| Et, je t'attend là quand le soleil sera couché dans ton âme froide. |
[entries|friends|calendar] |
|
|
[09 Oct 2007|10:26pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 busy |
] |
Promises Like Pie-Crust
by Christina Georgina Rossetti
(1830-1894)
Promise me no promises,
So will I not promise you:
Keep we both our liberties,
Never false and never true:
Let us hold the die uncast,
Free to come as free to go:
For I cannot know your past,
And of mine what can you know?
You, so warm, may once have been
Warmer towards another one:
I, so cold, may once have seen
Sunlight, once have felt the sun:
Who shall show us if it was
Thus indeed in time of old?
Fades the image from the glass,
And the fortune is not told.
If you promised, you might grieve
For lost liberty again:
If I promised, I believe
I should fret to break the chain.
Let us be the friends we were,
Nothing more but nothing less:
Many thrive on frugal fare
Who would perish of excess.
|
|
|
[09 Oct 2007|11:48am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 blegh |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
snuff machinery - sitd |
] |
blegh i dun wanna write WS thing. >____< I'm so bad at writing stuff like this! Argh why can't it just be an essay? lol . I can't write something that has to come completely from my head in a story, cuz I can't think of something that's happened to me that's interesting enough to write about, so i'm just writing about craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap~
it's due tomorrow. i've held it off as long as possible. :( sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and i have midterms coming and i'm not really doing anything for them yet, and i've got essay proposals i should be thinking about.
i wonder if our eng quizzes/essays were marked yet... i'm kind of curious what i got since it was the first in-class i've done since April so it was shitty. ^^v
hm.
hm.
hmmmm.
|
|
|
[25 Sep 2007|12:15am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 hot |
] |
I so sad! My new Miyavi mood theme is only half working. >____<
GRRR!
The prettiness escapes my grasp! :(
(cough oh well, at least this one works!!! xD)
EDIT: GRRRRR still not working! I redid the urls so they displayed on the mood theme editing page but they only half work still >__< omfg whyyyyyy??
|
|
|
[30 Aug 2007|02:13am] |
しかたがない ね。
「泣きそう」
|
|
|
[12 Aug 2007|01:43am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 angry |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
we'll be here (when you're gone) - goo goo dolls |
] |
i hate cheaters.
i hate it when people don't follow rules or laws that are set out for the benefit of PEOPLE in general, because so many people think it's a selfish world we live in.
humans are social animals. we can't live in a world that back-stabs because then we just won't live long.
i hate liars, and cheaters, people who don't bother following laws (eg. in driving) which are there for our own safety (and then who don't understand why i take bad/agressive/stupid/selfish driving seriously), or such as with taxes and declaring stuff because it fucks over the way our society is and people don't understand that, they think that if they can just hide away their money it'll do them some good later on, but what they don't understand is that if they didn't hide, and weren't so fucking afraid of taxes which go back into the community and health care and education and all that, then they wouldn't have to dish out their hidden money later in life and bitch about it when they're in need of something, when they could have had it all along without hiding or losing anything.
i hate it when people think everyone is like them and thinks like them, and then doesn't understand that everyone is different, so they get hurt and misunderstand and then blame the other person.
i am a hypocrite, in ways, in ways we all are as well. i want to make people understand reality but i always end up thinking that it's impossible because people are built with different minds and upbringings which inhibits understanding.
i want to make a difference in the world and stop the idiocy and hypocracy and hate and selfishness. sometimes i don't know if i should bother. sometimes i think firebombing might be a good end to such a horrible, horrible race of animals, tearing apart eachother and the world in our way, stuffing our literal and metaphorical mouths as fast as possible.
why should we bother at all, in the end? (i'm so angry i feel like crying.)
