hello lj world.  long time no update.  its the evening of christmas day.  the day turned out to be really awesome.  but lets backtrack a bit.

schools finally out.  im relaly excited for next semester.  i met so many awesome people this semester that ill be taking the next level of the same classes w/ next semester.  some really pretty girls as well as some really awesome guys and they're all so freakin talented i feel like a total loser.  they sing so well and play piano and guitar and all this other crap.  im getting better at classical guitar too (got a new one for christmas) so yeah, put my other classical on the wall and im probaly retiring it, it had a good 5 yr run and it was my first guitar so ill keep it forever, but it looks good on my wall.  i have a 90% shot on getting on the gutiar ensemble at school next semester too so thats' exciting.  but yeah, the semester ended really well, hopefully i can keep it up to be in good standing to get into the sound recording technology program at tx state in fall of 08.

my aunt is visiting for the holidays and my dad is finally home to stay.  its good to have them both here.  i dont know though, everyone's been like 'I bet its really awesome to have your dad back for good' and its like, its great that he's home and stuff but like, ive gotten so used to just him being gone and stuff.  like w/ my mom, she's a lot more lenient about me going out w/ friends and just about everything, but my dad's been gone so long that it seems like he still thinks im a little kid.  ill be going outside to get somethin outta my car and he'll be like WHERE ARE YOU GOING?  and it seems like there's always somethin wrong, or somethin always has to be done, and i feel like he's never satisfied.  ive gotten to the point where i just let him talk.  he's an amazing man and i thank God for people like him and his service for our country but like, i just think its sad that im not as enthused about him being home as i probaly should be.

sometimes theres a lot more i wanna write on here but its like, theres only a few people that id want reading it and i know i could put it on private but even then...i dont know.  i guess its good i dont pour my entire life out on the web.

dinner was awesome.  so much freakin ham, i love ham.  i have 175 dolalrs in best buy gift cards.  not sure what to get, maybe a digital camera, maybe a bunch of cd's ive wanted.  ill probaly opt w/ the cd's, we'll see.  i put some posters up in my room today that ive been meaning to put up for a while.  theres this huge jimi hendrix one that isnt like made of paper but more of like this silk type material, i put up this gutar scales one next to my old guitar, and i put up this Christ one.  its cool cuz i used this laser aligner thing so they're all perfectly straight and in line w/ each other.

i recorded a new song today.  its called TAcKs.  take a listen and tell me what you think.  www.myspace.com/tomgibsontx  thanks for reading :)

hey guys, some pix from the fall festival at my church on halloween.  i was jimi hendrix :)

so to start off, though i never liked flogging molly, after hearing a freakin awesome irish punk song ont he movie 'departed' last night (not a bad movie, but the person that shouldve been shot w/in 20 min of the movie was the only one to live) i realized that the dropkick murphys do crazy irish drunk music best.  and the song was "im shipping up to boston."  its an awesome song, and i got the album today and its great.  also got 'redeemer' by norma jean, haven't listened to much of it yet.

in other news, my dad's been back from iraq for several weeks now and im really starting to see the change in him, and its for the better.  he used to flip out over the smallest things that i was afraid to even ask him a question or to go do somethin cuz i thought he'd flip out on me.  so like last week, i didn't have work tues and i told my dad and he said we'd build this shed that he bought.  i figured he'd wanna build it early evening when it wasn't so hot so after class i kinda bummed around for a while til my mom called and asked where i was and said my dad's been waiting for me all day and ended up starting to build it w/ my sis and that he was pretty upset.  so as i was driving home i was like 'freakin crap, what am i gonna tell him besides "oh i was just hangin out after class" (well i also went to church w/ claudia to pray during this 40 days of prayer our church is having)

but yeah, i figured my dad would be like I TOLD YOU TO BE HOME RIGHT AFTER CLASS!!  or somethin like that and when i walked outside my sister being the wonderful instigator she is was like WAY TO GO THOMAS!!  and then i look at my dad and he just gives me this 'you retard' look and was like 'where have u been' in the calmest voice and im like 'school and then church' and like that was the end of it.  my sis went inside and i finished building the shed w/ him.  even my sis was expectin him to flip.  ive seen him smiling a lot more than he's ever done and actually talkin to me and joking w/ me more instead of having that 'im tough, i dont talk to people, i dont joke around' type attitude he's always had.  he also talks about the things of God more so thats really awesome to hear.  im really glad to have him home

schools being going really well.  i love my music classes and the people in my music classes.  i sit next to these really awesome people in my aural skills class and theory class, they're all pretty much cooler than me.  haha.  im doing surprisingly well in physics and im remember a lot more than i thought i would from senior yr physics.  come to think of it, i may visit my old high school tommorrow cuz i dont work til 545 and see some old teachers who haven't seen me in a very long time (back in the days of my short hair).  speech class isn't too bad, i give my first speech on thurs and its an informative speech and im doing mine on Thom Yorke and his musical accomplishments, hopefully itll be interesting.  i was thinkin the other day about different times in my life that ive spoken in front of big groups of people and realized the biggest group ive spoken to was 600 youths at camp this past summer, so im thinkin 25 young adults wont be too bad. 

it doesn't seem like ive talked about much but this blog is allready kinda long.  but yeah, i suggest everyone who read at least up to here to go to www.myspace.com/metro_reach and read those blogs, very thought provoking.  take it easy

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Hello LJ world, how i have neglected you for so long. for starters, lets check out some pix!! 

