Current mood:	pensive
Current music:	Keith Urban - Be Here

You're all invited to come eat off my floor
Yeah, so ... I require lots of "me time." And when I need it, and people won't leave me alone, I clean. What 12 and 13 year old boys in their right minds are gonna ask if I need help? So... clean, I have. That tiny 1/4th of an inch on the baseboards that gather dust? They've ALL been dusted, every baseboard in the house. When you open your washer, and there's like.. tiny hairs/lint/dust inside the rim, and (if ya have them) in your liquid bleach and/or fabric softener dispensers? Those are now also clean. ALL the laundry has been done. I've vacuumed the curtains. Every inch of carpet has been vacummed, including under the beds. I even vacuumed the livingroom furniture. (Damn Chicken and her cat hair!) Every bit of hard wood and/or tile has been swept and mopped. The hardwood entryway even got an extra treat. I Pledge'd it... by hand. (It looks purty, but a word to the wise... don't go running to answer the door in your socks. My older son WIPED OUT - I'd have LOVED to have caught that on video.) The sheets to every bed in the house have been washed. Both bathrooms are spotless... no lint/dust/ behind the toilets... showers spotless (including the glass doors in the master bath).. toilets perfectly clean... mirrors and fixtures gleaming. I even washed the boys' shower curtain. All of the glassware displayed atop my kitchen cabinets was taken down, the tops of the cabinets were dusted, the glassware was all washed and put back. The plants up there have also been dusted and I even mayo'd the leaves to make them shiney. Every houseplant has been watered. There's not a speck of dust in this joint, not in the window sills... not even on top of the fridge. Although... *looking to the left* I think I forgot to dust the ficus in the livingroom. I took everything out of the fridge/freezer, wiped down the shelves/drawers and put everything back. I just finished scrubbing and rinsing the oven so when I bake cookies later, I won't have to look at the little bit of funk (mostly droppings off of frozen pizzas) in the bottom. I took all of the glassware out of my curio cabinet in the dining room, the 3rd load is now running through the dishwasher on the crystal/china setting, and 2/3 of the glassware has already been put back into the cabinet. When I moved in here, I somehow missed putting shelf liner into 3 of the kitchen cabinets, so I finished that off while I was at it.

And now? I'm fucking BORED.

So bored, in fact, that I've gone back and read each and every blog I have posted here. And WOW... I'd like to take a moment to apologize now for inflicting my insanity upon the lot of you. It's funny how stuff in your life can be so important that you just HAVE to blog that shit, cuz it's important, right? Important enough that when you get bored and go back to read it all... you've forgotten about it altogether. OR... you look back and realize that things/people that used to be so important to you... aren't quite as important anymore. Life is funny.

Anyway... funnies/tidbits/points of interest from old blogs:

January 07, 2003 "www.saveaduck.com" (Where the fuck did THIS come from?)

February 03, 2003 "Our hotel, the Riviera, was on the less busy end of the strip, which was perfectly OK by us. We could at least cross the street if needed (It was needed! They had great big margaritas over there! ) We were SUCH tourists... sight seeing (the sites we saw in Cheetah's!!), riding rollercoasters (we broke Olivia of her fear of heights, lol), and eating - The best idea ever??? A food court in the lobby of your hotel! A food court w/ KRISPY KREME!!

June 23, 2003 "Parenthood. God, I love this game."

September 12, 2003 ""I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it." ...Aren't there classes I could sign them up for, or something?

October 07, 2003 "I can aspire to be your everything, wanting nothing but to bring you joy. But, reliance on me for your happiness will be your downfall. I'll be your pedestal, but never a crutch."

December 11, 2003 "Oh! and I feel all grown up. I got my AAA Membership Card in the mail the other day."

January 05, 2004 "Grandma called me today to wish me a happy birthday. She says that she's been trying for days to reach me and not my "machines." Once she got me on the phone, she burst into song. She sang the entire Happy Birthday song to me! Now... grandma couldn't carry a tune in a bucket, but it was one of the most beautiful things I've ever heard!"

January 27, 2004 "In the end, what affects your life most deeply are things too simple to talk about." --Nell Blaine

March 24, 2004 "I can't imagine the dedication, the money already spent, the time and energy that must have been put into this spring tour (a tour that was supposed to start in only 3 weeks)... all wasted."

March 25, 2004 "Vegas is finally over... I can't really think of anything that I did that I wished I hadn't done, and although I know of a few things I wish I HAD done that I didn't... GOOD TIMES. I was lucky enough to not only reconnect with old friends, but make new ones as well... I saw a few I had missed dearly, partied like a rockstar, and the list of those I now miss has grown."