|
|
|
[03 Aug 2007|03:11pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 aggravated |
] |
( So I forced my way through to the end of Hairy Pothead... [spoilers] )
Oh yeah. And in the HP:OTP movie, the part where the dementor was trying to suck out Hairy's soul in the tunnel in the beginning, I thought that was strangely...hot... XD hahahaha I hope I'm not the only one who thought so, but I may be. ;__;
|
|
|
[25 Jul 2007|10:53pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 discontent |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
45 - Shinedown |
] |
Last weekend we went out to my grandmother's house (it's always so strange to say "grandmother" since we have never called her that...It's always been baba...) for my uncle's funeral. This was the only time I've ever thought of him as deda, when he'd been wanting that for a while. The circumstances of his relationship with my baba aren't that confusing but I don't feel like going in to it right now. Anyway, I'm just saying that only when he died did I ever think of him as a grandfather, which is sad, because he was always so good to everyone, and to us, and his kids were always so useless to him, especially when he was sick, they barely did anything to help him, they didn't even come down here to see him when he was in VGH for treatment, so it was up to my family to visit him and bring him stuff and support him when they were too scared to face the truth that he was dying.
( more funeral stuff )
***
On another note, I'm torn in deciding whether or not to continue reading after page 54 in Deathly Hallows. After reading that page, my heart was torn out. How could Rowling do that??? She should fucking burn in hell for such a pointless, senseless event!!! I am soooo fucking angry, I hope she gets flamed to death. >_____< (At first I didn't believe what had happened, I was just stunned, what did it mean? It couldn't be possible, could it? But then I got to Pothead's spell to get rid of the death eaters, and I started crying and I threw down the book.) <-- recent crying induces further crying, and allows crying to occur more easily afterwards.
|
|
|
[07 Jul 2007|11:14pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
aggravated |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
The Thing I Hate - Stabbing Westward |
] |
“Vanity and pride are different things, though the words are often used synonymously. A person may be proud without being vain. Pride relates more to our opinion of ourselves; vanity, to what we would have others think of us.”
--Jane Austen
“Pride will spit in pride's face.”
--Thomas Fuller
It doesn't fit exactly, this time, however. (But it's close.)
|
|
|
[07 Jul 2007|01:08am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 amused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Dead! - MCR |
] |
I'm tutoring this girl in socials 11 right now. :/ I have to try to remember all that stuff, from when I did it in summer school too, but of course that was before they got the provincial for it so hmmm I hope they haven't changed too much, or I'll be as lost as her. Basically all I'm doing though is just going over the textbook with her and summarizing stuff, and explaining terms, mainly because her English isn't that strong since she's only been in Canada for 2 years now.
I was supposed to have been tutoring this other girl in English, but she hasn't contacted me about it yet... but really, I don't know how to tutor for English; o__O;; I can't explain grammar or anything since I don't know the names of the rules and terms and stuff, I just know if it's right or wrong. x__x;; And I've never had a tutor in anything, so I don't even have that advantage of a place to steal ideas from, haha. ^^;; Maybe I should have gotten a tutor in something just for the hell of it, to see what it's like. :P Then maybe I could have been super smart like all those other people--coughcheaterscough--with tutors in every fucking subject.
Oh yeah and Steph's away now and I'm bored. All I can do is drag my mom out for walks and stuff, but it's so fucking hot lately that it gets too annoying to go for a long walk and I hate coming back all soaked in sweat. x__x;; And then getting the sunblock off me afterwards too, what a pain...sigh... I don't like the summer-- :( Unless there's thunderstorms or summer rain and it's warm and soooo nice and with just a little breeze... heheh...
|
|
|
[25 Jun 2007|01:09am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
amused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
pussy all night - msi |
] |
Heh, so I'm searching for someone to come with me to the MSI show right? Cuz I really don't want to have to to alone and risk getting eaten or mashed or something...so only half seriously, I asked my dad to come with me. And he actually was considering it, until he heard I told him the date and he looked at it on the calendar and was like "A MONDAY NIGHT????". *headdesk* Hahah I think he would actually come with me if it wasn't on a Monday night, cuz he doesn't want to go out late when he has to work the next day. Too bad though, cuz he'd be a really good shield! :( Stupid work! I think he should take a day off to protect me. :)
So then I asked my mom. But I think she'd just be standing there the whole time with her hands over her ears screaming "What is this drug music??" and the funny thing would be that she's pretty much right in that assessment of it...looool...