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cool, i have a long lost straight haired brother.

hey lj world. long time no write. well this isn't gonna be a very long entry. first off, check this out www.myspace.com/tomgibsontx and litsen to the jazzy improv...and the rest of the songs if you haven't yet. hope ya dig it.

in other news, went to the mall today and made quite the obvious observation. you gotta love the mall 'personalities.' the biggest population of the mall is made up of teens to young adults (ok, i can allready tell this entry is gonna try and sound intelligent but totally miss the mark) and everyone seems to wanna dress to impress when they go, cuz ya never know who you may run into. but whats funny is, when people go into abercrombie or whatever, a majority go into to find the latest trends to wear around town, they blow a few hundred bucks, and thats their day. but then comes the next weekend. they wear their recently purchased outfit into the same store, hoping to look fly (yeah i said it...look fly) only to realize that their outfit is now outdated, they have to get another outfit. but its funny cuz they buy the outfits to wear around town (including the mall) and they deck themselves out in clothes of the store they shop at most. ok im having trouble putting into words what was going through my head at the mall so im just gonna stop now. moral of the story...dont talk to the guys tryin to sell you cologne from one of this little stands.

so school is finally out for me this semester. all my grades are in the system except for one. i got an A in philosophy and history, and a B in gov and english. still waiting on intro to music theory grade.

ok so top 3 fav bands right now are radiohead (i cant believe i didn't listen to them before), the mars volta, and mute math. i saw mute math in austin on fri, best freakin show ive been too like ever! they came w/ 2 bands called radiant and lovedrug. love drug was allrigth but radiant was really awesome. go to www.myspace.com/mutemath they're not screamo, they're alternative indie, i think most of you will really like them.

so summer has finally arrived though. for the first month, im gonna be pretty relaxed, just workin maybe 25-30 hrs a week and hangin out with friends. hung out w/ some good friends i havent seen in a while yesterday though so that was a good time. julianna's cute friend from college station keri is coming to visit in a few weeks so yes to that! :D starting the 30th ill be starting summer school for one more english class i gotta take as well as guitar 1 so i can refresh my music reading skills.that should go on til the 6th of july. hopin that jim can make it down here for a week or somethin though.

so i watched the old video of the first show that the band i was in played at like a yr or so ago. it looked like so much fun. i wanna be in a band but so dont have the time, except for maybe in the summer.

man a few of my really good friends are leaving this summer, my friend brittany is goin to school in colorado and my friend maureen is goin to austin. i hung out w/ both of them a lot at san antonio college. kinda a bummer, but at least maureen will be driving distance. hmm, this is a short entry for me. anyways, take care you guys.

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well jimmy inspired me to update my lj. things have been goin pretty well lately. ive been pretty disappointed in my laziness though. i dont have class on tues or thursdays and i almost never get anything done. i wake up at 930 or so and dont have work til 3. sometimes i plan on doing stuff but watching tv and playing gamecube usually interferes. oh yeah, me and my friend wilbert split the money and got a gamecube w/ super smash brothers melee. hooray :) i sometimes get some laundry done, and perhaps some school work, but not often. i have so much time to record all these awesome ideas ive been having and sharing them w/ the wonderful people of the world wide web but yeah....laziness.

i love it when i discover my own ignorance sometimes. ok, we've all done it right, seen someone and automatically make a stereotype for them by the way they look/dress/talk/ect.
case 1: ok so this one guy in my history class and works w/ me, black guy, big clothes, chains, gold grill, and the first day of school he wore a big shirt that said 'grafitti changed my life.' im not gonna lie, i pretty much though to myself, well weve got a gangster. got to talkin w/ him, hes the most laid back guy in the world and is so cool. he's so sarcastic its crazy but not in an offending way or such. really glad i got to know the guy.
case 2: ive made quite a few friends through friends of friends this yr. was friends w/ a girl named brittany who was friends w/ sam and became friends w/ sam whos also friends w/ this girl named stephanie whos friends w/ this guy i allready know named brodie. so its like one big happy family right. well stephanie and sam are friends w/ this big goth kid, carries a guitar around sac, shaved head w/ pony tail and braided goatee, interesting red eye shadowing. first though, we'll heres someone who hates life and will probaly hate me. saw stephanie after class today and she was walkin w/ him and i totally introduced myself and joke around w/ them and saw him actually smile. smiles are great no matter who they're from, it really just makes a person much more approachable. seems like a really nice guy. moral of the story, dont be ignorant like i once was and make judgements on people you know nothing about.

