Assaley's Journal

6:55pm: twinkie
Yea i know its been some time since i've written in here and well yea its just been some time. Not much has happened but yea i've moved into a new house. This new situation is just so much greater than the last. Upside of it though, we found another house that i just absolutely love. And speaking of love yes me and tury are still together. Friendship wise nothing much is new. Talking with a few friends. a couple of them not talking to each other. But guys i am truly happy now. For a while i masked my feelings and didn't let on that i was really troubled but i found a way to just let it all go and get over it and i am feeling the best i have in a very long time. Well i don't really know what else to put on here so i'll just check in soon.
Oh yea! I found my prom dress. I know its to early to be looking. But i was flipping through this catolog for Janae's(tury's sister) quinceanera(sp). And well yea i just fell in love with it. I just gotta go to the store now and see how much it is!

4:37pm: take my quiz
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4:37pm: take my quiz
Think you know me??? Find out...take this very simple test about, who else, ME. If you guys do good maybe i'll just make another...we'll see how interesting we can get...Think you're #1? PROVE IT! !

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4:05pm: HC
Okay first of all today was not the best day of school...The day started off perfectly alright. First hour went by and we ended up doing a lil simple lab in there. Then third hour came and that class went by in a breeze. But i did find out that i now have an Econ quiz monday and a test next thursday. Well that was alright. So far i could handle that. Then we went to fith hour. I so HATE math. Well it went alright i guess and i found out that i have a test in there next thursday....Okay two test next thursday...I'll be able to deal. Then i get to 7th hour and what happens...I won't even f'in be here next thursday cuz i have a stupid opera to go to. So that means i'll have to take one test early..OMG I HATE SCHOOL. Okay and then i come home and finally check my mail and i see i now have another lj comment battle going on. First off, I have nothing aginst you and Megan running for HC royalty bro. But i kinda had already told phil that i would vote for mal BEFORE i knew megan was running. And I know mal and phil havent been going out long but that shouldn't matter. And second of all ne guy can win. So both of you phils stop saying you don't have a chance. Next. I am a very forgiving person and i'm not even saying Mal was all at fault in the past, point is THE PAST IS THE PAST AND I'M TRYING TO LIVE ON NOW IN THE PRESENT AND KEEP MY HEAD UP LOOKING TO THE FUTURE. I know hc is a big thing to us girls but you also gotta realise it just creates more drama and i really don't want this going on again just on my lj...I understand some ppl might not get along but c'mon like we was all told when we was younger, "if you don't got nethang nice to say, then don't say anything at all." I know thats childish but c'mon....And yes bro I would like to win...I've always wanted to win and would like nothing more to win but i've already said i wasn't running and i don't go back on my word. I will always put others first. GOOD LUCK TO BOTH MALLORY & PHIL and MEGAN & PHIL but just member its just an extra lil title, life will still go on, but do you want to let the anger go on??

6:43pm: hey there
Is it possible to suddenly become alergic to something. I've never had ne-allergies but today while over at landa's house(which is where I'm at) I suddenly felt as though i was allergic to something. I dunno maybe i've aquired an allergic reaction to cats. I dunno. That would really suck though. So guys you all know hc is coming up...well all ya'll should vote for MALLORY. I heard she really wants it so i said i'd spread it around. Don't put me on the ballet nemore. I don't ever win and don't think i have a chance so lets get someone on there who will win. Not saying i wouldn't it like it, cuz believe me i've always wanted to win but mal really wants it, lets help her out...

3:23pm:

Take the World of Darkness Quiz
by David J Rust

3:18pm: old
1. What time is it: 11:16

2. Nickname(s):assaley, ashaley, bashley, ashers, ushley, sis...

3. Parent's names:Shelly & allen

4. Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake: well i dunno but it sure wasn't my age

