid for the eyeball, or the gum (presumably the lip?) So I thought about starting my own religions where upon birth, you surgically amputate a baby's lips and eyelids. Actually, this might be a bit extreme. You could have separate churches for each one. You don't want to frighten people off after all. Hell, you could even do half of it. 'Church of the Bottom Jaw' 'Church of the Upper Jaw' 'Church of the Right Eye' 'Church of the Left Eye'. Just like Jews seem to love the glans so much they want to gawk at it all the time... Honestly I just don't fucking get our society. You know no one would allow someone to give their babies breast implants right? That's just a fucking abhorrent idea. But at least that's fucking REVERSIBLE. This isn't. It's amputation... like... I don't think people, especially women, fully comprehend what's been done to us here. Guys who whine about it tend to get called sissies, with other (whipped) guys going "hey dude I was circumcized and look I turned out fine". Those guys are basically asking me to sodomize them, because that's what I want to do when I hear bullshit like that. Surviving trauma is something men can do. Maybe babies forget the pain, maybe men distract themselves from the absence they feel, whatever. Adapting does not excuse mutilating babies (or adults). This is beyond mutilation, but also sexual molestation. I don't care about the 'intent'. Whether you molest with intent for sex or not doesn't matter, and honestly, I really think Mohels and Doctors get some sick sort of thrill out of doing this. It's probably like reenacting abuse. These guys had it done to them so they do it to others. Or in the case of uncircumcized doctors doing this, they may get a kick out of being one of those few whole guys out there who can still enjoy themselves. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 17th, 2008
5:39 pm	Coil Conclusion Well... as the 'venture was unplanned, I put it off a day... yet I still need to mention it. So I finished the series. Ironically enough, DB came out with 2, which I got. Maybe it'd be nice to see how they did it, or just to collect it. If they do it all the way through it will be another complete. It is funny, but the choice Amasawa makes in the end reminds me a lot of the choice you make when you realize the truth in becoming an atheist... to flee from the collapsing dream of nothingness... it is funny how it took me so long to notice the similarities with Kingdom Hearts too... Damned series made me cry... anime sometimes does that but not always, and this did it a lot. That annoyin' Densuke is too freakin' cute'n cool... I hope I don't get angry when the noise comes back, because I want to stay enamored like this and loving the principles in this stuff. Beats a fuckin' bar'n date any day. People don't get this beauty. But anyway... DB's other stuff is here so time for the regular reprieve. Not much of an ongoing plot in comparison I have to admit. This is more habit than enconsement. No wonder DB chose it even though it's but a season. Only one beginning all the way through save the finale. That's all it needs. It's funny too about the smiley holes. They were there all the time yet you don't even have a clue about them until later. I do wish the bully friend was around more though. I have to wonder if possibly there could be a sequel? I wouldn't know... like what happened to the space... (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 9th, 2008
11:25 pm	Coil Stairs This is about Dennou Coil, the anime which Dattebayo put out 1 ep and then sort of dropped it or something. Anyway, the opening is interesting, with stairs. So I'm watching it with the volume off (I like the music, but it helps me concentrate with silence. Silent Hill). It starts off with a short-haired girl just walking. No stairs. Then you see ponytail girl DESCENDING stairs...and she looks up. First girl (she wears yellow btw) is running, she looks back. As it pans up the song goes 'everyone is searching' and the title 'Cyber Coil: A Circle of Children'. Er... actually that 2nd girl might have pigtails, I probably didn't notice that. Anyway she's sitting at the top of some different stairs now. Some random guy is looking around, and then yellow dress shorthair is running down the stairs (she is sure not the trepedacious type is she?). I should really learn the characters' names... I will rewatch ep 1 when I get Ureshii's, hopefully that will help it sink in. So finally, pigtails is running, seems even she will be energetic when there is a demand for it, which there seems to be because she is chasing something. And then they BOTH turn and look up. WHAT IS UP THERE? SOME KIND OF RED MONSTER? Now everyone is running... including some psycho teacher who is running in place on an elevated platform while looking at the window or something. The kids only seem to be running TO somewhere. Crazy mystical circles then a peaceful shot at the sunset, which everyone looks up towards. NOW is the stair montage which inspired me to write about this. Starts off with some dude climbing steps nonchalantly. Then some girl does, with fervour but with more grace. Then this dangly jibbly boy climbs with his knees splayed apart. He seems nonchalant, rather than lazy like the first guy. Then the granny climbs, straining to get up there. Then I think the little sister of the first girl is climbing with her dog. She climbs with her hands too, which helps you to be more quiet. I am somewhat influenced by her sock feet, since socked feet also imply stealth. Then you see the first girl climbing steps. I think they were the steps from the first one. She is doing is slowly, trepedaciously (I probably overuse that term) and it is a very interesting contrast to the granny since she isn't straining at all, in fact unlike all the other climbers she seems to almost glide up them slowly, like the stairs aren't there. There is definate locomotion going on and all , but the focus is obviously on going up, or perhaps getting lost in thought, not in treating stairs like a challenge or rfun. There's no difficulty here, complete mastery of stair. You can tell because of how she just slows down, stops, and stares back in wonder at the sun. HAI DENSUKE *pierces dog with schoolbag* (Comment on this)
