Josh's World

Well, first off, please forgive my absence. I have just been to lazy to let you all know what’s been going on. to start things off I was having a little trouble in gymnastics this year via my lip ring. there was a mishap at this years acrofest which cause me to put in my ring. and because of my arrogance I was kicked off the team. but weeks later ( after letting the ring hole close up) frank allowed me to come back on the team. that’s basically been the big drama of the year. also I’ve been talking to this really great girl for the past too weeks. her name is Nazila and she is from Iran. you know how I love those ethnic chics. anyway things seem to be going great between us. as for the whole Doris thing, I really don’t give a fuck about her any more. for all I care she can stay in Peru. also I got a new bed. after 20 some years of sleeping in the same bed I finally got a new one. I bought it from Brian...well actually I was going to but he gave it to me for free since I drove him to Omaha to pick up his aunt's boyfriend. And that’s basically the rundown of my year so-far. Give me some feed back and let me know what up from the rest of y’all!

Current Mood: calm

JOSH'S WORLD updated....new comic created today

ok, well if you read Jenanns post then you know whats going on. i'm going to TRY to rite a new one each week. they will be on live journal and who knows maybe i'll do a myspace page or something, i dont know. anyway, i'm going to try to have a new one up each wednesday/thursday. i have a few ideas already on the burner that should last me bout a month. well wish me luck and we'll see where this ends up

Current Mood: creative

well for those of you with me last night. thank you. i'm feeling a bit better, however, i still wish things were different. its been almost a year since the incident and my life still hasn't fully recovered. there are days were i feel fine. and there are others in which i wish....in all honesty....i wish i were dead. yesterday was on of those days. no matter how many of my teammates trid comforting me it seemed to get worse and worse. even cindy's advice, which in the past made has me feel better, just seemed to push me farther into my hole. i felt alone. like it was in a room where the light bulb burned out hours ago. just me and the dark. for the longest time i have felt like my light has burned out. that i have no more hope in my life. half of me wants to believe that and just die. the other half wants to keep looking. thinking that someday i will find hope again. right no i don't know which one to follow. i wish i could say to keep moving forward, to give you who read this ease of mind. but sadly i don't know which to follow. just keep praying for me. i'll make it out one way or another......

Current Mood: distraught

I'm sick and tired of these motherfucking snakes on this motherfucking plane!
ah yes...every single samual jackson movie rolled into one, i was two hours of my life i'll never get back, yet srangely enjoyed. And after that Jenann and Nicolett went to play DDR...which i really need to practise more on. then we went to goodwill to get soome clothing for tonight 80's themed handshake.

Current Mood: Jackson-ated
Current Music: Cobra Starship - Snakes on a Plane (Bring It)

classes started today. it was a typical first day. i only had three classes today. one of which didn't met, namely because our instructor was in Cali. and also on the positive side, i only have one class tomorrow. and right now i'm just sitting in my apt. bored

Current Mood: bored

i didnt get the job. oh well i'll just try somewhere elese

Current Mood: blah

well just thought i would inform everyone that i have a job interview at the buckle tomorrow...yes you read correct i said the buckle.
anyway. wish me luck

Current Mood: hopeful

LeeeeeeROY....Jekins!!!!


http://www.youtube.com/w/Leroy-Jenkins-playing-World-of-Warcraft?v=BelM0H8NViI&search=leroy%20jenkins

Current Mood: Daring

Well I'm feeling a lot better now. My situation has settled down. I'm still single, but I'm fine with that. Thanks for all your help and support.

Current Mood: touched

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If y'all are wondering how I'm doing....

Well, lets put it this way....

For those of you (Jenann) who know the WHOLE story, I thought I was getting better. I'm not. Yesterday I woke up wanting the day to end. Today I was ok. But now...I'm not looking forward to tomorrow. There's so much I want to say now, but I don't feel like typing it up.

Jenann - Thanks for listening to me the other night. that really really helped.


