My uncle died sunday. I wasn't close to him. And my mom seemed to be doing okay. But today was the cremation and when the coffin went down she cried so hard. It was unbearable. I was standing across from her, on the other side of the coffin but when she started crying so hard (sobbing with noise!) I quickly walked towards her. Fortunately my dad was already comforting her. But it still broke my heart. Sorry I didn't tell you all about this earlier. About my uncle's death I mean. I only told it casually to Christina in a comment sunday. And all was well! But the past week has been busy. Sorry to hear about your family drama Ami. It makes me sad to hear things are still not resolved with your sister and dad. And oh my gosh, I totally forgot to comment on your entry about the theft Sal. So much is going on in your life, it's not fair. You really need a break. And Ajoké, I finally mailed your dvd. It will take a while though, because I send it through regular mail (usually I use priority).

It was weird being in the cremation/funeral institution again. I mean, it was only 8 months ago that we cremated my grandmom. I kept seeing images of her funeral day in my head as we walked the same halls and sat in the same room there. And then they even started playing the same hindi songs they played at her ceremony. The week has also been stressful because my mom didn't dare to ask my dad if he would come to the cremation today. See, my dad got into a fight with her family. Not even a real fight but just stuff happened he didn't agree with at all and so he stopped going to my mom's family, he didn't even visited my grandparents. Half of the family comes at our house at birthdayparties. But those are mostly my aunts (those are my mother's sisters) and their kids. Her brothers and the husbands of my aunts never came. And it's been like four years since the fight I think. Or perhaps longer. Anyway, he decided to come today. It wasn't even a question for him because he loved this uncle that died. So he definitely wanted to pay his respects. But I was stressed out because I thought, what if he gets into a fight. Or what if my mom's family acts weird towards him. See, my dad can be quite frightening when he gets mad. He's so strict and formal in his appearance. Fortunately everything went amazingly well. There were so many people who immediately walked towards him to greet him when he entered the building. And even one of my cousins, the only one that's really near my age, my cousin Anushka, who I do not get along with well (though we did were good friends when we were younger) stepped towards him and told him she was really happy he came! I was flabbergasted when I heard she had said that. And it's making me teary eyed again. It has just been such an emotional day, *sigh*.

And now I am listening to a Lion King song. From the dutch musical and it's a bit sad. And then I thought, let's look up a Youtube video of the original english performance. And I found a video of Jason Raize. And then I find out he commited suicide when he was just 28 years old. So sad. I am well though. Despite everything. I am thankful my dad finally met my mom's family again. And I am glad my uncle, despite being an alcoholic and ruining his life (liver failure, divorce, arguments with his family and kids), got a good funeral and brought the family closer. Cause I didn't see his kids in years and now they want to have contact again : ) *hugs* Catch up with you soon!