My jeans are falling apart. And I have not the resources to get new ones. D: Just one more week! That's all they have to last through. Honest. You can do it, jeans. I believe in you. If I had a spare patch of clothing I could sew onto the back of it.. Ah, but I do not. :(

Yes, this is what I choose to write about of my journeys abroad.

It's just really hard to write down what I've done every day. =\ I will when I get back. I'll make it a project. Along with all my pictures. SO JOY.

Okay, I have to talk for five minutes this afternoon. I will probably cry. :)

Rebekah

OMG INTERNETS I MISSED YOU.

It cut out of my computer for a couple days. And then the whole of the Kingston campus lost access. And it came back this morning, but not my computer! And then I did a System Restore AND IT WORKED. omg. I was so happy, I almost cried.

Anyhow. Yes. I have been quite busy and internetless so I haven't been able to update.

HOPEFULLY at the end of this trip, I'll be able to remember what all I got up to and can make proper entries about things. But. :X I am uncertain about how that will go! I feel so bad. I should be recording things better. But I'm sooooo lazy.

Yesterday, I went to Legoland. It is an amusement park... for kids. Definitely for kids. But we still went. Five adults. It was awesome. I did like it. As much as I complained at the time. There was this really hot guy there that we dubbed 'Jesus' as he looked like Jesus in Jesus Christ Superstar, the movie..

TOMORROW is Stonehenge. And Bath. :D I am so so excited.

Rebekah

I spent the 4th of July in Scotland. Somehow... it's just not the same!

I just got back, though. Very tired. Will write more of this wonderful, showerless adventure later. :D

Rebekah

Today.

I walked 7 miles.

Of the Pilgrim's Way.

I almost died. And discovered I cannot go up any hills whatsoever. Unfortunately, about half the distance was up this huge fucking hill. I started having a panic attack, and I couldn't breathe, so I couldn't take deep breaths enough to calm myself down. I was just.. trying so hard not to cry. It was a super big problem. I felt really bad and embarrassed. I just.. could not catch my breath. By the time we got close to the top, my Professor had to take my bag, and I had to just.. rest every once in awhile and catch my breath. It was pretty brutal.

After that, it was sort of okay. I mean, any time we hit another hill, I was right out of breath again.

I really need to go to the doctor's and find out if it's asthma, or I'm just really out of shape..? Which I just don't think it is. Because I could do the rest of it just fine! I wasn't complaining on level ground, I wasn't dying because of a little exercise. Just that hill! Going upwards! I couldn't handle it. My lungs just wanted to collapse.

Though, at the end. I had a delicious salmon lunch. It was salmon! Wrapped in a croissant like pastry thing. Along with asparagus in it too. Served over potatoes and steamed cauliflower/carrots. It was very good, and quite healthy, really! I wished there had been sort of like a .. sauce? Or a glaze? Of some kind. I couldn't quite figure out what I wanted. Probably a sauce. But it was still delicious. I want it always.

I would update about other days. But I'm so lazy! Agh. I should.. Eventually. When I upload pictures. Okay, yes!

I am supposed to be writing an essay right now, but I am not. I am skipping it. We have to write up 4 on our fieldtrips, of which we are taking 6. SO THERE. I don't have to. And I'm toooo tired to do it. And I'll cry. So. :D

Rebekah

SO.

I would write here about my past two days, but. It gets tedious after awhile. I sure will eventually. I don't know! I've been writing to my mom and another friend and it's get boring after awhile reiterating the same thing.

SO I'LL JUST SAY. THAT I MET MY BOYFRIEND TODAY.

His name is Julius. And he is a statue of a Roman soldier in the gardens of Hampton Court Palace. We probably won't see each other again, but.. I forgive him. Being that he is stationary, after all.

And okay!

I wish I could share pictures of Julius and I. We adore one another, you see. And posed for the camera. I shall just have to work out how to get the photographs off my camera. :(

Rebekah

brb going to London

Oh.

Hello, nerves. Fancy seeing you here.

Three days.

Rebekah

Oh my god.

I was just doing the dishes and minding my own business when I felt something ITCH on my leg. So I went to go slap it, you know. As you do. AND THERE WAS AN UNNATURAL BUMP THERE. So I like, freaked out, and tried to get whatever was there out of my pajama pants. So okay. It was this.. beetle looking thing. And then IT HAPPENED AGAIN immediately after. And this time it was an ANT. Ugh ugh ugh.


I don't know how they got there, but fuck. I ran to the bathroom and took off my pants. I refuse to put them back on. So I guess it's time to shower now. I'm standing here pantless. >.>



On the upside, I started to clean my room. Now it is mostly going to be about putting things in places where they belong. It's a two day event, at least. Mostly because I am bored with it. Agh.

Fucking bugs. I'm going to be having phantom itches all day long now.