5. Date you usually blow them out: March 2

6. Eye color: brown

7. Hair color:dark brown with red tint

8. Piercings: none

9. Tattoos: again, none

10. How much do you love your job? well can school work be considered a job...i mean it is worka nd all...

11. Favorite Color: since its summer its white

12. Hometown: not a town but a city, KCK

13. Do you have pets? I have one MILO

14. Current residence: uh my home town, the place where my home is...

15. Favorite food: carbs and chicken

16. Loved somebody so much it made you cry? yea i did alot of that this past year

17. Been in a car accident? yea with le le

18. Croutons or bacon bits? I prefer both

19. Sprite or 7UP? Sprite. someone got me into that

20. Who do u like ? my tushley. with that nice ghetto booty

21. Favorite holiday: all holidays, they bring people together

22.Favorite day of the week: friday nights and saturdays

23. Favorite word or phrase: uh yea, aren't i though?, didn't i though? don't you like it though? and of course my fav word....but we'll leave that to the imagination

24. Favorite toothpaste: ones that make my teeth clean?

25. Favorite restaurant: chili's

26. Favorite flower: i dunno i haven't seen them all but I like them big and bright

27. Favorite drink: agua

28.Favorite sport to watch: football and baseball

29. Preferred type of ice cream: vanilla or strawberry

30. Favorite Sesame Street character? elmo and cookie monster

31. Disney or Warner Bros? um both??

32. Favorite fast food restaurant? wendy's and sonic

33. When was your last hospital visit? ummmm last time i had my blood teseted

34. What color is your bedroom carpet? um lavenderish mauve

35. How many times did you fail your driver's test:um i haven't taken it yet...i know that's sad ain't it?

36. Who is the last person you got email from before this one? well i got this awhile ago so i don't quite know

37. Have you ever been convicted of a crime? no, c'mon this is me now

38. Which single store would you choose to max out your credit? don't got just one

39. What do you do when you get bored? laugh at myself

40. Name a person that you are friends with who lives the
farthest away: prolly phillay

42. Bedtime: when i feel like draggin myself to turn off the light

44. Who do u think will least likely resopnd:tury

45. Favorite all-time TV show: got my fav episode...the friends episode when Bruce Willis was on there. Dand that was funny

46. Last person you went out to dinner with: to long ago tomember

47.Last movie you saw in the theater: master of disguise this past sunday

48: pet peeve: i hate feet

49. Favorite book: a walk to remember

50.Major Secret: well there was this one time........and so that's why i never told ne1 before

51. Middle name: NICHOLE I love my middle name

52. do u have a boyfriend/girlfriend? I'm very proud to say that i do...My one and only Tury tury

53.Time when you finished quiz:2:52

4:14pm: Me and Magic


Your magical style is Sleeper.

What type of Magic do you work?. Take the Magical Style Quiz by Paradox

4:41pm: Written the other night.
NIGHTS

I calm him, letting him know
Everything will be alright.
He crys & somehow all the
Sibling rivalry is gone.
Allt hat is left is
My brother quivering with fear.

She's gone again.
Same reason as the rest:
To settle a dispute.

I remind him everything will
End for the better,
To let her have this momment
So the bickering will stop.

I put him to sleep,
Resting his thoughts of
Her getting both
Phiysically and mentally hurt.

But I can't hid it nemore.
I'm scared, afraid, terridied.
If he hurt her i know
I'll do worse.

He won't make it ne longer
If her hurt her.
No more nights of mental
pain & not again will he touch her.

Never has he hit
For he knows better.
But tonight's different.
I can feel it.

Maybe she's just
Hanging out now,
Battle over with
And again settled.

I tremble to think what
I might do to HER
If that was true.

Left again to take
On the weight of the house.
Calm the nerves
And ease the emotions.

Always an ear
Waiting to listen
And a shoulder
Waiting to be used.

She'll come home
And it'll be
The beginning of
The cycle once more.

But if I have
A head of a brother
On one shoulder
And a mother's
On the other,
To whom's will
I put mine?

