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His Serene Highness Yust II Oberon, The Faery King
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[18 Jul 2008|01:23am] |
The Faery King; What is an Indigo?
This is the most recent video sharing The Faery King’s wisdom, Indigo, pagan and otherwise, weaving a web through thought provoking pondering and consideration, crafted to make citizens of those pesky red states, the ones with low scores on standardized testing, those who still believe George “W” Bush did not steal both elections, THINK!
In the act of The Phaerex he often knocks on the door, as he comes on stage, imitating an Englishman speaking to his wife;
“OMG Martha, it’s that crazy hippie the Faery king, don’t let him in or he will rearrange our furniture.”
The Faery King explains to the audience that it is his job to rearrange peoples furniture, in order to help with their quest in finding the supreme being as they live and eventually, as they grow to the end of wisdom, aging in gray to winter white, finding their way HOME.
This Attila-like king, (And he gets hopping mad and scary when riled) made of the Gipsy fashion, with a fierce intellect, does challenge conventional thinking, moon’s conformity and gives hypocrites seizures, when they attempt to judge those who love and think differently in his presence or through the media.
This is one of many videos that The Faery King and his bound partner, Jah-d, will be producing on a regular basis.
We hope that you will join His Majesty, The Faery King, founder of The Gossamer Court, an affiliation of spiritually inspired artists who are devoted to healing through art, for these short but informative segments that are about spirituality and making the world a better, and more beautiful place.
The king is always advising free-spirits, good hearted folk and Indigo’s to avoid organized religion that destroys, maims and kills, in the name of god.
It’s bad JuJu to do the wet and nasty work of an administration that fosters evil policies, in the name of greed, masked as patriotism.
The young die for old men’s vices.
NAMASTE...
Thank you for your attention and support.
Just click on for the video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khqQiUhWAS8
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| Please Help As Best You Can |
[13 Jul 2008|09:20am] |
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On behalf of my partner Jah-d, the elves, magical peeps, faeries and other
astral creatures of the Gossamer Court, we wish to thank those who
signed the petition calling that talking head, Kathy Lee Gifford, on her
thoughtless remark about pagans.
With all the outlets available for getting out the truth we need to seize the
bull by the horns of "history yet to be" in order to stop prejudice and
bigotry dead in its tracks. If the opposition to the Nazi's of pre-WWII
Europe had the communications technology we now have, then in the
twenties, thirties and forties, those lying weasels, driven like a hate-filled
pestilence would not have been able to exterminate the best, brightest
and spiritually free of that time with such ease.
The same could be said of accused witches during the Burning Times.
My bound partner, Jah-d and I are aware of the fear which resides in the
heart of some of our siblings in the pagan, Indigo and alternative world,
other places were free spirits wish to reside in quiet solitude, holding to
the warmth and company of true family, chosen by heart and not blood..
WE REALLY NEED ALL KINDS OF HELP, PLEASE CLICK ON FOR THE WHOLE STORY
Earthly paradise exists in the company of our own kind, making magick,
movement, music and words, as we blend our healing energy with the
elements.
We Indigos wish to help humankind but not at the expense of persecution,
in conjunction with a lack of mercy from the free-spirit murderers, who
pollute the mundane world with fear and loathing. More often than not,
the people who need our medicine and magick, in a world that constantly
seeks to destroy are the perpetrators of our greatest pain.
Should not heal others, with mysteries unraveled and discoveries made?
Were the angelic class to do such a thing we would be no better than
those who drip with hypocrisy. History has shown us that it is human
nature validated by organized religion often seeks to destroy good things
that might very well save humankind.
Dynamite can keep human form or bones from being broken in the pursuit
of the building material for marvelous things or it can break those things
of value created by human minds, hands and energy. History shows us
that people like to break other people's dishes. Sometimes the breakage
is born of hateful and hostile words used as weapons like the black
magick words of hate are designed to be.
In the interest of self-preservation and survival, we of the magical,
angelic, teaching, spiritual warrior and godly classes have a sacred
obligation to teach people, not only survival, but how to thrive, heal and
grow, while we hold the bridge up in order to keep evil out.
Self defense is not a bad thing. It is a sacred obligation, as is diplomacy,
humor and debate when one is trying to avoid an ass kicking. The way
that Matthew Sheppard stories are supposed to end, is with the person
being preyed upon by self-loathing murderers, kicking their asses, as a
lesson and act of compassion.
