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job interview stuff changed to monday
oh well
guess i have nothing to do tomorrow as well

I should probably clean my room, just cause. Well. I'm going to be here for awhile. But I need a lot of hangers. And we don't have a lot of hangers/Vincent took them all.
So
here I am
with clothes that need to be hung up

My allergies are on the warpath. I hate them. My nose is running right now
It's disgusting

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goodness, fix your nail
this is like the longest all star game ever
i don't even really want to watch it anymore
but i just put it on
cause what the fuck else do i have to do
exactly
not a GD thing

i've been cleaning my room, trying to feel more focused about my life and stuff. i have more job interview stuff on thursday and then DARK KNIGHT DARK KNIGHT DARK KNIGHT
i'm so excited for
thursdaythursdaythursdaythursdaythursday

and then
saturdaysaturday

and then
mondaymondaymondaymonday (maybe) white sox game

and then
tuesdaytuesdaytuesdaytuesdaytuesday six flags with a perfectly even number

that's about all i have to look forward to
oh and i guess (maybe) lollapalooza and then.
my birthday
which i will try to make awesome
but it will indeed let me down (again)
it prob won't be as bad as last year
but the pain will probably still sting

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vomit vomit vomit

I'm almost done with Friday Night Lights Season 1. Yeah. 2 episodes left. I don't know how I feel about that.
Conflicted. Cause I want the Second Season right away. I don't know why I'm capitalizing so much. Cause I don't normally do that at all, in fact. Who knows.

Today I kept thinking today was Saturday but it most definitely wasn't. Well, it is now, but before?
It was totally Friday.

CAPITALS

btw, Talking Heads is a good band.
Even though currently I'm listening to Death Cab.
But the Talking Heads cover of "Take Me to the River" might be the best song ever performed.
And I love Al Green
But the Talking Heads version is better
there
I said it

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I think it's great that the chicago white sox are promoting voting for Jermaine Dye AND Aaron Rowand to be on the all-star team. Granted, they're only promoting Rowand because he plays NL but still.
That's just loyalty.

I've been watching a lot of the television show Skins on the internet. I love it. It's like the O.C. Except for more booze, more drugs, more nakedness and SWEARING
honestly. sometimes british television hits it right on the head.

also.
i've been having a pretty good summer. don't want to jinx it though, so that's all i'm saying

i have a job interview tomorrow.
i am more lazy with the thought of not actually wanting to do it than the fact that i'm nervous
I don't think I'm nervous at all
I just don't want to drive there

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I'll say it. I'll speak the truth:
One of the reasons that I kind of want to leave Chicago is that too many people I dislike are moving there and I feel like a year away would do me some good aka curb the hate.
There. I said it.
Argue if you want that Chicago is "big" but if I can go to Florida and see people I went to high school with, you can bet your ass that I'll see someone from college everyday in Chicago.
No joke.

Also: my family situation is just crazy. And I just don't think I can handle these crazy broads only related to me through marriage

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today: wanted.
shit was fucking raw. i can't even describe how good it was. or at least, how good I thought it was.
but i also have a big crush on jolie and mcavoy, so maybe i don't count.
whatever, it was badass.

sunday: hopefully, wall-e.
seriously. i love disney movies, even if they do involve robots.
also: what's up robot? best video ever
never trust robots.

that's my weekend. oh and kate's birthday is tomorrow and on monday i might be going to cass' or something. who knows what's happening. i'd like to see some knox people.
i think i'm ready for it
come on bring it

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I got my hair cut again. So that's cool. I guess. Everytime I get my hair cut, a celebrity also gets their haircut. This time it's Hayden Pantierre. However, she got the haircut I got two years ago, so SOMEONE'S behind.
i rest my case

over the course of the weekend, i've had three people tell me something interesting.
one used to be a close friend, the other a stranger and someone i am just starting to know better
and they all told me
all of them
that when I'm out and around people, I don't look happy. I look bored with life, I look disappointed with everything, that I am not happy

why has no one else ever told me this?
I'm sure it's been there. This look can't have just sprung up over the past weekend; it's obviously something that I had to have been there all the time.

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OMG NEW GIRL TALK

IT'S AMAZING
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD

uhm not much else has been happening in my life

OMG HE MIXED THE JACKSON 5

sorry this is really exciting for me. because i love girl talk. and cause he's really nice in real life. so you know.

uh yeah. nothing is going on. nick is moving away on monday, i still don't know if i have a job, and if the white sox better win today or else i'm going to freak out even more than i am right now

OMG JAY-Z OVER RADIOHEAD

NEW GIRL TALK IS SOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD
seriously. i'm not going to get over this for awhile.

