For the holiday season, I made a few wintery Supernatural icons for myself. Just thought I'd share the love!



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Happy Holidays/Merry Christmas everyone! I wish you hot brothers under your tree! :D

Hey LJ friends! I never update but well, SURPRISE. And HAPPY HALLOWEEEEEN, the happiest of all days! Slightly dampened by falling on Tuesday but any day dedicated to dressing up in costume is high on my list. Anyway, this afternoon I was sitting around watching horror movies and eating Skittles and decided to make some icons for the occasion! I don't usually share them here, but here goes! :D These are pretty simple; just some quick icons from two of my favorite horror flicks Carrie and Psycho. (The 1960 incarnation. Duh.)



( She just goes a little mad sometimes. We all go a little mad sometimes. Haven't you?  )

Is it wrong that I think Norman Bates looks like Ryan Gosling in #3, and is therefore totally hot to me? Discuss. XD

Y'know, at first I didn't think much of the Golden Globes but was excited for any party that involved dressing "classy". However, tonight has been totally AWESOME. Milbank 12 consistently proves that any party that involves dressing up should be held here, because we go all out. We swankified our common room. The greatest start of classes I've ever had. We all picked people to root for in every category. Me and Meg tied overall! Yesss, we are awesome and twins. (Meg said I could be her date to the GG if she is nominated for best screenplay, provided she doesn't have a significant other at the time. I'm honored. Especially since Meg P. offered free medical care. How can I compete?) Also, I described tonight as being "languidly tispy" for me. It was nice. ^___^ I think I had 3 1/2 cosmos, where each one tasted better than the last. Yes, I know. But I felt so glam tonight and finally didn't think I had chipmunk cheeks! I wore my hair down and my 15 dollar Marshalls dress too. In short, I feel much calmer about classes, and I still think I'll be fine for my 10:30 class tomorrow. Goodnight, darlings! (In both senses of the word!)

Well, all my wisdom teeth are out. Take that, impacted bitches.

...Although, OW. I don't think I ever realized how heavily I always sleep on my cheeks until now. Or can't sleep, as the case may be. My cheeks haven't been this swollen since my face got real friendly with a patch of gravel while skipping down the street as a kid. However, the actual surgery was so much easier than I thought it was going to be! I LOVE THE AMNESIA EFFECT! Not remembering the surgery, excellent. EXCELLENT. I only wish I didn't remember the IV. Seriously, I know my irrational fears and IVs hover around the top of the list.

I saw Rent on Broadway! I had a blast, the city is SO FUN. I had a few issues with the current cast though. *coughcaplanantoniquecough* However, I just love the show so much. I'm so spoiled on OBC. Plus, Anthony Rapp is pretty much my lover. His moves during La Vie Boheme? I die. Seriously. And his facial expressions? ARE LOVE.

My room is so clean! I really wish I had time to move my furniture and paint my room. I have a feeling that I'm not going to be up for it this week. However, I guess it will be something to look forward to the next break. ....Kaaay, enough rambling. That was a nice distraction though. On to 6AM milkshakes.

Stolen from The Spec/Sarah:

Thumbs Down:

Last minute projects: Dude. It’s two days before Spring Break, have a little respect for the braindead.

2 Hours of Sleep: I’m against it. Even when it’s my own damn fault.

Sudden temperature drop: Way to mock us. ‘You guys want spring? I’ll show you spring!’

The Wind: I’m voting ‘no’ on proposition 227, allowing the wind to enter Oneida county. I say we build a giant wall that causes the wind to skip over us and hit the next county really bad.

The Housing Lottery: An emotional rollarcoaster! Should not be attempted anywhere near midterms.

Thumbs up:

X-Men Legends: Throwing cars. Rogue’s cheesy Southern accent. Kicking ass.

Watching Firefly with The Children: Should be done always and more often.

The Chords D, G and A: These are my very favorite chords. Wait, they’re my only chords.

