Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in thevirginmary33's LiveJournal:

Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
1:55 pm	same old thing~ Fortunately, no one from liverpool (except super close friends) knows i have ivejournal, so....exhale...this is how things are, Lol, [see devianart for edited versions *snore*] Lol So this week i have 36 hours of work, im just coming off of only 15 hours of work a week, but im actually really enjoying it, its better than sitting home and doing nothing, as long as im working with peggy, she's really the only one i really Enjoy work with because she's more casual, the rest are just a teensy weensy bit uptight, and it drives me insane! but all in all the cheque shoud be marvelous! Lol.. See, me and peggy like to talk to each other, she lets me rant and get things off my chest and vise-versa, but its confidential, i cant trust her, and thats a major thing for me.. but she needs a man, i know i hate them., but for some reason she really wants one..so im helping her with that meanwhile i've fought to the death with my ex, no more, its not my fault anymore, ive tried and tried, and its not my fault when he hits bottom, its just not! i have another one now whos interested in seeing me but he has a kid, im way to young for that, so we're just hanging out, and im going to talk tohim about that tonght before i go back to work.. wish me luck Current Mood: / Current Music: / (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 9th, 2005
2:35 pm	Journey through MaryLand** WELL, firstly, i would apoligize for not having an entry in since April, but im not taking the credit for those genius who run our computer systems at the school, who feel msn and hot mail are completely harmless for our computers not to mentuion the endless fountains of porn ready to break the damns and pour onto our screnes at every minor touch of the keyboard, but Livejournal, well theres no excuse for livejournal! what an unappropriate site! mseriously, just look at all the destruction its teaching us 'children'. i mean, really now.... anywho....keep in touch with my deviantart, im on that nearly everyday. SO far i've suffered the loss of a dear friend, lost touch with the X, hopefully for good this time..., lost all faith in even the exsistance of love or a decent man, and decided that im not even going to attempt sanity anymore, simply beacause if there was one damn word in the whole english vocabulary to describe me it would not, nor could it ever be sane, besides, who am i fooling? not even myself... I've met some new friends since we've last talked, only in time to watch them graduate and leave again mind you, i kind of have my mind set on making absolutley no more friends, because if they dont die an early death forcing me to show emotion, they'll eventually do something to completely piss me off to the point where i wish early death upon them, which is fun to plot in my spare time, but ruins any chance at someday reeking of a decent mind....i use that word too much 'mind'....so, next time anyone approaches with the slightest piece of 'mind' that i could possibly like them, or respect their being, i'll simply raise my hands to my head, lean in real close, and let out the loudest most high ptched scream i can muster, directly in their face, make friends with that! i dare ya' (it shant be easy) Lol, well, what an interesting journey this turned out to be, eh? well isnt it always with me though? ..yea, im really great, Lol. no jokem, i really am...but its true what they say, only the good die young, so im going to enjoy life on the guilty side a little more before i let it get to me, i recomend you try the same:.. ok, well MaryOUt** Current Mood: amused Current Music: Pretty Life-Jackalope (Comment on this)
Friday, April 22nd, 2005
10:53 am	WELL it's friday, about freakin time. I did go to the basement last night, and it was freaky, it looked identical to the classic horror film basement, Blair Witch, Ring 2..ect. There was this big crate with something in it but we couldnt get it open. On our way out we noticed a door that i never seen when i was in there before, so of course i had to see what was in it. We struggled to open the door but it was't budging, finally i stepped back and put my tai-bo to use. After a loud noise, danial's screaming like a girl, Lol, and a jacket flying out and scaring the shit out of us, we were in. We went down stairs and looked around, and there was an out house in it, we were like weird...thats when i realized, there wasnt a bathroom in the house. then, we went upstairs in this secret room, and aaron put his foot through the floor, Lol. after exploring the house we went out to the building out back where they used to keep the horses. There was a heeping pile of shit some antique beer cans, and half a saddle, it wasnt really interesting in there. Before we left my friends wanted to get pictures of themselves standing on the roof, so i waited