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[Sunday, May 9th, 2004 at 10:26pm]
[ mood | stressed ]
[ music | Jason Robert Brown - The World Was Dancing ]

I have 45 pages of papers to write before I leave, and I still haven't packed up my room. My books alone fill up both the box I'd been planning to use for my stereo (which is ludicrously gi-normous) and the one I was going to use for my microwave and TV.

Somebody shoot me now.

(12 let the sun fall down)

[Wednesday, May 5th, 2004 at 1:42pm]
I scored a 93% on the "How Los Angeles Are You?" Quizie! What about you?</b>

Oh, like that was a big surprise or something.

In other old news, finals are kicking my ass and I haven't left my room in two days. Good God do I hate the last two weeks of school.
(3 let the sun fall down)

[Thursday, April 29th, 2004 at 3:11am]
[ mood | distressed ]
[ music | Frou Frou - Flicks ]

Sometimes, I really fucking hate people.

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[Tuesday, April 27th, 2004 at 1:32pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Frou Frou - Shh ]

I am severely amused.

Also, have finally registered, w00t. At least now I have a back-up plan against the worst-case scenario come the fall.

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[Friday, April 23rd, 2004 at 3:32pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | Innocence Mission - Our Harry ]

God damn it, I hate this fucking school's administration.

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[Saturday, January 17th, 2004 at 9:26am]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | "I Don't Like Mondays," Tori Amos ]

Just once, I'd like to be able to leave home without feeling like a soppy piece of wet tissue paper the entire day beforehand.

Just once, is all I'm sayin'.

Spring break starts March 15th. Spring break starts March 15th. Spring break starts March 15th...

(4 let the sun fall down)

[Saturday, January 10th, 2004 at 4:01pm]
[ mood | mortified ]
[ music | NO MORE MUSIC IN MY HOUSE. EVER. ]

Jeff's Horror-Stricken Moment of the Day:

Watching your mother EDIT EDIT EDIT shake her groove thang (dear God, I didn't even realize she had one) to Outkast's "Hey Ya!"; Outkast, you have much to answer for.
Excuse me while I curl up in the corner and whimper in terror.
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"Come on, it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you..." [Wednesday, December 24th, 2003 at 9:54pm]
[ mood | festive ]
[ music | "Sleigh Ride," Ella Fitzgerald ]

A lesson in Tagalog:

Magandang Pasko!

or, in the English--
Merry Christmas!

Now, back to your regularly scheduled family bonding.
(5 let the sun fall down)

[Friday, December 19th, 2003 at 10:57am]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | "I've Seen All Good People," Yes ]

Paper not quite done yet, but close enough that I can do a few other things instead of busting my hump working on it. Now, I'm packing and eating shrimp dumplings and OH MY GOD it's about fucking time, I'm going home!!!--this semester was teh suxx0rz, I'm telling you. From now on, I'm out of here soon as classes end; I don't care when my finals are in the future, if I have to I'll lie my way into taking them early (don't flonqing ask me why I didn't do that this semester, I wasn't quite on top of my game). This is the last bloody time I stay out here till December 19th, that's for sure.

...I'll be home in less than twelve hours.

:-D :-D :-D

(5 let the sun fall down)

[Sunday, December 14th, 2003 at 2:12am]
[ mood | irritated ]

My suitemate, while cleaning the fridge preparatory to his moving out at the end of next week, threw out my leftover delivery from Friday night (of which, mind you, more than 3/4 still remained), and my last package of home-cooked food, which I had been saving for this week since, as we all know, finals period = time when comfort food is most sorely needed.

Keep in mind that he did all this while I was in my room, so theoretically he could've knocked on my door and said, "Hey, this doesn't look like it's mine since it's in Tupperware that has your last name written on the top, d'you think maybe it's yours?"

