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My Personality

Neuroticism	82
Extraversion	48
Openness To Experience	66
Agreeableness	11
Conscientiousness	51

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I somehow doubt I'll get these finished by the end of the week but I should be able to hit 50!

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OMGTHEPAIN!!!

I've hurt my wrist everyone. God knows how I did it but it sure as hell likes to remind me that I did do it. I suppose I should bandage it up to give it some support but trying to find a bandage is this place is nigh on impossible. Instead I've restorted to the trusty, old Ralgex so, not only does it hurt, it's BURNING! From just below my knuckles to just past my wrist bone is a lovely shade of blotchy red. MMmmm nice! I couldn't even get a pan out of the cupboard before without my wrist giving up on me.

Today has been a complete bitch of a day so we'll skim right over that thank-ye very much.

I'm going to attempt to watch The Longest Yard again. I tried two different ones so I'm hoping it'll be a case of third time lucky *crosses fingers* I'm not even wasting a disk on this one, I'll just watch on here.

I'm still on for finishing by October even if I am getting slow with these!

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Added new! I need another three this week but I'm still on track for Deana's birthday.

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I'm getting better. I'll kick PSP's ass one of these days...





No tutorials used. The entire thing is done just by looking at another one and making my own adjustments.

I was quite proud of this:



last night but by the time I got to updating my head was so screwed I didn't say why!

I drew all of this *bounces* It's not the greatest icon ever but the entire thing is hand drawn with a few effects thrown in for good measure.

I'm challenging myself. I saw someone else do this related to Billy and I was curious as to where the idea came from. Now I've found out I'm going to give it a go. Here goes...

Pick a claim you like/enjoy/think is interesting. It could be something specific, ie. Johnny Depp or something general, ie. the weather.

You have to make 100 LiveJournal icons in a ten week time frame.

No simple cropping and adding a border. You have to actually do something to it.

Pick a theme to add to your icon ie. a colour, an emotion, a word, etc. The theme can be taken as literally or as abstract as you like.


musicon100 explains it better than I could.

I'm going to pick 'The Face' and I have until Oct. 9th to make 100 icons. Yes, you get to kick my ass if I'm not doing it! My theme is going to be 'Fantasy'.

I'm not starting tonight because if I do I'll never go to bed!

Who's going to do it with me? Come on Raqi, you know you want too!

I know very few people on my list actually read Harry Potter but I really, seriously need to do this...

( OMG )

Six hours later and I'm still obsessing and still coming up with points I should be editing for. She has two years maximum to get the final book out or else I'll cry!

I need icons but I don't want to spoil too much for people *sob* You've got about a week before I crack!

I love us! I love this country and it's coping mechanism *laughs*

Read. Laugh. Enjoy.

Rating: PG-13 (Only a couple of bad words.)

Summary: When the waiting becomes too much.

Notes: This came off the back of Carley's fic What You Want, What You Need It's not necessary to read this seeing as it's Viggorli but they are connected. Carley's is the first one obviously!

I refuse to admit to myself how long this took to write.

Word count: 3047

( What You've Been Waiting For )

Here goes...

( Icons and bases. You know the drill. If you want them, take them. )

In honour of Randomly Disturbed's birthday this week it's had a face lift! Go and have a nosy and tell me what I've missed *laughs*



Speaking of birthday's, happy birthday Kalli! I hope you've had a brilliant day *hugs* (I'm sure I'm repeating myself *g*)

I've not opened PSP in forever so I decided to try something new. I've never been a big fan of making wallpapers, possibly something to do with there being too much space to work with, but I thought I'd give it a try.

( Have A Nosy )

Today was fun /sarcasm I knew an easy week was too much to ask for.

Stewart decided to come and sit with me today. I showed up a little early for my shift so I could have a cig and a brew. I went and sat with a couple of friends and he joined us. Imagine the fun when they left and we had to sit on our own for about a minutes before someone else joined us. My phone has never been so interesting. I didn't even have enough time to give him his keys so they're still in my bag. Some perceptive cow asked what he was joking to do whilst I was away and obviously picked up on the nervous vibes seeing as she blurted out 'What's happened between you too?'. I think I managed to cover but I can't be sure. She shut up anyway. I sent him a message later saying sorry for not giving him his keys back but it's no-one elses business, he never replied.

Lu and David in the office both know now so at least I have them to help deflect the rumours which *will* happen whilst I'm away. I'll have to tell Steph tomorrow because if there's someone I want 'on my side' it's her. Not that there's sides but, you know? I just helps to have a big mouth to keep others quiet. David said if I need to talk then he's there for me. He has moments where he drives me mad but I know I can rely on him if I need to. I could give him the bloody keys tomorrow to give to Stewart and he'd probably even take me to pick my stuff up but I don't want it to go that far. I'd like to think there's a friendship to salvage from all this but I guess it'll take time.