outside with the camaras. I was standing in the front yard with the camaras waiting for to see them on the roof, when i heard them pounding on the upstairs window. they were hollering and i thought they were trying to tell me to take the pictures, so i just stood there taking the pictures, and they ran off. When i seen them running towards me, i could tell by their faces something was up. They said while they were heading upstairs they heard someone coming behind them, and they thought it was me so they kept yelling for me to go down and take the picture when they got to a window, they looked out and seen me in the front yard, so they looked down to see who was following them up the stairs and even though you could still clearly hear the foot steps, there was no one there. they flipped out, jumped out the window. Lol. WE went to town and got kicked out of the Pizzaria, although im not exactly sure why...we are kinda immature when we get together sometimes, Lol. WEll then we went to see Kate at work and went to the dollar store and bought helium balloons that aaron and daniel inhaled and recorded themselves talking. Daniel's never heard of doing that so he thought it was hilarious. WE went to Tim's, and then i went to sha's. WE spent alot of time just walking around. WE ran into Cody and he joined us for an hour or so, and then we all just went home. I'm biking to her house later, then im pretending im at the dance so mom will think thats where im spending my money instead of the after dance party. then early tomorrow im biking home so i can go to B'water with the family for my little brother's cat-scan. It's nothing serious, i hope. it's just he's been falling alot lately, and the doctor said it could be a condition in his brain. Mom is over paranoid when it comes to "her baby" even though he's 13. He could be clumsy, but that would make him flawed. o no, couldnt be, not mom's baby. PUKE. I know i sound like the jealous sibling here, and im not going to deny it, i would love it if mom went out of her way to do stuff for me, but what about when he wants to go to a party, or do something that contains some risk? he's not going to be able to get away with anything under this close of watch, he'll have no fun. so in the end, i almost feel bad for him. Either way, it's friday, im going out, i feel great, ok. that's enough. Current Mood: <<tonight, haha, thats aweful. (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 21st, 2005
9:25 am	Cobwebs Yesterday was so warm here it was insane. I didnt really enjoy it too much on account of im pretty lazy. I went home first and then to shannons. we walked around for awhile and then went to the school to help Billy clean. Dragging those big Janitor brooms around the center lobby, i got under our sun roof and broke out into a karoke Armagedon ("im leaving on a jet plane") Lol. It was quite entertaining. Then we went to Youth not everyone showed up but my friend from halifax who is visiting for a few days came, and his friend from here who doesnt normally come came. It was interesting, it ended in a debate over whether morals are preset, permanent things, or whether they are all opinion based. It lays unresolved as of yet. After youth, Emily, Josh, Corey, Sha, and I, all went down to "the House" dum dum dum. It's this huge abandoned trashy house that everyone says is haunted and major creepy, so i wanted to check it out for weeks now, last night they took me. well the yard is 35 acres. and it sits a ways back off the road so it was quite the run to avoid being seen by any cars. its illegal to trespass in there, but everyone does. So these two guys im following split up when we get to the house, and i followed the wrong one, he climbed the side of the house and went in a window, i was like, yea, i dont think im doing that. so i had to find another way in. The house is huge, and it would be so nice if it wasnt so badly trashed. I seen most of the downstairs, and then we went up stairs and in the attic. there were these really small steps leading to a hole in the roof where you could look off, it was so far up, like four stories atleast, it was a rush. But im a country girl, Lol. Then one of the guys left to go down the stairs, and a couple minutes later when me and corey went to leave, i couldnt get the door open. I was like, Fuck corey help me. And he looked down at me and i could tell by his face something was wrong. turns out everytime you shut that door, it jams on the inside, it's like its locked its so hard to get open. We started pounding at the door really hard when finally corey kicked it open. Whoa, right? Then we went back down stairs, there was still food in the fridge and it stunk so bad. There was sausages on the counter, rotton of course, and curtains, and all this stuff, like someone was still living there, or someone died and no one bothered cleaning it out for him. Someone just didnt care enough. Then we went out through the back. The yard out there