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Tuesday, December 11th, 2007

Time:
December 11th, 2007 • 11:24am
copelands new cd is out, dressed up and in line.
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Friday, February 17th, 2006

Time:
February 17th, 2006 • 7:22am
im going to stop being so paranoid.
i trust you.
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Monday, February 13th, 2006

Time:
February 13th, 2006 • 8:13pm
ive never heard of this band called Chasing Victory
but those are my valentines plans now
im going to see them in grand rapids with nick rhodes
i know,
i know.
im have them playing on purevolume right now
and theyre not bad.
im excited
grand rapids is fun
and if the show isnt
we can go beat up gangstas er soemthing...

<3
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Time:
February 13th, 2006 • 7:57pm
tomorrow is Valentines Day.
I have my Valentine.
who i wont be seeing tomorrow.
but ill be thinking of i promise.


so today sucked.
i always say i wont do the thing that i once again did.
im fucking lame.
tomorrow i have nothing planned after school.
i think im just going to come straight home and sleep.
i need sleep.
im going to go try and lay down again.
i bought the new yellowcard CD
nothing can top theyre "only one"
cutest song ever.

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one


eh i feel sad.
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Saturday, February 11th, 2006

Time:
February 11th, 2006 • 6:49pm
Music:paramore..
so turns out im not moving to my dads after all.
ive thought about it
a lot...
and when i turn 17 this summer,
im applying for Paul Mitchell The School in San Diego, California.
My parents fully support me and are paying for me to move out there when i graduate. So thats tight and im fucking excited. Plus its only a year of courses. Versus Optometry at Ferris which would be like 6 years.

OMG. IM HAPPY.
ill be at megans tonight.
byyyyye.
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Friday, February 10th, 2006

Time:
February 10th, 2006 • 6:33pm
Music:this day and age..
so apparently next week, my family is all going into family counseling!
WOOT FUCKING WOOT!
im so excited, i feel like pumping up with some Jock Jams!

so today i went over to seans with dre and megan. today was dre's last day. but i wont miss her. because she's still mine.
tomorrow i want to hang out with megan.
her and i went to mattys later on with sean and i listened to 'Bowsers a PUUUUNK' for the third time. and still laughed. fucking tightest song ever! i love you zac
monday im going to hang out with jeff. we're going to the mall. and i get paid sunday so little will he know, im going to buy him a cute valentines day present.
but only because he admited the stars were really pretty.
i remember when he bought me a white rose just cus i wanted one...payback time<3
(i still have the rose on my wall dried out)
so im really cold and im going to take a bath.
and i hope i get my letter from that asskicking METAL kid with nice abs soon.




btw the way incase i havent already told you: i got the weekends mixed up and im going with my dad NEXT weekend, not this weekend.
partytime.
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Wednesday, February 8th, 2006

Time:
February 8th, 2006 • 6:28am
omgomgomg
last night...
was crazzzzy

first i hung out all day with sean. we drove around for a while dropping girls off places then went to soccerzone for no reason. came back went to danny's. then to McDonalds. then to the basketball game. then back to Sean's house where he cooked me mushyass ramen noodles
and thennn around 9:30 Jason called back
so i ended up going over to his house till 11
and..ummmm.
yeah.


and anywang when i got home i smelled like smoke still from earliar and my stepdad was still up so he came to give me a hug goodnight and i was like fuuuck. and i KNOW he smelled me. but he didnt say shit. weird.
this whole fucking week has been weird.
im still moving to my dads, regardless of them being really sweey lately.
FUCK SCHOOL. g2g.
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Monday, February 6th, 2006

Time:
February 6th, 2006 • 6:15pm
Music:mogwai<3.
ew i hate drama. like i lov listening till im stuck thinking about all the useless shit i now know about.

but fortunately:

its like the more drama i become involved in, the less i have to put up with
im not doing anything tonight
but tomorrow im hanging out with jason!oh baby! and then i have my Milkyway who gives me butterflies too.
its out of control.
im not going to choose anyone though because i cant go crazy. i finally am allowed to do anything i want WITH NO FUCKING RULES. and im not going to fuck it up.
I stayed after to take a chemistry test. ive had a four day weekend of missing Herberts class so i think thats why my day went so well. i havent had to speak to my stepdad whatsoever and thats beyond perfect.
i think ill go watch a movie.
myabe spy game again.
i swear thats my favorite movie EVR.
ha. i shortened a 4 letter word.
ha! word.
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Friday, February 3rd, 2006

