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[28 Sep 2008|03:05am] |
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So college has pretty much started. It's only been one week and it feels so much longer. I miss home. I miss my bed. I miss daddy and mommy (and her cooking XD). My roommates are okay I guess. They are two extremes. One is really outgoing and happy all the time (a little too happy) and the other is really clingy, always depressed, and really shy. I mean...I get along with them fine, just they have some rather annoying habits.
I love my hall. East Lothian D1 YAYUHHH! Out of all the halls here in East Lothian, we are probably the most close with each other. There is always someone to hang out with, someone to eat with, someone willing to teach you how to play poker (I FINALLY learned!). But at the same time, I feel so lonely. You see, my problem isn't meeting people, making new friends or whatever. It's finding people that I feel comfortable around, people that I can trust, and people that I can enjoy myself with are hard to find. It's going to take a while, I know. As everyone else is telling me, "it will gradually get better." I wish I could talk to my UCLA or UCSD friends. They are so lucky they have each other. It really IS easier to make friends when you already have a friend with you to begin with. I feel so disconected with them and everything. They are too busy for me, not that that can be helped. I just feel forgotten. Even though I AM having a fairly good time here, I really miss home.
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| I'mmm backkk |
[16 Sep 2008|01:21am] |
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hello hello! I'm back from Taiwan and miss it like crazzzyy. (minus the hot hot weather and cockroaches yuck!) Everything there is just so convenient and... I think I actually lost weight from walking everyday (but I think I gained it all back already =/) Move-in day is this coming up Sunday. I haven't packed yet! Kind of excited kind of nervous, but that's expected. I met both my roommates on Facebook and they both seem really nice (but everyone seems like that at first huh). Hopefully it'll work out. My whole deal with the roommates is that as long as we respect each other's space all will be good. I don't doubt that I will make new friends but what worries me the most is not being able to find a good friend that I can click with and TRUST. It's easy to make hangout friends but trust is something that has to be built long term. I am really going to miss this safety bubble.
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| FREAKING YES ♥ |
[17 Aug 2008|02:10am] |
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Phelps surpassed Mark Spitz by winning his 8th gold medal today!! Amazing just amazing. It funny how much the Olympics fires me up seeing as I'm not much of a sports watcher, or even a sports person in general. Tonight during the relay I was literally screaming "GO LEZACK GO!" at my television. ahh what's the word to describe this? mmm..subarashii :D
boo hoo swimming is over :[ that and gymnastics are my two favorite events to watch at the olympics. But I suppose it's kind of a good thig (not) I'm sure many other nations are tired of seeing Phelps get gold XP
TEAM USA FTW!
In other news, I bought a Nintendo DS Lite on impulse at Best Buy today. Man technology has gone a long way. The game boy I had before the DS was the old bulky gray colored one with a black and white screen. Now they have touch screens and backlights and they don't use AAA batteries to run or link cables to trade pokemon anymore! MANN what rock was I hiding under? I bought some mario games to go with it because there is no way you can go wrong with mario.
Anywho it's just perfect for my over 10 hour flight when I head over to Taiwan on Monday. :D
I'm exciteddd
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| Beijing Olympics 2008: One World, One Dream |
[12 Aug 2008|03:44pm] |
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Okay so this post is a tad late but HOW FREAKING AMAZING WAS THE OPENING CEREMONY? England was probably shitting in their pants while watching the Opening ceremony. I have no idea how they are going to top that performance.
I don't know why but sometimes the Olympics makes me emotional? Seeing your country win gold, seeing your country's flag raised, and hearing your nation anthem is such a wonderful feeling.
Like the rest of the United States, I too have been hit with MICHAEL PHELPS fever. no lie that man is amazing. 11 gold medals, holy crap. I hope he really does win all 8 Gold medals for 2008 Olympics. ♥
I wonder if Walmart is selling posters of him. haha I really want to put one up in my dorm room. XD
GO TEAM USA!!
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| Please, that was so 5 minutes ago. |
[06 Aug 2008|08:50pm] |
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How is it that even after graduating, the drama from high school still seems follows me around. Really, I hate this. I don't know what happened my group of friends were so close and then towards the end I think we were sort of "over it" and getting slightly sick of each other. I don't know.
