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7/13/08 02:33 am

1. god i hate the windows vista media player. why the fuck do these dumb people change something that works and is so familiar, just to make it look "new"?

2. encouraging citizens to have more and more babies is stupid. the idea of having a child is dumb enough by itself. we should have less babies, not more. if possible, none at all. the country has an aging population? great news.

3. tv mobile is BLOODY ANNOYING. when they're not showing Just For Laughs programs that are so damn annoying that they're downright depressing, they're showing such god-awful local shit that's so embarrassing it makes me want to crawl under the bus seat and hide. today tv mobile was showing a local program on the speak-good-english campaign and singlish. jesus christ I felt like throwing something at the screen.

4. the speak-good-english campaign is amateurish. those poor souls who still promote the campaign are in serious need of our pity. the argument that "lower-educated" singaporeans will be unable to switch back and forth between singlish and angmoh english is something you'd expect more from a garden-variety GP essay. if "lower-educated" singaporeans after a minimum of 10 years of education can't learn to speak non-singlish english without the help of perpetual bombardments fuelled by a long-running lame campaign like this, our education system must be pretty badly screwed. funny how the campaign warriors can blame the Phua Chu Kant tv show while saying nothing about the army; I reckon a rather large portion of singlish I've heard in my life came from the 2 years in the army, which was years after the singlish-on-tv issue had first been raised. (incidentally, that's also the place I met a lot of so-called "lower-educated" singaporeans, including those who were regulars in the army.)

5. thestraights times' political editor's piece in the saturday section today on human righhts. MY GOD.. so many things wrong with that piece.

6. apparently a certain old man thinks criticisms of the legl system from an overseas organisation is a "conspiracy" to bring "us" down. jeeze, who's the one being paranoid now. (and they say sporeans who're wary of criticising the gvernment are being paranoid.)

7. I hope this new Batman film is a lot better than the last one, which was an overrated mess.

3/30/08 08:53 am

am i missing something here..

on Yahoo! Singapore news page:

"S’poreans join global Earth Hour effort to spread climate change message

Singapore is playing its part in a global effort to curb climate change.

Businesses here have been switching off the lights in their buildings for an hour between 8pm and 9pm.

The event called Earth Hour was held for the first time in Sydney last year. 2.2 million people and more than 2,000 business people took part.

Singapore companies like CapitaLand are flicking the switch at nine of its buildings such as Capital Tower and Raffles City.

But the worldwide effort is not just for the big players.

In Punggol, youngsters got involved too. More than 300 students visited thousands of homes to urge residents to turn off their lights and join an Earth Hour event at Punggol Community Club.

"They are still not very clear about global warming. But when we go and talk to them about this and sell the idea to them, many are really willing to go forward and help," said one youth volunteer.

Other schools, colleges and businesses in Singapore have also signed up to turn off their lights. Other cities like Melbourne and Chicago are also part of the global effort. — CNA /ls"



...and here's the next news item:


"Singapore conducts live demonstration of lighting for F1 race

Singapore has tested a small section of the lights that will be used for the country’s first ever Formula One race in September.

On Saturday evening, a part of St Andrew’s Road was lit up to simulate daylight.

It took about 8 to 10 minutes for the lights — which measure about 3000 Lux — to charge up.

Once fully fired—up, it was as bright as daylight, or four times the brightness of the National Stadium.

Two trusses measuring 32 metres each were used to hang 16 lights or lighting projectors.

The lights were installed four metres apart at a height of 10 metres.

S Iswaran, Minister of State, Trade and Industry, said: "This lighting part is the crucial part of the process as you can imagine. We want to make sure that the lighting system is done in a manner that is safe for the drivers and the spectators and at the same time, one that enhances the experience for everyone."

The man behind the whole set—up is lighting expert Valerio Maiolli.

He gave the assurance that driving at high speeds under these lights is safe, even if it were to rain heavily.

Mr Maiolli said: "If you are on the track like the driver, you don’t see the rain, if you are on the grandstand you see the rain."

A total of 1,500 lighting projectors will be used for the five kilometre Singapore circuit.

The lights will be powered by 12 twin—power generators.

Another first was also revealed — in the place of regular flags, electronic flags flashed onto an LED panel, will make its debut for the world’s first F1 night race.

Installation of the lights will be carried out in phases starting end—May, and is expected to be completed by the first week of September.

The public can view the test lights from Sunday till 6th of April.