4:34pm: c'mon lj
Damn it took me a minute to get into here. What's up with it today it ook me forever to login and then it wouldn't let me update with out signing in. I dunno but its screwed over today. Well i realised i haven't wrote in here for while so here i am. Finished the book thing except for one question. I am half way done with my extra credit book. I figure i have about 10 minutes less than an hour and a half left to read it. So yea. I'm sorry but i think One Day in the life is very boring. i mean very boring. I happened to like Go Tell it on the Mountain but i am here at home alone again. I mean i don't mind it but they didn't even ask me to go. Mom and patrick and josh and gabby went out prolly to get josh new school clothes. I swear she is spending a fuck load on him and its pissing me off cuz she's like we'll buy yours later. WTF when next year. oh well that's her and i'm me I've just begun to forget bout everything now. Oh well imma go do this reading and get it over...

5:15pm: Explanation
Okay an earlier entry has seemed to ave sparked some much over worked attention. I was simply making a comment on what i was thinking. It was something just on the top of my dome and it popped in. I'm sorry that it was turned around and taken outta context. My simple statement was turned into a statement that made ppl think i was talking shit....I was not talking shit...I said nothing offensive or bad about mallory. I think nothing bad of mallory and don't look down on her as a person. I have no beef with mal & would really like to start of the year with no beef. I'm sorry that what i wrote on here caused so much drama and in turn got other ppl fired up. I'm glad you guys care about me and jumped into rescue but now there is just more anger floating around....I don't want you guys to get into conflicts because simply of what i wrote one time. I know my opinion doesn't count to everyone and it doesn't bother me that it doesnt, but when it ends up hurting someone that hits me deep down. I don't want to, nor do i like knowing that i am ruining a friendship because i put the first thing that came into my mind. I don't like knowing i am the one responsible for messing things up again this year Mallory. I'm sorry for starting this all off and writing something that was taken the wrong way. I can't take it back because its already been said. And i can't stop ppl from taking what i say about you and turning it around. I'm sure if i was to say that you are a great friend, that someone would take taht as me being sarcastic or something and again we would be back to where we are. This year was suppose to be different. I'm sorry if you just feel that your only involment in my life was last year. I was hoping this year would be different but i guess that's not possible now becuase of he said she said turn around of words. All i can say is I'm sorry for putting you all through this and I know now not to write about Mallory nemore because of the ppl out there.

9:47pm: money
Okay i am finally gettin into some money. I'm babysitting tonight from like 10:30 until like 2 am. Its $25 and i figure i'll be able to do hw...Tahts money i can save for a present imma have to buy here in a lil bit. and how about we drop drama and i understand sasha you are just being you and i think that's cool. I don't think down on you or nethang. more so i look up for you being able to do that. And I know you want a rela i can tell that....Sorry for all the shit happening or not happening. Hopefully all gets woked out...be back tomorrow guys.

3:50pm: New Schedule
Well i went up to Douglas and changed my schedule...I am no long in the Chorale. And that really bites. I was looking forward to being in it...They are singing at graduation and they sing tihs song that I really love. and Well my friends and such are going to be in it....Now i have no classes with sara or landa....Do you know how much this sucks? well it does, ALOT. I still don't have Prier. If i do by chance get in that means i would really have to drop my choir class. oh boy. But I am still stuck with hollinshed who is also teaching IBH English. At least that's what Mr. Archer told me. so here is the new schedule kiddies. Oh yea one good thing from it...I GOT HASSIG NOW. Not for aep which woulda rocked, but for a class i dropped IBH History and just took IBS History..oh well it works for me.

1. IBH Biology~Sterny
2. IBH English~Hollinshed
3. American History(ib)~Hassig
4. AEP~ Mobley
5. IBH Pre-Calculus~Hammil
6. TOK~Bufton
7. Women's Ensemble III~Roberson
8. IBS Spanish~Biggar

OH yea another note: So far it is only me and Karon in there as ib students in hassig's class. This rocks.

