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pss: the new dnangel art is gorgeous. not a big surprise there, but I just thought I'd let everyone know!

Current Mood:	cheerful
Current Music:	Vindicated - Dashboard Confessionals

Me & Savanna have been getting along. So have me & everyone else...watched Cloverfield with Ben, Esther, my sister, and Jeremy the other night. I really, really, really liked that movie. everyone was pissed about the end but i was kind of fucking in love with it. its so sweet & tragic...not to mention that really cool thing you get to see at the end =]. idk, alot of dying...but very sweet love story behind it I think.

I dont know. everythings so different....I wonder whats going to happen to me now. its a scary but fun thought. =]. i love life, and Im going to enjoy it.

Watching Becky exchange vows today took my breath away.

Current Mood:	touched
Current Music:	Evans Blue

Gotta go get my keys from Jeremy. Later! <3

Current Mood:	sleepy
Current Music:	Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis

Oh MAN. today was SO FREAKIN SAD! I had no idea I would miss that school so much, it hit me on the last day... ): Im going to miss everyone. I made Amber and Ava cry...and Steven gave me the biggest hug in the world... Marc acted like my best friend all day...I told Ez "I <3 U" when I left lol...it was so sad. Graduation...dear God I am going to freak out all night before / all day.

Anyways, I just worked an 8 hour shift. Im going to Esther & Amber's grad parties tomorow =]. AND Im shopping for Jeremy's gift/ cards (for my other boys & girls). I really want to find Jeremy a one-wing necklace like he had before, except not cheap and engrave something on it...but maybe I'll just have to settle with a guitar pick or something. Which reminds me, apparently my fender necklace is turning my neck blueish. LOL SWEEEEEET. <3

I dont know...Im not very tired, I just hurt EVERYWHERE Because I worked an 8 hour shift no breaks today. omg I think Im in love with Jesse. LOL. He is such a sweetheart! He was amused to no end when Savanna told him I used to think he was a hardass. But seriously, a rare guy in this city full of trash. LOVE IT! More rare guys! & Nick/Walter were being funny =]. Dean...hehe! AND MY JEREMY WAS THERE <3 so of course it was a great night! (oh, Savy & Janie too ^__^/ Mandy & Kelsey) But...I dont know, I just feel like going to sleep and dreaming of good things right now.
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Current Mood:	exhausted
Current Music:	Leona Lewis / Hey Jude

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Not even going to get into that.
But...I helped Zac & Ashley move today, and it was omg so much fun =]. I love those two! But more so I just liked...moving! I got so giddy and it wasnt even MY moving out. Now I'm in the mood to pack my bags. I'm so excited!! I cant wait :]. with or without chyea Jere-bear, Im getting out of here this summer!! :].

Thanks for the song, Mark, I be dancin!

Current Mood:	amused
Current Music:	Sexy, can I? - Ray J ft Yung Berg

Jeremy = my love <3 (dont worry) but...damn o___o;;;
Oh, and orgasm at new dn angel art:

Current Mood:	busy
Current Music:	Justin Timberlake

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I had an entire day with Jeremy yesterday, and didnt go home till 2 AM! We talked about alot, and I'm really happy we did. He told me alot of stories about when he was a kid. I liked hearing it. He also took care of me when I started feeling sick again (haha...oh damn you cramps.) Played guitar hero 3, drove about 30 miles for no reason, visited our Hastings crew, and watched that new Jet Li/Jackie Chan movie in an entirely empty theater!! Then we drove to the park ( I love that park ) and thats where we talked till 2 AM before going to Ampride, eating, heading to his house, then home. He gave me a pillow & blanket for my truck! Yay! =].

But...yes talking. I love talking with him, I'm really surprised by our conversations we had. And we decided that until graduation was over and at LEAST a week after (for a break/breather) we wouldnt talk about or even look into apartments. I guess we're both on the same excitement page for the apartment, but ...I'm stressing and so is he, needlessly, and we both realize it.
So now that Im sane again, Im good again..
Wont see anyone though cus I work everyday & a split Saturday

_{Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken}

Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me

I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can
I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's
real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can

I get roses for prom && I'm going to watch some Kodocha =]. yay me!!

<3.

Current Mood:	indescribable
Current Music:	things ill never say - avril lavigne

I really thank God for tonight.
I thank God for my dad.
I really thank God for my friends.
For Jeremy Michael Cowell.
For everything.

Once you find out that love is all that matters after all, it really makes everything seem so small...

Current Mood:	thankful
Current Music:	alot

At first I thought today was a waste cus all I did was sleep...(and am going back to sleep!) but I took some pictures with Esther, talked to Su (not very long...), and got some great news from my baby!! THEN...I got to talk to Zac && Ashley!! Damn, I love that girl. :] she is definately one of my besties. Im really excited, cus shes going to talk to Zac about being me and Jere's roomates! Whoo!!! I hope Zac says yes, cus I honestly see him more towards no. But still. way more awesome than any previous roomates. And I'm not sure if Amber is moving in or not...but 3 bedrooms, way cool! Plus I got all my community college stuff lined out for Thursday...I'm basically stoked! haha :].

I know how Ashley's feeling...probably better than anyone. We have the same situation, afterall.
And she knows me, better than anyone...so that's very comforting. I love having someone who understands. I mean, I love my friends at school, but sometimes they just dont get it : when I have to sleep during class, or HAVE to finish my homework instead of goof around...IDK..

But yes, that girls an angel.

Things are definitely starting to work out for Jeremy && me. Which...he was really tired today. I felt so bad...he sounds sick. I'm glad he has tomorrow off too. dammit Chris, it really makes me mad when his brother takes his bed...even though his brother is his guest. You know?

:]] Im so excited!! warghh!!! I cant wait for prom. I love my Jeremy, Ashley, and Zac!!! whoot ;]

Current Mood:	cheerful & loving
Current Music:	Paramore

Is it weird that I have this really bad want to be Heathers friend? Like Jamie and Zac but...its Heather. Do you realize how many girls I want to be friends with? Not many, girls are bitchy and Ive always been backstabbed. But I get really good vibes from Heather =]. Its weird. Oh well, maybe next time shes in town! :o~! I got some time with Ashely, some real girl time, and it was AWESOME! maybe thats why I'm feeling like this.

Current Mood:	numb
Current Music:	stop & stare - one republic