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Because I needed something to do this morning to keep me awake while I waited for the appointed time to wake up my hubby.. A list!



      Size: medium, Price $10. For putting corked test tubes and boiling flasks in.

$3 - $6 (obviously the $3 ones would work better with the belt)

  $20 (22 inches)  Desire to have before fair season next year.

$39 No idea what size, but I have large hands (Not  completely necessary for costuming, but nicer than the rubber gloves)

       ..Needs this book. Needs it. $31


Possible editing of the entry as I find things.

if people are looking at this entry trying to figure out something to get me, because I hear complaints about never knowing what to get me:
I am looking for a nice tea set. I always enjoy teas, also.
I always like gift cards to barnes and noble
I always like gift cards to build-a-bear
I always like gift cards to Sock Dreams

My latest pieces of art involve the use of my camera, and to a greater or lessor extent, photoshop. Comments, critiques, and opinions are very wanted and encouraged.

The United States Government is trying to take away our copyright
 

http://mag.awn.com/index.php?ltype=Columns&column=MindBiz&article_no=3605




EDIT:

hm. people are saying the information in the article is from a bill two years ago- and it was dismissed,  and the reason theres concern about it -now- is there was a recent congressional hearing that might lead to more of the same, but only  -might-

I don't know why it is that when I hit these early hours of the morning on a sleepless night that I take to posting on my journal..
I suppose that after spending so much time in introspection I want to get whatever subject I've been thinking of down, and set it out for discussion.

Tonights topic for my thoughts: religion.

Not a comfortable topic for me, generally speaking. I'll bet none of you know I'm terribly devout, well my mother might know about it (hi mom).

That being the case, it struck me, of a sudden, that it was very odd that I am so uncomfortable talking about it, or seeing others talk about it. So, me being me I decided to analyze my reactions untill I could come up with a reasonable explanation for this avoidance behavoir, and I finally did muddle my way through it:

I view religion as being an intensely private thing between someone and their god.

Thats pretty much it. It embarrasses me in the same way that someone talking about bedroom details would. Its beyond me why someone would act that way, would constantly publicly use their chosen deity's name, and blaim stuff on him/her. And that doesn't even get into doing obnoxious things in their name, or twisting holy writ to suite ones own purposes.

I suppose its because I took that 'do not cry out your piety on the street corner' thing to heart.. it seems to me like its bragging, like whoever it is is standing there going 'look at me, I'm so much more holy and devout than you' and at the same time insisting that whoever it is is lesser because they arent doing the exact same thing...

its ridiculous,  but then they probably think the same thing about me

anyhow, thus ends my thoughts for the evening, feel free to leave feed back- I encourage discussion but not flames

Happy birthday mommy

I think I want to start trying to write again, with the art no longer able to satisfy my need to paint imagery. So! I am going to make a filter, if you want to see my fiction attempts  and critique, comment on, or poke at my spelling and grammar errors reply to this post for me

http://www.paulkidby.com/news/index.html

I would have liked to keep this one quiet for a little while, but because of upcoming conventions and of course the need to keep my publishers informed, it seems to me unfair to withhold the news. I have been diagnosed with a very rare form of early
onset Alzheimer's, which lay behind this year's phantom "stroke".

and an addition to my christmas list in light of that.. and because I'm terribly frustrated by not being able to find about the conventions hes the geust of in the US:

Signed Books

I hate this

My head is brimming with pictures that beg to be made.. and I cannot.. get them down, not just commissions, but the things that inspire -me-, they refuse to be put to table or tablet, and I get pain for my efforts

some rare days I'm somehow able to work through it and .. oh god its good to draw, I want to cry when I actually manage, and not from what it does to my hand either..

I want to -draw- I want to create, I want to give life to these things in my head. I find myself wanting to commission other artists just so I can -See- the pictures my mind is filled with..

I'm not depressed by any means, frustrated and yearning perhaps..

Just more random thoughts on my part.. and thanks anyone who replies to my journals, I -am- reading them, I just.. don't generally know what to say, I want you to know you're appreciated.

random thoughts for the night:

What makes people think its 'okay' to get their jollies by degrading others? I'm just curious, really, this hasn't happened to me lately. I want to know how these people justify 'Mine is the one and only True point of veiw and anyone who disagrees with me is a moron'. Then someone calls them on this stuff and they're like 'You can't hate on me for this! free speach!' .. I wonder if it occurs to people that freedom of speach might mean the -right- to say whatever you wish to, but it does not mean that its a -good idea- to do this. If you're an asshole.. people are going to react to you appropriately.

Eh, My POV : If what someone is doing isn't hurting anyone in any way physically, emotionally, or somehow I have missed in that definition.. theres no need to attempt to ruin it for them.

I mean who the hell cares -why- something is fun or enjoyable ..as long as it is, and everyone is enjoying themselves?

This has been my random thoughts for the night

My official christmas wish list:

builda bucks

Book Bucks

Socks

DeviantArt Subscription

chocolate

In further news:
EEeeeee~! I got a job! I start on the 26th, training later this week, I'm so excited..

And if anyones still watching this because I'm an artist who owes them something, yes this means a refund will be coming to you in January as long as you let me know who wants one. Every time I try to draw anything now I end up in agony.

*A full time job I will be comfortable working at, preferably one that can transfer you to another store if you move
*Medical - yeah obvious
*Dental - another which shouldn't be needing explanation
*Debts paid off
*Out of this run down little house
*Associates degree

Robert Jordan has passed on

http://www.dragonmount.com/RobertJordan/

:(

I wonder if its human nature not not believe something you don't want to until you've no other choice.

Its been obvious for a while..I'm sure who ever's reading this could see it coming.

But it didnt really hit me till I did a loose sketch and sat there and cried because it hurt my hands so much just to do that little bit..

I can't be a professional artist, I'll never illustrate any gaming books like I've always wanted.

I'm not even taking commissions anymore

Not working cons as an artist anymore..

and God I hope I can find a job and hold it down.. the hypoglycemia.. is pretty bad. I've suspected I was hypoglycemic for six years now.. but as with many things it seems.. it wasnt till it was dehabilitating that it was really addressed.

and theres nothing that can be done for it.. except adjust my diet, no magic shot, no pill, and theres only so much diet can do. My days are spent either fuzzy headed, passed out, or going from one period of the shakes and nausea to the next as I scramble to readjust my sugar levels..

finish the commissions in backlog as I can, when I get a job I'll be able to offer refunds to those who've been waiting and no longer wish to wait on the good days when I can get some work done..

*Does the happy dance* Gotta scanner! see last post!