Murder Mystery Parties: Being the trollop! Doing a Jersey accent! Dressing up! SO. MUCH. FUN. Here's to pansies, frenchmen and mafia princesses.

Breaktown: Keeping me happy and my hallmates annoyed throughout the winter. <3

Only One More Day to Spring Break: Priceless.


Who Cares:

Umm, attending classes on Friday?

<3 Becky
-The Homemaker of Eta Alpha Eta, Hamilton’s geekiest Frasority

I think I'm finally committed to a major. Well, as much as I can be. I know, I know, everyone has already chosen a major. But with my indecisiveness, I'm so pleased about my decision. I'm going to be an Anthropology major. I'm an Anthropology major. Weiiird. It's not my lifelong dream or anything, but I do really enjoy it. And apparently I really am pretty good in it. Professor Raybeck really thinks I'm crazy. Like really touched. He speaks of my writing the optional paper with my grade on the midterm like it was so noteworthy. It felt really nice though, that he noticed my work, and thinks I'm such a good student. I swear, I'm going to be motivated because I want to keep up this image he has of me. I have to admit that a reason I'm majoring is that I did do very well in the class. Everyone likes to feel good at what they are doing. And I so rarely feel like I'm really good at anything, that this means something to me. I have to work on my academic self-confidence, I don't think I have a very accurate perspective on my work as compared to other people.

Hmm, well, that turned out a bit more contemplative than I thought it would be. In other news, Meg showed me some of the basics of playing the guitar tonight. I really liked it, more than I thought I would. I don't know if I have the ear for it but I want to try to be patient and practice and see what I can do with it. "Leaving on a Jet Plane" is lined up to be my first practice song. I like it. I have a certain fondness for that song. (I say that now...)

Well I feel that today deserves to be commemorated in LJ. Today began at 8:00, when the Megs knocked on my door to tell me that the power was on the fritz. Which was shortly followed by the power going out entirely, leaving Bundy in an semi-eerie darkness. This was shortly followed by the best idea ever. Meg ever so subtly suggested we ditch our first classes and head to IHOP for breakfast. It was so much fun to trek out to New Lot, avoiding the downed power lines and head for the relative freedom of the road to Utica. We ate the biggest, most increadible breakfast (I got the chocolate chip pancakes and bacon. And hot chocolate. In my hair.), annoyed the other customers by laughing too loudly, and generally had fun. On a weekday morning. I knooow.

And the blackout gods were truly gracious, as my 10:30 class was cancelled, giving me time to study for Japanese and kick ass at days of the month. It felt really good to kick some Japanese ass, and counteracted the discouragement of getting my test back. Plus, I only have 2 pages of worksheets for Planetary Geo tonight! *shock*

It 's been a good day. ^_^

Soo... this 'finals' thing is going to be tough. Can you tell by the subtle fact that I'm now updating my LJ? I think I need to have classes in order to get into a studying mood.

Well, here's the interesting things I've discovered while procrastinating today:

Crocheting? Yeah, well, it's more addicting than it sounds. There's something very satisfying in glorified knotting. Crack. The yarn must be coated in crack.

I heart Serenity and all who live in it SO much. A bunch of Firefly cast people attended the 'In Good Company' premiere, cause, y'know, it's put out by Universal. And my god, you have to look at this.Look! Look at Fillion! Or you could just look at my icon. It's incredible. He's wearing a kilt. A leather kilt. I don't even know what to think. Perhaps it was designed to confuse the media. But I love my Captain and his skirt. Although, speaking of pants, or lack thereof, it is rumored that Simon will now be sporting the tightest pants in the county. Not that I'm complaining, but our little fandom is going to be all flipped around. Dr. Tightpants. Wow.