These will be on from 7pm till midnight. — CNA/ch



jesus christ.

if you wanna save electricity, how about, like, FUCKING HOLDING THE GRAND PRIX IN THE DAYTIME?


another suggestion: get rid of that absurd orgy of ugly christmas decoration lights that get dumped onto orchard road for 5 or 6 weeks every year.

essentially Earth Hour in Singapore was a way to help those 300 ever-so-innocent students, "youngsters", and "youth volunteers" feel good about themselves (similar to students' visits old folk's home to "chat" to old folks and bring them biskets).

These occasional injections of self-esteem and youthful idealism won't hurt.

(Other than the minor effect that in a few years they look back at these mostly-imaginary differences they're making and feel a bit embarrassed. (Something I do every day.))

3/24/08 07:00 pm

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20080324/tts-science-physics-cern-c1b2fc3.html

Imagine how many severely malnourished people can be fed with SIX BILLION dollars.

How much green technology can be sponsored to reduce climate change, how many schools can be built for populations lacking education, how much health care can be provided for populations severely in need of health and medical care, how much research in major diseases and epidemics can get funded.

And scientists pour it all into building a big beautiful machine in an exciting quest to find out physical-cosmological truths about some super-small sub-atomic particle named "the Higgs Boson".... all in the name of a great beautiful Truth which has absolutely no bearing whatsoever on the practical concerns of most people in the world.

Yes, that's the spectacular absurdity of what some scientists do.

Scientists do plenty of good. Those who do work that has practical relevance to our lives are great. But just don't go thinking that scientific work somehow always has more practical relevence than, say, the humanities. A lot of times it's also spent on theoretically spectacular but practically absurd/useless projects like this. Simply to satisfy their own curiosities. Very very expensive projects.

The name of "Truth" by itself shouldn't be a good enough justification for funding projects like this. There's plenty of Truth in the world but the reality is that a lot of it doesn't have even the slightest use in humankind's practical concerns, except for those physics nerds who happen to find the "Higgs Boson", like, really really interesting.

3/23/08 06:41 pm

First Year modules

2005 Semester 2 (July-November)
107103 Ancient Rome: Myth and Empire (classics/history)
70% (Second-class honours Lower)
161111 Great Ideas in Philosophy (philosophy)
79% (Second-class honours Upper)
106186 Creative Writing 1: Autofictions (creative writing)
74% (Second-class honours Lower)
107133 Introduction to Film Theory (cinema studies)
85% (First-class honours)

2006 Semester 1 (February-June)
760101 Creative Writing: Ideas and Practice (creative writing)
77% (Second-class honours Upper)
107132 Introduction to Hollywood & Art Cinema (cinema studies)
65% (Third-class honours)

Second and Third Year modules

2006 Semester 1
161030 The Rise of Modern Philosophy (philosophy)
77% (Second-class honours Upper)
136073 Critical Theories (social theory)
81% (First-class honours)

2006 Semester 2
136077 Psychoanalysis and Social Theory (social theory)
76% (Second-class honours Upper)
131034 Gender, Culture and Identity Politics (gender studies)
80% (First-class honours)
161217 Kant's Metaphysics of Experience (philosophy)
76% (Second-class honours Upper)
161035 Philosophy of Buddhism (philosophy)
86% (First-class honours)

2007 Semester 1
161019 Greek Philosophy (philosophy)
73% (Second-class honours Lower)
161214 The Philosophy of Ludwig Wittgenstein (philosophy)
85% (First-class honours)
161236 Nietzsche and the Dream of Reason (philosophy)
78% (Second-class honours Upper)
136074 Modernity: Revolution to Social Movements (social theory)
90% (First-class honours)

2007 Semester 2
760404 Deleuze, Lyotard and the Arts (creative arts)
77% (Second-class honours Upper)
107240 World Screen: Aesthetics and Politics (cinema studies)
80% (First-class honours)
161240 Chinese Philosophy (philosophy)
85% (First-class honours)
161021 From Hermeneutics to Derrida (philosophy)
89% (First-class honours)

2008 Semester 1
672316 Science, Reason and Reality (history & philosophy of science)
84% (First-class honours)
166300 Contemporary Sociological Theory (sociology)
85% (First-class honours)
672390 Democracy, Terrorism and Violence (political science)
81% (First-class honours)
672388 Terrorism: Shifting Paradigms (political science)
73% (Second-class honours Lower)

Fourth (Honours) Year modules

2008 Semester 2
161-448 Asian Philosophies (philosophy)
***
161-431 Recent European Philosophy (philosophy)
***
136-430 Theories of Modernity (social theory)
***

1/29/08 03:11 am

Why did God create the parasites.