2:51 pm	Meh Sobriety and sombriety do not mix, no wonder some people refuse to mix the two. Sleeping deeply you awake kinda sad... I had a dream that I was having a birthday party and all my peers from high school were there, and a childhood friend from before. K was sleeping on my right, E on my left. Everyone was watching some movie but I can't recall what, some kind of action adventure comedy that was 3d or something? I remember like the tv was getting moved around, and I was on the edge of sleep when the two started talking... and then they leaned over and kissed each other above my face. Through barely open eyelids I was watching them, it was kind of ruining me since I liked her so much yet couldn't hate my own friend's happiness. I of course got wondering what lead to such weird neuron firing and the traditional 'what does this represent' query, since those two never met IRL, and actually I never had a birthday party or any kind of party with anyone from high school. I did back in elementary school but that was a long while ago. I really want to be a success so that I can go on a sojourn with pride and look up the people I remmeber. For some reason it feels important. I don't know why, probably some emo bullshit, but I feel like I want to know the people who exist in my memories, even if they were merely associates and we never bonded or anything. When I think about it, a decade-ago kinda time machine would be great, however even in that situation, I still wouldn't have the history a lot of people back at CE had. Even so I'd make more of an effort to bond and stuff, even if it meant being the weird over-friendly guy like McDonalds S from Charlie Brown was, lol. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 27th, 2008
5:41 pm	Ep 6 Well about halfway through what's out via animesuki refs... ARGH I DON'T WANT TO KEEP WATCHING lol. 6 was mega-emo, I was so caught up in the 'omg so cute' omg so precocious type stuff that I had forgotten about reading somewhere that it got really serious and stuff, which I did sort of remember because obviously there are references to that, but the whole mega-emo part just jumps out of nowhere and it's like all... gay for Renji or something. Man it was just so sweet and stuff. I tell you, when I watch stuff like that, my ridiculous little 'never date a mother' type shit just goes totally out the window because she's so nice and caring and it's like... even if you might not have wanted to be with a personality who'd be irresponsible, the whole thing just like changes you and stuff because it's like... she changes and wants to accept any burden. Even if it is a base instinct emotion... what emotion isn't really? Does that make it less? Like it's kind of stupid for me to be all "eugh, instinct" when at the same time what makes life so enjoyable are similarly rooted in genes, it doesn't even matter, who freakin' cares. I think that whole shit was/is due to insecurity or something, definately something I am going to get past on route to become an gentleman! Just like renji (I know I am not saying his name right I just don't want to be a loser and go look it up... I have Bleach on the brain). But probably not as an accountant... though if there is crisis who knows what people do to keep the world moving. They might sacrifice where they planned to go to get secure money to care for others. Still... I want to wear the white coat and help stop that lung cancer shit and other stuff. I don't want to be that guy who has to break bad news, I'd rather break that trend of it. Maybe it's due to cowardice or something, because their job's necessary because people need to know and stuff, but maybe it'll become invalid if sickness is eliminated. (Comment on this)
10:58 am	Suck Suck Subs So I have finally taken a gander at Kodomo no Jikan... ( Read more... ) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 22nd, 2008
8:24 am	Lolihumbufggfuooo mooolaaeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee caffee I dunno but you gotta have a subject'n stuff.( Read more... ) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 20th, 2008
11:37 am	Stein-sama Stein-sama 'Doctor Stein' or whatever (I believe his first name is Franken of course) is definately freakin' cool. Introduced in the Soul Eater series episode 5, preluded to in episode 4. Seriously this guy kicks so much ass I don't even want to go into detail about it. Sufficed to say... well he's a doctor (/spoiler) which I love, and he wears the mad scientist lab coat... he's got glasses, used a computer, has the same kind of stooly computer chair I've used in the past... I like the way he attacks, I like the way he blocks attacks, I like his special moves (sparky), and it's cool what he did to that one teacher... Plus later on in the series when he teams up with another guy to face this one guy and then this lady... shiiiiit. Seriously I want to emulate this guy as much as I want to emulate Spirit and Death. These are all seriously fucking cool emulatable role model hero type guys. Anyway I need to go buy a video game or whatever my coffee will keep me awake. It's better having it earlier in the day, and to have it intermittantly so you're more aware. Yesterday I spilled everywhere because I was holding it one-handed constantly while relaxing watching a Tony Little vid and then I had a lot to clean up. It was a good excuse to switch to a new towel I think. I fucking hate how some places ban you just because you pwn their members at debate and aren't a suckup, bunch of fucking wusses who can't take people with faster-operating brains. I guess it's incomprehensible that some of us just naturally fucking make great points faster than they're able to comprehend said points. (Comment on this)