rape me

"Oh, I am only pretty when people are drunk. It happens."

Sat, 10 May 2008 21:18:26 GMT

My life has been postponed until June I believe. This past week has been nothing but homework.
My socializing skills are suffering for sure.
I am here in lovely town on of Vancouver Washington and I can't go out exploring, because my silly
writing teacher thinks we need to devote all of out time to her class.
She is so kind, and generous.
But I must say, it is a nice town for long boarding, and yesterday was the most beautiful day I have seen in a while. So warm and perfect.

Oh, and to make things even more interesting; I have noticed I have developed a bone spur on my heel. It's really attractive, and I just love the look on people's faces when I show them what I have acquired. LOVE IT. Good thing I am only surrounded by family I guess. But, they have all been drunk since we got here so I know they really don't mean to give me looks of disgust.
The fact that I am not 21 is ruining my weekend. Everyone just leaves me to go the bars and get I to....stay sober and do homework.

Baby I'm bad news.

Mon, 05 May 2008 04:10:29 GMT

It's my favorite thing when you have to do the same assignment three times because the first two times, your computer doesn't feel like saving important documents. LOVE It!

P.s. I am really glad Nikki is home. I didn't know what to do with myself while she was gone. My bike and I had no destination.

Ma'am shut you're mother fuckin' mouth

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 02:31:45 GMT

The newest of the Atmosphere collection, kind of disappoints me.
Does it anyone else?
I don't know.

My life confuses me.

fat is gross.

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 16:40:02 GMT

I really need to get back on track.
I haven't looked at a test and not known the answers
in forever.
I felt horrible.
I couldn't answer four questions because my mind has been other places.
I need to stay focused.
I need to not spend so much time on the internet.
I need to study!
Friends are not more important than school right now.
I'm sorry.
Boys need to be MIA. (but not really)
My kitchen is a mess.
I think my mom is trying to tell me it's my turn,
my turn to clean it.

Is it warm today?

You adore me and yet.......I am still confussed?

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 17:54:15 GMT

It's almost that time of the year again. For that lovely family tradition of moving every year to a new home. Are you jealous? Don't you wish your family was as cool as mine? I must say that I am pretty excited about it, because I hate this house. I hate it's smell, it's appearance, the vibe it puts off, the fact that I wont allow anyone to come over. It is just all around an awful home. It doesn't even feel like home. I mean I have only lived in for 5 months but the reason I moved out to begin with was to get away from this awful feeling. I miss my old house. In that one neighborhood where all high school memories form. Before I even lived there, that was the neighborhood were everyone lived. Everyone knew everyone. Back in the day when Tanner Hetz was my best friend and I had a huge crush on Todd Buck. Back when Trey Young and I hung out everyday. I miss when Nikki and I would tell her mom we were at Katie Y.'s house when we were actually at Jon Palmer's getting drunk. I miss all those people. Everyone is so different now. Drugs have taken over and we will never know those same kids again. But growing up is a necessity and we can't avoid it.

I am hoping I will have the money soon to move out again. Summer is much more fun when you have your own place. Summer is by the way all I can think about. I am so excited for it.
Excited for bbq's at Mr. O'Dell's
Excited for road trips!
Excited for the lake and the river!
Excited for all the Ashland kids to come home.
I want SUMMER now!
I want to ride my bike everywhere and longboard on hot summer nights!
Summer please come now.
I miss you.

Stars

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 15:31:09 GMT

The end should be a good one.

Liking you started out as a joke.