im really proud of my friend maureen. about a month ago i told her what i was to have a relationship w/ Christ and ever since she has just been pursuing on how to develop that relationship w/ Him. she really is understanding that Christianity is not just some 'lets go to church and be a nice person' religion, but a life that has been given up for a higher purpose, to serve Christ and to bring glory to Him. its not about us and its not about feeling warm and fuzzy inside. see her excitement for Christ just makes me evaluate my relationship w/ Him and see that im not doing all i could be doing to help others around me. dont know how many of you that read this pray, but i ask that you pray for my friend maureen, and myself, and help her just grow in Christ and that God will be able to use me in any way to reveal His love to her and others around me.

i thought i totally owned an english paper the other day and got an 85. i hate english but i usually do really well in it. oh well. other than that, most of my grades have been pretty good. ive been making new friends in like all my classes recently. meeting new people is really awesome. i wondered the other day what it would be like to be on the real world as a kid who doesn't drink, smoke, curse, is abstinent, and pretty much avoids drama. yeah they'd never pick me, id never apply anyways so take that mtv w/ your stupid laguna beach, real oc my butt. anyways, jim hope you enjoyed the update, u seem to be the only one who reads them anymore.

oh and my subject line is somethin i put on a button that they were making for free at school today. also made to tiny ones for some frineds that said TOM GAVE ME THIS. listen to the mars volta.

well here we are. haven't updated in a while. current thought of interest: cici's pizza commercial "get 2 mega toppings and come home a hero" ok, so that commercial came on twice during the commercial break and both times i wondered how bringing fattening pizza dripping w/ grease that will kill you're children of a heart attack in due time can possibly make you a hero. i think the only person who will feel like a hero from bringing pizza home is a soccer mom. of course she feels like a hero when she's helpin her daughter push girl scout cookies outside of wal mart.

well now that thats outta my system, i dont know what it was about today but it started out super well but like now its the end of the day and i just feel like bleh. i kinda know of several reasons which i dont feel like writing about on here. they do w/ self disappointment and you know when someone says somethin to you and it just makes you take a good look at yourself, even if they weren't tryin to upset you. or say you're just annoyed by someone and in reality, they haven't done anything all day that should really annoy you, and then you feel like a loser cuz ur like 'am i that much a douche that someone can annoy me just by sitting there?

lost in a wrestling match today also. me and shea were goofin around (shea's 6'2, 200 some lbs). i wrestled him yesterday and did a lot better than i did today. so now im here, thinkin about the homework i didn't do today and always tellin myself 'i have time for it later.' why do i do that? why does anyone do that? im just lazy and its sad, im not doing anything now, but i refuse to apply my time into something constructive so i dont have to worry about it later.

school's goin allright i guess. like a few of my classes but some really just kinda ruin my day, such as gov and philosophy. phil was cool at first but after all the anti christian statements my teacher has been making (such as: is there a God...Nooo, did he have a son Jesus, noooo, did he create the universe...noooo), i dont find him as humorous and i did at the beginning of the yr. gov teacher just loves to ask you questions if you dont agree with him until you're stuck and dont have anything to say and he makes you look like an idiot. history teacher was all HISTORY IS FUN at the beginning of the yr but gets all butthurt when you actually start talkin to people in class and maybe enjoying 2 seconds of the class. music theory, teacher is nice, no complaints, just really early and boring. and english, my teacher is super sweet and she has the cutest accent so no complaints there either. i think all my grades are prtty good so far.

sorry for being so pessimistic so far, ill switch gears and look at the brighter side of life right now:

saturday night was shea's birthday shindig. we all went out to eat at johnny carino's, and finally got to hang out w/ susy. havne't really been able to hang out w/ her since about mid december and it was really good to see her. my mom and julianna and richard joined the fun crowd too and julianna and richard said they felt so much older than everyone else (dont know why cuz julianna is only 20 and richards 22 and everyone there was ilke 17-19) but oh well. i think im getting better at singing. me and wilbert and shea were playin guitar and singing at his house the other day and they were doing 2 part harmonies and i was just improving singing and i wasn't as self concious as i usually am and susy said she really liked it, and she wasn't bsing me...i dont think anyways.

on another note, ive really seen how God is working in my life lately, but at the same time ive been kinda up and down, like i feel close, then i dont feel as close, but then feel close again, but i came to the understanding that just because i dont feel all 'warm and fuzzy' inside, doesn't mean im not close to him (i wrote a blog on a poem i wrote about this). true faith is what gets me through those times. 'faith is being sure of what you hope for and certain of what you do not see' ive also seen how God has been using me lately to spread his word to others who do not know him. its such a blessing that im able to do that. to any fellow believers reading this, i recommend you read 'the barbarian way' by erwin mcmanus. its about how we shouldn't be satisfied w/ being 'civilized' christians but should take up the barbarian way. Christ didn't come to this earth so we would be satisfied w/ going to church on sun and pray before meals and then say 'well looks like God is satisfied.' its a great read.

yeah, everytime i listen to some music that i used to love in watertown it just takes me back to those days. oh man jimmy, so earlier this week it was like crazy warm but then the next day it dropped way low and everyone was like 'agh this weather is so dreary and depressing and cold' but honestly, i liked it only because it reminded me of the weekends in watertown where it was like that and id always just go over and we'd just hang out like all day. good times....:) thats it for now i guess. oh and cant wait for the taste of chaos show on tues :)