It is not our purpose to disturb harmony and tranquility where it exists but
if we see great storms on the horizon it is our intention to stand and be
counted, among the spiritual and magical warriors that we have been
called to be, especially in the face of the more intolerant and danger
soaked facets of human nature.
This is the time of the shamanic magician and we need to get busy
because hard times, the size of volcano holes, are in the middle of the
road ahead. Learning the sacred arts of spiritual and magical community,
self defense and bridge building is of paramount importance if we are to
grow, heal and survive.
Many of you want The Faery King to get out his big wand, in order to poof
these things into existence for you. Real magick is, for the most part, an
elemental alchemic mixture, with a base of your own blood, sweat and
tears, excretions that come with hard work and from good intent,
regardless of those pesky human odds. Defying the odds is truly a magical
act and witnessing the extraordinary, authentic, miraculous and
exceptional is most often an indication that you are barking up the right
tree.
As a part of our wedding vows, Jah-d and I have made a commitment to
activism of a tribal, magical, environmental and spiritual nature. The two
of us are teachers in need of all kinds of support. We are approaching our
first anniversary, so the time to work the magick, from the foundation in
place, is at hand.
We must be very resilient and adaptable. With my blindness being one of
those rotten little hang nails of life; we had to come up with another way
of delivering the messages to the peeps. Looking at the success of the
petition challenging Kathy Lee's remarks after Jah-d and I made the video
and You Tubed it on www.youtube.com/user/flopsterbisque we
realize that we do not have to lower ourselves to those Jerry Springer
loving gutter standards some seem to accept with such ease.
It is in the realm of this king's understanding that we can be feisty, even
hopping mad and insulting but, for the most part, people who respond
with wit, eloquence, grace and intelligence, to even the most lowly and
loathsome of haters, are the ones with a voice that is heard from the
wilderness.
This is the hard to come by wisdom at the hands of great suffering that I
teach my young Indigo traveling companions. If you have to get insulting
make the hater look like the pathetic coward that all haters are because it
takes guts and resilience to love your fellow man sometimes.
The wisenheimers who advise us suggested that we do six to ten minute
capsules and "Faery King, Elements of Magick", where we talk about all
things magical in the true life experience and that which effect's the
modern day magician on a regular, perhaps even scheduled, basis. It is my
desire that all of the Indigo cloth be the noble knights that they have
been and are meant to be.
Thousand, upon thousands of sacred blue falcons, fly in the forest of
unwanted isolation and needless suffering, unable to reach the highest
mountains that they were meant to soar above, in order to raise the bar of
the soul for all of mankind to aspire to. If people are so hell bent on
disproving Darwin, especially these religious types, who wish to rule
others when they cannot rule themselves, then they need to stop acting
like to most violent, vile and territorial of primates.
We, the Indigo, are the Knights of the New Round Table and we must be
noble, fighting for that which is the right thing for a supposedly evolved,
awakened mammal, with a soul, a conscience and a mind, to do.
Animals, minus the using of cutlery and polished table manners, can be so
much more civilized, intelligent and compassionate, than we, with our
powerful whorehouse governments and pulpits ablaze with the deceit and
hypocrisy.
Jesus Christ is supposed to be the savior of mankind, a merciful god, a
magician with a sense of community and a desire to spare humanity great
suffering, not a murderer, whose very name in a holy war, is aligned with
the forces of evil.
If I voted for Jesus Christ in an election he would be the first socialist I
ever voted for.
Our fellow Indigos want a one hour podcast from me every month. All of
you in the magical circle want me to get very healthy for the work ahead,
especially my beloved Jah-d. Oh, alright, jeez!
Each and every one of you has the ability to make good magick. All the
answers reside in your heart and soul. I am Mama Bear to many and the
greater part of that sacred, maternal obligation is to protect, serve you
well and defend you, so you can grow healthy, learn and live in safety
until you can crawl from the cave, to the mountain tops of bliss on your
own, the place where the crystal children thrive.
A part of this job given me is to prepare you for the hazards and dangers
of the desert that life can be, taking you to where the treasure is buried,
only to give you a shovel and some other tools. The job of the elders will
be to explain to you how to keep what you find, growing healthy and
happy, as you find the path home. Survival is merely a small part of this
work.