|
|
|
[24 Jun 2007|12:20am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 excited |
] |
MSI is coming to the Croatian Cultural Centre Monday, July 23. TT____TT $24!!!!! What I'm most afraid about this is that it's an all-ages show. Is this possible for MSI? O____O;;
>____< Stephanie's gonna be gone so she can't come with me, damnitttttttttttttt!!!!! I don't wanna go to an MSI show alone! xD I'll get eaten by someone dressed as a storm trooper or sailor moon or something omg. ~.~"
|
|
|
[22 Jun 2007|01:03am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 accomplished |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
rain! |
] |
It's still insanely boring for the most part, but I've done a few things little things recently... le sigh. :(
I'm trying to get through this 1k+ page Ayn Rand book, although I sincerely doubt I'll ever finish it. I haven't played any l2 for so long :( I allllmost want to start playing again except every time I think about it, I'm reminded of the never-ending quest for 3rd job change, and the impossibility of subclassing and I'm saddened.
It's raining here tonight, and it sounds beautiful. This is the sound I'd like to die to, the rain falling on a quiet night with my window open and the breeze pushing the sound of that rain in to my room. Apparently there's a thunder storm in Taiwan right now, and I'm envious.
Yesterday I went out with Mel to the art gallery, cuz I've never actually been inside it before. I'd been outside a few times because of peace rallies and marches that end up outside it, and I've always wanted to go in but have never gotten the chance. The Monet to Dali exhibit is on right now and it was alright. I would have loved to have gotten to see the Rodin exhibit in Victoria, but at least they had some Rodin stuff here. I'd always imagined the Thinker to be bigger. o__o And I would have liked to see some more Dali and surrealists, but oh well.
I hate being on webcam. It's unnerving. I'm not feeling well right now either. :(
Today I went with my dad to his union hall because they were having this emergency with the ballots that were supposed to be sent out for the election but the company that was supposed to have been printing and sealing the envelopes and all that stuff screwed up majorly by putting the wrong return address on the envelopes. So then my dad and his office people had to redo all of the envelopes and get them sent out today, so when he called home today and I told him I was bored he asked if I wanted to go stuff envelopes. So I did, and it was ok. It passed the time. which is kind of a sad thought, heh, having to stuff about 5000 envelopes...I was only there from 5pm to 10pm so it wasn't too bad, compared to the other people that were doing it.
I now have lots of little paper cuts all over my left hand, and by the end we were all joking about how our biggest concern was trying not to get blood on any of the envelopes. Slave labour in the CAW lol! How hypocritical!
This one woman brought her son who was in gr. 7 and he was such a dumbass. He was sticking labels on, and he looked at the list he had, which was 3 columns of names, and went, "this thing is stupid! it goes from (letter1) to (letter2) to (letter1)" or something like that, and this woman, also doing the labels, goes "well it's in alphabetical order, so if you look at it from top left to bottom right, it's in order" and he goes ".......................whatever."
lol.