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So here i am in the slac lab (i still dont know what that stands for, i think student learing somethin. maybe student learning and chillin lab) listenin to mute math that was linked from shea's site. anyways, a few thoughts occurred to me today. this semester is starting a lot better than last semester did. the biggest difference is that im actually kinda excited about what im gonna be learing in some of my classes. how nerdy is that. last semester i basically waited til last minute to everything and wasn't enthusiastic really about any of it and still managed to get really good grades and if im actually interested this semester then i should really do fine.

so like music theory is my first class and we have to buy recorders (like the little instrument that i used to call a flute, that one that most people learn to play one note on in elementary school) to help us out and im kinda excited to learna few things on that, its better than a plastic ocarina. and im just excited to see how i take what i learn in there and apply it to guitar and stuff.

i read like 20 pages of philosophy yesterday and i actually absorbed what i read. i almost never read for school stuff or my eyes will just go over the words, but i was somewhat captivated. it was about the presocratic era and the first real 'thinkers' of recorded history. they had some really interesting yet bogus theories included that EVERYTHING derives from water so basically everything IS water, and that we all possess the reasoning of God, haha yeah, and a bunch of other wierd theories but interesting none the less. my teachers has a very dry and sarcastic sense of humor and it really keeps the class interesting.

history, well its history. my teacher is a little squirrely. he reminds me of george costanza but like w/ a higher pitched voice and not as spaztic but hes really nice and i can tell that hes gonna do all he can to help us get through the class. i can tell ill be allright in there.

gov. ahh government. i have a liberal democrat as a teacher, but hes a nice guy. but he will be talkin about somethin and then just go up to a random student and ask them a question on what they think of the issue and he totally puts you on the spot. he doens't do it to be mean, just to like get people involved and stuff. i made a few enemies today when he asked why i trusted bush and then mentioned how he was a lot more trustworthy than clinton and boy did the democrats moan at that statement. they went on sayin how it was his personal life, blah blah blah, i dont care, his actions said a lot about his character. if he lied and cheated on his wife and lied to the country about a personal affair, how do we know he didn't (and probaly did) lie and cheat the people out of bigger issues. either way, the conservative to liberal ratio so far is like 3 to 20 (from what i can tell and from the people that are actually speakin up). i do like the class as a whole though.

english, i dont know what it is about english, but it seems that im the most talkative in that class. maybe its the teachers, i dont know. well the teacher i have now is pretty attractive for a middle aged woman and she has this crazy weird accent, its like a mexican who moved to boston but then moved back to texas and each place affected some part of her speech. im lookin forward to some of the essays too, they're like almost all whatever we want them to be. one is on a song and how we can relate it to ourselves, another is like a total weird way of style where we write the paper however we want, it doesn't ahve to like follow mla or anything. seems interesting.

ive also noticed another thing in these few days (well since last semester too), is that im actually very shy and quiet in school. i dont know why i cant just like introduce myself to someone and talk all normally and be myself like i can in most places. maybe its cuz i dont know anyone and no one knows me and i dont wanna be all HEY WHATS GOIN ON IM TOM!!! and just be all in someones face if they dont know my personality or anything. or im just wierd and my personality changes w/ my enviornment, who knows. there are a lot more cute girls in my classes this semester than last semester.

as far as bsm, im anxious to see how we minister on campus. it seems everywhere (bible studies, church youth group, and now bsm) has been revolving around how to reach kids my age and like i honestly dont know how at this point. its like, inviting friends sounds logical but from experience, when you invite friends, they may come for a week for two, but dont seem too interesting in coming on the regular basis. what can we do to really get kids involved in not just church, but devoloping a relationship w/ the creator of the universe. hmmm. ive been really been praying about it and im pretty excited to see what God reveals in due time.

this blog was way too long, ill be surprised if anyone reads the whole thing.

not a whole lot goin on lately. last day of class was fri but i have finals this week, one wed, one thur, and one fri. wish me luck, i havne't started reviewing really for any of them. the sound recording technology degree is just lookin less likely right now :( long story, but i dont know if i have the skill/money to do it. on to plan b, whatever that may be. sunday school went really well today minus the fact that i had to tell brady to stop talking about 200X. i was so close to yelling but i know that wont help any cuz nothin really gets through w/ him. on the plus side, there was this new kid in my class named micheal and it was awesome cuz he was paying attention, answering questions, learning new stuff, and participating, all of which i usually dont get w/ my regular kids. it was good to see some enthusiam for once :)

i went to target today and go 2 baseball T's that are super awesome and a new CD rack! woo! its an awesome cd rack. came home and made cookies, no im not gay, i had bought some as a fundraiser for the youth winter retreat, and they didnt' turn out too bad. woo! my sis put up the christmas tree, we actually are gonna have christmas cuz we aren't moving til like march. my mom always asks me what i want for christmas but i always feel bad for askin cuz i always want expensive stuff (last yr: an awesome guitar processor, this year: and ipod or ipon non) and so i usually end up not sayin anything and end up w/ whatever. but an ipod would come in sooo handy. i use my cd player all the time and its getting annoying.