Rebekah

I'M SO ANTI-CLEANING MY ROOM.

But I alksdjfalfj need to do it. Before I leave. (Which, by the by, is in TEN DAYS, omg.)

And I need to start packing.

But first I have to compile a list.

And then go shopping.

And then freak the fuck out.

WHAT IF I NEED SOMETHING AND I DON'T TAKE IT?!

I'll just buy it, it is okay.

It's gonna be okay, yes. I think I am resistant to doing anything preparation wise for this trip because then it'll be REAL and I'll start panicking. D:

Rebekah

So! This morning I had to watch Thorin for a couple hours. It was goodtimes. He went for a walk with me. I usually go in the mornings, and I asked him if he wanted to come and he said yes. So. It wasn't actually as awkward as I expected. He just asked a lot of questions and told me some stuff about school and his friends. So. :)

But! At one point, he asked me. "Do you people who live in apartments have an attic?" As we were passing some by.

"No they don't. Why?" I asked him.

"Then how do they get Christmas?"

This may seem like a strange statement to you. But I just laughed at him. It was incredibly amusing. We keep our Christmas ornaments and the fake tree and all that stuff up in the attic. So that's 'where Christmas comes from', apparently.

It was cute.

Rebekah

Oh.

Thorin may or may not be the most self-centered child ever.

He's currently picking up laundry from the floor to take downstairs for dad and singing himself a little song as he does so. "Me me me me me me me." It's a cute little tune. But. Seriously.

In other news, I think I'll FINALLY make it over to Abby's today. Since we usually watch Doctor Who on Sunday and all and I was gone this Sunday.. We've been trying since Monday, but I keep somehow bailing out because I am made of fail. Sigh.

But excitingly, the potato salad I made yesterday was Delicious. And also beer is still gross. Yay.

Rebekah

Right. So. Today I went to the grocery store BY MYSELF to pick up things for a couple dinners. Anyway, so, I wanted to make brats today for dinner,and I was going to make potato salad this afternoon so it could be cold by dinner time. Well. I was in the car on the way home and I suddenly remembered. Oh, hey, I forgot to pick up potatoes.. Awesome.

Needless to say, that didn't happen. So I called mom, and she told me to make the chili I had planned for tomorrow. I made it early so Zeb could have some before he went to work. Anyways, it was an adventure. It wasn't traditional chili. The recipe called it "Southwestern Steak Chili" or.. whatever? I don't know! It has corn in it, that was pretty interesting.

But yeah! I went to make it. And like... One thing after another kept going wrong. First, I had to cook the frozen corn and the chili powder in oil, you know. But I was having a hard time getting the beef tips with gravy they wanted me to put in open. The package was not at all cooperating. So the corn/powder was starting to burn. And it was bad. D: But eventually I got that in, and I got all the ingredients in. But like... I decided, wisely I must say, that it needed more chili powder. WELL. I knew from trying to get it in before that it's hard to shake out. So I took the cap off, and I shook hard! You know, it should have worked great. Except for that part where I took the cap off. Instead of popping it open for the little holes, you know.

So like, that was a ton of chili powder. I scooped up the stuff from the top. But there was a lot that got soaked in. After that, it was just... really spicy. I had to deviate from the recipe and add more beans and more corn and an extra thing of tomato paste. Like, to try and even things out. Eventually I had to cook up some ground beef. Even though it wasn't really supposed to have ground beef... However! That soaked up some of the spiciness to it. So that was good.

I actually really liked it, despite the trauma of putting it together. It SHOULD have been super easy and quick to make. But it like.. took me forever because I had to keep fixing things. Oh well. It was very sweet from the barbecue sauce. But still good. It was mmm mmm good for dinner with the cider beer Mother bought. :)

This was basically a really long story to say that I am retarded. You may now resume going about your business. :D

Rebekah

So! I went to Fort Wayne yesterday to visit my sister. Was goodtimes. We went to the zoo. I liked it, I like the zoo there. Though, I was sad that they are remodeling their Africa exhibit. Boo. Oh well. And since Mom can't really walk all that well it was..kind of slow going. I took Thorin on a couple of their little scenic rides while Mom and Sarah just talked. That was.. interesting. We were on the SKY RIDE (omg just like a roller coaster, for serious) there was this.. little pond like area of muddy water. And Thorin decided it was crocodile pee. Yeah. Oh, little boys.

And then Sarah made us vegetarian Indian food. Well! I did help her cook by stirring. So there. We both made it. I just.. don't think I'm very fond of Indian. And I feel awkward having dinners without meat. Soooo.