Hmm, I think I had a few more observations, but they've been totally wiped out by these interesting pants images. I'll be in my bunk. ^_^

Last night I happened upon Connie online right before she was leaving for the Ben Kweller/ Matt Nathanson concert. I have to say, I kinda loved Matt Nathanson. Not only was his music really good and just what I was in the mood for, he was actually pretty damn funny. I particularly enjoyed: 1. that he was a self-proclaimed dork and proud of it, 2. that he thinks Amelie is the perfect woman, and 3. he looks a good deal like David Boreanaz, albeit towards the later years of Angel, and he knows it. I don't know if this is on purpose, but he even spikes up the front of his hair in a comical parody of Angel. It's like Angel's hair, but more awesome! He was funny in many, many ways. It was fun to just be able to meet him after his set, get something signed (with "Becky is the rock!!" nonetheless) and say I thought he put on a great show. Kind of cathartic. And I felt a certain sense of irony when I noticed the end of his name. *le sigh*

It was also really fun to get to go out and hang out with a bunch of people I don't know as well. I never really think that I can be a central person in a group, but I had tons of fun with Connie, Kim, and Robert and was totally comfortable just meeting their friends. Plus Connie came back to Bundy to watch Dead Poets' Society, which inspired HAH parallels, always fun. It was just a really satisfying night.

Well, hello old LJ. For being a such a fan at first, I certainly never manage to write in here. But right now I want to do so many things that I figured I could. I'm not making much sense, but that's okay. Me and Meg just watched "Practical Magic" and I'd forgotten what a good movie it was. It really made me happy to see it. Well, and it made me want to be a witch. Or maybe just a wiccan. When I got back to my room, all I wanted to do was dress up, light candles, break out the potions ingredients, and do... a spell. Or something, ^_^. I know its childish, but that's part of the reason it's so wonderful. I miss making acorn soup and burning feathers and drawing with chunks of charcoal. I think this might be some residual Hogwarts wish fulfillment too. I really would like it if we could live in our little castle of ELS, surrounded with dusty old books and our antique victrola, all restored and polished. And we could spend our time in Eta Alpha Eta, making the world feel like magic again. Playing. It's a silly dream. But a nice one. I'm so happy though, that I've found other Hogwarts kids that indulge me. *Sigh* If only to break into the observatory... But for now, I'll draw and take some photographs and dream. And that still make me smile. And once I have my spacy, 'let's-do-magic' energy down, then I'll get around to doing something, y'know, possible.

EDIT: I like how when I first saw the creative mood icon, I totally went "Woah, it's doing magic! The LJ people are psychic!!... oh." But still, pretty cool! And it really looks like a wand, right?

Okay, so today there was much entertainment! Particularly in the form of crackers. I have a pretty, shiny, silverly new DVD player! My old one needed to join the family collective back home, so... I lurve it. It's sleek, and plays slideshows, and is slot-loaded, and can work a VCD! Yea! I salivate. Hehe... I'm such a tech girl, it's ridiculous. Today I went to the mall with the Megs, (and actually the whole Payseur clan) and we went into Victoria Secret on a quest for a "pretty" bra for each of us. Well, I was standing in line with Meg ( well, to differentiate, I refer to her as Akai Meg in print, a reference to her hair) and suddenly it hit me "You know, you could buy an off-brand DVD player for the price of this bra!" And I totally psyched myself out of it and had to put it back. And on Valentine's Day. Hmmm, I wonder if this might have any correlation with the general lack of interest in me from the guy population! Sigh, what can I say, I'm a geek girl through and through!

Anyways, I have a little Valentine's Day present for everyone! In honor of next week's Angel, which has already provided us with an insane amount of joy, I made icons! In case you weren't blessed to see it, Angel gets turned into a PUPPET. A brooding muppety puppet. And oh, Spike looks like Christmas has come early! Hehe, it doesn't get much better than this! "You're a bloody puppet!!" Classic. Enjoy!