As for fire circle and magical fires that give birth to a beautiful alchemy;
There are other shaman out there who are good, even great but as we all
draw from the goddess, I think it is very important for male shaman to co-
facilitate with women, (the women most often include the men to work
with the sisterhood) I am talking participation in all aspects of the fire and
a devotion and promise to work with all the other elements.
We are supposed to be about uniting the male and female divine. We are
supposed to be healers and teachers, students of the ascended masters.
Those who have helped build the GC with myself and The Prince of
Willows understand this. We have deliberately made this endeavor a
matriarchy, as a form of balance in the magical world.
Please help and support us the best you can, with the art supplies, cloth,
musical instruments and other tools for holistic enterprise, like herbs that
we use to create a better place of this world. We are about healing
through art. We will accept your leftovers and broken beads collecting
dust. If you are able to shake the money tree a bit when it blooms in your
life, we will be most grateful. Thank you for your attention and time
reading this.
Namaste,
The Faery King
The Gossamer Court information is as follows;
G.C.L. 199 Mass Avenue 214, Boston Ma 02115
gossamer_court@yahoo.com
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| Raquy's Messenger of the Month, July 2008: |
[11 Jul 2008|11:54am] |
 Messenger of the Month, July 2008:
Jordan André Hronec-De Liso (jah-d)
Jordan André Hronec-De Liso (jah-d) was born in Santa Clara, CA, but grew up in northern New Jersey until he went to Tufts School of Engineering a few miles outside of Boston. He and Raquy met at the Starwood Festival in July of 2007. Though Jordan had been playing a drum kit on and off for 15+ years and got into hand percussion a few years before that, he was fascinated by this new style of drumming, to which he was previously unexposed. Jordan attending one of Raquy's drum workshops at the festival and was immediately hooked on the beautiful simplicity of the dumbek and the fact that it was so responsive to very technical finger movements. Jordan had a chance to jam with Raquy and the Cavemen a few times at the festival and was instantly hooked on these beautiful musicians who were truly real people. Jordan made it to a few of Raquy's private lessons after that, and Raquy was incredibly generous and lent him one of her old dumbeks to practice on. He was able to further his knowledge of the dumbek a bit more after attending one of Raquy's retreats in the winter of 2007, where he also assisted Chef Rami in the kitchen. Jordan has apparently been seen at Alex Grey's CoSM gallery with Raquy's blue drum playing alongside Steve Booke at various events, although he is currently in the process of giving the blue drum a makeover at Raquy's request, since metalwork happens to be something he loves to do. Jordan has been involved in a handful of different music projects, mainly because of both a love for improvisation and an appreciation of many different styles of music. He was in a rock band his last year of college called theMark, with whom he helped arrange and record two songs: "Giant Fish in Bear Suits" and "The Dreaded Rake of the Boose Meaver" that can be found on that site. They are still not finished being mixed unfortunately because their singer, Paul Farris, was killed last year in a car accident because of someone being chased by the Massachusetts state police. Please feel free to download the live sets from shows we played (I would suggest the last on from the Middle East Club in Cambridge, MA). Jordan also has a love for cheap vinyl records and instruments, and this has translated into some very strange compositions and jam sessions. Jordan will generally perform under the pseudonym Dr. Miaoux (pronounced "meow"), but also gets down with Port Au Bella. He is also involved musically with one of his friends from high school, Meetu Chilana, a fantastically talented singer, of whom you can see a video here of a jam with Jordan playing the cajón. Jordan is currently taking a stab at creating a full length album of continuous music of his own creation. Hopefully it will be done by the end of the year… Jordan also has a small DIY production company as well that is still getting its feet wet, but definitely check out negative infinity productions, and if you want to see some of his musical/kinetic sculptures, be sure to swing by FlopSuey Studios. Finally, if you dig visuals, Jordan's YouTube page has videos of some of his sculptures, as well as some thoughtful words from his loving partner, Gust (pronounced "yoost"), the Faery King. Please feel free to contact Jordan via email: flopsuey@gmail.com
OR Dr. Miaoux http://www.myspace.com/doctormiaoux FlopSuey Studios http://www.myspace.com/flopsuey THE MARK http://www.myspace.com/themark negative infinity productions http://www.myspace.com/nipros flop on tribe http://people.tribe.net/flopsuey You Tube Projects http://www.youtube.com/user/flopsterbisque |
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| The Metamorphisis Ritual Of The Gossamer Court |
[11 Jul 2008|01:12am] |
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You will not find this on your schedule because Gossamer Court rituals of this kind, like the alchemic feast of the Phaerex and Moon Dance are often spontaneous, done with little preparation. This is done because it makes for a more authentic experience. This ritual is not in the ACE guide. We are going to do our best not to have it at a time that is in major conflict with any of the entertainment acts.