Current Music:
Set it Off-GIRL TALK
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so. i didn't really do anything today. that's good. i went to portillo's with kate and jonathan and then i came home and took a nap.
YAY LIFE
exactly.

what else? i've been reading the other boeyln girl and it's just as smutty as I need. Mainly because reading twilight/new moon was making me fucking cry and FUCK THAT SHIT
yeah. i said it. pms, go die in a fire.
i'm not trying to cry

there's a commercial on about disney world. it's not helping me not want to go to disney world.

so. i just finished watching america's best dance crew 2. and i gotta tell you. a team just got sent home that didn't deserve to because america votes stupid. so now. i'm doing an experiment of sorts, i guess. i watch a lot of reality tv, i'm not afraid to admit that but I don't ever participate in it. The closest I've come to participating is when I voted for the jabawockeez at every free point when they were in the finals. and since I am dedicated to dancing, I've decided to participate in this voting experience. I don't use my minutes enough anyway, since I have failed to change my life from last year. So I'm doing it. I've got five favorites at the moment, out of 9: Fanny Pack, ASID, Boogie Bots, Phresh Select and Super Cr3w.
this time, i'll be involved. i don't know how much voting is too much voting though. someone help me out.

Anyway.
whoa, when you're at the magic kingdom you're 14 feet above ground!! that's so crazy!!
shut up, i'm watching a show about disney world
and you know how i love that place

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OH NOES...a meme
Go to http://quotationspage.com/random.php3 and keep reading until you find ten quotes that speak to your personal truth

We are all human, and caring about the way something looks and feels does not mean we're superficial--it means we're human. We don't need to exploit sex to recognize that a certain amount of sexiness is both pleasurable and natural.
Kathy Sierra,
If we were not all so interested in ourselves, life would be so uninteresting that none of us would be able to endure it.
Arthur Schopenhauer
There is no mistaking a real book when one meets it. It is like falling in love.
Christopher Morley
With a stop light, green means 'go' and yellow means 'slow down'. With a banana, however, it is quite the opposite. Yellow means 'go', green means 'whoa, slow down', and red means 'where the heck did you get that banana?'
Mitch Hedberg
You can pretend to be serious; you can't pretend to be witty.
Sacha Guitry
There's no present. There's only the immediate future and the recent past.
George Carlin
All people want is someone to listen.
Hugh Elliott,
All we actually have is our body and its muscles that allow us to be under our own power.
Allegra Kent,
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.
Robert Frost (
Sometimes it is harder to deprive oneself of a pain than of a pleasure.
F. Scott Fitzgerald

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who told me to lose ten pounds?
who told my brother to move to pennsylvania for high school?
and west chester, of all places.
at the same high school bam margera went to
only a two time blue ribbon award winner
yeah
i fucking took it there

an interesting note:
david byrne composes the music on Big Love
now it's obvious why I love that show

saw the happening and the incredible hulk
hulk was better
no joke
although i do love me some mark wahlberg

i haven't been reading a lick
i had another job interview today
i'm going to border's tomorrow
maybe i'll actually read

i want to start writing a book, too
because
why not

my dog growls in his sleep
perhaps he is dreaming

oh and please
let me know

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knox college friends = knox college drinking.

gah. that's why i still feel like crap

happy father's day
i haven't called my dad yet
i will when I feel like I can form a whole sentence out loud.
that time is not now.

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I graduated so that's cool. People tried to get sad about it, but I was like hey. this is a good day, we should not be sad. Chris called me earlier and was like "I'm gonna miss you are you sad blah blah blah" and I was like "No, I got some P.F. Chang gift cards, I'm effing happy as shit"
so yeah i guess that's cool. Madeline Albright made a really good speech, everyone really enjoyed it and it was nothing that expected. Some people said that she was even better than Clinton (Bill, the one I like), which is pretty surprising since it was BILL CLINTON. I got a little teary eyed when the choir sang "Hail to Alma Mater" because you know. It was sad.

I'm currently watching Lost On Demand (and OMG WALT!!! just came on the screen. sadly, him and xavier no longer favor each other. upon closer expection, is this even the same little boy? Internet sources say that yes, it is Malcolm David Kelley, lil' saint from You Got Served) in a room with air conditioning and a full bed. I ate a shit ton of food yesterday and today and am pretty much relaxing for a week until I try to find a part time job/convince the job I'm interviewing for to hire me.

wooooooooooooooooooooooooo

i don't miss knox yet, but perhaps I will soon. I miss the people, but I'm always going to miss someone.

omg, john locke i think you're being a cra cra. really? not an island but a place where miracles happen?
REALLY?????

watching Lost On Demand is pretty humorous in that the commercials are just previews for disney movies on dvd or in theaters. hahahahaha

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this isn't healthy.

p.s. i'm graduating in 8 hours.
oh dear

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Senior Week will be the Death Of Me
Seriously. It's stressing me out. I don't have the overarching NEED to get drunk everyday and I was so hung over this morning that I thought "why" and am just sitting here when I'm supposed to be getting ready to go to the bar crawl because I DON'T CARE.