12 Stones - The Way I Feel

Lately I've been wandering
Off the narrow path
You've given me so many things that I've never had
And all in all I know it's you that always pulls me through
If you reach deep inside you'll see my heart is true

Cause I hate the way I feel tonight
And I know I need you in my life
Yes I hate the way I feel inside
And I promise to make the sacrifice

The world I know is pulling me
More and more each day
I feel like the odd man out as I begin to pray
Spiteful eyes are watching me
With everything I do
In the midst of darkness Lord
My spirit calls for you

(You know sometimes deep inside)
I feel like this

Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: 12 Stones - The Way I feel

Break F'n Sucked.....
and on the last day i got in a wreck and my car had to be towed away.

Current Mood: gloomy

WEDNESDAY, NOVEMBER 9 -
We were scheduled to leave campus at 4:45 am. The plus side to this trip, unlike other trips, was the fact that we didn’t haul around our 40x40 spring floor. We left campus about 5:15. Our first stop was McDonalds for breakfast. After a quick breakfast we were back on the road. Our lunch was “located” at a convenience store Subway, and since there were no booths we ate in the vans. We made it into Keene, Texas about 5. Making the trip about 12 hours…blah. We drove up to the school handed in our forms then headed to one of their gyms to set up camp. We took our showers then headed to CiCi’s Pizza for supper. Some teammates and I had a very interesting run in while at supper. Some girl walked up to me and four of my male teammates and ask if either of us were gay because a friend of hers though we were cute. We all politely told her no. We headed back to the gym. I gave Doris a call to see how she was doing. As for the rest of the night, the team just hung out for the rest of the night.

THURSDAY, NOVEMBER 10 -
If I was telling Doris about today I would have said “Estoy cansado“. Today wore me out. We tried having a short practice, but everyone was too tired to focus. Thursday was all about clinics. We had 4 sessions, one on building, one on tumbling, one on trophies and liberties (gymnastic jargons), and the last one was a speech given by one of the math teachers. The topic was making a difference. After that we head back to our gym to run through our routine. This made us late for supper. BUT on the bright side we got to load up on all the leftovers. After supper was the group practice for the entrees. As I walked out side I saw my cousin. I couldn’t believe it was him. He changed a lot since that last time I saw him. Afterward was the handstand and butterfly contest. Our teammate Roddy won 1st place for the men’s handstand. Next was an short show of talent by some of the instructors. Next up on the agenda was a movie in a park close to campus. I went with a few friends to check it out. The movie, sadly, was “Elf”. But on the bright side I got to hang out with a friend from my old academy. I left before the movie was over. I called Doris and told her good night.

FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 11 -
Nobody wanted to get out of bed. We were all too sore from yesterdays activities. But some how we managed to get ourselves out of bed. Just like the day before today was all about clinics. During our first session, tossing, One of our teammates injured his leg while trying to catch his flyer (the girl being tossed). He caught her, however, but she landed weird causing him to fall and land on his leg funny. Because of his injury we were unable to perform on Saturday night. My aunt showed up around 1:30-1:45 and watch the team for a while. 2:30 was to be our practice time, but since we weren’t going to perform the team took a break to relax. After the final session finished I left with my aunt to her house in Dallas (about 45 minutes from Keene). She took me out to eat. We went to a Mexican restaurant named Tia’s. Not a bad place. She had me try some fried ice cream. It’s different, but good. Then we rented a couple Veggie Tales movies and went home. We got home and I called Doris to tell her happy anniversary. Then my aunt and I started the movies. She fell asleep first, towards the beginning of the movie and I actually fell asleep on the couch before the first one was over.

SATURDAY, NOVEMBER 12 -
For breakfast my aunt made pancakes. After breakfast I took a shower and started getting ready for the day. We finished the movie from last night, then went to church. We arrived a little late and only caught the last half of the service. It was still nice though. After church she took me out to eat again, this time to P.F. Chang’s. At the restaurant, hen the server brought us our meal she gave us each others order. My aunt ordered some kind of salad, and I was trying to figure out why my meal was cold. We soon figured out what happened switched plates and carried on with lunch. After lunch we went back to her house, I got packed, and we headed back to campus. When we got the hole team, except one, was asleep. I told m aunt good-bye, and joined in the fun like everyone else. About 6 we head to the other gym to prepare for the show, which started at 7. The show went smoothly, except for the end, when the music went out for the home team (SWAU) After the show we headed about to our gym to pack up. We aired up the air floor and had one more go around. We then headed back to SWAU’s gym for pizza, the packed up and left for home.