12/16/07 09:21 pm

How do people commit torture for hours as part of their job, and then go home and kiss their spouse and teach their kid to read?

If there is a God, why did He give so many of us (that includes me) the ability to do violence, or to be complicit in violence every day, and then go about living our life or converting it into a banality? I'm seriously asking.

When this world has elements like this in it its hard not to feel rather disturbed to be existing in it.

Yes I know this sounds dumb and emo but I've had an uneasy mind thinking about it today.

Things like this actually happen, like it's the most ordinary thing in the world, and we're so able to just go along with it.

3/9/07 10:44 pm

it is a wretched thing, this.

it is so wretched.

turning it inside out doesn't save it, this. no it does not.

no it does not. no it does not.

turning it inside out doesn't save it, this.

no it does not. no it does not.

turning it inside out doesn't save it this,

no it does not. no, it does not.

does not, no it does not, does not. does not.

no does not, does not. it does not. no does not.

it is so wrteched, this.

it can only be fled.

but it cannot be fled.

only turned inside out.

it cannot be fled.

only turned inside out.

only turned inside out.

turning this inside out cannot save it, this. no.

you must live on your tail.

consume yourself, for that is all there is for you.

3/3/07 02:16 pm

I want to perish!

TO PERIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to perish.

TO PERIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2/14/07 11:40 pm

stupid valentine's day

2/12/07 10:31 pm - my birthday the non-event

1. spent 23rd birthday mostly lovesick.

2. sheesh.
it is not very fun to have an infatuation. at all.

3. it's only fun when the other person is attracted to u too. and single. and responds very positively.

4. of course that's something i should've already realised at 16.

5. sheesh.

1/21/07 11:02 pm - distinguishing religion from spirituality

"Religion is for people who are afraid to go to hell, whereas spirituality is for people like me who have been there."
- Dave Mustaine

1/21/07 06:34 pm

let a distinction be drawn between rhetoric and poetry (even if the distinction is not always clear-cut or present). let us aim for the occasional poeticisation of debate, as opposed to its usual oscillation between rhetoricisation and narrow-minded calculation.

let there be poeticised spaces opened up for insistent pondering, provocation and dialogue, instead of a lazy consumption and forced consensus; expansive thought instead of quick-fix calculation.

sometimes, one of the most important things about poetry can be when it presents and reveals itself as neither fact nor science nor math nor myth.

1/16/07 08:11 pm

40.8 degrees celsius here in melb today.

gawd.

still don't understand why the Aussie Open isn't be organised 5 weeks later when it's a bit cooler.

of all times they have to have it right smack in the middle of the Aussie summer, when it's bloody hotter than ever.

still not quite as bad as last january when it went up higher than 42 degrees on one day.

1/15/07 10:19 pm

was looking through the Yahoo! Australia news section for Victoria (http://au.news.yahoo.com/local/7news/vic/). christ. nearly every item seems to be about death, bad weather, tragedy, and/or crime.

u'd sorta get the impression that either Victoria is a sensationally depressing place or that the person choosing which news items to list is a junkie for breathtaking misery and suffering, perhaps from watching too much Today Tonight or A Current Affair or those Aussie soap dramas.

k just took a look at the news items for the other states. mostly just as tragic.

hmmn. doesn't anything remotely inspirational ever happen here.

1/14/07 03:14 pm

Aussie open begins tomorrow.
forecast of maximum temperature in degrees celsius over next 4 days: 32 (Monday), 39 (Tuesday), 33 (Wednesday), 35 (Thursday).
there just has to be a stretch of warm temperature coming about just when the open is beginning.
go Marcos Baghdatis!

1/12/07 09:36 pm

and every time i try and talk about it, it ends up sounding like bloody spiritual-existential masturbation.

1/12/07 09:00 pm

i feel like i'm not going anywhere.

and haven't gone anywhere.