Going through Faery King's magical notes it is obvious he speaks a very angelic language to his pen so please pardon me if I make a mistake on the Angeleese translation while transcribing some of this. The silk clad vagabond has an open door policy to all with good intent who wish to partake in The Metamorphosis Ritual.
The change in this ritual was inspired by one of the great points of light in the lives of His Majesty, the Faery King and Jah-d, Prince of Gaia. Such inspiration for both came in the form of their very gifted shaman, mz imani. The new form has been developed and adapted to create magick for one and all to benefit from, with a primary focus on the very universal organism that is The Gossamer Court. This is for those who wish to take a dynamic step toward more Self-improvement.
This variation in ritual is meant to rise to the standard set by mz imani for the greatest good while honoring the traditions set forth by Faery King, Ryan, Prince of Willows and Her Eminence, Lady Heather, High Priestess of the Gossamer Court.
It is my understanding that the king asked Glitter P*ssy, Lady Jester of The Gossamer Court, to be presiding priestess over the actual ritual with Prince Lucky, Lady Heather, Pharaoh Coco, Lady Ro, Princess Kussina, Prince Jah-d and Faery King, among others of the GC.
This is going to take place sometime after dusk, maybe after the fire show at the roundhouse on Friday night. The info will be posted and announced. Our fire mandala is also an accelerator (ahem) of modest speed that will be available to paint and draw on until the end of the festival then it is going up in a heavenly puff on Saturday. We will not interrupt the regular traffic of the fire either night. There is no need to be in the way of the wheel of souls.
While it is not a long ritual there is need for some preparation and time for making of the masks. We are flexible regarding arrangements and time for ritual depending on how many want to share in the experience. People ask the Faery King to rock it with them all the time. Now is the time to make that magick, study, discuss and teach. <?XML:NAMESPACE PREFIX = O />.... We need to find a spot to work in that will accommodate all of us on Wednesday for a couple of hours to construct the masks, then again on Thursday for painting them. This information will be posted at Ivan's Dome and The Gossamer Ghetto. That is our camp which will be near the radio station.
Their Highnesses Jah-d, Prince of Gaia and Faery King with other affiliates of our Gossamer Court will provide some of the casting materials, yarn, brushes and paints for the making of the masks. We encourage any and all in especially in the GC to contribute a supply, loan a tool or brush to the process.
With the Phaerex health issues tapping badly needed strength, Jah-d and FK have had it tough financially during their first year of marriage but they are good scavenging collectors for the GC, wasting very little of what is found and obtained, which includes food and flowers sometimes through the Indigo practice of dumpstering. They do have enough supplies for about ten masks at present. They are working on obtaining more materials.
The masks are made right on the individuals face, contouring with the cast material that doctors use to hold set bones in place. IF YOU WISH TO USE SOME OTHER BASE MASK, MANY BLESSINGS. Go for it. This is not a purist ritual. A good magician should use what they've got and make it work..... The idea is to decorate the masks in a way that projects the re-creation you intend. These tape strips are made wet then applied one at a time to the face as we work on that intent. Some people have a problem putting petroleum products like Vaseline on their faces. .... Whatever goo you choose has to be something that allows the mask to be taken off with ease but won't slip off. Those who are sensitive to petrol products might want to try oil or some sort of shortening to keep the casting tape from sticking. We will provide some moist disposable towels for when the mask is removed. The casting material does hold quickly and once the mask is made it takes about 14 -24 hours to dry for painting and stringing. We should have a few people to help those with the construction of the masks. We appreciate art guides and teachers in the ghetto. The Faery King would like to suggest that with large masks of great detail which might obstruct sight that people step in and offer an arm at the round house especially.