was so beautiful, it stretched right down to the waterfront with patches of trees just spotting the grass. Tjis house, at one time, was like the perfect house, the kind everyone dreams about as a child, too good even for barbie, just perfect. Today i was told the basement is the main attraction of the house, i guess i have to see it. Apparently thats the real haunted part, Lol, so guess where im going tonight? Lol. Yup! you guessed it, you freakin genius. Lol, me doug and sha are going back, im the only one out of those three that have been in there and its going to be real dark when we go, so we might as well label it as mission impossible, Lol, but we'll make it happen. God, "we'll make it happen" I sound like a damn milk comercial. Lol.but ok. I biked home 40 mins. late, and the lecture's worth the wait. it wasnt horrible i just told mom that youth group got out late, and since it usually does, i got off with it pretty easy. The s'morning (ahaha) it's so rainy, i hate it, i always get moody in bad weather, but atleast we didnt get snow like they were calling for last night. but they say it's supposed to clear up later. Thank god. But anyways its only second class, so ill let you know tomorrow, that's enough for now. Current Mood: energetic (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
9:30 am	Best Days of Our Lives Yesterday afternoon my plans went as follows: go to superstore with shannon and pick up my pictures, go to chantal's for an hour or two, go to amy's and get ready for the music festival, go to the music festival and watch-hear Brittney, walk home. Lol well, i ended up running into emily and chris and walked to emily's with them because i couldnt find shannon, we walked all over town, met up with Josh and eventually made it to mcdonalds where me and chris did each other's makeup, (after washing off my mascara unibrow) we went to superstore where i got my pics. made Jacob blush (PS- he didnt hear what i said, im safe) and shopped after doing an hours worth of illegal loiterring. Then we went back down to Mcdonalds and talked to lacey and tracey for awhile, then me, tracy, josh, emily and chris all went to the music festival, where none of us could keep quiet, so we nearly got kicked out, then my dad drove me home. So nothing turned out as planned. and this guy i dated like weeks ago who never called me back called me a whore because he seen me with Chris-(so obviously gay) yes im a freakin whore, how dare i walk down the road holding hands with another guy, another HOMOSEXUAL guy, when he's at home NOT calling me. So clearly i care so much that now this obvious dumbass jerk face thinks im a whore. No, i dont get it. well, my pictures turned out pretty crappy, mainly because they were party pictures and i'm freakin roasted in all of them and i just keep thinking about suffering the next day, or when everyone i party with in the summer go back home, :'(. I cant wait to go to Digby this summer and see everyone again. BUT ANYWHO.....this weekend im going to Shannons' and pretending im at the dance, and then spending the money i get for the dance on stuff for the after-dance party, yay! Lol, im pretty phsyced for that, there's supposed to be alot of people going because its crossing over as my sister's 18th birthday party. She's officially an adult now (scary) but its out of our hands, Lol. I made a deal with corey, he'll keep me from making out with idiots, if i keep him from making out with the pole, LOL. anyone at the party before last gets that, im not so sure about anyone else. It sounds bad, but they're actually quite fun. and these are the best days of our lives right? well im not sure, but just incase, im going to enjoy them. Current Mood: excit'd i like < face better Current Music: No Women No cry (Comment on this)
Monday, April 18th, 2005
10:50 am	Disaster WELL, I decided that maybe it wouldnt be so great to hang out with my ex while i was still debating my feelings for him, and he had to work most the weekend anyways, so we didnt bother hooking up. Yesterday I modeled for the Guy's Frenchys Fashion show at the legion, There was a bunch of old crazy people, and i hate old people, so it was interesting. This one old man kept pulling me over to his table and asking me about his stuufed dog, apparently he lost it. well, half the models didnt show up and didnt call to say they couldnt show up, and we didnt have enough clothes to fill the 3 hours, so during the intermission we all went up the road to the store and had to get more clothes. But it turned out pretty good, and i met this swedish guy named Loui, haha, he's awesome (woo sexy) but anyhow, it was a pretty fun day, and i decided if everything went soomthly it would be boring...WELL, my friend Chris (flaming homosexual, and we love him for it) works with this guy named Jacob. Jacob is soo pretty, and chris thinks he's gay and just afraid to come out of the closet because his parents are so religious, and i thought, hmm, if