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who's a loser? I AM.
mood: 
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blankSeriously, I feel like such a loser. Striving to be thin, and feeling like a disappointment.
15 years old, 5'6, 136 pounds. 136 POUNDS, and I guarantee it's all fat.
15 years old, 5'6, 136 pounds. 136 POUNDS, and I guarantee it's all fat.
friends say: you're not fat. you're like 5 pounds.
and in my mind I'm thinking: well, what's skinny to you, is fat and ugly to me.
I need friends, who understand what my prospective of beauty is, THIN.
I highly doubt that's too much to ask for.
LOSER MENTALITIES
Constant binging, is a pain in the ass. Because I know, when I try to achieve something, I always achieve it.
Though lately, that hasn't been the case. Failure, is the only thing being accomplished here.
Failure is unacceptable, and I loved it when it didn't exist in my life.
but it's whatever, right?
WEIGHT-LOSS PILLS.
doode, it's the hardest thing to get my paws on.
I'd buy it, though I don't want the funny looks from cashiers. <- complete embarrassment
& I'd ask someone to do it for me, though I don't want them buzzing around in my business.
DILEMMA I KNOW.
today was a rather depressing, and thoughtful day?! damn right.
and in my mind I'm thinking: well, what's skinny to you, is fat and ugly to me.
I need friends, who understand what my prospective of beauty is, THIN.
I highly doubt that's too much to ask for.
LOSER MENTALITIES
Constant binging, is a pain in the ass. Because I know, when I try to achieve something, I always achieve it.
Though lately, that hasn't been the case. Failure, is the only thing being accomplished here.
Failure is unacceptable, and I loved it when it didn't exist in my life.
but it's whatever, right?
WEIGHT-LOSS PILLS.
doode, it's the hardest thing to get my paws on.
I'd buy it, though I don't want the funny looks from cashiers. <- complete embarrassment
& I'd ask someone to do it for me, though I don't want them buzzing around in my business.
DILEMMA I KNOW.
today was a rather depressing, and thoughtful day?! damn right.