Subject:im a mess, i confess.
Time:
February 3rd, 2006 • 1:46pm
i bought new socks
and new sunglasses cus i lost my old ones.
now im completely matching Karly's<3
so heres the story morning glory:
i told my mom how i want to move to dads so every night is another argumental attempt at a "discussion". i see my dad next weekend and i just wish time would fly. im really nervous right now because my parents know i skipped today and they dont know where i am and im not anticipating their arrival back home. i dont even want to call this my home. i feel the most unwelcome and insecure about this place. my home is driving down country roads with dre and sean speeding and screaming to our favorite songs while coloring our lungs black. but everything has to change. i have to leave. if i stay here, ill go crazy. dre's leaving anyways. i just want to fast forward a few months and be all situated at my dads. im in fucking pause here and im going to have a panic attack i swear. fuck bad butterflies. im tripping bad right now. i dont have any idea how to make this day better. i just want to disappear for a while.
or go swimming.
a millionty and fourhundred and twenty laps in ice water sounds real calming.
im going to go drink tea and scream for a while.
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Monday, January 30th, 2006

Time:
January 30th, 2006 • 4:19pm
Music:oh just some Brand New-you know..
oh so you know
just got back from bigboys and stuff
smoked a little
laughed a little
you know!
wish KATE had been there
SUCKERFACE. SUCK ME BITCH.
haha she would. my shit stories turn that babe on<3!
anywho bout to call mando. so he should pick up. thatd be sweet. maybe ill sing to him?!
..if he PICKS UP.
ive got NO TAREA!
eat shit escuela. and im only using some minor sweet espanol lingo cus that eats shit too! ive gots to email my papa as well. tell him for the twatillionith time im positive. and that when thats done..ill eat or smoke or STUDY?!?!
HAHA JAYKAY!

DID YOU KNOW...?!?!
that oh my twatastic is the only muscle on my body that works harder than my heart?!?
and its all from watching tv..and from speeding up my breathing.
uh huh.
pretty tiiiight.
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Thursday, January 26th, 2006

Time:
January 26th, 2006 • 7:46pm
my feet are cold.
and i cant find my nailpolish.
and my watch keeps slowing down.
but offroading is fun.
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Thursday, January 19th, 2006

Time:
January 19th, 2006 • 6:43pm
Mood: determined.
Music:weezer- holiday.
so i just got off the phone with my sweet daddy
and he's getting all the paperwork for the custody bizznatch
and we just had a loooong talk
involving alot of secrets being opened
and it was scary
but i feel better
and more confident
im more sure of this move, this decision, then of anything my entire life.

but dont woory, this will be no quickie
im still here now.

and i really am in love with this adrienne bannister giiirl
today with andres--she had my back lemmetellya..and then some.


i love you dre and sean. you two are my home.
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Tuesday, January 17th, 2006

Time:
January 17th, 2006 • 10:39am
LST WRDS:

"We look forward to a future of taking it."
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Monday, January 16th, 2006

Time:
January 16th, 2006 • 10:18am
i can count on one hand and two fingers who i will miss. a lot.
only seven holding me back:
kw
ab
mg
aj
kd
sh
make that six.
i wish i were at BigBoy's already.
im ready for a light and some bathroom stories.

I NEED BALLS.
pretty much
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Wednesday, January 11th, 2006

Time:
January 11th, 2006 • 10:49am
my vagina is on FIYAH!!#*!
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Monday, January 9th, 2006

Time:
January 9th, 2006 • 5:54pm
Im sweating like a modafucka

and i smell goooood.
=D


i just answered the door to some creeepo salesman and its fucking dark outside.
who sells home security systems AFTER DARK?!?
im home alone
and i just locked all the doors.
and i think ill call sean or something.
Adrienne can fit in the lockers.
te he.
thats my new goal.
to fit in a locker.
and get more members in our UV gang.
SPF 69!
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Sunday, January 8th, 2006

Subject:omgomgomg<3
Time:
January 8th, 2006 • 3:01pm
sergio: heather, is andres your boyfriend?
heather: hmm, idk![turn to andres] Are you my boyfriend?!
andres: hm...idk!
heather: [turn to sergio and shrug]
-awkward silence-
andres: heather, are you my girlfriend?
heather: only if youre my boyfriend..
andres: ok!
heather: aww sergio, andres and i are bf/gf!!!