Theoretically, I say, since he didn't actually fucking do that. Now, we may never know what I might have said in reply. I could have been acerbic--"No, it belongs to the other guy with my last name who lives in our suite"--or grateful that he caught himself before tossing out what was, to me, a nice reminder of life at home--"Dude, thanks for checking with me first, I'd have been in a snit if this stuff got thrown out"--or, heck, I might have just said yes and told him to put it off to the side.

The world will never know.

GRR.

This does not bode well for the end of our acquaintance, since I'll probably be pissy about this till Wednesday, at least.

Six more days, six more days, six more days...

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I know what you're thinking--two posts from Jeff in as many days? Nonsense! [Wednesday, December 10th, 2003 at 1:29am]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | "Winter Wonderland," Rockapella ]

So I've got to finish my last few (late, naturally) papers, plus somehow figure out how where I'm going to begin vis-a-vis my giant-ass research project on 19th century New York drama that's due in a little over a week ("I know! I'll write about William H. Smith's The Drunkard1, because there's nothing that gets my intellectual bellows pumping like a fine mid-19th century melodrama about the virtues of temperance and the vicissitudes of a life dedicated to the bottle!"). I should theoretically be packing, and if I found some time to study for my Brit Lit final, that might be a good idea too.

Which begs the question: what on Earth am I doing updating my livejournal?

Telling you about my Thanksgiving holiday, of course.

(To paraphrase Adrienne: as the amount of time in which a blogger can successfully finish his work decreases, the probability that he'll update his livejournal approaches one. Truest internet law ever.)

*** )

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"I am fire and life incarnate!--and I also happen to be single and not doing anything Friday night." [Tuesday, December 9th, 2003 at 2:49am]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | "Where the Streets Have No Name," U2 ]

So remember the cute guy from my writing class? The one I sent the embarassing e-mail to at 6 in the morning last Wednesday? Shaggy-Haired Boy from sophomore year redux, essentially, except this time the guy seemed a whole lot more amenable to getting to know me?

Okay, well, if you don't know, that's okay--the short of it is that I went slightly insane last week, around 6 in the morning, and sent a bizarre, rambling, ramshackle letter to this guy I've had a crush on all semester long. Why yes, I do think outside the box, don't I? )

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"Welcome to the O.C., bitch!--heeeeeeey, wait a minute, this is Burbank." [Wednesday, November 26th, 2003 at 1:30pm]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | "Feeling Yourself Disintegrate," The Flaming Lips / "Wonderwall," Oasis (damn you Esther) ]

Going HOME-home really screwed up my equilibrium, I think.

Normally, I'd've made it to Thanksgiving with a little bit more bounce in my step, a little bit of a glimmer in my eyes. But returning to Manila really threw me off-kilter, I think; all of a sudden there are all these memories percolating and bubbling over in my head, these pangs of nostalgia and whispers of quiet joy that echo in the corridors of my mind. It's like, I should've been able to go a little bit longer without getting all weepy and sentimental, really I should have. The past few weeks, though, I've sort of been stumbling around in a bit of a daze, missing my family and mising the way they expand to fit all the space around them and missing the way that--

[...Oh, cry me a river, emo-boy.]

Meh. Enough of that self-indulgent whining. The last few weeks have been a bit lonelier than usual, big deal. The important bit is that I'm going home, and I've got four days back in the city I love. Thanksgiving with my little pocket of family is always fun; the aunts taking turns cooking in the kitchen and hitting each other with ladles, my uncles watching really bad action movies and laughing a little louder than is altogether seemly, the feeling that, for this day and for a day after that, this place is sacred and full of hope.

*cue really schmaltzy violin music*

And after that--well, we all know that the fall semester basically ends after Thanksgiving. Sah-weet.

But hey. You. Yeah, you--do you want to know why I'm really excited about going home?

Sure you do. )

Anyway, I've got Saturday free for sure, and probably at least a little bit of Friday, so if you want to do something let me know, y'all know the number. Happy Thanksgiving, everybody!