March 27, 2004 "You live and you learn, and as long as you don't let it keep you down... You're on your way to living happily ever after."

April 14, 2004 "Circus Peanuts - That new toothpaste that's like orange, or red, and it's flavored? The one w/ Emeril in the commercial? The orange one tastes like fucking Circus Peanuts. *gag* What I'm saying here is... if you despise Circus Peanuts, don't even TRY it. *heave*"

April 20, 2004 "I can't quite put my finger on it, but for some reason, I wasn't feeling particularly FESTIVE at that moment."

May 21, 2004 "I've forgiven him, only because that's what people are supposed to do, but there aren't any 'rules' that say I should forget what I went through. And for THAT... I hope karma bites him in the ass. Cheers, Asshole."

June 13, 2004 "Anger = Fear: I either read this or saw it on television at work sometime last week, and it's kind of an interesting thought. Next time you're completely PISSED about something... ask yourself, "What am I afraid of?" I've been using it all week, it's been enlightening. Once you realize you're scared, NOT pissed, and realize what you're afraid OF... it all seems so trivial."

December 14, 2004 "My girls and I have had SUCH a good time the few months that's its almost surreal. Mel even brought up something this last weekend, she was all... "You know what I've been thinking? We met online." . I've never really given much thought to internet-based relationships. I mean like... people who meet online, and then move across the country to go be with the love of their life. When I think of the WONDERFUL people (overlooking the few bad apples I've run across) I've met online, the friendships we've formed, the AMOUNT OF FUN that we have when we're together, the common interests we have... I suppose it could be true to find your soul mate out there via the internet. Who am I to judge, ya know?"

January 02, 2005 "THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given): 1. Mush. I need mush. I live off of mush. I need ppl to need me and show me that they need me. 2. Communication. 3. Trust."

March 23, 2005 "Thank God for friends... ...For REAL FRIENDS. The kind that understand. The kind that support. The kind that make you believe that everything is OK with the world. The kind that just make you feel whole. The kind that you can talk to for hours about absolutely nothing and come away feeling like you've really accomplished something?"

April 23, 2005 "I think Lionel Richie is a God. I'm a bottomless pit of MUSH but rarely let such things out because I can't ever seem to find the right words. That's why I love quotes. Someone had the wisdom to put just a few words together, and now those words mean much, much more than they ever could have separately. "The most important things are the hardest to say because words diminish them." (Stephen King)"

April 25, 2005 "2Am and I'm still awake writing this song
If I get it all down on paper
it's no longer inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to."

April 29, 2005 "As good of a read as it would be and as tempting as it is... people would freak the fuck out. Drama would surely ensue and I'd end up being the bitch that started it all. Fuggit. It's not worth all that and the world ain't ready."

May 24, 2005 "I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind"

May 26, 2005 "SIDENOTE: You ever actually go through the entire list of "moods" only to realize that you can't quite pin down how you're feeling w/ just ONE? Fuck that... tonight I'm: aggravated, annoyed, anxious, awake, bitchy, confused, contemplative, curious, dissappointed, dorky, drained, excited, frustrated, geeky, guilty, hopeful, irritated, jaded, lonely, melancholy, moody, nervous, sleepy, stressed, uncomfortable, & weird."

May 30, 2005 "So yeah... great weekend, WONDERFUL weekend. The cops... the entire search for the bar... before & after, the impromptu art exhibit, the mosey'ing, the hanging. *sigh* Thank you."

June 5, 2005 "40) A RANDOM LYRIC: '...I'm weak, it's true. Cause I'm afraid to know the answer. Do you want me too? Cause my heart keeps falling faster...'"

June 10, 2005 "Thought of the Day: I realize that by the sheer number of surveys I've amassed here, it may appear to the outside world that I have no life. Maybe I don't. OR, maybe I do... & I just don't want YOU to know about it. Have a great day!"

June 16, 2005 "My only solace is that the specimen cup that's holding that lil' bugger captive is now sitting on my kitchen table where the children and I are deriving great joy in watching him die a slow, painful death."

July 1, 2005 "R- Reason to smile: Why not?? Life is grand."

August 10, 2005 "Thought of the Day: 'A win by forfeit isn't really a win at all.'"

Interesting... I have no idea why some of this is in bold text and some is not. *yawn* I might need another day off to make up for all of the work I did today while not @ work. *going to dust the ficus, take a shower, and bake some cookies*