Has anyone here seen Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2? if not you should. (I went to the premiere! The asian guy has a hot body! ) cus...I feel like Carmen.
I just feel so out of the loop and alienated by them this summer. It feels like I've been forgotten or something which is really embarrassing to admit since I don't want anyone who actually reads this to think "oh what a loser." but oh, it's so true.
I am such a loser.
It just sucks that I feel like I don't have as much of a reason to come back home or bother keeping in contact.
Why is teen angst is so lame?
Anyways I'll get over it right? I'm going to meet new friends in college.
PSH high school, best years of our lives my ass.
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| Lucyyy I'm Homeee |
[05 Aug 2008|05:11pm] |
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I'm slowly making my way back to LJ. yayyy
but everything look so different now :[
update later
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| hello from the dead! |
[27 Oct 2007|03:44pm] |
wow. It's been a while hasn't it?
Right now I'm a Senior at Aliso Niguel High School..
college applications are a pain in the ass. I keep pushing the thoughts of it in the back of my head. Which is bad because I don't even know if some of the deadlines have passed or not. Right now I'm too scared to check.
The schools I am applying to are:
reach school: USC
hopefully I get into schools: UCI, UCSD, UCSB, UCR, UCLA
fall back schools: CSUs (San Fransisco, Fullerton, Long Beach, San Diego, San Luis Obispo, Pomona)
mm I think I might cut back on the CSUs.
The Air Quality in Southern California is A LOT better compared to 2 days ago. It was freaky being able to see the fires from my backyard and knowing that some of my friends had to evacuate. Usually when fire breaks out in California, my attitude is just like "oh another fire?" Because of the poor air quality school was canceled Thursday and Friday. As horrible it is to say, I'm glad we didn't have school, all the stress ah I really needed a break from that.
Too bad homecoming and the Senior Tailgate got rescheduled. I can't wait till February, then al this school maddness will be over and all i have to worry about is keeping up my grades, which is enough stress already.
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| screw technology. |
[05 Mar 2007|12:57am] |
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ugh i am really frustrated.
So i have this American Icons Essay due tomorrow, and before turning in the hardcopy we also have to submit it on-line into TurnItIn.com but for some reason my status in the class is expired and it won't let me submit.
I tried e-mail my teacher about it, failure of delivery 3 times!! Hopefully her inbox is full from all the English III students notifying her about the same problem I have cus that would suck balls if it is only me who is having this problem.
mm so lately a lot has been on my mind. School, Friends, Boys...
because i haven't finished my homework I will just touch up on school.
In school I feel like I have screwed myself over in any chances of getting into the universities that I want to go to. Not to sound big headed but I. am. smart. orrrr at least i'm in that small number of people at my school who actually care and that doesn't do drugs.
I just...don't try hard enough. What ever happened to the old me? I used to strive to be the best in everything. it had to be As. now I just settle for a "B" not that B's are bad, just why settle for something less? I guess you can say I'm a bit disappointed in myself. In the end, does it really matter what school you go to?
so, I'm totally lost in the whole Johnny community. I heard Uchi is back? but he's not relaly in News but as a trainee or something? feel free to fill me in ^^
the closest to fandom I ever get is watching Hana Yori Dango 2 which by the way is SOOO GOOOD.
Does anyone by chance have the mp3 Colbie Caillat - Bubbly? it's really catchy, but I can't seem to find it anywhere. except myspace but her music myspace won't let you DL the song!
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| mm so a lot has happened since i last updated. |
[01 Mar 2007|01:56am] |
A good friend of mine moved to Guam. We're not exactly moping about it because we know we'll see him again one day but there are those moments especially during lunch where you feel like there is this big gap of something (more like somebody) missing.
Winter Formal was the last memory I had with him before he left the next day.
:] Winter Formal. I have to say, best dance ever, not that I've been to many dances.
I actually danced, at the dance. (or at least tried to)
I don't think I mentioned this but my school got into this whole "freak dancing" ordeal and we basically got our dances cancelled.
Then they brought the dances back but with "rules" so basically we only got homecoming cancelled but really my school is not that bad compared to other schools.
even the week before Winter Formal, our school got stamped? graffittied? all over with these "freak zone" signs
but that's withside the point
Winter Formal = much fun
although..my hair was such a diaster. it was like. an asian afro, and then my friend helen kinda sorta maybe fixed it. i feel sooo sorry for my date (who by the way looked very nice) that he had to be seen with me.
slow danced for the first time (haha why am i writing this?)
is it sad that tI even know what song it was to? *cough* Howie Day - Collide *cough*
i can't wait for the next dance!