(5 let the sun fall down)

A pair of open letters-- [Monday, November 17th, 2003 at 9:54pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]
[ music | "They All Laughed," Ella Fitzgerald & Louis Armstrong ]

Dear all cyclists on the island of Manhattan:

Please to start with the NOT TRYING TO KILL ME WHENEVER I CROSS THE STREET.

THANK YOU.

kthxbai.

No love,

Jeff
and,

Dear Advanced Creative Writing Instructor:

How about instead of getting mad at me for showing up late to class, you start giving me a reason for showing up in the first place? We're in college, fiction workshops shouldn't be read-aloud storytime with Grandma Death.

Negative love,

Jeff
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Home, love, family--there was once a time I must've had them too [Wednesday, November 12th, 2003 at 11:43pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | "Journey to the Past," Aaliyah, Anastasia OST ]

There are really only six or seven stories, it's said by those jaded enough to espouse such beliefs; everything else is just a permutation of them, some quirk or foible or subtle hue distinguishing one tale from another.

I've never really believed that; if we're to reduce things to such simplistic elements, then really, what's the point in telling a story in the first place? If everybody knows everything that you're about to say, then why bother saying anyway?

However, I can't argue against the presence of certain tropes, certain thematic elements, that persist in the universal unconsciousness. The star-crossed lovers, the noble house fallen into disrepair, the hero and his opposing shadow, these are properties of all mankind, and must be acknowledged as such.

This story, then, may be counted among them, and is probably one of the oldest of the six or seven immortal themes. The story is simple: a lost son comes home, and finds himself reconfigured and transformed in the wake of his journey. It's been done before, up and down the world and over it besides.

It's in the telling, though, that things get interesting. It's like--the way I like to think of it is like with school uniforms. You know, when you go to a school that requires uniforms of its students (and for all the counterculture tight-pants-and-shaggy-haircuts going around NYU, this school might as bloody well require us to lift a uniform out of a Bright Eyes video or Spin magazine), it's in the little things you can get away with, the buttons on your regulation blazer or the hemline of your skirt, that set you apart the most from everybody else around you. I like to think about storytelling the same way: it's all in the accents, not in the language itself.

Speaking of accents and language, what with me and all my broken Filipino (Tagalog baloktot, as my aunt Livia likes to say), I'll take the time to apologize now for any sparsely-peppered Filipino phrases you may encounter herein. Sometimes, a guy just has to write what he knows.

Anyway. That's neither here nor there. What is important, right here, right now, is that this is precisely what's happened to me for the past two weeks of my life. I don't know if this was one of those life-changing bolt-from-the-blue stories, not just yet; I'm still writing the story down as I go along, and who knows where I'll be or how I'll think a week, a month, a year from now, anyway? What I do know is that right here, right now, this is about as true as it gets, with me, and that's probably enough. For now.

Because this is a story, like my grandmother likes to say, that comes out of the bones.

Buto ng buto ko, dugo ng dugo ko.

Don't worry if you don't know what that means just right now. You'll get it before the end, I promise.

*** )

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[Wednesday, October 29th, 2003 at 11:29pm]
Okay boys and girls, I'm off to the Philippines for a little while; family vacations and such, don'tchaknow. I'll be back by November 10th, so try to behave yourselves till then. I'll probably check my e-mail at least once, so if you want to just say hey, you can e-mail me here. Ta for now, everybody!
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[Sunday, October 26th, 2003 at 1:04pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | "Grace," Jeff Buckley ]

Awesome meme gacked from lacorneille.

Take this:

Well, I believe in the soul, the cock, the pussy, the small of a woman's back, the hanging curve ball, high fiber, good scotch, that the novels of Susan Sontag are self-indulgent, overrated crap. I believe Lee Harvey Oswald acted alone. I believe there ought to be a constitutional amendment outlawing Astroturf and the designated hitter. I believe in the sweet spot, soft-core pornography, opening your presents Christmas morning rather than Christmas Eve and I believe in long, slow, deep, soft, wet kisses that last three days.

(Crash Davis, Bull Durham)
and tailor as you see fit.