anways me and karly started up a gang at the game
"UV gang" and we wear our sunglasses e v e r y w h e r e
and we rap about people
and drink out of milk drugs
and color with crayons
we're rad<3
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Sunday, January 1st, 2006

Time:
January 1st, 2006 • 7:22pm
just got back from that odd movie with Kirsten
Candace is downstairs going crazzzzy
hahahaa
im seriously going to make her swallow one of these pills.
anywangs
im tired
but it was so nice seeing you Kirsten! i misssssed you.
i feel better<3
listening to old blink really makes me feel better♥
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Subject:everything has fallen to pieces, earth is dying, help me Jesus.
Time:
January 1st, 2006 • 2:29pm
Music:blink.
im so confused
like i know i should move, but i always have hope that things will get better.
my stepdad and i got in anotherrr fight and we got physical again. i slammed the door on him and the side panel broke or something so he flipped out and grabbed my neck, so as he was fucking choking me i kicked him in the balls..kinda hard i guess. whoops.
so then there was drama for half the day
me trying to get to the phone to call my dad
but now im calm and i feel so guilty and i know once again, i wont leave. and then he called from work and apologized and i could tell he was crying.
so wtf do i do?!?

fuck it.

anywho
my break has been good
could be better
but im looking forward to january
my parents are leaving for a week
which means lotssss of mischief. and i cant wait. there will be many sleepovers.
i need a ciggarette.

-kirsten, Im not sure about hanging out, because chris has tomorrow off and i dont want to have you here in case he's in one of his moods...but ilu
-karly, we never did go ice skating that second day. we had to buy skates in kalamazoo then we just chilled...i miss you!
- ambrea...ilu.

and oh yeah, i dyed some of my hair...blonde♥
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Tuesday, December 20th, 2005

Time:
December 20th, 2005 • 4:38pm
Music:dc.
as for me, i wish that i were anywhere, with anyone, making out.
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Sunday, December 18th, 2005

Time:
December 18th, 2005 • 10:27pm
Music:garden st soundtrack.
he left for colorado today.
so its like a week and more till i see him next
i miss him already!

i saw my xmas presents today
now i just have to wait 4 days till i can actually open them.
fucking CUTE.

im working all day monday and tuesday
more money for me and myself and my friends!

Karly- iloveyou
and youre getting like double presents since i still owe you your bday present!
and you make the cutest frech toast!
and you made my night/day!

kirsten-i saw you.

ambrea- ill call you.

im fucking tired.
im going to buy a jones soda and spend the money i just made

goodnightitititit
tit
tit
tit
oh shit
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Friday, December 16th, 2005

Time:
December 16th, 2005 • 6:25pm
oh fuck.
everytime i move my whole body falls asleep. i go numb all over and my eyes go black and i get so dizzy i cant stand. my hands get all tingling
and i cant think

what the fuck? it cant be healthy. i dont feel well at all.
andres, come back from colorado already.

i need some sleep.
karly, id call but i dont want to get up. i feel like throwing up. ill call you tomorrow though. reschedule our sleepover<3

goodnight
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Time:
December 16th, 2005 • 10:30am
oh andres!
poor hipbone
lets trade
<3
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Time:
December 16th, 2005 • 9:54am
Music:jew- for me this is heaven.
TO MANDO<3
The first star I see may not be a star.
We can't do a thing but wait.
So let's wait for one more.
The time such clumsy time in deciding if it's time.
I'm careful but not sure how it goes.
You can loose yourself in your courage.
The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.
This is what she says gets her through it:
"If I don't let myself by happy now then when?"
If not now when?
When the time we have now ends.
When the big hand goes round again.
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?
Close my eyes and believe wherever you are, an angel for me.


thats some old school jimmy eat world<3
you're my angel, my everything.
my darling.
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Thursday, December 15th, 2005

Time:
December 15th, 2005 • 10:50am
i love you much(most beautiful darling)

more than anyone on the earth and i
like you better than everything in the sky

-sunlight and singing welcome your coming

although winter may be everywhere
with such a silence and such a darkness
noone can quite begin to guess

(except my life)the true time of year-

and if what calls itself a world should have
the luck to hear such singing(or glimpse such
sunlight as will leap higher than high
through gayer than gayest someone's heart at your each

nearness)everyone certainly would(my
most beautiful darling)believe in nothing but love

<3!!!
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