12:00pm: sex, love, and school
Actually now that i think about it i think we'll flip that and do the opposite order. you know hop on the good foot and do the bad thing? Sorry that just kind flew into my mind. well School. Yea it starts in like 1 week and 1 more buisness days. That really bites. I am going up to douglas here in about 45 minutes to fix my schedule. Those of you who know about it, know it needs alot of fixing. Oh well we'll see what happens. Mr. Archer is cool, he'll help me get everything all worked out. I'm not to worried about ib right now, I guess we'll see how that changes once school starts.
Love. Love is a crazy beautiful thing. Many times me and tury ask ourselves do you member this or do you member when we did that or when was our first kiss and such. Last night he asked me if i membered the first time i knew i liked him. And i do. I truly honestly do. He was telling me the first tmie he knew he liked me, and i mean like truly liked me. And when he said it it was like the lil childish gurl came out. Gurls know how we get, we blush and all and he was....He was telling me something that i could tell he had never told ne1 before. Then he told me the first time he knew it was love...It was so sweet and it was so qute that he was telling me. But then i started to feel horrible. I couldn't member the first time i knew it was love. I honestly couldn't remember. Does that make me a bad person. A bad lover to him? i don't know but that has been plaguing my thoughts.
And lastly. Sex. Sex is good. Well depending on the person i guess. I am not a sex machine, partially because i am still a virgin. I'm not saying i am going to go out and just do it but iknow that i want to, am ready for it, an dwho i want it to be with. The thing is, something inside is saying, "wait,just a lil bit longer, you are only 16" I dunno if it is my deep down desire to wear taht white dress on my wedding day for all the right reasons or what. maybe it is just the age thing but whatever it is it won't let me go all the way and as shawn said, "complete the diamond of sex" so i guess i'll just have to see how long this voice will remain in skip mode and continue to reiterate the fact that i shouldn't do it yet and wait...

12:37am: Mysteries...
back to normal

School is about to start. No i am not done with my work, but Yes i will be by the time it needs to be. I'm ready to go back but not ready for the work. I know i can handle it but still its work. I am starting off this year good. I have Mallory in aep. Now i know you gus are thinking, "wish i was in there, there's gunna be a throw down." Well sorry to spoil the mystery...but there isn't going to be. I have decided no drama this year. I am worrying bout myself this year. This is not to say i am feelless to the emotions of ppl around me. Its not that at all. But more so that i am not starting or continuing nethang. So oh well. Oh yea mallory is going with the same thing in mind. And why does it have to be a mystery whether someone is a virgin or not? With some people that is justa lil iffy. Oh well maybe when school starts we'll get to know each other better.I dunno if i'm looking forward to school. I've come to realise i have friends and i get close to ppl but very seldomly to i feel ppl get close to me. I feel like i'm not in the 'gang' i used to be in nor was i ever. its hard. oh well here's the schedule:
1. IBH Biology~Sterny
2. IBH English~Holinshed
3. IBH History~Smith
4. AEP~Mobley
5. IBH Pre Calculus~Hamil
6. Chorale~Roberson
8. IBS Spanish~Biggar

Yes I know there is no 7th hour mentioned, cuz i have none. When i get one expect there to be an update on the schedule.

10:04pm: Today
Today was good. The kids at the daycare were really alright. A lil moody but that is how they always get towards the end of the week.. I am so happy tomorrow is the last day for Miss rachel and Ms sara. I am so glad they are leaving. They hardly do nethang witht he kids. I mean they are nice people as people but when it comes to the kids it doesn't work. WEll me and landa went to the park. We actually were outside and played some hoops. We swung then went back to her house and chilled. She talked on the phone and i ended up going home. ITs alright though cuz tomorrow it is mine and tury's 10 month anny.. That is great. We are going to the movies....with my lil brother. I g ot stuck watching him with no way out. Oh well its still an outting.
Shawn i know life sucks and your family is fucking ass eaters. your brother will get his share, stds, pregnancy whatever. it'll come back 100 fold. don't worry. I will seriously ask mom if you can come over for a while just to see what he says....much luv call you later.

10:04pm: Today
Today was good. The kids at the daycare were really alright. A lil moody but that is how they always get towards the end of the week.. I am so happy tomorrow is the last day for Miss rachel and Ms sara. I am so glad they are leaving. They hardly do nethang witht he kids. I mean they are nice people as people but when it comes to the kids it doesn't work. WEll me and landa went to the park. We actually were outside and played some hoops. We swung then went back to her house and chilled. She talked on the phone and i ended up going home. ITs alright though cuz tomorrow it is mine and tury's 10 month anny.. That is great. We are going to the movies....with my lil brother. I g ot stuck watching him with no way out. Oh well its still an outting.
Shawn i know life sucks and your family is fucking ass eaters. your brother will get his share, stds, pregnancy whatever. it'll come back 100 fold. don't worry. I will seriously ask mom if you can come over for a while just to see what he says....much luv call you later.