so yesterday was one of those days, dont know if anyone else gets those days but when you just dont feel like you. well for me, it starts to get to be a feeling of confusing, i just get really depressed, i dont feel like as energetic or hyper as normal, and i think sometimes its cuz im home by myself but when i go out w/ frineds it doesn't get better sometimes either. cuz then im in a bad mood and i feel like im expected to be all crazy hyper funny tom and i just dont feel like it sometimes but then like i dont like to see other people down or whatever b/c of me cuz ive seen it have that effect; when im sad it seems to make other sad or not as happy and what not. i hate the feeling though cuz im just like 'whats bothering me? why am i upset? why do i feel like i have to be loud and stuff when im w/ friends? i get like that occasionally and yesterday was one of those days, feel better today though. still not sure what was bothering me though, me and shea talked about it adn apparently he gets like that sometimes and like its gone on for a few days before, i hated it. im good now though :)

my sis was being a douch again today though. i was heb fixing my availibilty since ill be out of school and was talkin to some of the hotter chicks i work w/, and my sis calls and asks if i can pick up some muenster cheese (some freakin expensive cheese) so i do, and when i come home she flips on me cuz its not block, its sliced and im like THATS ALL WE EVER GET YOU RETARD!! and shes all NO ITS NOT! then i told her to just get her own things from then on and agh, shes been so annoying lately w/ her 'u never think of anyone but urself, ur so lazy, blah blah blah' crap. oh well, maybe one day she'll just shutup. the new thrice cd is amazing.

so toms life right now in a nutshell:
-im listening to 'wake me up when september ends' right now, my cd player is on random it just started playing
-on that note, ive really been gettin into green day more lately, i think it has to do w/ me being billie joe for halloween and gettin the new cd/dvd
-finally got some new stuff on dmusic (acoustic cover of 3 simple words by finch and time of your life by green day)
-its lookin more likely im gonna go for the sound recording technology degree at tx state
-myspace has been kinda a disappointment lately, i guess its cuz i haven't been commenting or messaging many people either
-oh and im down like 2 spots on a bunch of peoples top 8, how sad, why dont i just kill myself
-my dad is doing good in iraq
-im gettin ready to move into my new house around the end of dec
-my sis is being less of a douche lately
-i realized i gotta change my schedule around for next semester so i can make the baptist student ministry meetings
-ring out the bells again like we did when spring began
-i rotated a lot of cd's out of my cd holder i keep w/ me in my car so now im listenin to a bunch of old cds i haven't listened to in a while and theyre better than i remember
-i wish i could hang out w/ jimmy for like a week like startin today or somethin
-move along by all american rejects just started playing
-god of war is an insane game, but very violent
-gabby isn't gonna be here next semester, or ever again :( and she doesn't wanna yell mayonaise in saucys room w/ me anymore either :( well we dont go to that computer lab anymore so maybe thats why
-the new manager at work allready loves me cuz apparnetly she 'has never seen carts done so well before' im gonna be cart manager....but im the only one who does carts when im there so its like, im manager of myself?
-sometimes i wish i had past friendships still
-i wanna start another band

sorry, that was quite the nutshell. hooray, an awesome finch song just started playin on my cd player....i really want an ipod

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ok well since college started, i gotta say that ive become a lot more outgoing, will do the dumbest things to put a smile on someones face (or just make myself laugh at times) and i enjoy spending time w/ people w/ a good sense of humor and the people that dont take every chance to put me down. that said, it seems im a completely different person at home, i come home, close my door, play guitar, go on the computer, write music, all that stuff, and main reason is cuz my sister doesn't have the same sense of humor and whenever i am joking around and being retarded she'll just be like 'stop tryin to hard to be funny' and it seems the only one who semi understands me in the house is my mom. my sisters fiance takes any opportunity to call me a poser or whatever. thats why i hate being at home.

today i bought this like beret type hat cuz susy had said nothing screamed tom more than that hat, and so when i got home, i definetly got it from my sis and richard on how gay and stupid the hat was and how im such a poser for wearing it (i dont know what im posing to be by wearing a hat like this, maybe a french artist or somethin) and i let it roll off my back, so then i go to church, everyone seems to like the hat, church goes well, had a good talk w/ shea about different things, then came home to my sis yet again goin 'i cant believe u wasted ur money on that stupid hat, why did u buy it' to which i told her 'because i actually like it and why do you have to take every opportunity to put me down.' she said cuz i do the same (which isn't completely untrue but i mean, shes 20 yrs old, she doesn't set a good example if shes gonna act like a 15 yr old to me)

and then shes like whatever you dont even know who you are. that really upset me. its like...i dont act like crazy at home cuz ill just get that same old "ur dumb stop trying", and just because i like to see people smile and have a sense of humor and my friends aren't douchbags to me, that doesn't mean i dont know who i am, it means i cant be myself at home cuz someones there just to say how dumb i am. and lately its like really surfaced that i cant even really just be myself at home w/out 'tryin to hard to be funny' w/ meeting all these new people who i can laugh w/ and enjoy spending time with w/out worring what others will think of me or 'is this dumb?' im not gonna lie though, it kinda hurt that she said that. i gotta say i dont think ill miss her all that much when shes out livin her life w/ richard. its not like we ever hang out, who wants to hang out w/ someone who puts u down all the time and treats u like ur 12. the thing is though is shes really an amazing person to others, and pretty much everyone but me. i know theres that whole sibling squabbles (i couldn't find a word that fit that didnt sound gay) but i mean...i dont know, its just upsetting.