1/10/07 10:32 pm

back in melb.

spent most of the 5 weeks in spore borrowing and watching DVDs, and sleeping, and watching tv, and wandering around town by myself.

went out with one friend once. other friends were mostly either overseas, or sick.

i also killed 21 flies.

ate bak chor mee, katong laksa, wan tan mee, satay, oyster omelette, satay bee hoon, indian curry, chicken rice, roti prata, mee goreng, aqnd some other stuff i can't recall.

ate at carl's jr for the first time.

god, my experiences in 5 weeks in spore are such that they can be summarised in singular events.

films borrowed/rented and comments:

1. Superman Returns (Singer): was alright, quite entertaining, though there’s nothing great in it. didn’t show enough of Superman’s more sensitive, thoughtful side.
2. United 93 (Greengrass): very, very good film.
3. The Manchurian Candidate - original 1962 version (Frankenheimer): good film, but not quite as amazing and suspenseful as it’s said to be.
4. Lolita (Kubrick): okay, but not great. felt it worked well largely because of the performances.
5. Any Given Sunday (Stone): really, really good. probably one of the best films about sports I’ve seen. certainly one of the most distinctive and powerful.
6. The Killing (Kubrick): not bad. got better as it went along, although I felt the ending was somewhat abrupt and maybe a bit dumb.
7. The Passenger (Antonioni): initially found it boring, but I’ve been finding it more and more profound and rich the more I think about it, especially upon the second viewing. very interesting philosophical and existential themes. in a way, it had to be paced and told the way it is, for the themes to be explored as such, and for the moods and situations to be captured so strongly.
8. Mee Pok Man (Khoo): better than I thought it’d be. rather artsy. a local film I wouldn’t mind recommending. haven’t really seen many local films. I had planned to rent more local films to watch, like Be With Me, Singapore Dreaming, Talking Cock, and Eating Air. but every time I went to the Esplanade library to return some DVDs, I ended up borrowing more DVDs from there, so in the end I kept watching more and more DVDs borrowed from there instead of going to the rental store, which is the place that had those local films.
9. Heart of Glass (Herzog): weird. probably the creepiest Herzog film I’ve seen, much more so than his Nosferatu the Vampyre. the best parts were the first few scenes and the last few scenes. after the novelty of the technique wore off, it got a bit tired plot-wise, and perhaps slightly repetitive. still, there’re quite a lot of strikingly creepy images throughout.
10. The Mirror (Tarkovsky): liked it more than Nostalgia and Stalker, less than Solaris. some of the scenes worked better than others. might’ve preferred it if some of the scenes had better connections among them. admittedly it’s kind of made me look at some of my surroundings with a heightened awareness.
11. Il Grido (Antonioni): probably one of the strongest Antonioni films I’ve seen. very well-told, beautifully shot, especially the exterior scenes, and more emotionally affecting than his latter films.
12. La Notte (Antonioni): not bad. but not one of Antonioni’s stronger films.
13. Diary of a Country Priest (Bresson): very engaging. quite powerful and moving. guess I’m somewhat surprised it made me sympathise so strongly with a priest. probably the best film concerning religious faith that I can remember watching.
14. I Vitelloni (Fellini): was ok, though didn’t find it outstanding.
15. Taste of Cherry (Kiarostami): there’s a real gracefulness, and arguably a certain purity, about it. which kind of stand out all the more because it’s about a man intent on committing suicide. not pretentious, not dark, not in-your-face, not artsy, yet it’s sincere and thought-provoking in very subtle ways. you don’t typically find such graceful sincerity in a work of art concerning suicide.
16. La Promesse (Luc and Jean-Pierre Dardenne): very, very moving and engaging.
17. Les Dames du Bois de Boulogne (Bresson): not bad.
18. Il Bidone (Fellini): was ok.
19. Nights of Cabiria (Fellini): quite memorable, not least because of Giulietta Masina’s fantastic performance. found it more memorable than La Dolce Vita. one of the stronger and more moving Fellini films I’ve seen.
20. Juliet of the Spirits (Fellini): probably the most uneven Fellini film I’ve seen. Doesn’t have quite as much liveliness, inspiration and poetry as Fellini’s best films. Poorly paced. Let down by too many dull scenes interspersed throughout.
21. The Scar (Kieslowski): decent film, though not amazing like his later work, not surprisingly.
22. The Big Red One (Fuller): good war film. haven’t seen the restored longer version.
23. The House is Black (: not bad. worth watching, I guess, though it didn’t exactly strike me as a masterpiece.
24. Au Hasard Balthasar (Bresson): very, very good. definitely worth watching, even if it was a bit confusing at times.
