We are all filled with holes. We are the keys on the piano, half-rotted through from old age. Decaying like fallen leaves from some cherry blossom tree. We are carbon monoxide burning through the esophagus into your lungs when you're making the quick escape. Burning your eyes into the ground, you can feel the substances drown out the noise. No more bellyaching and insect religions. However, you still live with the pain. When the cord slips and the blue floods in at it's first chance. You're all blue inside; changing red when you spill out from some unwanted masochism.
Study, yourself! Come, now. You've got only five minutes left. That's a thousand times less you've had to spend wasting it away on the candy absinthe you've been drinking. You're an adventurer, kid! Five minutes can mean ANYTHING!
But now it's four! It makes everything a little less corporeal, yeah? This is your moment, no one else's. You feel that, too. This is your moment when all the pressure in your head can finally explode into a million black balloons. Your body contorts in every which way, as if you had an important failsafe to prepare yourself in some comfortable decay.
It's actually quite uncontrollable, you feel. The jerking, the shaking, and it's three minutes. Now you kind of regret it. Oh no, kids, what has our antagonist done? Who are you leaving behind? Don't you remember; don't you care for someone? What will they say? Are you still speaking to them? Will they read it in a newspaper? Will they cry? Will they even get the news? At this very moment, are they thinking about you?
"No more surprises. No more surprises. No more surprises. No more goodbyes. No more love. No more pain. No more gain. No more tears. No more laughter. No more fear."
Two minutes. Is my message to you even clear? You look so catatonic, I'm not even sure if you're here. Your face looks as if it has been floating underwater, and your head was bobbing up and down the stream. Water is always a cleansing thing, I've found. Yet you can't seem to live in anything too clean. You'll die one way or another. It's kind of inevitable, you know? I'm sorry, has it been that long already?
Let's surprise ourselves, right now.
Have you ever done anything important in sixty seconds? Has sixty seconds counted for anything in your whole life? Just one simple minute. One minute it takes to put a frozen eggroll in the microwave. One minute to brush your teeth. One minute to make the shortest, most pointless telephone conversation in your life. One minute to tell someone you've always loved them. One minute for someone to forgive you.
One minute to waste away.
One minute to waste.
One minute.
You've just lost. Goodbye, stranger. You've succeeded.
You have found a way to disappear completely.