so here are the pix from halloween and yesterday
( OHHHHHHHHHHH YEAAAAAAAAAH! )

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so this week in the making. mon was not bad, had school, played guitar at school, had to put my guitar in the car cuz it started raining, saw the G Flo before she headed to her class yo, um then i had to go to a different computer lab being that i got kicked out the last one and im on probation for a week so i went to the slac lab which actually has like so much better computers. i dont even know why myspace is so addictive, i barely get messages or like comments outside my circle of like 5 'friends.' oh well :-\ so got home, got all billie joe armstronged up, had my sister do my eyeliner, and headed to work. some girls actually said i looked good w/ eyeliner, but yeah, thats not happening again. bought a disposable cam and took a lotta pix and got the film developed today and ill post the pix here and on myspace later tonight. then i was running high side (when you direct the customers to the shortest line) and like i told this one lady w/ like 13 items she could go to the express lane and this one chick that always comes in and just complains walked by w/ one item and was like 'see, u sent her w/ a lot more items than me and now i have to wait' (the stupid woman didn't even end up in the same line as the one w/ 13 items) and then i was like 'well maam we have several express lanes you can check out from and shes just like whatever and then my manager calls me to his office and is all 'tom, i like ur enthusiasm and i know u like to have fun at work but u could have handled that customer better' and then he went how like i should've TAKEN her to another express lane or just helped her w/ the self checkout or whatever. hes so gay, he finds the smallest dumbest things to complain about and when i went on the intercom earlier in the day i was like 'csm christie to checkstand 12, christie to 12, thank you christie for coming to 12' when she was like 5 ft away from register 12 and then jay (main manager) was like 'its ok to have fun on the intercom but u still have to remain professional' im like yeah ok, what a tool.

so i got off work and met up w/ gabby who was retarded and dressed in this baseball outfit when it was like 30 degrees. i went straight to the fall festival (this little thing at my church they do on halloween) and yeah....it probaly wouldve been cool if i was like 7, but it wasn't all bad. gabby and her friend felix (who i never met and only heard about him but him and gabby were lookin at my myspace and hes like 'im gonna be tom for halloween') showed up a bit later. i guess he makes an allright tom, he didn't even have black pants though and he had some valet service tie on, but we hooked him up w/ eyeliner. haha. dude, i love that riff on 'attack' by 30 seconds to mars. so yeah, felix and gabby leave in search of a place to trick or treat and i just stay there til it was over. had a chance to talk to sharon for the first time in like 2 weeks so that was cool.

tuesday (i dont even know why i make these ljs so long, about 3 people read them) i had class and then headed to my new work home for the week, the heb on southside. its ginormous! i mean they have like an electronic department and like a furniture department and its crazy. at my heb, theres maybe like 30 people that work in central checkout, there were like 70-80 at this one, and more people= a lot more pretty girls. it was really cool though, there are 3 managers there that i used to work w/ at my heb so its not so foreign. but dude, so many girls there! i got off at 8 and enjoyed my 40 min drive home from that freakin place.

so yesterday kinda sucked (raise ur hand if ur still reading this) had school where i read about the stanford experiments (actually pretty interesting if anyone's heard of them), and came back to the slac lab w/ gabby, we were kinda on the dl though cuz we didn't wanna get kicked out of THERE either. some guy next to us was old and kept talking to himself. came home, chilled out for a while and then headed to church, jess came so that was cool, gabby bailed out on us though but came to watch us eat afterwards :-\ speaking of which, i had called my mom after church and told her id be goin out to eat cuz i invited gabby to at least come to eat if she couldn't make the service cuz she sleeps in the middle of the freakin day and sounds like a man whenever she wakes up. my moms like' i made pasta, come home tonight' and usually im like 'alright, see u in a bit' but for the first time in a while i was like 'cmon mom, i have'nt been out on a wed in a while' and she still didn't want me to go but then reluctantly just said i better not be home past 10. i was kinda bummed about that though cuz lately she's been like 'ur never home' and all i was just kinda adding to that fire by going out wed night. i didn't even know where chipotle was and gabby cant follow instructions so we get there after a while. shea did a jig in front of a guy and i took a pic of the cashier cuz she took a pic of us. good thing i didn't start teething (or whatever it is when a mom starts giving milk). yeah dont ask. came home to my mom asleep and got on the comp and my sis is like GET OFF I NEED THE COMPUTER! so i get off and get back on 30 min later and shes like WHAT ARE U DOING IM NOT DONE STUPID! too bad shes not a guy so i could punch her in the face.

ive been playing my pasta guitar more lately, actually singing to and i think im gettin better who knows. that under the bridge cover by that guy was so good. i wish i could just come out and say what im feeling sometimes. im wearing a naos project shirt. i got paid today. i bought flowers for my mom and for my sis too just so it didn't look like 'heres some flowers mom, can i go out now' cuz im prob not going out for at least a week. why does my dad only email me when my mom tells him somethin and he just chews me out. i mean, getting upset cuz im freakin changing gears at 3000 rpm, cmon! i can give you a reason to be upset if u gonna just get mad over the dumbest things. well off to go see if anyone left me a message on myspace. if u read all that ur a real trooper and u get a gold star.