On Saturday Mel and Ray are dragging me to tinseltown, and on the 27th Oxana wants me to go with her to a movie at 5th Ave. Cinemas. Why does everything cost money???? WHYYYYYY? FOR I AM POOR . :( I don't want to work at the mall, or in the food industry. Sigh. All that's left is warehouse jobs?? hehe although I admit I don't mind that kind of work xD and I'd rather do some sort of menial, physical labour than have to make change or be nice to people. >___>
|
|
|
[14 Jun 2007|10:56pm] |
| [ |
music |
| |
vodevil - marilyn manson |
] |
i am so fucking bored.
|
|
|
[04 Jun 2007|08:44pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 anxious |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
say anything - marianas trench |
] |
o.m.f.g.
i am so *sick* of this. that *stupid* implant is loose again; i can turn it myself. :(
wth is he gonna do to fix this????? o___o;; screw it down again (oh fuck noooo) and bone grafting again????? (which means another round of incisions and sutures and shit fuck goddamnit barbra streisand wtf whyyyyyyyyyy grarrrargjlkgwjklgw;gw!!)
sigh.. my appointment is supposed to be thursday but my mom is thinking of trying to get it earlier since it's loose again.
****
on another note: THUNDERSTORMS I LOVE YOUUUUU! Last night was so amazing! ;__; I looooove rain and thunder and lightening~~ Aaaahhhhh warm nights and the smell of dirt in the air when it rains after a long time of drought. TT____TT so perrrrfect. I sat watching the lightening yesterday instead of doing the dishes and got yelled at for that but oh well, it was waaay worth it. The storm must have been pretty far off though because the thunder was pretty quiet...although it was a long, slow, creeping growl after every flash that lit the clouds. ;__;
and again, on another note: I got woken up at about 5 this morning by a cat fight outside, which turned out to be Baby and that little orange and white kitten that always runs away from me. >__< So I went downstairs to get Baby inside but of couuurse Kaya just had to be there and she was all freaked out and jumpy from the sounds of their fight so I couldn't get her to stay in the bathroom. I tried to keep her still and out of the way untill I ended up waking my mom up so I took Kaya upstairs to my room while my mom let Baby in.
I hate cat fights. >___< They sound reallly scary, and there's nothing you can do to stop it cuz the cats might freak out even more on you.
I think I was supposed to call Maria today about the new Marilyn Manson cd...hm...lol I accidentally clicked on the link to the video for "Heart-Shaped Glasses" and thought I'd stumbled upon some porn cuz that site is soo freaking hard to navigate all the time. x__x;; Speaking of porn...lol ok I won't get into my Y Tu Mama Tambien rant again. xD
|
|
|
[31 May 2007|12:41pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
amused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
the whir of the fan and the clacking of my dn angle wall scroll from the breeze |
] |
check it out! xD koerner in the l word s2 ep3.
i should really be doing something more productive. really.
oh yeah so i had a dentist appointment yesterday right? and it was just to check out the implants and to take out my stitches (they missed one!!! i had to take it out myself after when i got home. >__O! i didn't even realize what it was; i thought it was like lettuce or bok choy stuck in my teeth or something, cuz oh yeah they stitched like, through my fucking gums lol and they almost couldn't get one on the other side out cuz the hygenist shredded it a bit. anyway. yeah so i'd been pulling at this one for an hour maybe trying to get it out, cuz i wasn't at home yet after we went out to eat, and then i checked at home, and it was a freakin' stitch! that i'd been pulling on! it only bled a little.. anyway yeah i got it out >:P), and anyway, he said that the one on the left was loose so he was gonna tighten it. no anesthetic, he screwed it in more. and OW OMFG OW that hurt, such a weiiiiird feeling, like INSIDE my jaw bone you know? >__< it felt like he screwed it out and then back in again. =__= i was cringing and finally i said "ow" cuz he doesn't notice facial expressions or body language apparently, and then he goes "oh, did something hurt?" yes, you bastard! >____< Anyway i have to go back in next thursday to get it checked out more. siiiiigh.
|
|
|
[25 May 2007|10:38pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 meh |
] |
I walked home from Bonsor today, then when I got home, I went with my mom and Steph (by skytrain this time) back to Metro to get a cake and stuff for my dad's birthday. We got him 46 rolls of Sweet Tarts (even though he's only 45, but they're 2 for $1 lol) and they were all falling out of the basket through the holes until we found these cardboard wine bottle tube thingies and loaded them up with the candy. Hehe the cashier had fun counting them all...lol.