i cant have him, why let him go to waste, i told chris that I would get them together. so the next day when chris was telling me about his date with *Jacob* I forgot all about that other guy chris was dating coincidentally also named Jacob and assumed he was now dating his co-worker. well you know what they say about assuming, and it proved true here, I bloated to my friends about my miacle getting Jacob to come out of the closet, only to find out this morning, the truth, WRONG JACOB Lol. Im just hoping word doesnt travel to Jacob or his family, but i told everyone that i bloated to about my mistake, so i hope i cleared it all up! Lol.. damnit. WELL, you might notice my journal lacking in a certain sarcastic approach that i love so well about my writing, but i havent exactly been feeling up to par lately, hmmm.. hopefully ill be feeling a little more like myself soon. until then, deal with it. Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 14th, 2005
10:26 am	Issues It's official, im surrounded by idiots!everyone around me is so immature it makes you think, wow, there can not possibly be a more immature person in this whole world, and then another one walks up who's even worse and blows your mind with their stupidity. Anyone who goes to LRHS will tell you the same thing. It's literally making me crazy, and i have an appointment today to talk to someone about my ex's drug problem (we're still really close). It's getting so bad now that he's going to die if it doesnt stop, but i really dont want to get him into trouble. Ms. Cook (practically my physic advisor) says that he may hate me for it now, but wont it be worth it if I save his life? well, i guess she's got a point, and maybe he wont even realize it was me who told...i hope so. I've tried to get him to stop before, while we were dating, and it's actually the reason we broke up. God, i really hope im doing the right thing by getting him help, I can get over "us" but ill never get over him PS-Ryan is Cool Current Mood: nervous Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
1:48 pm	Futuristic Wow, Two in one week, dont you feel lucky? Im in com tech. once again bored out of my mind, not even the teacher bothers to show up anymore. im clueless as to why i'm here. I've got drivers ed. next, isnt that exciting? i dont have my project done, so i'll probably fail the course anyway, have to take it again, and double my debt. arent you proud of the way i handle my future>? im practically an adult! Ok so not all adults are that bad, we dont really know about the ones hidden in the rubber rooms, maybe they're there because they're smart, they know things so the government portray them as crazy to keep us from talking to them and learning their secrets....maybe i shouldnt be typing this on a computer where they can read it.. o well, its not like there's any way im avoiding the rubber rooms anyhow.. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: idle gossip (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
12:03 pm	Rant Well, today's going by really fast. It was my first day of PAL, o freakin yay. I swear if we didnt have some decent things to look at in that class, i'd say screw it! i mean really, why bother? whats the point in judging us on our physical ability when 70% of the population is obese anyways, thats just saying you dont need to exercise at home because you get it at school, and then once you graduate you get horribly fat, and cant figure out why. Besides 80% of my junior class doesnt believe in bathing on a regular basis, get them in there running around with their dollar store brand deoderant and im not going to want to buddy up or tackle! i stop breathing if i take in too much BO, im a frigin germ-iphobe. this is not happening for me! Today after school im going around to collect applications, because i spent the last two months in driver's ed, and i havent figured out how im going to pay for it yet, nice...so as a punishment im going to be stuck behind a counter flipping poor defenseless victims of an unfair society (or worm burgers made to look like them) on a dirty grill, for fat people paying with money that gets deducted out of my paycheck bi-weekly. o, but dont forget service with a smile! Well, you'll be glad to see that this journal entry has been considerably shorter than all the other ones written thus far. So technically im saving your life. By ending this sooner, its leaving an opening for you to get away from the computer sooner, thus saving you from the dangerous radio-active waves floating out of your monitors and corrupting your brain. So you can thank me later. Current Mood: blah Current Music: Dont wanna miss a thing-Aerosmith (Comment on this)
Monday, March 28th, 2005