The Gossamer Court will have a community chest at Ivan's and near the main altar of the ghetto for donations of art supplies, sage and the ingredients for Prince Oz'es Blend, which is frankincense, myrrh and abramelon. Please just look for a box with Ravi the GC pink elephant if you have broken bead chains, ribbon, half a jar of paint or glue etc..... A few pieces of fire wood for Ivan's dome from a few people would be a blessing. Thanks to Jo, Ivan and the elves who maintain the dome, we have an independently provided community space. Any help for The Squid Lounge is most appreciated. For those who are on tight budgets bring a song or a poem, yourselves, a chant etc.
If anyone has things kicking around that the kids can use for artistic enterprise that are not getting used, please bring it to the box. In doing so you will bring the magick of creativity to the children we work with, wherever we are and to our collaborative rituals. A part of the discipline Yust and others have been creating is frowning at waste. Barter becomes more and more common place.
We use "the blend" and Florida Water for most high magick ceremonies of The GC. The water or sage is for cleansing and the fragrant incense is to give our work of intent wings. If you do not have the time or inclination to make a mask and wish a bit of magick, we will have a set up of some sort of canvass at the Gossamer Ghetto. .... This magical work in the form of mandala is for people to use as a sort of wish stone where you can give away some of the pain through etching (Faery King stresses the importance of wishing something good and special for another being (without telling them) and then you wish for yourself.) .... One exception to this is that we are not going to have fertility magick because as Yust said, he values breathing. A direct quote of his is "da wimmin's would not be amused. I would get a kind of magical iron maiden applied to me. Nope, no baby stuff with that many ovaries gathered. This is beyond an OOPS." His rituals are like a flower bed in springtime. .... Trips or quads anyone?.... Please contribute some little etching or doodle to the fire mandala, as you pass by the Gossamer Ghetto. The work will go up with the goddess fire.
HSH the Prince and His Majesty will provide what supplies they can, as they will both be springing for ingredients so that the kids can make silly putty and other fun things. Jah-d is a science teacher and HSH the prince wishes to make an offering of some of his teaching gifts to the children this year.
While the masks are being made, painted and dried Faery King and Glitter P*ssy will talk about intent woven into the process and the alchemy involved with recreating one's self, putting down that which is unhealthy or counter-productive..... IE "I am Max, Solar Boy to my people. I recreate myself to be a better listener for them. May I beam with love for all that is sacred and beautiful. May I stop rolling over and falling asleep before my mate gets his or her fortune cookie.".... This is much more fun than the visualization we used to do for this. We would sometimes get silly with describing what we are wearing in the visual. Faery King is a freak, a big one..... Wearing your beautiful mask, you begin to feel and manifest the magick you are making in the company of other magi. Keep intent and specificity alive!.... The censor begins to release the fragrant smoke of heavens breath to rise with the prayers into the universe. More of the prayer ties and some magical offerings will now follow. .... We would appreciate some help with the prayer ties too. You do not have to be a member of The Gossamer Court to join us. That would be very un-GC. We are not a religion but we are very Masonic in nature with some of our magical mischief. .... We are not all Indigos but all Indigos are welcome. His Majesty is not consuming the dark medicine of the booze faery. He is present for you guys and the tribe as a whole. Glitter has been a good sober example since last Starwood and we are all very proud of her. Jah-d is vigilant about paper training the king on why he should not be indulging. I quit in October of last year except for two or three times and it feels great. Yust has struggled but he is OK around the un-sloppy. People may carry beverage in camp with us but we do ask people to work on not being disheveled. .... The Prince of Gaia loves the Faery King enough to say no and Faery King loves his husband enough to pay attention to a message put to him that is purest truth. Jordan is a good magician himself. When they do healing magick Yin/Yang it is very powerful. They want to share what they learn with the tribe. They have plenty of time to play, visit and make magick this Starwood.
As presiding priestess for this ritual, Glitter will bear witness to the words of the masked, work the energy at the fire and present the prayer ties to the goddess with Lady Heather and His Majesty assisting her. The king does not want "newbie's" to do their first three O's alone after recreating themselves so please step in if that wand has a little age on it. Make a new friend.
