I am coming home tuesday... Wow.

I'm going to miss germany, but not as much as i think right now I'm sure. I really miss my friends and it has been sort of a lonely 5 months. I started out having what I thought was a good friend, who liked to party like me, but unfortunately was a taker. Some people just take and never give back as a friend. I never realized how much of a giver I can be myself, since I'm usually more of a silly person, but I can't seem to help myself now. Its not always good to be a giver, you know, you get taken advantage of. It seems that ever since I've started taking mood stabilizers I just don't pick fights anymore. Life seems better that way, but I miss out at defending myself a lot too. It seems that minus a select few, I am not good at picking out good friends. We either have terrible falling outs before becoming friends again (due to my apathy towards grudges) or just drift apart. Or they continue to take from me and I just heartily give it up. I need to learn to become a bitch.

So I'm doing that when I go back to school. Someone took away the job that I wanted for myself or for another friend and I'm going to try my best to never forget that. A great deal of people forgot about me in my time away, and even though I was willing to do anything for them, they couldn't even remember that I existed. So OWU, overall, I'm not very happy with you. Especially Theta, which I will continue to give another chance, though I don't know why I bother.

Well, there are only a few things left to do here... 2 papers to finish, a room to clean, and thats about it. I'm already mostly done with packing. If only I had internet in my room these few days would go faster, as I could play some serious WoW. Instead I guess I'll just read, although I'm getting sick of the selection that my student center has to offer. I picked out a few books in German, which I will take home and read to practice my skills, as I NEVER find German books at home. I'll have to ask my professors if I can borrow some. And not Goethe or Schiller or something- I have trouble getting through their books in English why would I read them in German. I just want pleasure reading!!!

Well studying abroad is very good for you, I suggest you do it too. And no excuses about "I can't afford it" because neither could I, but I ate pretty well and I even managed to travel a little bit. I have a ton of tips on saving money, which I will probably transfer to my home life now.

Now that I've come closer to discovering who I am, I need to focus on what I'm going to do after I graduate. I'll spend the next two semesters doing that. It should be fun!

i had a dream in German

this has to be my best yet

( philip and louisa )

but the file was so big it kept crashing my computer... i might not do something this big again eh

this time i got it done in 1 night, still not very depthy but i think it looks cool



jen! haha

vectoring!!!



that took a long ass time but i think it came out good for my first attempt.

heres the tutorial

http://www.melissaclifton.com/tutorial-vector.html

i need more pics to practice with though. they need to be super big so i can see detail. if you want one lemme know and send me a big picture :-D

add me as a friend on my germany blog

traveltara.livejournal.com

and then read it and comment

This is how it goes....
The first player of this game starts with the "7 weird things/habits about him/herself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog of their 7 weird (or unique) habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end you need to choose the 7 people to be tagged and list their names.


1) When I talk to people on AIM, I'll leave the windows open forever. Sometimes days. I like to keep windows open, maybe I'll need to go back and read it!!

2) My computer goes to screensaver after 5 minutes and then its password protected. I can't have people go reading all my open AIM windows... hehe

3) I hate turning on heat in the car. I just wear my coat and gloves while I drive in the winter unless its really super super cold.

4) I never ever ever sleep with socks on. NEVER! My feet get too hot.

5) I am obsessed with cats. Love cats. Not so much alive ones but more like pictures and stuffed animals. Except I do love my Sassy.

6) I buy shit off of ebay. Like stuffed animals and games for my Sega Genesis.

7) I have some weird stuff that I even take to college with me: my Pinky (stuffed animal cat), my Penguin (it looks like a taxodermed penguin but its fake), and my, joint-owned with Vaune, 7ft tall cardboard cut out of Jesus (great for parties!).


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