But, after this weekend, I have a full two weeks of time! Go me! *dances*

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell 6 people about this game.
• Stewart is the one that you love.
• David is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Carley.
• Deana is the one who knows you very well.
• Steph is your lucky star.
• Galvanize is the song that matches with the person in number 3 (Stewart).
• Be Like That is the song for the person in 7 (David).
• I'll Be Guilty is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and Road To Amarillo is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz

I swear I didn't cheat. Don't scroll ahead as you do it and it's very interesting! Some of this is just freaky.

So, mum has cancer. Or the very beginnings of it at least. I don't know what else to say but I'll try and explain what's happened/happening.

The reason the test was inconclusive last week was due to the cancer being so new. My mum and dad were kept waiting for an hour today whilst they were doing even more tests. The surgeon and various doctors (including one of the regions top guys) had a meeting over it to decide on a course of action. Paget's Disease (the breast version) only effects 4-5% of breast cancer cases so it's pretty rare. Anyway, the doctor said they could wait three months to get a definate result but by then it could be too late so they're going to do a mastectomy. She's going in on Feb 1st for an operation on the 2nd. They're going to remove the whole breast including the gland you have just under your arm pit. The gland only secretes hormones or something to your breast so it's not important once the breast is removed. However the cancer could be in there as well so it's safer to remove the whole lot. If they find cancer in the gland then she'll have to have chemo/radio therapy, the doc doesn't think that's likely though.

Mum's nervy with the word cancer at the moment. She was stood in the hallway when I came downstairs and she kinda whispered it to me. Hugging her lead to me crying and I think she sniffled a little as well. Me, Vycki and Andrew know the full story but Liz has a pantomine tonight. Mum's going to try and explain it to her this weekend. We're not going to hide anything from her but there are ways and means of telling her without completely scaring her. She has to be told as much as possible because mum's going to be in hospital for at least five days, longer if there's any complications.

I don't think there's much more to say. On a personal level, I know I'm going to cry again. Surgery is scary but it's also a relief to know where we're going from here. Thinking from a female perspective it's...weird. I don't know how to word it. This is something distinctly female, you know? I know my dad is worried about my mum and all that but he couldn't begin to understand how it will feel losing a breast. How concious would you feel about it? I know there's the possibility of implants and then the false fills you can lose but you would be forever aware there's a piece of you missing. Meh, I don't know. I'll look over this when it doesn't hit me so hard.

You Are 27 Years Old

27 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

Seeing as everyone else has seen Lost I'm just gonna sit here and say how great An Insomniac's Nightmare is.

It's great.

Really good.

Slightly scary but really, really good.

And I got to see Dom checking out what fills his boxers so :p

First major quote of the year...

At least I'm not as drunk as Carley *g* Applies on two occasions, both pretty damn funny. I'm saving this IM for anyone that would like to nosy at some point!

I should make this post count seeing as it's the start of the New Year. I should have left that anonymous friend's list until tonight I think, it would have been something decent at least.

There are some things I want to do this year, not really resolutions just guidelines I guess.

1) Be happier. Just in general, nothing major. My jobs better, I feel happier than I did last year and things seem a little more settled. Granted all that can change on Tuesday but I'll think positive until then and maybe things will go right.

2) Try and get healthy again. There was a short while where I was properly in shape and healthy. Before anyone starts going on that I'm skinny, stop! Skinny isn't the be all and end all and to be honest it doesn't feel good hearing that, I know how I am and how I feel. I want to be toned and in shape, I used to be able to run up both sets of my stairs and not be breathless but it's been a while since that happened. This'll mean I have to stop smoking I guess. It does need to be done eventually...

3) Tell people how I'm feeling. This will probably be the one I'm least likely to stick with. It's not a malicious thing just something to stop the feeling of awkwardness. I guess this also applies the other way. It's always taken the negative way and it should be taken the positive way as well. People need to be told when they're loved and cared for. I've never been good with expressing my feelings and such. I guess it's a way of protecting myself from not having them returned.

4) Work on my self-confidence. Scrub the last one being the least likely. This won't be fixed for a very long time I don't think. I don't know how to fix it or even where to start. It would be a good idea to try though.

5) Have fun. I'm going to finish on a positive one. This year was fun for the most part. I had friends, made new ones, visited some interesting places and had some good times. I'd like it to continue. I'd like to make some new friends this year...you lot bore me now *g* You know that's a lie! I'd like to visit some new places as well, that includes places in the UK. Scotland would be fun if I could get up there, as would somewere like Newcastle. I haven't been to Blackpool for a couple of years either.

Now I've started rambling I think I'm gonna stop.

I love you guys, you know who you are. I'd be lost without you, to think you keep me sane is a little scary but it's true.