As the officially recognized High Shaman of The Gossamer Court, mz imani, would say; "The world needs our medicine and magick." It so does need her, with the gifts and talent she brings forth. Jah-d (A Crystal Child) and Yust (A First Wave Indigo) have devoted themselves to each other and to the higher purpose of helping others to find their philosophical, scientific, magical and artistic inner voice. With the magical in numbers, Glitter, Heather, Kussina, Logan and the rest, Hang Ten Dude, Let's clean house then make magick..... Unfortunately mz imani will not be attending Starwood this year. The GC loves her and she will be missed. Both she and our HP Lady Heather have brought such light and magick to our dream. Most of the Soulfire crew has been with her much longer than Yust. Your input and participation is most welcome and appreciated. .... Let us continue The Great Work. We affiliates of The GC hope that our gift to the festival is well received and worthy of the beautiful soul of Starwood. Please come and share in the magick of healing through art with the magicians and shaman of The Gossamer Court. .... We love you Starwood!
Blessed Be,
Solar Boy, Prince of Rays....
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| Please SIgn This Petition |
[10 Jul 2008|06:11am] |
The links now work thanks to Night Flower. Please pass this on.
Greetings,
It has been a long time since I have posted, hoping some may remember me, and hope all are doing well :)
"As much as His Highness is trying to conserve his energy for Sirius Rising and Starwood some challenges do find him that need to be dealt with. He and Jordan take their role within this very diverse combination of tribes very seriously. They are only about two hundred signatures short of the needed five thousand to protest Kathy Lee Giffords thoughtless negative remarks about pagans."
Being as the Video The Faery King Posted is important, as well as the Petition regarding Nasty Pagan's I am hoping I have created WORKING links to both.
Faery King's You Tube Video Link ::Click::
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2ZgwWiOZik
Nasty Bad Pagans Petition ::Click::
http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/quotnasty-bad-pagansquot-protesting-hate-speech-on-nbc
Love and Light~
Night Bloom
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| Pastor's Poison |
[02 Jul 2008|02:51pm] |
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You are the crucifier's of your own God,
Still to this day,
As you eat His flesh and drink his blood,
You judge other's as unworthy of above,
Standing up on Sunday mourn,
Preaching to the misguided,
Matters un-truthfully, of you, born,
But never-the-less before other's,
God's statement, by you sworn?
HYPOCRITE! Harming in the name of faith,
You are a fucking disgrace,
Cannibal of the soul and heart,
Those by evil church lies worn,
Still spitting on their own Savior,
Casting blame at some other Jews,
With their flesh beaten, scourged and torn,
You look at you own children as evil,
Because of the way they love,
In a just world, father's like you get The Needle,
As your actions are that, which is un-speakable,
Abomination, Blasphemer Heretic,
Maybe it's you, not other boys who want some dick,
Not I, said the one lacking in humanness or basic pride,
Their cause is hopeless, not mine,
You are not of Adam or Eve,
But some foul-smelling disease,
That fills children with fear and dread,
It is amazing they don't wish you dead,
In the name of Jesus, you? Pastor, my ass,
You want your guilt to control the wife,
And subjugate the children until the last,
Breath of theirs has passed from life,
You sicken me, man of hate,
I know the strategy and of the bait,
The passages you can't justify or honestly equate,
To anything thing by a loathing of all God's Estate....
The Faery King 2008
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| Summer Solstice "Kupala 2006" in Russia |
[01 Jul 2008|01:45pm] |
WOW!!
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| the Faery King - on Kathy Lee Gifford (a video warning) - 6.30.08 |
[30 Jun 2008|03:19pm] |
While his health continues to decline he is determined to spread the word about the dangers of what is to come.
If you support in spirit what he is saying in this video, please pass this on.
Total peace in our time.
Blessed Be,
The Gossamer Court
"There has been something, in its extremes, that has been growing like a virus in this country. Comments like one made by Kathy Lee are very dangerous and this is why."
Namaste,
The Faery King
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| Death Is The Unkind Mistress Of Life And Life Is A Zoo |
[26 Jun 2008|01:26pm] |
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There are some things that I do not do well; death of the young is one of them.
There is a panic that overtakes me, kind of like being buried alive, suffocating for last breath, whenever a child or young person is either in danger of or taken by death. The young know that I am with them. This anxiety and panic comes when I know that their time was too short. When you outlive your child, nothing is ever the same. Especially, when that child takes his or her own life, as mine did.