So yeah, we carried this huge cake home from the mall and every person we passed stared at it thinking mmmmmmm cake......
I'm still recovering from my dentist stuff but at least I can eat most foods relatively fine, if slowly. I keep having to remember not to yawn to huge though cuz it pulls the stitches. >__< I have to go back on Wednesday to take them all out though. That really sucks, cuz when Hime-sama got her wisdom teeth out, she got those organic, chitinous stitches that degrade on their own. ;__; I don't want to go back.. but I guess they'll want to take a look at how the implants are doing anyway. Yeah, so I have 2 bars screwed into my jaws, and it looks..interesting...
And I have to give Oxana her shiny things back. :( Apparently she's been trying to phone here too a few times this week but we don't answer if it's an 'Unknown Caller,' and anyway, I just don't answer the phone. Which reminds me, I need to talk to Boss lol, I totally missed her call today while we were carrying the cake and stuff home and never phoned back cuz I'm having this horrrrrrible fucking migrane since we got back because of my loooooong walk in the blazing sunshine and lack of water. =___= so she'll have to wait! :P
Oh yeah and I'm rereading His Dark Materials, woohoo~ :D
And back into lurkdom I go...
|
|
|
[28 Mar 2007|10:24pm] |
ARRGH I'm going to go insane(r)! My stupid thumb is twiiiitching and it's been twiiiiitching/muscle/nerve spasm-ing on and off for the last few days now. AFjlkawjl;kwr;jowgo;iweoiweowgoOJIFOHIWFEipewghnwagjnowrowobwnobOIHHOWREg etc etc.
I took out a book (Pleasures and Days by Marcel Proust, huzzah, a book by him that isn't 5 volumes of paaaain long) from Koerner today! Be proud of me! I did it aaaaall by myself with the self-checker-outer-machiney-thing! It made such cute little blips at me. :D And yay touch screen thingie~
And to quothe the Daphne:
"These flecks are spicey."
And I just realized today that my eng. essay is due next wednesday. =__=||| I thought I had another week lololol sheeeeeeuuuuuuuut... This means I actually have to read my articles now! D: Damn!
|
|
|
[27 Mar 2007|05:39pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 ditzy |
] |
nappittynapnapnapnaaaaaaaapnap!!!!!!!
As in, one that is needed. Yes. AAAAAH geog lab exam today was poo! POO I SAY. >__<;; But yay it's over and done with :( I hope I passed. I need to get writing my stupid english essay sometime soon since I'm gonna be losing the easter long weekend cuz we're goin' on a rooooooooad triiiiiiiip for a sad reason...we're visiting my uncle-guy and other relatives. >__> hm. I'm not sure how that will turn out. There's gonna be tons of people though apparently, including my stupid asshole cousins that I just want to stabstabstabstabstabstabstabetc.
beautos natalus di! (er... what was it???? XIAOOOOOOOOO TELL ME AGAAAAIN >__<;;)
EDIT: beatos natales date! ty boss! :P I was close.. hahah)
Oh my green mutant dolphin fell off my phone today D: SO SAD. Stupid faulty piece of metal that was holding it on... at least I have the dolphin still though, so that's good at least...
Weeeell then back to my nappittynapnapnap! My foot is asleep without me D: Nooooo!
|
|
|
[12 Mar 2007|08:02pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 pensive |
] |
So I've decided that the worst way to die is through drowning/suffocation.
Last night I had this odd asthema-type attack thing, which I haven't had since like gr7 or something, I don't remember, but anyway, last night, yes, couldn't breathe, therefore I couldn't sleep at all.
That was so fucking horrible. Horrible, horrible, horrible...So I skipped 3/5 classes today in order to catch up on the sleep I missed through the entire night of horrible-ness.
And because of last night, I've remembered once more why I've always thought that suffocating was the most terrifying experience in the world.
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
tired