SUNDAY, NOVEMBER 13 -
One the road for most of the morning. Our coach treat us to IHOP for breakfast. We got back on campus around 12.

Current Mood: blah

I'm bored. the current time is 3:23 am. Which means I have about a hour and fifteen minutes til I have to leave. So wish me luck. And I'll be back sometime on sunday.

Current Mood: ecstatic

I leave for Acrofest tomorrow ar 4:45am. I will keep a day by day journal and tell you all about it after wards.

Current Mood: chipper

I had a pretty full weekend. All-in-all it turned out nice.
SATURDAY:
Doris and I went to the Toyota dealership up on north 27th. During midterm break I broke her rear view mirror. We tried fixing it several times, and it was time to get help. She got hungry so I bought her a muffin. But the muffin had mold growing on it. She got her mirror fixed and we headed off to the Spanish church. Doris invited me the night before. She heard they were having pot luck, and ever college kid loves to hear about free food. So we went there, I understood very very little. Pot luck was a bit of a disappointment. I went there once last year and it actually has a variety of food to choose from, but today there was one dish...haystacks. After church we went back to her house and just hung out. My dad had told me that he would come up that night, when he arrived he gave me a call. Him and I went to the Parthenon, and by the way I LOVE HUMMUS. Then afterward we went to see "Mask of Zorro". It was a good movie I thought. Doris had been wanting a burrito for a few days so I drove over to D'Leons and grabbed her a chicken burrito. I gave her a call, she was in the gym watching the game. So I headed over and presented her with the food. She was impressed that I bought that for her. Plus she did have supper, so it all kinda worked out. After the game Doris and I went back to her house to watch a movie, but the TV was being used. So we watch Ah! My Goddess. She liked it.
SUNDAY:
Doris told me she was going to give me a call when she wanted to hang out. I thought this was going to be sometime between 1-3. I was wrong. She gave me a call around 11. so I finished up what I was doing and headed over. We watch "Sleeping Beauty" (one of her favorite Disney movies), then after that we watched "Beauty and the Beast". After the movies I helped her clean her room. Then we ordered some Olive Garden, Spaghetti and Meatballs, and watched the third Disney movie of the day, "Lady and the Tramp". Doris loved it. After wards I Helped her with her homework. Then she gave me a ride back to the dorm...

Current Mood: calm

so yeah. I really would like you guys to pray for Doris all through next week. She going to take her TOEFL. And if she does better then a 500 she going to stay in Lincoln, anything less and shes going to finish up school in Peru :(
So just please pray that she does well. This girl means a lot to me. I know prayer has help this relationship through some hard times, and this is no different. Thank you for listening. And thank you for your prayers...

Current Mood: worried

Tomorrow is the camp out. Yeah! I'm excited.

In other news Doris (since i know she wont post this) is moving off campus on Sunday. My feeling on this. Well..... I'm ok with it. I know how she feels I'm tired of Dorm life too, and I want out too. Maybe I could live in her closet of something, be that "monster" the little kids are always talking about.

Did my MDS screening today. I don't know if I wanna get stuck with a need 35 times. but if i get 1200 dollars I can force myself too. But first i need to call them on Monday to see if I'm in, so wish me luck.

Current Mood: amused

Well, to catch everyone up to speed, Doris and I broke up last Wednesday. We've decided to stay friends, but to be honest it's going to be really hard to get over her. She was my first real girlfriend, so it'll take a while. I am feeling better. Last week sucked for me, but now I'm feeling a bit better. So just pray for me.

Current Mood: blah

I am almost at 100%. Right now I still have a sore throat. Last night, however, suck for me. I thought I had gotten better, but by the time vespers was over I didn't want to move. My car was parked in the parking lot (Doris and I went to Paneras before vespers) and I just put my head in her lab and wanted to die. It got so bad that I couldn't walk her back ot the dorm. I parked in the Prescott drive way, and could barley make it to the doorway. I went to bed, put a wet wash cloth on my forehead and went to sleep. When I woke up this morning i was feeling a lot better.

Current Mood: good