It has rarely been my intention to hurt another person, but in the panic of me, I am compelled to scratch my way out, so that I may inhale some air. Sometimes people get in the way of that, usually they have huge egos that will not allow healing to commence. Others' May the gods bless them' just want to be helpful. Many of my acquaintances are trying to get themselves plumed and painted for vanity's sake, thinking that it covers the darkness. Trina's BOOB job turned out to be a big boo-boo because she kept changing sizes. Many do not understand, and I have been guilty of this, that hard change is best and one needs to face their demons in order to dwell in the other place. Oddly for some it is difficult to understand that agony of a portion of the heart, cut out and left for the buzzards of uncaring to munch on in thought word, and deed. This magical organ part keeps growing back, making the pain a constant. Watch a rodent cornered by flame sometime and you will understand what I go through with the claustrophobia that joins the panic. That panic comes from my inability to turn back the clock and help others avoid fatal mistakes.
It is best to just leave me be during such panic, regardless of what I sputter, but the well-meaning, misguided, and otherwise, never, will do so. They want to help even when that help is a hindrance to healing. And those who revel in hindering will call the police and shake things up however they can. Life I am sorry to say, is a Jerry Springer show. Humans are not nice and they are not the friends of other human's unless it serves them. A fair-weathered friend is there for sunny days but not the tempests. Watch a parent like me casting the ashes of his only-begotten onto the Charles River, after he took a swan dive from a high cliff in The Outback because he could bear no more of mortal life. Hold the head, much like your own and feel the weight weighing heavily upon your hands that you were either too dumb or disconnected to see what your child's needs were.
It was my son's head that was heavy, though he wore a small crown, as he felt compelled to look after me. Jordan has been my second chance, yet I have failed with him, too. Farewell, my ascended child. I caught myself admitting to Jordan the circumstances of A.J.'s death. Yes, my son did elect to leave us very soon, and the dive from a cliff was his choice. A few weeks ago a very dear sweet spiritual young man whom I liked very much, named Vincent died when he fell scaling a waterfall with his sister and the rushes of agony took over my heart again. Two deaths very similar in nature, one was done on purpose and one was an accident. Both tragedies are such a waste of promise and potential. Time moves on for me in such strangeness sometimes. Last year I watched Jordan walk into the house, and it was visible to me that something had gone very wrong. In an accident caused by the police in the Boston Area, his lead singer, Paul Farris, Magna Cum Laude double-major from Tufts and a fun-loving musician, was killed by an SUV being chased by the police that crashed into the young mind's taxi cab. He was with his girlfriend, who will never be the same, and Paul has moved on to the next life. My sweet Laura Timmerman lost her Travis to cancer, a disease that not only eats the flesh of the one infected by the disease but takes agonizing lumps from the hearts of those around the afflicted person. No one can ever take from the bravery of Laura or Travis. Life as well as death should be done well because both are such a unique experience. I had just made a friend before the most recent departure of one greatly loved. Her name was Emma and she was a delight, older but never the less important to me because in my desolation these days I needed a friend besides Jordan, one who could help validate me, and she did. At the Full Moon the other night they were talking about Vincent, who had fallen to his death while climbing a waterfall with his sister. I did not make the connection at first, with the young man I had spent a few hours talking to, a few minutes praying with, saying "Good-Bye The Sun, Thank You For Making Our Day!" This strikes me as near prophetic; saying good-bye to a radiant work of human kind is like saying good-bye to the sun.
When it dawned on me who and how it happened, I became consumed with agony. Though my son Jason let go on purpose, Vincent did not. He had so much to give, and his well-meaning hippie disposition had so many symphonies to write, so much to sing, and for those who wonder how or why I am not myself; think of this, a dead child or young person cripples my soul. The sordid and gutter-minded will never get it; these are my children, Indigo and raging. To lose one is too costly. Do they do dangerous things, like race, safari and sky dive? They would not be mine if they didn't. You can never treat someone like they are going to die. It's not right. Still, I do worry so much.
Take of yourself an arm or a leg. Cut it off and you might begin to understand. They told me that the pain would be easier to bear. If this is true then it means a scar has grown in place of the wound. There never seems to be enough time to heal, because people, young people just keep on dying.