What I found really interesting is that Sarah, independently of ever having talked to me, is also trying to go without shampoo. She said the baking soda was doing bad things to her skin, so she had to go back to shampoo, but she's looking into other methods. I told her about just going Water Only. That is my current experiment. I am currently on day 4 of simply washing with water. And let me tell you, it's not as bad as you might think. I.. don't think I did it very well today, so it feels a little greasy today, but like, no more than just on a normal day. I'm not dirty, I swear. And I smell fine. My hair just has this generally interesting feeling, where I can't decide if it feels clean or greasy. I don't know! But it always looks fine? Just a little flat, I guess. But I really need a new haircut, as this one is growing out and it just looks awkward, so it's hard to tell if I just hate my haircut or the way the new washing method is making it look. So that remains to be seen.

Today wasn't a very excellent day for me. I felt bad because I was supposed to go to Abby's to watch the latest Doctor Who episode. But I had to bail as I wasn't at all feeling sociable. Blahhh.

I'm also addicted to bacon. This is a huge problem. But I'm taking 45 minute walks in the morning so... I don't feel SO bad about having some bacon with my lunch. Speaking of, I've been having a small bowl of cereal when I wake up, and then having eggs of some kind for lunch. It's so weird. Probably because lunch time is usually the time when I would wake up if it were like.. any other summer. But I've been getting up early this summer. It's good, though. I like getting things done during the day. And then I can just chill on my computer all afternoon/evening and not feel bad about it.

Also, my spacebar is occasionally acting up and not being my friend. So if I've stuck together any words, I apologize.

This entry sucks. I had a million things in my head that I've wanted to post over the last several days, but I've just procrastinated on them. Pfft. Whatever, self. See if I care..

Rebekah

Once I had a dream that I was Patrick Stewart.

I think my life is complete now, don't you?


Anyhow! I have been exceedingly lazy the past few days. Since I'm doing the whole not washing my hair thing. Mom wanted to go to Blockbuster and rent movies. So I had to change and put on a shirt with a hood, so I could go out in public. I really need to get a hat. But that requires going out on a hair washing day! Which should be today, but I am feeling like crap (cramps) and would much rather do... nothing at all.

HOPEFULLY tomorrow I will be going to see Indiana Jones with Abby. That was the plan. I have to call her tonight to confirm. Note to self: don't forget to do that.

One more month until it's off to London. I'm getting more scared as time goes on. And also more okay with it. It's a conundrum. Once June hits, I'll need to start reading up on things and getting prepared to go. Sometimes I forget I'll actually be having to do homework while there. Sup with that, yo. Craziness.

Anyway, that's all, really. I'm kind of boring lately. But on the upside, I am listening to National Treasure 2 for the second time this week. First time when dad watched it. Now mom is! It's on the TV in the living room, and I can hear it from my room. Especially as it is incredibly loud. Gee, if that isn't my favourite movie ever...

Rebekah

I'm really sick. Colds suck. Why did I get one!? It's springtime! It is not cold out! Boo to you, illness.

Also, I am Upset. Mother is away for the weekend, and I planned a few meals to make for dad and Thorin and I. Well. The one I am in the middle of Screwing Up Royally Because I Don't Think The Potatoes Will Cook... Dad won't eat it. Because he hates sauerkraut, or something ridiculous. Ugh. I am sooo angry. I picked this one especially! I thought it looked good, and I wanted to try it.. And D: D: D:

Blah, whatever. Matt messaged me earlier to see if I wanted to go see Prince Caspian. I told him I would, but it's sure going to be an adventure. I am kind of all stuffy nosed/sniffling constantly and my eyes are watering and :O. I mean, I look fine, but I feel kind of out of it.

At least I washed my hair today! (With baking soda. Never ceases to amuse.)

Rebekah

I'm kind of proud of myself! I wanted to make stir fry tonight but mom ran off to teach her quilting class before I could ask her basically.. anything. So like. I had to figure out how to do it myself! I asked dad some, and I looked up a different stir fry recipe in my cookbook. But BASICALLY, I just sort of went for it. It's not really that difficult, I know, but I get really freaked out when I have to do things without there being explicit instructions. I am afraid I'll do something wrong! D:

Overall though, it was a success! Could have used a touch more sauce and the meat was kind of tough (not my fault) but I really liked it. I'm happy, yay! Another meal to add to my growing knowledge of things I can make next year on my own. 'Cause if I have to live another year of rotating between spaghetti and hamburgers and meatloaf and chicken breasts.. Well. While they are all delicious, delicious foods. They get boring after awhile.

Ahem, yes. I will be chronicling my cooking adventures. It's fun! I really like cooking. I mean, I hate getting up and doing it, but once I am! It's good. Yayyy. :)

Rebekah

I am amazingly depressed. And I have no idea why. I was all fine in the grocery store, and then... I just wanted to do basically anything but where I was. I still want that! Erg. I am not really pleased with life right now.