So, my personal creed:

Credo )

Oh, and soulcapri69, thanks for the MP3 the other day; it's not Jack Black singing, is it? Doesn't sound like him, really...
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[Tuesday, October 21st, 2003 at 1:05am]
[ mood | cynical ]
[ music | "Return To Me," October Project ]

Going back home (Philippines-home, not home-home) for a week and a half starting next Wednesday. The Philippines is probably the bootleg capital of Asia, if not the world, so I'm planning on making some serious shopping excursions while I'm there. Any suggestions as to what I should snag would be very much appreciated.

For that matter, I'll be going home-home for Thanksgiving, so buying something for someone and holding it till then wouldn't be a problem at all. If you want anything, just let me know before next Wednesday and I'll do my best to buy stuff for y'all.

(An example of how kick-ass is the bootleggery--this summer my dad got me the complete Band of Brothers DVD collection for about four bucks. Retail price States-side? $119.98. Oh yeah.)

***

In writing workshop this week, I figured out why I hate my instructor so very much--she's Barnett, only with teaching positions at two major universities to back up her Gojira-sized ego. The realization was a blow, and left me walking in a daze for the rest of the day.

I have exactly one class I wake up for in the mornings; everything else is just...sort of there, a tolerable means for ticking off the passage of time during the day. My perspective of life lately is perilously sympathetic with Will Lightman's in About a Boy; to get through a day, fill it with blocks of activity that come in thirty-minute increments. His basic unit of time was the television programme, mine's the mind-numbing class of insufferable and interminable length. They serve the same purpose--to distract us from the tedium of our day-to-day lives, we tame and control the flow of time.

...I want to be inspired again, dammit.

***

This almost did the job single-handedly, though--angelhedhipsterRachel sweetie, that picture you took in the train station was gorgeous. Any chance you took others of equal brilliance that day?

(4 let the sun fall down)

[Friday, October 17th, 2003 at 12:03pm]
A survey on global teen angst.

Apparently, British kids are all basically Smurfs in training, singing happy shiny family songs all the live-long day, while fifteen-year-olds in Korea are scowling and writing lots of really bad poetry about oh woe are them, no1 unnerstands theyre agnst!!!11

America, surprisingly, still plugging along in the top five with 25% of its teenagers saying they felt like they didn't fit in and disliked/were disliked by their peers. We rock, dudes! We showed that world community that our kids can't be topped in the stubbornly depressed game!
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My mommy is better than your mommy, nyah nyah [Sunday, October 12th, 2003 at 3:26pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | "Cling and Clatter," Lifehouse ]

Conversation with my mom the other day, post-recall (yes, I promise, this is the last I'll talk about the subject):

Me: I still can't believe you voted for Arnold.
Mom: I thought that you'd support him, actually.
Me: What? Are you kidding me?
[insert lengthy rant about Arnold here]
Mom: Well, yes, but--in the papers, they say that he's very liberal, and that he's--he's very open-minded about--he respects people like you a lot.
Me: People like me?
Mom: Yes, you know, people like--you know, he's very open-minded about lifestyles. Everybody says he's going to make life for you--for all of us, really--a whole lot better. But he's a friend. That's why I didn't like McClintock, he's too much of a bigot.
Me: ...Is that why you voted for Arnold?
Mom: Well, not all of why--I didn't like either of those propositions, if you ask me we need accountability in Sacramento, and Davis signed them both, and personal accountability needs to be considered, and--[insert Mom getting steadily sound-bite-esque]
Me: ...Thanks, Mom.
Mom: Humph. Don't thank me, thank the Governor.
Me: I'm still not calling him that, you know.
Mom: We'll see.
Aww. I <3 my mommy. She still can't say "gay" in reference to her own son, and she and I may come to loggerheads when we discuss controversial topics (i.e. politics, the state of the economy, the cult of celebrity in America, the weather), but bugger all if she doesn't take a stand for her own when she thinks she can make a difference.
(11 let the sun fall down)

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