also, a lot of stressful life situations have come up and I cried today for the first time in awhile, and I'm pretty sure if I get too drunk I'm just going to sit somewhere and cry in a corner. i also need to get up tomorrow and fucking DO STUFF (aka clean my apartment) and not just sit around and waste away.
Also, my job interview is tomorrow and I don't want to be hungover for that. I mean, it is a phone interview but you can tell. YOU CAN TELL if someone is hungover on the telephone and I really really really really really really (x infinity) want this job. a lot. I haven't even told my dad about it or really any of my friends that aren't at school, but I just. I don't know.
I think I want to move.
anyway if you pray or whatever please hope that i get this.

i feel pretty strange about senior week, mainly because we are so wrapped up in hanging out and getting drunk. i mean, here we are, on the verge of HISTORY (obama) and no one really even talked about it, and people are just drunk in the cafeteria knocking sober people's trays down and not helping them and just laughing.
yeah.
I think I was having a good day and then I put life into perspective and now I'm just
in a bad mood.

this is probably going to be me all summer long, which is depressing.

however, in some bittersweet news tippy left and got us graduation presents and she got me El Orfanato (The Orphanage)! I'm pretty scared of this movie but it's in Spanish and I really like this actress and I wanted to see it while I was in Spain but couldn't so I'm excited! It was so thoughtful of tippy, it just shows how good of friends I have.

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I just spent about 15 minutes lurking on Scotty and I got weirded out because the new people in his life call him "Scott".
I bet his new gf calls him Scott. SO WEIRD
i miss him. too bad he's one of the only close friends that NEVER CALLS BACK

anyway. i just gave my poster presentation on my senior research and two professors other than my advisor were like "you could publish thiiiiiiiiiiiis..." and i was like "oh ok" but in my head i was thinking "I FUCKING HATE RESEARCH NOOOOOOOO"
cause i do. but i guess it would look good.

I had the BEST day ever yesterday. Because I have a job interview next thursday.
i graduate so soon. i'm ready, i think. I might get emo for a little while, but other than. forget this place. the only thing i'm taking out of here is my education and some super sweet friends.
yesssssssss

tonight i'm going to jalisco's, getting drunk, going to my radio show, and getting more drunk
yay mexican food! yay tequila!!!

Current Music:
Sucka for Love-Danity Kane
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i'm feeling rough, i'm feeling raw, i'm in the prime of my lfie
grow a pair and get the fuck over it.

seriously.

booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurns

blech. i can't really believe it's 4:30 in the morning. that is ridiculous.
i hate going to sleep, it's a struggle everyday.

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oooooo stressin'
Yeah. So it's drawing near to the end of the year, which means that I am OVERLOADED with shit to do. Like, seriously. I don't know how I'm going to do it all.
My senior research is drawing close to 13 pages, and everytime I look at it, it makes me want to vomit. I went in to learn how to make a poster for my poster session next Thursday and I thought I was going to die. So that's great. I mean, the paper doesn't have to be done until finals, but I'm not trying to bring anything into June with me. Nothing. Soooooooo we'll see how that goes.
Probably not well. I have a paper non-related to this due on wednesday and a BIG photo project due on monday (which I haven't even taken all of my photos for because I'm AWESOME). so yeah. stress stress stress stress stress
blech

I checked one of my accounts and there's like 16 bucks in it, just because I keep eating out/when I eat out, I buy food for other people.
and that's what is keeping me from buying the new cool kids cd. although, I don't think I really need it, since I pretty much have it.

eww the pageant show is on vh1 right now.
and there's a pageant winner on campus right now, OH NOES!!

in any case, last night I went to senior meeting and we pregamed before hand during top chef (tear for dale). and i drank a whole bottle of wine by myself...
...which just led to me being tipsy.
which means. that i'm getting closer and closer to the edge of alcoholism. i'm like terrified and really upset that I drank a whole bottle of wine and nothing happened. not that I really wanted to like black out or anything, I just was expecting to be ridiculous and it's kind of scary that it wasn't.
i don't know, it's too crazy.

i'm about to go to target, buy the new death cab album and some allergy medication.
cause I really really need some. then i'll come home and do my homework/take some pictures, cause I can actually take a lot today, I just haven't. and then i'm going to the landmark (maybe) with cece, elise and donald and then doing my radio show, hopefully with new songs to play!!

this weekend, I don't know what I"m doing. trying to see indy 4. thinking about seeing iron man again, but you know I won't be seeing it again. bummer. it was really that good

also, i've been trying to figure out where i typed "stfd" on the internet the other day, and i can't.
so that's a bummer.

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DIAF DIAF DIAF DIAF DIAF DIAF DIAF DIAF DIAF DIAF
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got my drank and my two step, my drank and my two step

so girl talk and the cool kids played at my school
this is a test, cause i'm posting it on ontd

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