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 09:06:27 GMT

We hired a new girl at work today. She is really nice and we get along perfectly. Today, after I left my coffee date with Nikki and Mikelle, I realized I had a lot of homework I was forgetting about. I had drank a lot of coffee and was feeling good. Maybe a little too good. I had to be to work at three so I figured I would read my book for my writing class until then. The reading just made me tired and I just wanted to leave the house. It was snowing again so I just went to work early and tanned to warm up. I can usually depend on work to get homework done and I was super stoked. But because of the new girl that couldn't happen. So after work I grabbed an energy drink from the cooler and made my way home. I had plenty pages left to read and I knew they would make me tired so I drank that energy drink as fast as I could. which leads me to why I am awake at this awful hour with a screamin' headache. Caffeine overload perhaps?
But it is giving me time to think. I have been thinking too much about this boy and not enough about my school work. I think I am taking too many classes and I want to drop my computer class. Just for the simple fact that I can have tuesdays and thursdays off from school to get homework done. Plus, that class is a joke for me. I already know everything we are learning so I just sit in class and do my homework while the guy next to me is so confused and just copies my answers when I'm not looking. Classy.
I wish I could go to sleep but every time I close my eyes, I have dreams about learning things and studying hardcore that it makes my head only hurt worse. I tried to watch televison but that did the same things as well. The only th makes my head feel better is the light that is being put off from the computer. I remember this used to happen a lot during High School and that's the exact reason I feel I am taking too many classes. Ugh, what I bad idea to take on 15 credits when I don't have a very big attention span.

I see your true colors

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 18:19:59 GMT

I am having coffee with two hot babes right now and I am lovin' it.
I finally got nine hours of sleep last night instead of the usual four or five.
I have missed live journal.
And I am sorry I forgot about you.
Can you forgive me?

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 06:54:48 GMT

Why don't people get scared? Why do they have the need to keep hurting everyone around them even more? I couldn't handle another loss.

O RLY?

Sun, 09 Dec 2007 00:42:05 GMT

Pinback coming to Bend?

Don't blame it on me.

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 06:39:54 GMT

It's nobodys fault. But it just seems to be his turn.

I want to make you move. Please.

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 19:55:05 GMT

I need to pee really bad. But I don't really like peeing. I think it's a waste of time. It's not like I am doing much anyways.

Whose got the crack?

Fuck pain away

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 17:08:54 GMT

Unplanned road trips: my favorite. The music selection chosen in the car:unpredictable.
These are the best days our lives.

I don't know what else to do.

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 18:23:03 GMT

I wish I knew how to make creamy pasta sauce for my pasta. But I always end up pasta and a milky substance.

Just great.

Einmal ist keinmal

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 17:36:47 GMT

If we have only one life to live, we might as welll not have lived at all.

This is a warning I'll spell it out for you

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 04:25:24 GMT

Excuse me sir    I'm lost   I'm looking for a place

where I can get lost

                               I'm looking for a home
For my malfunctioning being

I'm looking for the mechanical music museum

The stars will kiss your pretty face

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 16:15:36 GMT

Come away with me today,

Everything should be okay.

I'm sorry.

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 19:06:54 GMT

I was ill last night and said the things to you that I have been waiting to say for three months. You responded with a twisted and yet very true statement. I was stuck in aw. I didn't know what to say because I didn't want to believe it.
You always ruin my piece of mind when I am having fun forgetting about you. I had finally thought we were done. Don't you learn anything from I say to you?
I was ill and I am wondering if the reason I was so sick is because of you. I find myself fucking speechless when it comes to you. I get angry and you don't even notice it. You pretend that the vibes you are giving off to me do not exists. I don't understand. I don't understand you. I want out. I don't know what I fucking want.

Who put these bodies between us?

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 00:41:47 GMT

I still have that necklace you gave me two years ago

None of them want to fight me.

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 23:00:06 GMT

Does anyone else get supper depressed when they are about to finish a book?

I love you

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 07:51:53 GMT

I love seeing people I have not seen in a long time. It's by far the best feeling in the world.

This is for Calvin.

Fri, 25 May 2007 22:00:11 GMT

I don't want to live anymore

Wed, 02 May 2007 05:46:16 GMT

I am a burden.

I don't believe the words you sing sometimes

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 04:44:19 GMT

Will you still love me after I rupture?

Slut

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 03:53:47 GMT

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