Current Mood: discontent

so, here i am, 3 thrust 01. looks like im gonna be myspacin it up for a good majority of today, i may watch dumb and dumber, cuz theres no church tonight or practice. i would go out and do somethin but my mom doesn't like it when im never at home, which has been the case lately. its not that im ALWAYS out w/ friends, in fact last week i was only out w/ friends wed night and sat night, but w/ school, i usually come home afterwards for an hr when no ones home and then i go to work til like 8 or 9 or somethin and my mom only sees me for like an hr before she goes to sleep if she isn't allready asleep when i get home, so in her eyes, im never home, which is actually true, but its cuz i work like 30 hrs a week now. maybe ill ask them to cut down on my hrs to it will add to my home time and it wont hinder my friend time. ugh this is complicated.

so this week im gonna be workin at the new HEB on the south side (yeah thats right, gangsta territory yo!) but its a really nice HEB im told and all the stores had to send one csa there to work this week w/ the grand opening and all. i guess grand openings of grocery stores are big deals here so itll be crazy busy. my mom told me to not to get my car stolen. but ill be workin at my HEB on mon, and i get to dress up so that should be fun :) i was workin in produce earlier last week and met this one guy marshall (well i allready knew him but never really talked to him much) and turns out hes a christian and all and plays guitar at his church too but is kinda bummed cuz they have this awesome drum set at their church but no one to play it and an awesome keyboard but no keyboardist and so i told him about our wed night service how we have the band playin and he sounded real excited and wants to come see cuz he's always wanted to see a live band in a church so thats cool. and now for some thoughts of last week :

-having a manager that basically is like 'hey tom, what can i do for you' is awesome. haha, i got to basically make my schedule this week

-wilbert and gabby are either really cool friends or dont have a life cuz they visited me like everday last week, haha but its cool to have friends that will make ur day by just comin in to say hi and wear a dress around the store

-my english teacher has liek so many of the opposite opinions from me but is cool cuz will always ask me questions and doesnt like shoot my answers down (im one of the few that talks and is also a conservative bush supporter in there)

-i hate slow fast cars, YOU know, the freakin people w/ mustangs and corvettes and ferari's and u get stuck behind some old guy driving one and he's goin like 25 in a 45. its so annoying, they take freakin 3 min to make a right turn, what a loser.

-the puppet master will wreck you if u mess w/ his waddle

-i really wanna play guitar loud w/ some musicians right now, i haven't jammed out in forever :(

-pantera is the epitamy of emo

-hope me and jim dont get caught in the same place w/ the same costume tommorrow, THAT WOULD BE EMBARRASSING!

-why is death cab for cutie so awesome

-i just discovered how awesome target is

-b dunc is an ametuer screamer, but shes learning and willing to try so thats all that counts

-ive never rapped before, and probaly should never do it again

-would someone steal a door border sponge hangin out a window

um, nothing else comes to mind right now. OH, i searched so many old friends from the past yrs like this one girl from kindergarden (never found her) and some huntsville and watertown friends on myspace. i actually found like 3 out of like the 50 people i searched. haha. i haven't listened to linkin park in a while.

Current Mood: bored

so hows life for everyone? its been actually goin really good for me lately. sac has been turning out to be not as gay as i thought it would be. i know a lotta cool people, i like the baptist student ministry, even though theres only about 6 people in it right now :-\ i have at least one cool person to talk to in each of my classes too so thats cool. well gov is gay but hist, college algebra, and english are cool.

so im gonna be billie joe armstrong for halloween, apparently i should be duff man though, except im not a crazy big muscle head so id look like a pretty puny duff man if i could even pull the suit off. oh well, ill just go around town screamin OHHH YEAAAAA along w/ his other quarky and surprisingly original comments :) duff man, you rock! he hasn't approved to by my friend on myspace yet though :( he's probaly busy w/ all his duff promotional jobs to get on myspace right now. i posted some pre halloween billie joe pix on my myspace w/ the eyeliner, courtesy of my sister. im goin to work dressed up too :)

so out of nowhere, louis calvo imes me the other day (friend in watertown) and it was good talkin to him. he's recently gotten back into the church and as w/ me, he was involved as a young child but fell away for a long time but now is back on track. its really awesome to hear him talk about striving to see his friends led to christ. thats really awesome though. i was tellin him that i remembered how he used to run up to me in the halls and just be like HEY TOM I WAS PLAYING XBOX AND...!!!!! haha.

