I really think I have damaged my kidneys from all those prescription pill overdoses. I haven't took an overdose of any tablets since May 25th and to be honest I can't wait until after my sister's wedding on August 8th so I can take another small overdose.

Why do I do this?

I have very painful kidneys these days. Any night I am out drinking a fair wee amount of alcohol, I end up in pure agony the next day with extreme pains around my kidneys. For example I was out with Declan last night. I had maybe 6-8 glasses of wine. Then by 11AM this morning, I was rolling around the bed in absolute agony; tears streaming from my eyes.

Seriously, whats going on? I am actually slighly concerned about these pains - it seems to be after I drink alcohol. Although there have been other times, numerous times a week, multiply times during the day that I take similar pains in my kidneys.

Perhaps another visit to the doctor should be on the cards to maybe get a referral to see an Urologist again.

Something is obviously going on with my kidneys and that does scare me. And yet at the same time, why am I slightly excited about that prospect?