8:21pm: Chinese Proverbs
>CHINESE PROVERBS
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Virginity like bubble, one prick, all gone.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man who run in front of car get tired.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man who run behind car get exhausted.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Foolish man give wife grand piano, wise man give wife upright
> > > organ.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man who walk through airport turnstile sideways going to
>Bangkok.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man with one chopstick go hungry.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man who scratch ass should not bite fingernails.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man who eat many prunes get good run for money.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Baseball is wrong: man with four balls cannot walk.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Panties not best thing on earth! but next to best thing on earth.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cat house.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > It take many nails to build crib, but one screw to fill it.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man who drive like hell, bound to get there.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man who stand on toilet is high on pot.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man who live in glass house should change clothes in > > > basement.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man who fish in other man's well often catch crabs.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Man who fart in church sit in own pew.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
> > > Crowded elevator smell different to midget.
> > > *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

7:46pm: WTH???
Okay well first off things are going well with me and tury...I mean we've been spending time with each other like everyday here lately....The thing is i blew of my landa landa. I feel really bad about it. We're gunna get together on thursday. And then the day care is being pissy...They know i have been volunteering there and wanting to get on payroll. Well the owners were talking about paying me but then what do they do?? They go and higher this other gurl for this week...I was like WTH. So i'm not going back after this week. I mean why get played like that. And then i guess wanna my good friends on here is talking shit about my Sasha Q behind his back...I'm sorry no matter how good of friends we are, that's wrong. If you are supposed to be his friend then there is no reason for you to be talking shit. It don't matter how lil or how big you're talking that's just wrong. Friends don't do taht. No matter what the circumstances. So whoever you are, please stop. Lets let this year be good. Cuz i for sure know i ain't worry bout nobody else and ain't having nothing to deal with...Somebody's got shit with me, OH well then we can just take a break till their lil attitude goes away...Maybe they should just go and get laid and take their frustrations out that way...Oh well stop the hate make a cake! ! !

5:32pm: how qute
The new Austin Powers movie isn't to bad guys. Beyonce is alright. I mean it seems as though they wrote the character for her. Its nothing elaborate or nethang but its an alright character. I'm not going to go and ruin it by telling all you have haven't seen it what happens but its alright. On the other hand MIIB sucked big time. DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME! ! ! I still haven't seen my Signs with Mel Gibson, maybe i can do that tonight. Who knows. That pic is qute of you and meggers, phillay. I like that. And its not to bad for being on a watch. I was just checking in...I'll be back laterz imma try and go swimming and get some more sun on this body.

5:13pm: ummmm yea
Well let's see. First off i am not blowig you guys off. I would never blow you guys off. And i would never blow you off. It just happens that you have bad timing. You always seem to ask me to do something when i already have plans, That is not my fault but yours. So blephhhhhh. I woulda liked to go to the fair but sorry guys the family things calls. We are going to the drive in tonight so that otta be real fun. I think MIIB and the new Austin powers is showing. We'll see what happens. Tomorrow i might go to the lake. Wow the lake and get in that nasty water with all those nasty fish and have them get on me. I dunno if I'm up for it but i figure i might as well make an attempt to do something different. You all know me, I don't do nature and out doors. So we'll see what happens it depensd on what time they leave and what not. I'm glad my shawn-shawn and lizzi are doing good. Good to know you guys are finding out more about each other. And its good to also hear that Phillay andMeggers are doing wonderful also. And my sasha has found Brenda to be a great friend. I'm glad things are working out for you sasha, I mean with the new job and Brenda and such. And for jayme, well fuck her. Its her loss not to go out with sucha wonderful guy. If she can't figure that out then she's just fucking herself over more and more. And sorry bout phil's rents and all. Prier you better update. I know you got some stuff to talk about like Chris and all.. but shhhhhhhhhh for now.
laterz
Oh and my tury is still outta town. I hope his baseball tourny is going well.. I have decided that when he gets back, imma be totally different. I am beginning to look at life in a new way. Everything seems so wonderful and i look at everything as i am so thankful to have it. And i plan on showing tury how much he means to me and how grateful i am to have him in my life. Life is looking beautiful no more ten shades of grey...