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| To Each His Own |
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| Sacred SoulFire-Maryland, July 3rd-6th, 2008 (Washington, D.C.) |
[20 Jun 2008|04:00pm] |
Please do join Jordan and I for this most wonderful event!
Namaste,
The Faery King
Date & Time: Thursday, July 3, 2008 - Sunday, July 6, 2008
3:00 PM
Calling all Beings with Collaborative Inspirations to join us at
Sacred SoulFire-Maryland, July 3rd to July 6th, 2008, in Harmony,
Maryland.
We invite you to Celebrate Your Shamanic Nature, your Muse-ical
Mastery and our Artistic Independence and Inter-dependence.
The Logistics:
Sacred SoulFire - Maryland
Building Harmony
Thursday July 3rd - Sunday July 6th, 2008
Held at Hawkwood Farm in Harmony, Maryland (15 mins outside of
Frederick, MD.)
Pre-Registration Preferred - www.consciouscollaborations.com/SSF
$75.00 Camping, Pre-Registered
$125.00 Camping, At The Gate
Donations Accepted for Scholarships and Children’s Programming
Darriel Park Returns to Nurture us with an Amazing Meal Plan ($50)!
Some Work Trade Available.
The Intentions:
Sacred SoulFire empowers individuals to empower themselves and Build
Harmony within the embrace of a consecrated, community supported
Sacred Fire Circle. The elemental alchemy that we co-create at
SoulFire, provides you with the opportunity to co-create and maintain
an environment that encourages you to grow into your full potential.
Within the Sacred All Night Fire Circle we can push past limitations -
embody our highest visions of self expression - give service to the
collective - receive gifts of spirit and soul from the collective -
have fun - co-create and share an ordeal - build harmony within the
self and the collective - and to greet the dawn - all in community.
Elemental Group Leaders include: Sefirah, Martin Bridge,
BlackByrd, Steven Wyndwalker and Hawk Ryan.
The Process:
The unique and eclectic elemental approach of Sacred SoulFire invites
you to go deep into your heart as you go deep into the night. In the
afternoons, you are invited to join an Elemental Group to explore one
of the 5 topics offered. All Elemental Groups support the sacred all
night fire circle. Whether thru the expressions of drumming & music,
dancing and chanting, spoken word and visual art, or the manifestation
of harmony in our lives and in our world, the all night fire circle
and the Elemental Groups help to guide us on a mystical journey that
rhythmically re-awakens our potential.
The Commitments:
Conscious Collaborations will instigate a space where we can co-create
a temple of transmutation. We promise to encourage you to show up and
help make this joyful experience for all present.
Sacred SoulFire is dedicated to helping the heart of humanity heal,
One Fire At A Time. We show up with the commitment to dance with the
spirits and co-create a container where we can individually and
collectively explore Shamanism, Conscious Evolution and Sacred Fire
Circle Play. We promise to do this in a way that is inclusive, mindful
and elemental in nature.
For more information or to register, visit
www.consciouscollaborations.com/SSF
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| Margaret Cho -- Laura Bush's Pussy Tastes Like Lysol |
[20 Jun 2008|12:33am] |
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| Classical Gas for electric cello and guitar |
[19 Jun 2008|05:39pm] |
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| GAY PRIDE NYC |
[17 Jun 2008|11:37am] |
Saturday, June 28th 6:30 pm.
Join Alex as he walks through the gallery with visitors and talks about the artwork and the Chapel space.
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| The Wisdom Auf Das Ages |
[14 Jun 2008|08:12pm] |
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Toward the end of Sunday service, the Minister asked, 'How many of you have forgiven your
enemies?'
80% held up their hands.
The Minister then repeated his question.
All responded this time, except one small elderly lady.
Mrs. Neely? Are you not willing to forgive your
enemies?'
I don't have any.' She replied, smiling sweetly.
'Mrs. Neely, that is very unusual. How old are you?'
'Ninety-eight.' she replied.
'Oh, Mrs. Neely, would you please come down in front & tell us all how a
person can live ninety-eight years & not have an enemy in the world?'
The little sweetheart of a lady tottered down the aisle, faced the
congregation, and said:
I outlived the bitches.
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