Also, 3 of my friends now have boyfriends. None of my friends ever had boyfriends before, now 3 of them do so it's a bit awkward for me? I just hope that they'll have good quality friend time. but i can't blame them for wanting to spend time with their boys, if i ahd one i'd want to too.
Week after Winter Formal, there was a College Tour that lasted 3 days.
We visited UCLA, UCBerkley, UC Santa Barbara, Stanford, Pepperdine, and Cal Poly.
not that i cared soo much about the tour, i just thought it was a nice get away from parents with friends. but all the UCs we visited were amazing. haha i'm applying to all of them! hopefully i can get into one of them?
Stanford's campus was AMAZING... to go to such a school you must not only be smart but really really rich. freaking around 50 grand. DAMN.
So I'm trying to gradually go back to updating on LJ, hopefully i can keep up with it this time!
Calc sucks!
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[19 Jan 2007|02:13am] |
Wow last post Dec. 13. WOW i'm so bad to you LJ
finals week is coming up eww. i really gotta pull up those grades. I think i've been hit with senoritis and i'm only a junior. not good not good at all! but I must say although junior year is filled with even more homework and tests, it is a lot better compared to my sophmore year. I actaully go out now. i know, amazing.
Winter Formal is coming up on Feb. 10! I'm really excited for that! I'm not much of a dancing type of person but just getting ready with your friends and getting dressed up then going out to eat dinner seems like so much fun. Winter Formal is Girls ask Guys this year.
I asked my friend Isaac, who ended up saying yes, but his reaction was soooooo bad. ugh. boys. I dunno I feel kinda iffy. I don't think he wants to go with me. either that or he still thinks that I asked him out of pity because he was the only one in our group without a date, but no he still doesn't know that i had the biggest crush on him in 9th grade (and perhaps still but not so big =x) and that i actualyl wanted to go with him.
What else, I have these two friends, Annie and Bobby, and they are super super close and really touchy and flirt ALL THE TIME yet they deny liking each other when it is SO OBVIOUS. It's liek front row seats to a drama, but in this drama it's at the point where they flirt too much that it's liek "dude, just admit it already and get married"
i think thats pretty much it?
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| Thumbs down on Highschool drama |
[13 Dec 2006|12:41am] |
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so Disneyland was GREAT (pics later), except for this one person who totally killed my mood at the very end.
Now this person is causing drama with my group. My group is still super tight, just this one person. Why is he making everything so difficult on us?
I hate feeling like this, shitty and guilty. when I didn't do anything wrong. All I did was try and be nice; and he's just pushing us away. why? he never tells anyone what is wrong, so we never know how to help. He jsut becomes pissed and takes out his anger on those who try to help him.
I wish things could go back to the way things were.
*sigh*
This week i am super busy
Tonight, orchestra concert 6-9
Tomorrow, AP US Test
Thursday, AP Calc. Test
Friday, AP Bio. Final, AP US Essay
argh, Winter Vacation come to meeeee
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| Goodbye November, Hello December |
[04 Dec 2006|02:28pm] |
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I find it hard to believe that it is already December.
Wasn't it just Summer not too long ago?
Time sure goes by fast.
I haven't been on-line much these days
mostly busy with homework, studying, tests
or going out with friends
so ta-da TK has a real life now :]
last year i felt so anti-social.
i don't know why I just feel like now,
I don't have to rely on the internet for support (it makes sense in my head okay?)
this is a good thing right?
some pictures of what i've been up to
next update: when i have something intesting to say?
point of this entry? : don't worry i'm not dead
school in like an hour. bye for now~
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| this song is addicting |
[06 Nov 2006|12:22am] |
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today I took 3 Chinese midterms, the first one I knew EVERYTHING except for one character/word, I finished everything on the test in 10 min. just.. that word. i literally stayed 30 min extra just so I could try and remember that word. Don't you hate it when you know you know something but don't know it when it really matters?
thanks brain.