8:44pm: ¿Disorders or Disorderly?

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Click Here To Take The Test --

Histrionic
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.



Obsessive-Compulsive
Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.

8:46pm: Shit
Well my prier has finally gotten into his new house. I figure we all go over after he finishes getting settle in and throw our own lil welcoming party. You know help him get a lil acquainted with the place. JK I would never do that to you prier. Lets see ne1 out there wanna go to the movies friday?? I was supposed to be going with tury but i just realised that he decided to go to a tourny in STL. That'll be cool.. MAybe I'll wait till saturday and we can see it when he gets back. We'lls ee what happens...but if ne of you wanna go, let me know.
"I don't work but i LOVE to play, how bout we stay in said and pretend its a rainy day?..."

9:55pm: Oops almost forgot
OH yea I BEAT PRIER'S IQ TEST BY ONE POINT! ! ! I know that isn't really a big accomplishment. He told me I should have so yea that kinda just dropped the happiness. But hey i still did beat it by one.

9:38pm: okay
Okay i understand that we all have our own lives to live, but sometimes doesn't it seem as though time is just not on your side?? Well that seems to be what i am going through right now. However I really don't think i should bore you guys with all this talk of me being tired of not seeing or talking to tury. So lets see. Oh the party was good even though she WAS there. It wouldn't have really matter'd. Don't worry she ain't ruining things for me this year prier. And hey i need your new number. I tried to call after my computer shut me down and it woulnd't work. so hand it over. And what is this about t-cub?? and al's phone? Imma lil lost. Phillay you are awfully, what's the word I'm looking for H****. I would put it on here but I'm not sure you would approve of me talking bout you in taht way. Guys I'm sorry but I have been feeling very naughty here lately. I am almost certain I will not go and score my home fun next time I'm up to bat....But sometimes i question why i shouldn't. Its something to think about, and its really a huge decision. A very close friend of mine says that him and his love will do it the next time they have a chance but I am a lil lost at taht being as I thought the girl wanted to wait. I dunno. I mean I look at it one way and think, Damn I'm only 16 and that seems so young. Then I think but it feels so right to do it and I know its him i want it to be with and I dunno. I've spent most of my days now thinking aobut it.
Oh but on to other news. I went and volunteered at the Cancer Action Grand Prix this morning. It was so funny. There was this kid there and me and him started talking. He was the only volunteer that was around my age. ( he was i think 15) He was cool the whole time, being as we really didn't see each other. But then we started talking afterwards bout cars we wantedand he kept leading to sex and stuff. He was like, "yea well my hummer will be better. And a bonus the back seats fold down into a bed. So if you go up in the woods with your girl and you know." I was like uh yea okay. I kept hinting i had a guy. I even threw it straight at him. "yea my boyfriend wants to be a baseball player or an architect." Well guess what he does. He ask me out....Yea, we was talking bout goldmember and MIIB. He was like yea me and a friend are going tomorrow you wanna go. You could go ya know. I was like whoa hit on me. I kinda blew himoff saying i was going to try and go tonight. That is the first time I have really ever been asked out. I mean when me and tury go out its like lets do something this weekend or when ever we have time. It felt good to be asked out but not by him. I dunno. To bad tury hasn't heard since we got off the phone early. Oh well. Its not important nemore. I got over the thrill of the change. Just a question. do you guys that are in couples ever think what its like to miss out on being asked out on dates? What its going to be like being asked to prom?? I mean its kinda already a given that you'll go with your beau.I dunno tury and paul were/are my only bf's never dated never been asked out on a date with someone i dind't go with. It's kinda like I'm missing out on a part of those precious teenage years. I'm not saying i would give up my love with tury for it but you know you tend to think about things like this when you have nothing to do or no one to talk to....