so went to the catacombs 7th anniversary show last sat w/ wilbert, gabby, and jeremy and it was really awesome. i went to go see a letter from yesterday cuz i remember opening up for them on our one good show way back when and i had seen steve (lead singer) a few times since then around town and had been in touch w/ him but rick (guitarist/screamer) hadn't seen me since the show and he was real nice and came and talked to me and jeremy to see how things have been goin. naos project! man they were awesome. check them out at www.myspace.com/thenaosproject on the song 'this city never sleeps' i screamed into the mic 3X and wilbert did once too. it was really awesome cuz i scream a lot but usually suck and jeremy said it was like the best scream he's ever heard out of me. WOOOHOO! im gonna see them again at the white rabbit, i would be seeing them this sat if gabby and wilbert didnt wanna go see some daphne loves derbey band, haha oh well, that'll prob be cool too. dude, i have a month off from school in december, college is so much better that stupid high school :)

Current Mood: amused

ok, another attempt to put whats goin on in my mind while im at work into words. what exactly is etiquette? through my thoughts about it came up w/ the definition of the actions performed that seem most acceptable in a situation. i was pretty close cuz the actual definition of "rules governing socially acceptable behavior" but my question is, why is etiquette the way it is or why does it seem so set in stone. a couple examples, say you work at a retail store, as an employee it is proper etiquette to ask a customer how they are doing. you really dont have too much interest in their actual feelings b/c face it, this person is a total stranger and who are you to really care exactly how they are feeling at that exact moment. on the flip side, it is proper etiquette for the customer to respond in a pleasant way and to to ask the employee how they are doing. the employee obviously responds w/ a pleasant answer as well. in this process niether person has learned anything about the other and was this just such a routine that it needs to be said or else someone will feel bad? why cant we truly tell someone how we feel if they ask- because they are a complete stranger thats why- which begs the question, why are they asking in the first place?

and another thing, how come etiquette shows no room for personality, i notice that with all these rules of etiquette, u cannot really show your true self through them w/out throwing off the flow. its almost as if u are breaking common law or something. lets take the elevator example (sharon shared this one w/ me). why is it that when you walk into an elevator, it is custom to get in and face the door? why cant u get in and face the back? are u watching the door to see if someone jumps at you when they open? and speaking of which, why is it that when you get in, if eye contact is made w/ anyone, u gotta give them the 'hey whats up' eyebrow lift? what is the point of that?! are u making someone feel welcome by that eyebrow lift? would they feel awkward if no acknowledgment of that eye contact took place?

or how about when, say you have 3 people in an elevator, do u ever notice that those 3 make a triangle shape w/ 2 people near the doors of the elevator and one in the back, now say one person leaves- one of the people near the door. then the person in the back takes his spot. why?! do people need their personal space that much? are you tryin to fill as much of the elevator floor as possible? are u tryin to stay as far away from the other person. i say you just throw everything off and stand as close to the first person you see, face the back, and fart....and then laugh, and say excuse me, and then see what happens. and next time at work say, 'hello im going to efficiently check your groceries out, i could care less what kind of day you have after you walk out those doors and dont ask me how i feel b/c id honestly rather not tell you'

this isn't even half of what i think about but its hard to put these thoughts into words...

Current Mood: tired

*posted earlier on myspace blog*

so like at school, its insane to find a parking spot, but luckily for me on mon wed and fri i get there super early and dont have a problem (well, today i tried to take a different route and almost got lost and was a little late) but like my car is kinda like locker and i leave my books in there, but i always dread coming out to get it cuz there's always a bunch of cars circling the front lot just waiting for someone to leave so they can take their spot, and everyday, i try not to even make eye contace w/ anyone and practically sneak to my car cuz if anyone sees keys in my hand heading out to the lot, ill have about 4 cars tryin to guess which way im headed to take my spot, and i open my door, look at a few drivers, grab my book, and close my door, and then look at the pissed off looks/dissappointed looks that i was just coming out to get a book, then i have to walk back to class feeling bad for 'leading these drivers on.' eh, it doesn't ruin my day completely.

got a new computer desk, its like kinda huge, and the computer is like arms legnth away (ok, stick your arm straight out, my computer would be at the tip of your fingers, thats far away, its like putting a book on the wall, taking a big step back, and trying to read it) but its got a lotta working space though and thats what i need for homework. i was pissed last night cuz i broke one of the pieces and put one piece on backwards and then had to improvise on how to fix it but i managed w/ richards help. im thinkin bout remodeling my room so it fits better.

ok, so the other day i had my first bowl of lucky charms since i was like 9, and u know, they're actually really really good. i have one complaint though, the oat to marshmellow ratio is like 25 to1, i would definetly like to see that ratio come down to like 10 to 1. is it just me or does anyoone else hunt for the marshmellows when pouring a bowl, and like when you're eathing them, you have to evenly distribute them w/ each bite, u cant eat them all in the beginning cuz like 5 minutes into this meal of champions, you're gonna stuck w/ a bowlfull of stupid oat pieces, and u mine as well eat some old people cereal if you're gonna eat a bowl of oats. so how bout it general mills, lets see that ratio come down to more delightful proportions.

i got a new stereo in my car, hopefully no one jacks this one.