Just thought I'd share a bit of disturbingness I discovered a bit ago, for anyone who doesn't know. As any Harry Potter fan might, I've been following the casting for the next movie a bit. Then I gazed upon this seemingly innocent picture of new Dumbledore. But scanning the staff table... next to Snape.... oh dear lord, what have they done to Lupin? Is it not bad enough that they cast they creepy guy from Dragonheart? (Instead of say, my lovely Faramir, David Wenham, whom I'm now convinced would have made an excellent Lupin, but that's just me.) Must they now make him a creepy used car salesman from the 1930s too? Oh, the MUSTACHE! He is the visual equivalent David MOO, the dub voice actor for Xelloss himself! Well, I've completely given up hope. My fangirl dreams have been crushed. Now they'll cast some old ugly guy as Remy and just put me in an early grave!

This livejournal icon has come out of my grief:

I would have used that for my current icon, but me and tinamond have this lovely little exchange going! I was so very entertained by her contribution that I played with a bit in Photoshop. Hope ya don't mind Meg! I have been forever branded as Gollum... just because I happen to eat a clementine like it's a fish. What? It's juicy sweeeeet! (Sorry, sorry, that was Dad-worthy ^_^;) Don't fear, I have not forsaken my role as Merry yet though! Okay, less ramble, more nap!

I think I'm finally getting used to this college thing. It's not as different as I thought it would be. When I left London, I thought that Hamilton would have nothing in common. I'm not sure why. But there is still the same feeling for me, of having free time punctuated with class and homework. I'm much more grounded here though at the same time lighter. One thing I was glad to leave behind from London was the loneliness. It seems disconcerting now to think of being as disconnected from people as I was. I think I feel much more lonely thinking back on that than I did at the time. I honestly don't know how I would have made this transition without the Megs. I'm not sure how other Jan admits do it. Although the rest of the London group have each other, so that's like coming in with strong friendships. And I honestly think that getting smashed created a lot of the camaraderie that I missed out on. Just the idea of being dependent on others and seeing each other reveal weakness that comes out of it. And of course all the in-jokes. But maybe I'm totally misconstruing it. I wouldn't know.


The first few days here were hard. Last semester, I found strength in being independent. When I came here I didn't really have a place or people who I felt comfortable around. In the city I would have gone and done things by myself. But here, I felt I couldn't just go out to the dining hall alone or go watch a movie or something. That first Saturday, I felt so weak for not being able to go out and fit in somewhere. It seemed like everyone on my hall knew each other and were so comfortable. Then the very next day, Megan came and I met Meg. And I felt so much better. I probably shouldn't be so dependent, I should be making lots of new friends. But honestly, spending time with the two of them feels so great, that it's become less of a priority. I just have to try to not close off myself. We'll see, I guess. Ok, that was far too much introspection. I'm done now!

Well, I was forcibly made to get a livejournal a bit a ago. I then proceeded to move straight into fiddling with the colors and deciding to make an icon... without ever, um, using the livejournal. So here I am. It really figures, I have always liked the show of dressing up better than actual activity. Unfortunatly for me, I can't go online on my lovely shiny laptop, which is usually when I feel like writing anything. Ah, sweet Aizoutoushi, I just love getting use out of her! Anyways, today I saw Return of the King again! It has now been solidified as my favorite movie. I love conclusive endings! I continue to mourn the lack of Faramir/Éowyn, I swear they are on screen less each time! Actually, that's probably just the fault of my mounting love for them. Of course, I most enjoyed seeing my sweet hobbits! Ahhh. Would it be so wrong to name my future son Samwise? Sam is a normal nickname... I got a drag my parents to Return of the King, which was great, I love seeing the movie with new people. I would really like to see it once more before I leave for the MON, or that great unknown of College. My day was also made bright by a trip to Barnes and Noble, though they had absolutely none of the books I needed or wanted. Still, the meandering was fun. I entertained myself by reading old Foxtrot. I love Jason. I also saw the coolest anthology of Gary Larson comics ever. They were the largest books I had ever seen... or at least remember. The Art of The Return of the King will yet be mine! Hmm, did I obsess over ROTK enough today? That movie puts me in an emotional state for the rest of the day. I fear for the results of my history final that I took directly after my first viewing. It was certainly worth it though.