I found out my SAT scores yesterday. BLEH. let's just say I'm going to have to take it a 2nd time =/
one of my friends got a 2180 / 2400 what a smart ass
i feel so ashamed, when people asked what my score was I just say I didn't check yet. even though I did because I don't like to lose face.
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[26 Oct 2006|11:51am] |
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so today... or rather yesterday i took my bio test.
not only did i fail it, i fell asleep during the test. T__T
aish. work harder next time yea?
as i said in my last entry, i'm sick and it sucks.
i went to sleep after school at 4 pm and now it's 5 AM/ geez that's like what 13 hours?
and you'd think i'd be "well" after all that sleep, but no I still feel gross and shitty and..awake.
it's a great feeling.
anyways I've realized that Bowling is like. my life.
A BIG FAILURE.
full of gutterballs with occasional stikes and spares.
that is all. work now! school in like 2 hours.
p.s. i'm sorry if i'm sounding a big negative these days. =/ school just brings the mood down
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[25 Oct 2006|05:40am] |
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WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE?
just got home from taking the SATs and i go online and found out that U-Know Yunho is going to be hospitalized AGAIN, and for what reason?
some crazy anti fan in the disguise of a DBSK Fan gave DBSK drinks which she added superglue to and Yunho had a sip of it. -__-
how sick do you have to be to go and poison someone? really, mental much?
forget that i fan DBSK, and just think of someone doing that. seriously no one deserves that.
-edit-
so throughout the day i was thinking about this. how when that stupid bitch presented DBSK with "gifts" and DBSK smiling receiving it with joy that they have so many fans that love them.HeeChul's message on this issue is really touching. ...
Yunho Hwaiting!
-edit-
"wasn't pre-planned" my ass
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| tomorrow is another day |
[13 Oct 2006|11:31pm] |
SATs tomorrow.
*sigh* i hate school.
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| recap: September |
[04 Oct 2006|02:16am] |
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hello from the dead!
ohisashiburi desu ne.
I can't believe it's October already.
The past month has been...hard. really hard. AP Biology and AP US are killing me with the busy work!
on the upside even with all this busywork, I've managed to live a "real life", which feels really good.
Though ...I still procrastinate on doing my homework by watching X-man and Love Letter Clips off of YouTube XD
ah it's inevitable
so how are you guys? Recently I've turned over to "the dark side" and into Korean Fandom :] tis great.
My Korean Friends and I plan on going to the Holleywood Bowl Concert.
Je Fandom...i still like it but I feel so lost in it, like Bill Murray in Japan (Lost in Translation) feel free to update me on whatever i'm missing
okay better finish this Bio Assignment! Adios!
p.s Micky Yoochun please change your hair!
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| theresa you're so stupid. |
[18 Sep 2006|04:31am] |
*sigh* what do you do when you know you're going to fail a test?
take a deep breath, and just try to accept it. try harder the next tests.
AP Calc. or AP US ? priorities?
. . .
i need to learn to manage my time better.
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| Happy Birthday to Me~ ♪ |
[12 Sep 2006|04:43pm] |
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i have the coolest friends ever :D
i was ambushed by my friends who gave me 2 bouquets of flowers and a birthday balloon with Elmo from Sesame Street on it that sings Happy Birthday whenever you hit it :D
Lunch! Even more of a surprise!
My friend Jenn. Kim wrote me a poem in the Chinese language
”mo wo de pi gu
mo ta de pi gu
xie xie”
genius I tell you, genius
(translation:
Touch my butt,
Touch their butt,
thank you)
My best friend Christie baked me cupcakes and my really good friend Kimmy made me a strawberry flavored cake :D
yummy yum yum!
and then.. they put frosting on my face TT__TT
oh I wish I brought a camera!
twas lots fun!
p.s thanks for the super cool necklace from hawaii and Arashic Album Eirynne! <3 you’re awesoommeeeee :D
this girl that i used to talk with in middle school but haven't seen in much during highschool years, came up to me during lunch and wished me a happie birthday and even broguht e chocolates o__o
today was a really good day for me, i never had a birthday like this one :]
i feel...touched (no dirty pun...pervs!)
anyways i'm still technically 15
2 more hours!
ah homework now~
*random* there’s a really cute Korean boy in my badminton class :D
p.p.s i'm sorry haven't gotten time to commenting! but i do read!
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