7:50 pm	Lullabi's WEll, yesterday was Easter. I got away with sleeping in until 9am, which is good in my house for Holidays. I truly believe, in my humble opinion, that Easter lies amoung the most useless of holidays, maybe i just say that because i cant stand holidays period, or because im not supposed to eat chocolate, but really, you dont even learn the meaning of it until your old enough to not be forced into to church, and you really dont care for it anymore. and while your young its built completely on lies. Everything we know as children is completely made up. its all lies. & when older people complain about our generation i cringe and bite my tongue, careful not to lash out and scream, maybe if the didnt fill our minds with fantasies, and slurr our whole vision of reality. perhaps if they didnt teach us its more than ok to lie, as long as some good comes of it, maybe we might open our eyes up to the world, and realize exactly what is happening, but see, we dont see what the big deal is because its all fantasy. we're all immortal, and nothing can touch us if we kill it first. Well elderly, to you i say, maybe we would act a little more appropriately if we werent scared everything we know to be true is going to vaporize into more of your bloody lies. is god and the angels the same mystifying, gracious, LIES like all the rest. even if you answer that it couild be just another lie, so now we know nothing, nothing's assured, and no one's safe, but you created this world for the children, so they might have something to believe in. So, mama, sing me those lullabi's and i will be thinking of you when we're on our way to hell in a handbasket, and im taking you with me. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: Scarling (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 26th, 2005
1:04 am	sigh...Just Life.. So, yesterday was good friday, whoopi..the most unrecognized, uncelebrated holiday since, that other one...i cant quite remember what they call it, hmm. anyways, i was invited to go hang out with my friends last night, and a second date with another friend, well obviously more than a friend if we're dating now, but i dont know if i want to be anymore than that with this one. anyways, like i was saying, i really wanted to go out and hang out with these friends, but i had to say no because mom was off and she's never off, and its easter weekend, and that has to mean soooooo much to everyone, blah blah bah. So i turned down the friends, and do you know what my night consisted of? of course not, i never said yet (technically i never wrote yet, but that sounds *correction* looks, corny) so where was i, o yes, what happened..i spent all night watching the CSI marathon, searching for easter decorations, lights, and baskets, and making jello eggs. jello eggs. Im sorry, do i look like a member of the brady bunch? i didnt think so. The last Tv family i remeber being compared to was the osbournes actually, so wheres all this crap coming from?! Atleast Ozzy says something entertaining every once in awhile when you can actually make out the words coming from his god damn mouth, all my father did yesterday was lay down lamenint flooring, which took four days altogether, and no one even really likes it..great...so i rolled over this morning at 4am (this morning, is that right? that looks weird they should spell it the s'morning, thats how they pronounce it{who is this 'they' everyone's always talking about anyways, what makes 'them' so important?}..) anyhow, 4am! ahh,im lying there thinking, im the most awake right now, than ive ever been in my whole life, right now! of all times, whats that about? i actually think i said that out loud, and then i hear the pssst from a pop bottle releasing oxygen in the kitchen..WTF..maybe its just me thinking this way, but who the hell drinks pop at 4:00 in the freakin' morning? who? and i watch the clock change almost instantly, 4:02, 5:00, 5:23, 5:45, and then my alarm goes off and wakes me at 6, so i can go babysit. Now lets back track for a minute, think about it, i see the clock at 5:45, my eyes are on the clock at this time, and i WAKE UP at 6:00, when the hell did i have time to fall asleep?! so here i am, running on absolutely no sleep, my ride shows up early and i hop in to find a van full of middle-aged men telling their stone age jokes, and i dont want to risk early laugh lines by faking smiles for such useless wastes of breath. i drag ass into the house, and i'm greeted with yet another middle aged man, how nice, thats a new record, and we're only at 7am. but *Bonus this one's half naked, and just crawling out of bed. Like a Poster Man-Child, warning you, get out now because in another 20 yrs. this is your sentence for life. top that off with kids, now i realize why so many women turn to alcohol...*sigh* but what are Saturdays for if its not for seeing everyone else have fun and learning to loathe your own life, am i right? atleast i have a sense of humor about it., wow, this is turning into a novel, i can garuntee they wont ever be this long again...i hope. thanks for letting me fill your heads with useless crap,my apoligies* Current Mood: crappy (1 Comment |Comment on this)