Sometimes I make really split decisions that I just shouldn't. Like, I wanted to try the Oil Cleansing Method, so I went for it! And now I basically love it. I like what it's doing for my skin, I like how my skin feels. I mean, it's not all that much clearer.. but it's smoother! And mother says it's less red than it used to be. And I'm not breaking out much, just occasionally like a normal person. So that's good. After that I went into skin brushing which if I would just stick with.. it'd be great! Because it makes me feel all soft and smooth and delightful all over. :D

SO, when I considered going no shampoo I didn't quite reckon with my extreme aversion to greasy hair. Like, my hair gets greasy extremely easily. I can't even deal with it. Ugh. I usually have to wash my hair before I'll even consider leaving the house. But yesterday I said, hey, let's give it a go. So I washed my hair as directed with baking soda and rinsed with apple cider vinegar (which I am also taking internally, it is grossss). It wasn't all that bad. Yesterday. My hair was quite clean, thank you. But then today you're not supposed to wash. But I was going to the grocery store! So I used a little bit of baking soda... And, I don't know. I just couldn't handle the greasy feeling. I am not that strong! And I had thought it looked relatively fine. But then at Blockbuster I looked in the mirror and I was just.. it was not a pretty sight!

I want to keep sticking it out, though. If I have to go out again on a day when I don't wash I looked up some more and I have a battle plan! But other than that, if I know I'm going out, at least in the beginning, I will just be sure to wash properly. :)

Oh, for Mother's Day I got momma a car and she liked it. :D I felt really proud, because we usually never do anything for her. It was a pretty good day. Dunno.

I need to pick up exercising again, blah. I am going to get unused to walking and then BAM it's going to be London time. Yikes. I'm still skeptical about this ever happening sometimes. I'm just trying to keep myself from dying by pretending it won't actually happen.. Yeahhh, that'll be work. P.S. I am pissed at you Patrick Wolf, doing a show while I'm in London but I can't go!? You hate me, don't you? Boo.

Rebekah

So! I had a pretty good day today, actually. Just chilled with mom for most of the day, really. It was ridiculously better than last year where I cried and got drunk by myself and watched Disney movies out of self pity or something.

No! Instead, this year, I went out to lunch with mom and Zeb and then went shopping and bought tons of cute clothes that I can wear in London. :D! And then watched Thorin for awhile. And then started to watch P.S. I Love You, but mom had to interrupt it for an hour for American Idol. (She is beyond obsessed with it.) But we finished it, and I cried like a baby throughout the whole thing. Well, not really, but I FELT like crying the whole time. So, basically it's the same thing.

I got myself wine, but it was kind of dry. I didn't really like it... And it isn't agreeing with me right now, I don't think. Or I don't know... But there is enough left for funtimes another night. Sadtimes. But right now I am way too tired. I woke up at 9:30! I've been sneezing, so that definitely means it is bedtimes. (I have this problem where I sneeze a lot when I'm really tired ...Yeah, I don't get it either.)

ALSO. UGH. I think my birthday is cursed. Last year I tried a different brand than usual of jalapeño potato chips and they were not good at all. And this year I went for the old favorite! EXCEPT that they are not spicy at all! There's barely any there! It's like eating plain potato chips. Ewwwwwwwwwww. I am really, actually sad about this. Because I am alskdjflaskdf obsessed with my jalapeño chips! I love them to death, basically. And they weren't so awesome. Boooo.

Oh, well. I'm going to go to bed. Today was a pretty fab day and I am glad for that. I haven't had a good birthday in a couple years. They're generally pretty disappointing. This year was good, and I am glad. :D Dad even remembered! Sarah did not...

Rebekah

So!

How goes? I am doing okay. I kinda died for a week there and wanted to do nothing at all. But that's what working the hours of 2-9 every day will do to you? It basically took up my whole day. I woke up, got ready to go to work. Worked. Came home and went to bed absurdly early because I was exhausted.

But now I am back!

Guess what is on Wednesday? GUESS. HINT: I'LL BE 22. (Answer: Is my birthday.)

:D I'm not really doing anything, though. Mom said she'd take me out to lunch, and I bought a bottle of wine. I will probably play FFXII the whole day away, eat my potato chips, drink my wine.. you know, be extra classy!

Today mom bought me a cookbook. I am super excited and I want to make everything NOW, PLEASE. It's gonna happen, okay? Next year, I'm going to cook new things! And not spaghetti and hamburgers and meatloaf and chicken breasts every single week. No! There will be things like VARIETY. It'll be amazing, quite honestly.

I also have big plans to go shopping for clothing for London. And also to get mom to make me some clothes I could wear... I dunno, I'm just not big on summer clothes. I am uncomfortable enough wearing short sleeves, let alone tank tops. D: It's going to be a problem. I don't wear shorts. I'm hoping to get some 3/4 length pants or something.

Also, I redesigned my layout. Basically, I just took the design already there and changed the header and color scheme. I am still undecided on if I love it or not.

Rebekah