25. Forbidden Games (Clement): the only parts that really moved me were the last ten minutes or so. to me all that most of the film showed before that was how annoying and ignorant little kids are. as if we need any reminders about that. I had problems sympathising with the protagonists. and it was overly sentimental. children form elaborate and morbid fantasies to shield themselves from the harshness of war. yes, ok, we get it. they should’ve just said it in one sentence and gotten that one point that they had over with. it is not a masterpiece. it’s perhaps one of the most overrated films I’ve ever seen.
26. The Steamroller and the Violin (Tarkovsky): I liked it. one of Tarkovsky’s early films, but u can already see what an able and inspired filmmaker he was.
27. The Sacrifice (Tarkovsky): probably one of the most difficult and challenging films I’ve seen. to understand and appreciate it u would probably have to watch it at least twice. upon my first viewing of it, I thought looked good and had its moments, but I just didn’t empathise with the protagonist, and thought the plot was not particularly well told. Tarkovksy might’ve said that he didn’t care about plot, but the film does have a plot to it and its exactly because this plot is so muddily told that the point about spiritual faith that Tarkovsky was apparently trying to make through the film gets lost. upon my second viewing, paying closer attention to the dialogue, I appreciated it quite a lot more. if u watch it a second time thinking carefully about the dialogue and the underlying philosophical themes in the film, u’ll find there’s a lot going on with regards to the Nietzschean concept of the eternal return as compared to the idea of waiting and hoping for salvation in the course of time. it also brought to mind Heidegger’s comparison between, on the one hand, being open to Being and, on the other hand, man’s attempt to manipulate Being, whether materially or spiritually. it was definitely much richer an experience the second time round, perhaps because this time I actually knew what was happening in the story and who the different characters were (having read through some analyses of the film online after the first viewing). that having been said, I still think the idea of the guy having to have sex with a witch to change the past and erase the outbreak of a war is a rather wonky idea. couldn’t it have been something else other than sex with a witch.
28. Burden of Dreams (Blank): probably the most unique and most distinctive “Making-of” documentary I’ve seen, if it can even be called that. Herzog is probably right when he says that it’s the only “Making-of” documentary that isn’t an embarrassment. (well he says something to that effect.) but it should’ve included the scenes of Klaus Kinski’s rages. it was quite disappointing not to see a single one of such scenes.
29. Fear of Fear (Fassbinder): I’ve only seen a handful of Fassbinder’s films, but this one has got to be the most effective and compelling one I’ve seen.
30. Funny Games (Haneke): one of the most disturbing films I’ve ever seen. this is not one of those trashy “psychological thrillers” or “horror thrillers” that you watch for your entertainment or amusement. if you think it is, you’re probably in for a surprise. after watching it you’ll probably never look at strangers visiting your home the same way again. makes Psycho seem as disturbing and scary as watching grass grow. its self-reflexivity is actually thought-provoking, rather than being just some smug gimmick.
31. Invincible (Herzog): decent film, but it didn’t amaze me the way Herzog’s other films usually do. Tim Roth was fantastic, though.
32. Scenes From a Marriage (Bergman): only watched the 3-hour theatrical version. didn’t have enough time to finish watching the 5-hour long 6-part original series, only saw the first part and some of the second part. the 5-hour original series seemed quite a lot better than the 3-hour version. more depth and richer characterisation. the 3-hour version had its moments, but left me somewhat disappointed at the end. the ending in particular seemed a bit rushed and not quite convincing.
33. Code Unknown (Haneke): interesting, but not as amazing and thought-provoking as Funny Games.

went to vjc. talked with a teacher about possibilities of teaching philosophy or Knowledge & Inquiry after graduation.

everyone who used to be there isn't anymore. except for the angmor teachers. and that damn PE teacher, Tan Yu Hwee or whatever his name was.

suddenly feel a bit lonely.

the summer subject has been pretty bloody disappointing. more of a Philosophy for Dummies subject. appears most of the students aren't even philo students; should've known, really.

note for philosophy teachers. if u're attempting to introduce philosophy to a newbie, teaching her Plato's socratic bloody dialogues in the most typically boring, bland, mechanical way possible, is quite probably one of the fuckin worst ways to get her interested in the subject.

1/2/07 11:41 pm - this is just to say...

the Straits Times' sports section journalist Marc Lim seems like one lousy journalist.

he mentions inaccurate facts, his analysis seems non-existent, and his attempts at sharp and witty commentary are pathetic.

1/2/07 11:35 pm

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